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Grieving Widow (ish)

1 year

My partner passed away very suddenly on 6th July 2023. He was my person and I don't know how to go through life without him. I am taking each day as it comes. #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Today is his birthday. I woke up feeling so alone. As I walked to the plot his parents called to say they were going too. I was so glad to see them. We had some lunch and then I went back to the plot to 'chat' to him. I miss him dreadfully today and always #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Not sleeping too well this week. Back to waking up in the very early hours feeling panicked and alone and not able to get back to sleep no matter how I try. Not been this bad since the lead up to his service. I wish he was here to just hold me #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Finally started sorting out the spare room today. I've almost finished the washing of his things - it's taken almost 5 months to face that...i didn't want to lose his smell but it's mostly gone now 😭 #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

Today I got the news I'd been expecting for a while - my boss is retiring and I am being promoted. I know he would be super proud of me. Plus the payrise means I can scratch more countries off our wish list starting with Iceland in February. He will be with me every step x

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Do have to say one thing that surprised me today was shopping in M&S and I almost had a meltdown. I realised I wouldn't be buying Pants and PJs for him this Christmas and that cut deep. #Grief hits in strange ways...Losing it over pants! Who'd have thought it!

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Anyone else find they have anxiety now they live alone after living with someone for years? I keep thinking what if I die in my house - who would know? Who would find me? Is that crazy? I know it's my trauma talking after finding him the way I did, but it is shaking me 💔 #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

5 months

This week has been crazy. I met a mortgage broker on Wednesday to see what I could afford, then a house I have kept an eye on was reduced on Thursday, I viewed it on Friday loved it and my offer has been accepted! Rob has definitely looked after me this week 😘 I have a house!

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Hello from a chilly Poland! I decided to take a last minute break and it's very lovely here. Distracting myself from the reality of his bday and christmas coming up. I brought a small amount of his ashes to sprinkle here so he will have been here with me...is that weird? #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

8 months

Been in bed with flu for few days first time ill since he passed. There's considerably less tea, cuddles and love without him here looking after me. I miss him so much. For first time since he died I've felt 'what's the point in carrying on' but know that's the flu talking #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

I feel so sad. I miss him all the time. In everything I do, in everything I see, in every moment of just existing. I really hate it without him. I just want his arms around me. #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

It's 6 months since I came home that night. The certificate will say it has been 6 months tomorrow but deep down I know you were gone at 11.38pm on the 5th July 2023. I love you and miss you every day #grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

Merry Christmas to the grieving community on here. I don't know you personally but you have helped me through the worst pain I have ever known. A long way to go but with your support, advice, and shared experiences I know there's a way forward #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

8 months

This afternoon I had to just stop and go to bed. I felt emotionally exhausted. It came out of nowhere and hit me like a train. Had a cry, then a nap and was OK again when I woke up. #Grief really is a roller-coaster

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Decided this was the spot for him. There is a river below this bridge - the last song played in his service was 'down by the water' by Amy macdonald. This place seemed fitting and just after I'd sprinkled him the ducks quacked happily. He's always here in spirit. #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

3 months

Not been on here for a while and honestly I'm falling apart a bit as the year anniversary approaches. I'm not OK. I don't know what to do. I miss him and us. #grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Coroner came back to us today. It will be marked as a sudden and unexplained death. At least it was sudden but It feels like we'll never have closure. I'll never know if there was something I could have done if I'd been there. I feel I've failed you. I miss you so much x #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Went to the plot today to plant some bulbs with his parents. Had a little visitor keeping watch #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

I survived. Some days barely - just existed. I've been dragged through by support IRL and on here when i haven't seen a way through. I have to go forward - I know that but my gosh it's hard sometimes. So #HappyNewYear - we carry on with our #Grief but we carry on with support 💔

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

8 months

So a while back I posted about the tedious/upsetting phone calls to his pension company to prove I was his unmarried partner. I found out today I am the beneficiary. Cried when I read the letter. It is huge for me but I would give it all to have him back #Grief #paperwork #widow

