Wife, mom, nurse, cancer patient. I love Jesus, people and puppies💗 If someone is asking u for $, it isn't me. Love y'all more than gummy bears and pop tarts!!
Sometimes we get a little angsty here on the Twitter. Let's have some tea (like actual tea, not gossip). Here's a puppy. Jesus deeply loves us, even in all our buffoonery. That's all I know.
Blessings, friends❤
@uche_blackstock
Amen, Doc. Amen. I was so disturbed watching how NOBODY DID ANYTHING. Like, guys, that right there is a medical emergency. WTH are we even doing?!?
TW: s*ic*de
Visiting new church today, and the pastor said "suicide is an extremely selfish act; the one performing it is only thinking of themselves, not of those left behind. They never think of those they leave behind."
Guys...am I overreacting being enraged? Bc I am.
Got the absolute best possible news. ALL cancer spots in my brain are shrinking, dying. This is medical unicorn territory, beloveds, and I know it's because so many are praying. I don't knkw why God heals some and brings others home, but I am grateful for these results.
Friends, we got sime hard news last night. It appears (but who really knows?) I am in the endgame of my treatment. 6mo-1yr is the prognosis, though let's be real: I blew past the 1-3 yr mark when I hit 7 1l2 years in June. So. You know, there's no research or textbook for this.
Beloveds, I really really need my nausea meds to work. It's the worst day in the chemo cycle and...I need a win. Please pray for me? It's been a hard day. I'm not trying to complain, just need some serious grace from Jesus right now.
TIA!❤️
Day 12 after chemo and still feeling like nausea might kill me 🤢🤢🤢
Doc ordered everything she could in the nausea meds arsenal. Finally found one that brings relief.
I'm sobbing in relief, y'all. Sobbing.
I've dealt with many a patient in this situation and even have family members who struggle here. They're usually in this mindset that they feel they're burdens to those around them. They DO consider others. Last notes? Usually written to those left behind. I...I have no words 😭
I'm so hecking mad right now. It's just heaps of guilt on the backs of people already crushed beneath guilt. I'm so angry.
But if I am wrong, please tell me. I mean it. I want to find the right place for my family, I want to be open minded. I want to follow where Jesus leads.
@SerivaTiger
@mollypriddy
@Brokenwingx9
The second greatest trick was convincing us to move our clocks by an hour TWICE A YEAR. There are countries that don't do so, amd they're doing just fine, thankyouverymuch 🤣
Hi, beloveds. An update you're not going to like but I will, not because I am suicidal but because I am ready to see Jesus my Lord and Savior: I have entered hospice. I feel like they will make my quality of life will improve for a while. I am I NO pain. I'm e joying
@PastorTrey05
Struggling with this with my son's baseball team. Coaches acting like it's the dang World Series instead of teaching 10yr olds how to play a GAME. I want badly to say something, because I am seeing them destroy relationships with their own sons. What do you do, Pastor? It's awful
@Jubilee4Jesus
@saluce65
Nurse here, and NO you're not being unfair!!! Light up those doctor's office managers. I promise they can do something if they want to!! I'm so, so sorry you endured that, sweet sister. I'm grateful for the NP who listened. So grateful. Praying for you and here if you need me ❤️
Tomorrow is supposed to be a chemo day, but I need a break. My body and mind and spirit are so exhausted, to the breaking point. So please pray that my scans look good so the doctor and I can feel comfortable with an extra week off. My mental health is as shaky as my body
@AndreaR9Md
Dear Doctor, please know that for every one of these types of folks, there are hundreds or thousands more of us who are just so grateful for everything you and your healthcare teams have done and continue to do to beat back this awful virus. God bless and keep you all.
@lallberry
@hiitaylorblake
I second this motion. Anyone not supportive or helpful can just keep scrolling. Y'all have enough stress. Also, let us know if we can do anything for you. I'm praying for you all, that God brings healing and rest and peace and comfort. We're cheering you on, friends!
my children and laughing with my husband. I have reconciled with some family. I am GOING TO SEE JESUS. To me, there are no down sides for me. Please pray for my family, because of course they have down sides. Pray.
I love, love, love you all. Don't cry for me.
@circe_verba
@aquariumglass
@kejames
Friend. Drop the guilt. Now. You did well! Future generations will look to your example. Your work is important. I'm grateful you went for your PhD. God bless and keep you as you use your skills you worked so hard to obtain. Go, Team!!
@amyfaithho
My goodness, Dr, yes. Amen. Please shout this from every dang rooftop. Patients deserve better. Doctors deserve better than to be tied up in red tape while trying to give appropriate, compassionate care to their patients. Insurance companies are defrauding people. Make it stop!