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

Today has been a teary day. Not sure why but just has been. Grief has no rhyme or reason, you can't control it. I'm finding it best to just ride the wave when it hits. #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Realised I can't do a real tree this year. We used to pick it out as a trio, then he would saw off the bottom, and put it in the stand while I held it and his son would tell us it was straight. It's just me this year so I've bought a real looking fake one. Will put it up tomorrow

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

Not posted as Been away for 5 days for christmas with the family. It was hard at times and I cried a lot - felt overwhelmed and tired. My aunt is so unwell, my nan is getting old and my mum is overworked. I wanted to say 'please don't leave me as I can't cope with more grief'

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Since moving to my own place I have experienced a lot more crying episodes. They can last from a minute to an hour plus, but I'm going with them when they come. I think I was holding a lot in whilst staying with his parents. It's pouring out of me now I'm on my own #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

This week is going to be rough. His bday is next Saturday. I know I'm not going to be OK. #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

It was his sons bday today (technically yesterday now) I text him... Pretty sure it was deleted before being read but I tried. Happy 12th birthday to him - he deserves the world x

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

6 months

And a bank Holiday weekend is done. Glad of it tbh. Felt pressure to do things but had nothing to do, and then felt guilty for staying in all weekend. Just wanted to be in a cave and hide. Housework to be done that I can't face. Exhausted but can't sleep. Feeling the grief atm

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Got transferred 9 times between departments today while trying to speak to someone about LPs pension. Having to repeat his details and D.O.B over and over got me quite upset so I gave in and hung up. Will try again tomorrow. #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

7 months

At the airport ready for a bucket list trip tomorrow. It was somewhere we wanted to go together but didn't get the chance. Got some of his ashes to have him 'be there' with me. I'm sure I'll find a lovely spot for them. Iceland - im looking forward to seeing your beauty #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

@shitscaredmum This is Rob. He left suddenly and inexplicably on July 6th this year. He was the kindest person who always had my back. He was on my side and by my side. I'm devastated without him. #newyearsgrieve #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

6 months

Sleeping pattern has gone wrong recently. Was doing better and actually getting good night's of sleep in. Back to staying up late and waking up early after a fitful sleep and praying I can get a nap in during the day. Too much on my mind and in my heart #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

6 months

At rehearsals tonight someone asked about my necklace. She was one of a few who didn't know about my loss but we talked about it. It's the first time I didn't cry while talking about him/that night (I came home and cried though) but why does progress make you feel guilty? #grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Positive news - I am part of a local theatre group and we are doing wizard of oz next year. The audition was the first time I got through this song without crying. I've been offered the part of dorothy. When I sing this it will always be for him #grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Winter solstice is not the longest night anymore. That was the night he passed. #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

Today was sorting through boxes of paperwork receipts etc - found some cards we had sent to each other which made me smile - We were so similar in sense of humour. Now at the pub for a glass of wine, meat draw and some air - today is an OK day

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

7 months

This last week has been a bit rocky. My dreams have been so vivid and all about him and I wake up crying. Some dreams twist our life together, some are just us being happy and some are us in the future. But each day I wake up alone and feel a loss all over again #grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

8 months

Bonus of looking after their lovely dog, is they live right near this beautiful beach. Spent a few hours walking today - had brunch, came home and we both napped, and he's been sleeping on me all evening! I think I tired him out

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Today has been busy - I moved house! I'm not staying there tonight as my mattress 'poofs' but it's looking lovely and homely. Looking ahead to another small step on the way forward. Carrying him with me as always - I think he'd approve of the place x

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

7 months

What a trip - Iceland was beautiful, I got to see the northern lights and some whales. The gulfoss waterfall was incredible and I got choked up when I saw it - I knew that was the spot for his ashes to be. A really special country that I want to explore more of!

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

I have been so productive since coming back to work this year, feeling strong, determined and valued. I also spent all day in my pj's and dressing gown whilst working from home as I couldn't be bothered to change. Ups and downs.