@HeatherTDay
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@BethMooreLPM
...I never do this, but sweet sisters, you've both encouraged me and my family and I desperately need prayer. Docs say I have months left. I am 40 with two small kiddos. Docs have said this for almost 8 years, but this time looks scary.
So you lovelies with dogs/cats/any pets: y'all know how you give them one name, but then it morpha into a variation of the name, and then it slowly, recklessly spirals out of control? Can we have a thread of your animals' real names and their fifteen million nicknames?
So I don't want any pity. Bc I am not scared. I will be fine, no matter how these next days, weeks, months go. But if you want to pray for something specific, please pray for my husband and kids. It's going to be bumpy for a while, but I have faith in the One who is holding us ❤️
Some major encouragement from the palliative care team lead today on my case. Got some validation and some pointers. Got an advocate for me between myself and my oncologist.
Just wanna praise Jesus for this break of mercy and grace.
(BTW, palliative care is NOT hospice).
@Justice314Lady
It's not anger at him. It's anger over the hurt he causes preaching that. And I wrote a very respectful, kind letter, asking questions and explaining why it's hurtful. I hope he listens.
@racheljwelcher
@EvanWelcher
Cancer patient here whose husband is the epitome of this servant's heart attitude. He has sacrificed everything for me and our children. My kids can absolutely talk about how Jesus loves us, because Daddy has modeled the agape love our Father has for us. I'm beyond grateful ❤️
It's chemo week, y'all, and I might be admitted to the hospital for some imaging. Pain has gotten really strong and we need answers. All ya'll have prayed and been such blessings to us. Pray this is something stupid? I'd love a "well, you're just getting old ma'am "🤣
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Friends, today's appointment with my oncologist could not have gone any better. I felt seen and heard and cared for. She's giving me an extra three weeks off chemo to get my body and head back in the game. This means that I can focus on my kids' first week of school,
@Broken_Devotion
@ChantsRubio
@its_Joe_Friday
Adults should be able to control their emotions. And kids should be allowed to act like kids: curious, inquisitive, loquacious and respectful. They are people. Lemme repeat: children are PEOPLE. Let their personalities shine. It takes years to undo parenting like that.
Aight, y'all, you ready?
I was exhausted all morning. Dreading these appointments, already drained.
We pulled into the cancer center parking lot, where the most beautiful, happy people were standing on the sidewalk waving with signs, and I thought, "what lovely
Hug your babies. Snuggle your pets. Kiss your partner if you have one. Tell your friends, even if it's awkward, that you love them.
Just...trust me here.
I have an appointment with my oncologist tomorrow morning and would greatly appreciate your prayers, beloved friends. I am not recovering from the last round of chemo, and have had a few scary side effects I cannot shake. So please continue praying for wisdom and healing?
One day in the future, my family will discover my Twitter (X? WTH??) account and see that I really am affirming, I really am feminist, and that I freaking meant what I said.
Lord, if they don't listen while I am still here, I pray they do when I am gone.
Lemme explain:
As usual, God has already been steps ahead, giving us exactly what and who we needed right when we needed. As I was telling parents our news, a friend I haven't spoken with in years texted a word about God's goodness chasing after me ...as His goodness was chasing after me.
Zephaniah 3:17
"The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty One who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you with His love."
@k8roulette2
If you want me to send chocolate, feel free to DM me the address.
I am so thankful for you and the other brave, beautiful humans who educate.
Zero people have ever gotten where they wanted in life without teachers.
Not a single soul.
Thank/support the teachers.
people! I'm sure they'll encourage someone today. Look at them grinning and waving!! It is like they know me. They're so sweet!!"
Y'all.
They were my innermost circle of middle school berries. Every one of them had driven from great distances just to cheer me and hug me before
Moment of honesty: sometimes I get excited about what God is going to do with these hecking brain tumors. He's done miraculous things in the last eight years and I feel like He's not done yet.
Others, I am terrified. For me, for my family.
Sadly, right now it's the latter.
@kevinmnye1
I'm a nurse and this attitude was rampant among the EMTs I encountered in the ER and elsewhere. Makes my blood boil, because if it was their L.O. you administered the narcan to, they'd be thankful. I was taught to treat all patients with utmost dignity, always.
@doc_bipolar
Had a 14 yr old boy waiting for a heart transplant when I was working PICU. The night I thought he was going to pass on me, I cranked up his favorite radio station (and mime), sang to him and prayed over him (he was sedated, on a ventilator). Told him I would keep watch...+
I walked in. So, laughed, hugged, kissed and danced with my beloved friends whom do not deserve. Walked in without fear or defeat, bc the Lord went before me, leading and loving me in the arms of my amazing friends.