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

8 months

Had a busy weekend - went to watch a show in London on Saturday, and then spent Sunday singing musical songs with 600 people! Today had an all day mgmt meeting and then rehearsal tonight. I'm doing OK. He's always on my mind and in my heart, so I'm glad to keep myself busy #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

I miss him - I just miss everything he added to my life. Why is the world so cruel to let you find your person and then snatch them away? #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Going shopping with his mum tomorrow. Going to treat us to coffee and cake while we are there. I'm so grateful for his parents and the way they have looked after me. Cant believe it's been 4 months since that awful night... #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Stars are beautiful tonight. Took a few minutes in the garden and just talked to him in the sky. I miss him so much #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Got an email from LPs ex's solicitor today to say my belongings weren't destroyed after all. I need to collect them Thursday, short notice yet again so scrambling to find a man with a van. Keeping the positives in mind though. I might have my memories again even if I carry them

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

Was in the office today and a few people said I've lost weight. Hadn't really thought about it as its been an unintentional symptom of grief but yes I've lost a stone and a half - I just have no appetite anymore. Literally just cooked a pie and can't face eating any of it #grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

I've realised I'm relieved I can't live in my old house anymore. It sounds awful as it was our home but I think I was really struggling with the trauma & ptsd of what happened and having to face it before I was ready. In my new house I'm in charge of that timeline #Grief #Trauma

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Today was very nice - shopping, coffee/cake and lunch with the MIL(ish) and now settled at home with the fire lit. I actually can't believe I managed to light a fire on my own but think he would be impressed!

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Been going through photos from old phones to get ready for LPs son for an early Christmas present. We had such good fun together. It's hard to see the memories now he's gone but it's because we lived and loved each other that the grief is so hard now. Hug everyone tight tonight x

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

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@ATMwithJacy

10 months

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Back home now - back to reality after a nice few days away.

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Another starry night which seems like perfect timing. When I lost my partner I had a necklace commissioned which would have his ashes in. It arrived today - I cried when I opened it. He'll always be with me both in my heart and in the stars #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

Today has been a lot of sudden bursts of crying uncontrollably. I kept feeling guilty about having happy moments which I know is ridiculous as he would want me to be happy but perhaps it's because I wish he was part of each moment and the happiness could be shared with him #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Last night I cried for 2 hours straight. No idea what set me off but I couldn't stop. Hope tonight is less sad. #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

8 months

Looking after my brothers pooch this weekend. He is getting lots of cuddles whether he wants them or not 😂

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

Spent yesterday in bed. Couldn't face anything or anyone. Watched crap tv in between bouts of sleep. Work were so understanding - I'm very lucky. Think I felt overwhelmed with the last few weeks - feel better today. Starting to know a bad day and nipping it in the bud. #grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

In conversations I say his name or talk of a memory of us and some people freeze. They're not sure if I'll laugh or cry. They feel awkward to talk about him. Anyone else have this? I just want to talk about him as if he is still here, still joining in, still being my man #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Had a board meeting today with directors of all companies. Started off by dealing with the elephant in the room - Wanted to take that awkwardness of not knowing if they should say anything away. They were all so kind and respectful and I was able to lead my grief. Feel better now

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

My close friends dad has passed away. I'm trying to be a support and be there where I can, but I'm also terrified she will ask me to be at his funeral to help her through the way she did at my partners funeral. I just don't think I could get through it #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

Todays tearjerker was me realising the Ps5 game we played together will never be completed because it needs 2 players. Made me aware all over again that I'm on my own now. I miss him so much #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

'Happy' birthday to me - today will be tough. Already desperately sad. First one without him here waking up beside me. #Grief #widow

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

@Ffion11 I thought they would still smell of him but they don't. I feel like I'm forgetting things about him already and I'm so sad. I miss him so much

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@UnmarriedGrief1

7 months

Met my LPs mum to talk through 'legal bits'. All sorted, we can all move forward without it hanging over us. Also asked about LPs son - he's struggling still...I wish I could meet him and talk about his dad. I still hope it will happen when he's older and makes his own choices

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

@spookymamaxo I laid next to him in bed while I waited for the funeral directors to come to take him. Before that night, I would have thought that's a weird thing to do but in that moment it felt right. Shock, trauma, grief - no one goes through it the same and no one should judge anyone

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

The man with a van was so lovely today - really understanding of the awkward situation at the house and got my stuff so quickly so I didn't have to stay there long. LPs ex's dad was there. He was so rude. I've never even met him before today. And won't have to see him again. 1/

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Watching Flowers for Mrs Harris today at the theatre. Already know I'm going to be a weeping mess. I cried when I watched it before I lost my partner so lord know how I'll be today. Consolation is I'm sure I won't be the only one crying

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

6 months

Listening to Stacey Heale talking on @BBCSouthNews about her upcoming book, will have to get a copy as I totally understood - no one tells you what to expect when your world dies. I look back at that night and things I did would seem weird to others but they worked for me #grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Went to the weekly meat draw and won cheese and (the best/award winning) pork pie! Just as well I'm going to see a few friends tonight for a cheese and wine catch up!

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@UnmarriedGrief1

8 months

The response to this is overwhelming, thankyou all. I'm still feeling pretty ill and have conjunctivitis in both eyes so not able to read and reply at the mo. Not doing much other than sleeping and forcing myself to make hot drinks and easy food. Weekend of rest ahead.

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

@CatherineMonk1 I think they need a 'grief hour' in supermarkets/shops where we can all have a little weep over seemingly silly things and not feel like people think we're bonkers! This time of year is getting harder by the day - 'love and joy' everywhere is hard to see when your heartbroken

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

At the airport to return 'home' - not sure what/where that is but I'll find somewhere to hang my memories and add new ones in around them. Missed him so much this week but felt him pushing me forward to be brave and enjoy the beauty around me and to enjoy my trip. #Grief #widow

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@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

The passing of Matthew Perry has shaken me today. My late partner was the Chandler to my Monica. I don't think I'll be able to watch Friends for a little while.

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@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Wow can't believe the response to this - thankyou to everyone for your responses, I'm a bit overwhelmed but also it's good to know I am not alone in feeling this way. I'm sorry to all who have lost someone - grief is a rough road

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

@Denisesnoopisom You don't need to know what you're doing - none of us do. We are all just putting one foot in front of another and helping those on the same journey. We're here x

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@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

@kellpatt The holidays/anniversaries are awful but every day is just a challenge. I hate it without him. But I know there is a support of people here who 'get it' and hate it too x

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@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Yep as predicted I cried uncontrollably throughout the show. But met a friend after and talked of what has happened - she asked how I've got through. Honest answer is I don't know, but did validate the behaviour of the ex of my late partner is vile #theatre #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

Today was the funeral of a lovely girl at work. She was just 18 and died in a car crash last month - it was such a shock for everyone. I couldn't go today as it was too soon and raw for me (same venue as my partners funeral) but she has filled my thoughts today. #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

8 months

What a couple of weeks. Flu bug came the week before our show. Managed to get through last week, sleeping in the day and performing in the evening. I have to say I was very emotional each performance but it was good to have that release. 1/

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@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

@mooramana I'm still in my pj's. Drinking Fizz and contemplating putting my food in the oven soon (all pre made just needs cooking - been lazy this year). Merry Christmas - I hope you have a lovely rest of day in with the dogs x

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

@mooramana People keep saying they don't want me to be alone and inviting me and seem upset when I say no. They don't seem to realise that even seeing them in their couples is hard enough let alone at Christmas. I want to feel sad and cry and not put on a happy face for everyone

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

@barbaraevers380 I think that's what trying to do. We didn't decide on specific places, just wanted to see the world together. I guess now with his ashes with me, we are still going together in a way

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

@Woden As someone who lost access to their belongings overnight I would say take anything precious now. Ask anyone you know to help - friends, family, charities, whoever is in the area. The rest will fall into place but take what you need while you can. I'm so sorry this is happening

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@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

@Woden I was thinking what has this American done to our British classic BUT i like it! Mashed potato top with a crispy coated potato edge?! Guaranteed crispy bits?! Yes!