@doc_bipolar
A week later, he got his new heart. He's still my very favorite patient, because he helped me believe in miracles again. Later, I fought (and am still fighting) inflammatory breast cancer. I remember my patient and his strength. And I have courage to keep going. Patients +
@jordanbseltzer
@ByAnuoluwa
If my girl, born two months after my granny died, became any more like said granny, I would rename her June. I swear Granny is laughing at me from heaven as I parent HER mini-me. 🤣🥰
@JayHulmePoet
If there's massive amounts of running and giggling, as a parent I say bless you, and feed them whatever it takes for you to survive 🤣
Our sweet church vols always apologize when my kids get dirty, and I'm just like, puh-lease. It's proof positive that they had a blast 🥰
@joshuadpease
Oh, mercy, yes. Got into a discussion with a pastor who said this exact thing. I was just...floored. He said, "it's just such an anti-Christian angle", and I'm like..um.. abuse is an anti -Christian angle, man😡
Been quiet a little while. Mental health is not all that great. Had a blessing of a therapy session today, and I'm hopping on here to say there is ZERO shame in seeking out help for mental health. Zero. Please reach out to someone, anyone, myself included if you need help.
Hah! I see typos. Lots of typos.
The day yhis phone sends a tweet (xeet?! 🤦What the heck) without typos y'all will know that I have either gone to see Jesus or someone has kidnapped me.
I love y'all. Thanks for listening and praying ☺️
@KelliThePhD_RN
@jtrebach
Kelli, no joke, I am a PICU RN and I was Googling "what should newborn poo look like on breast milk", bc the HUNDREDS of babies I've cared for didn't prepare me for my firstborn 🤣🤷
Sometimes the medical help needs medical help😜
This might not seem like a big deal, but today is the day my wedding band finally fit on my finger again. Steroids and chemo have caused hand swelling and I've had to wear silicone bands. My actual one fits today! It makes me so happy ❤️ Gonna have to resize my diamond, but ok!
Introducing: Tater Tot Blythe. He's fun, snuggly, affectionate and seemingly perfect for our family. Tiny little bundle of goodness after a rough week. So grateful.
And He has put a new song in my mouth, a huge praise to my God. He is good.
Even if things don't go this well, folks, I still declare that He. Is. Good.
I am leaking tears all over my pillow again tonight, this time ones of joy. I hope I can encourage someone there's hope ❤️
I am beyond grateful to still be here, seven years after my Inflammatory Breast Cancer diagnosis. Truly.
But.
Today is a really, really hard day. Pain, nausea and fatigue are plaguing me, as is the feeling of being a burden to my family.
Please pray? Thanks, friends ❤️🩹
@emilykmay
I'll never forget my man calling me (I was in chemo , so he took daughter to her checkup) from the doctor with our 6mo old who blew out her diaper AND bloomers. "Hey, does she have another butt-cover?" 🤣☠️
@BethMooreLPM
@BethMooreLPM
I am so, so thankful for you. You've been through horrific loss and pain...yet you cling to Jesus and continue pointing to Him, always urging us closer to Him. Thank you for your commitment to the Word and His church. Thank you for being you 🤗
The best came next (unfortunately they had to go to work. Boo!)
My. PET scan (radioactive CAT scan from neck down) had no evidence of any cancer. So it's all contained in my brain.
Then it gets better. The doc said even though we were scheduled begin radiation tomorrow
Sent an email. It didn't go well. We're moving onward. I love y'all, and if you struggle with SI, please reach out for help! You're NOT selfish, you're definitely NOT a burden. You're a beautiful, God-given gift, and we all want you to stay so very much ❤️🩹
P.S. if you want to drop pictures of pets, that's also 💯 helpful at this time. There's never a bad time to send dog photos.
Ever.
I don't make the rules 🤷
Friends, this week I feel really good (for me), and I just jumped on here to praise God for that. It is such a beautiful gift to be able to parent, cook, clean, play, and not feel like absolute crap at the end of it all.
Thank you, Jesus! I take none of this lightly.
We'll also continue the very effective Enhertu med I have been on, just upping the dose (we believe my brain tumors came during my break I took, and they could very well be gone again.
God went before me. He LITERALLY turned my mourning into dancing 💃
due to the hurricane holiday yesterday, we'd begin TODAY. SO I HAVE ONE DOWN AND NINE TO GO.
When we are finished, I will receive an intrathecal catheter (small device in my brain) to allow a highly effective immunotherapy to be directed right to where it's needed in my brain.
Sorry for being so silent lately. I know y'all don't feel like you need apologies. There's been extended family drama, so please pray for that. In lovingly, gently, respectfully laying out my dying wishes, some "adults" are not
behaving with respect and we are all hurt.
@bethallisonbarr
Sent your book to a young girl who feels called to ministry today. She was told by her pastor "you're going to hell for wanting to be a female pastor", so I pointed her to your work. You're encouraging SO many of us. Please keep being you ❤️
@JustnBullington
Sir, this woman points to Jesus every time she has the chance, which is often. She points the way to Him even as brothers mock and deride and dehumanize her publicly. She shows SO much grace. Men like you could sit at her feet and really learn what it means to follow Jesus.
Some days this cancer road is rough, y'all. Praying about some changes. Will you please pray with me? I don't want to complain. God has been so, so kind to me and has given me more than I deserve! But the road is long and wearying, and sometimes I just want to go to sleep
Beloved friends: thank you so very much for rejoicing with me today. I never expected this to go beyond my normal circle of folks here in the bird app. But here we are. I'm here anytime y'all need someone praying for you. Anytime. Thank you all for being here! I'm so thankful 🥰
@JennMGreenberg
I have one of those kiddos.
"Mommy, why didn't you sleep!??"
Me: "insomnia."
Narrator: "it wasn't actually insomnia. It was Insom-Mom-nomnia, that disorder in which the child co-slept w/Mom &Mom co-laid awake while getting her spleen kicked incessantly until the alarm rang"🤣
@emilykmay
Viral infection can cause something called transient synovitis. It's where the joints in arms, legs, hips, feet can get inflamed and actually hurt pretty badly. If he's able to keep things down a while, your doc might recommend motrin for the joint pain. Ofc, go w your gut❤️🩹
Jesus, You have been my everything since I was 12. I cannot explain why You allowed such horrific things to happen, but while I don't understand Your hand, I absolutely trust Your heart. I see You weep with the folks at Lazarus's tomb and know You weep for and with me.
@AshleyGWinter
I am a Christian, and this doesn't bother me. We have shoved our beliefs down people's throats. It's wrong. We are not called to force disciples. We're called to love our neighbors well, and guys, I'm so sorry we're failing at this.
I'm grateful for chemo.
But is it ok to also hate chemo, too?
Mourning today all that cancer has stolen, while at the same time in awe of my God who has granted so much. I am grateful, truly. But still grieving. How long, oh, Lord? Help me hold fast to the hem of your garment.
@PastorTrey05
My conservative MIL has always said this would be the strategy, that "the supreme court rules the land". I believed her then and believe her (on this at least) now.
I'm so, so sorry. I'm irate. Probably will be for a long time. It's so, so unfair and wrong and hateful.
P.S. thank you prayer warriors. Your prayers were heard and sustained me and my whole family today. In addition, I received a small amount of medicine help me rest and sleep tonight. I am full of hope and joy, though I know it still won't be an easy road. I love ya'll so much
On today's episode of WHAT THE HECKS?! my medical oncologist asked why I was wearing a mask.
Let's start with COVID and end in "flu season is almost if not already here."
Zero bashing, y'all. She's young and listened well to my education and I am hopeful she'll stop
@MusicalHell
My dad says Sesame Street is a communist show for these reasons you listed 🙄🙄🙄🙄
I'm grateful my kids have big hearts and they celebrate diversity. I will encourage them to love everyone well until the day I die.
@BethMooreLPM
Auntie Beth!! This is exactly what I need today. Also I heard the word "remission" yesterday for my stage 4 Inflammatory Breast Cancer.
God has graciously done above and more than I ever asked or dreamed. I get to be gere a little bit longer. Raise my babies. Love my hubby. 🥰
@AmandaHeldOpelt
Amen and amen. And I repent for the many times in my younger years that I voted straight Republican just because of abortion. Never looked to see the NRA $$ going to the politicians I elected. Shame. I repent, I repent.
Never again will I so flippantly vote.
I repent 💔
Y'all have sustained me by your prayers, encouragement, and pet pics today, and I thank you so much 😍 I had to call family today, and it was oddly encouraging, but also I just want to pray over them, especially my "little sister", my beloved chemo nurse from the beginning.
Y'all, I have a brain scan today.
Please pray.
I'm actually not nervous, but I take nothing for granted, either.
There's currently no detectable cancer in the rest of my body.
I fully rely on God and His faithfulness and goodness, no matter the results.
He is good❤️
Beloved Tweeps:
I received a Christmas miracle today. My doctor called to tell me there are NO ACTIVE BRAIN METS in my brain. She said it's the best scan she's ever seen of mine, and she thought it was someone else's scan!!! But it's mine. Jesus did this.
@clhubes
Amen, Lucy!!! I hope we women can do a better job of loving ourselves. These bodies do incredible things! It's time we acknowledge that and embrace whatever shape they take to carry us through life.
@BethMooreLPM
Mama Beth, can you add me? My inflammatory breast cancer came back. It's in my lungs and liver. I have a wonderful husband and a 5 and 9 yr old. I want what Jesus wants...but I also want to stay here with family for longer. Please pray, dear sister ❤