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

Thankyou all for your replies and guidance. I will take the situation if it comes - think I was having a blip as there seems to be nothing stable in life at the mo. Change, grief, loss, it all unsettles me more than I realise. Glad to have this network to steady the boat

Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

My close friends dad has passed away. I'm trying to be a support and be there where I can, but I'm also terrified she will ask me to be at his funeral to help her through the way she did at my partners funeral. I just don't think I could get through it #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

@HandbookWidows I have one of his socks that doesn't have a match and that is just so hard. I'll never have that matching sock again 💔

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@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

@CatherineMonk1 I did a halfway version - all cook in their trays type foods and because it was just me, before I cooked it I split each into 4 portions, ate one and froze the rest. Good job I did - I barely ate much in the end. I hope you're OK as can be - almost there x

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@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

@RichardEGrant Grief is so very very hard. And the person you want to lean on is the one you are grieving. Thankyou for being so open on your journey - as someone who joined the road this year, it's helpful to see I'm not alone in these feelings #Grief

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@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

Happened to go past our house today - this was what greeted me before it went to the tip. I pulled each bag apart and found some very sentimental things and took them for myself and his parents. She might think she will break me but I will come back stronger every time.

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

Belongings wise my sentimental items were there, none of his - I'll never see them again. My missing items were all the expensive ones (not surprised) so will have to claim for those, and the items I had to buy when I moved. But I feel able to move forward now. And breathe #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

Can't stop crying. Floodgates opened tonight. Found out the house is on the market and the photos show it's empty. Mine and his belongings are likely gone forever. Some irreplaceable belongings. Feels like another loss to grieve. She is the cruelest woman I've ever known. #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

@MarjorieMagee2 I think it's just a flare up due to time of year and 'firsts' without him... At least I hope its just a blip and will get better soon

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

@CatherineMonk1 I get it. I miss the moments where we just laid and watched tv together, or just sat in the garden listening to music, or just 'did nothing' together. Sending hugs to you x

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

Going to view a house for rent tomorrow - I hope it is what I am looking for (the pics look good so far) and I hope I can get the place if I like it. Market is crazy right now so not getting hopes up too much but would be nice for it to go my way 🤞

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

@SaffronKim My in-laws (ish) have offered for me to go over on Xmas day - they said I can take my food away to eat at home if it's too much or i can go in the snug room at any point to 'let it out' - they know I'm going to find it hard on my own and are just so blooming lovely

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

@GrievingBloke I feel this. I don't have children and when my partner died I realised I likely never will now. Our future was snatched away and my future has gone with him. #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

1 year

Today went kayaking in Croatia. It was our thing and we loved our kayak trip last year. Today I was on my own but I did it. Afterwards I told the guide and we raised a glass to him with the group. Made my heart full but I really Missed him - he would have loved it #Grief

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

9 months

@Carer49 I was lucky too. I lost everything except my job and it's because they gave me space and support, and I went back on my terms. I know not everyone is as lucky. There are lots of companies that need to do more around bereavement

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

6 months

@Carer49 I have regular naps now - in fact last week I didn't have a nap all week and I slept until 2pm on Saturday as I was so exhausted! I think my mind is constantly whirring and I find it hard to focus all day, and then at night I can't sleep so I'm so tired. Grief is all consuming

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

10 months

@SaffronKim I think my plans to go to his parents may change as they have to go to be with someone unwell. I will be on my own - not sure what to buy that means i can eat too much with minimal effort...might raid Lidl during the week and buy too much food and a bottle of something nice

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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

11 months

@marcydmarq I definitely think ptsd is a thing for me - I never expected this at our age. I'm struggling at this time of year and after a lot of change in a small amount of time. I think I just wanted to know i wasn't alone in feeling like this and it's clear I'm not 💔

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