Y’all wanna hear something crazy!? Even at my lowest weight of bmi 9.6 I was still never able to wrap my fingers around my upper arm… that pissed me off so bad… like how!?!
Why is that when you heavily restrict & become very malnourished, the number 1 thing that you crave is sugary & sweet things? I don’t think it’s just me bc I see this a lot in others as well
What’s the most weirdest, disgusting thing your ed made you do?
I once physically body checked someone else!!! 🫠
It was a really thin girl but naturally thin no ed and I was so so envious, and decided to grab her upper arm multiple times to see/feel how small it was
at the dr office they had to check my weight and it literally said that I was 10+lbs heavier then what I remember seeing the number. I ran home crying I re weighed myself and in fact I DO NOT weigh what I was at the drs office. I have 3 scales!!!
Dr’s offices are lying to y’all
To the hater/idiot on my cc saying Im bmi 15.5 😂 THIS is me @ 15.5 (big difference)
You should know that every body is DIFFERENT!!! Not every1 will always look their bmi- I also have alot of fat on me
But thx for the comment & hate I will work even harder to loose more 😘
When you get to such low weight idk The brain feels like there is nothing there, like nothing at all.
No thoughts, nothing, you’re empty & deserted. There is no little voice or thoughts in my head, just empty stare & mind of a brick wall.
Im really worried for Lucinda. She hasn’t been active for a month now and her twt is also gone I think💔
I know she is very controversial and a lot of people do not like her but out of love,respect and kindness I think it’s normal and okay to worry for someone who is very sick😓
lil simple bc’s
I love the little bones you get on your knees, they are not that noticeable or bad but still
Might post some actual bc’s tomorrow before we leave but we shall see 🤷♀️
It really is all ana wrinkles & loose skin from loosing weight. Here’s some examples when I was at healthy weight. Skin is glowing, no ana wrinkles or smile lines just cute little dimples & a happy girl. Even my hair was healthy & full & even when I was blonde too
The ana wrinkles are so bad but the ana face is slowly going away 🥺😔
Don’t mind how ugly I look, I’m dealing with a lot health wise, so I’m just extremely drained
I’m not doing good. I went down from bmi 13.8 to 12 in two weeks and that is very unusual & VERY fast for my body. Because at this point I know how much I usually loose in a week to two
Obviously I am happy & that’s what I want but it’s just extremely drastic for me and my body
It’s a personal opinion but I love the ana wrinkles on the face 😭😅
My friend was making fun of me for having my vape in the pictures so she took this lolll
We haven’t heard from moon since October now🥺🥺🥺
Does any1 know if she is okay????
I’m thinking of her everyday and seeing if she has any activity on her account at all but nothing :(( I’m really worried ❤️🩹
Also… I turned around at my weigh in so I didn’t see the number so it won’t trigger me but the bitch nurse had to say it out loud what I was… like r u for real right now?!? I turned around for a damn good reason 🤦♀️
@thinbunn1
Nope it’s not at least for me,
I’ve never ever had this when being at health weight and had full face with no lines. Now that I’m bmi 12 I have this
26 and have osteoporosis, infertile and perimenopausal. Not to mention all the other serious health issues my ana has caused me. Just slowly taking away my life day by day ☠️
The ana is anaing ✨
This is so heartbreaking 💔
First it was SavingAmy a few months back now it’s Rachel
Eating disorders should not be glamorized in any way especially these days… it’s an evil disorder that takes EVERYTHING from you everything, your life!!!
This was my body at a normal and a healthy weight.
Looking at this sometimes makes me think I did look good kinda idk but I just DO NOT see myself getting out of the mindset of being sick thin.
Hopefully one day I can choose recovery idk. Not now but one day?!? I wanna be fit
All I can say is that I was cute as a little girl and now I’m just an ugly sack of potatoes 😷
This little girl is was so so happy and now I’m just so miserable bc of my ed😒
This was right before my parents adopted me 😇
This was me in 2019 where honestly is when I felt the most most prettiest and had the most confidence! Like that was a glow up year for me and now I’m so fricking ugly. I want her back
@he4rtst0p
I could be wrong but I feel people who are in recovery who post old bodychecks, I think they are trying to show others how sick and thin they were? Idk I could be wrong. I feel like even if you say you are “recovering/recovered” deep down there is still some ed in you
So everyone is not confused but this is not me right now😭 this was my lw of bmi 9.6
I was just saying how my weight gain is traumatizing me & making me break my promise of now going below bmi 12 and reaching bmi 9 again
My bf is insane to think he can try to make an ultimatum and say he won’t propose to me unless I recover😂 lmfao I will never choose recovery for anyone. Even if it means I will never get married or whatever else. Sorry it’s me and my ana forever, until it takes me idc
Here’s a thread for you lovely angels from my trip to London and Edinburgh.
Sorry if its a long but thought I’d share my cute outfits and me idk somewhat enjoying myself 🥹🫶
Fit/bc
Had so much fun yesterday w bf and parents (besides worrying my mom)
* I dont drink alcohol but I do have cocktails here and there, I usually never finish my cocktails but let me tell you, these cocktails were delicious and I actually finished it (mine is the right one)
Weight loss has been EXTREMELY difficult for me especially after starving myself for extremely extensive amount of time to reach bmi 9’s, & going through recovery…
But the fact that ive lost 4 lbs within a week is hugeeee for me. I usually loose 1 lb sometimes 2 a week🥺
I feel so embarrassed about last night bodycheck. The shadow was just not it.. and made it not a bodycheck but something inappropriate lowkey, I didnt even notice it
it may seem like I hve alot of hair but it not the case
My hair is falling out & thinning CRAZY (I used to have the most thickest hair)
hair line is going back more & more I look ridiculous/long forehead
anxiety been through the roof that I hve multiple bold spots on my head:(
Literally you guys need to leave me alone. my edtwt is supposed to be my safe space…
Everybody is different… everyone manages to do fasts differently and how their body reacts…
And for record I had few sips of water so I guess no that wasn’t a dry fast. So leave me alone plz
I always feel so lonely.., no one In my life really cares about me or bother to check in and ask me on how I am truly doing. Really just opens your eyes to things and people.
I have always been a lone wolf and always will be but it does get really lonely and hurtful at times
@ashes2bones
Lying yes lying!!!! All I do is just lie, my whole life revolves around constant lying & for what? I guess not to get locked up or for ppl to really know the truth or how much I really am struggling or how severely gone & disordered I am
I was looking through my pictures before my ed and I honestly can’t recognize myself… but idk I’m so mentally gone with this disorder that I would still choose my ed over being this girl again.🫤
But this does make me a bit sad bc I’m just a completely different person
This may look like a crime but only Russians and Eastern Europeans will understand this
As little kids we grew up eating either noodles w milk & lots of sugar or buckwheat w milk & lots of sugar
Trust me it’s not as bad or odd as it may look but actually very delicious
Iykyk
I feel so bad for my bf bc of my ed… he has put on an enormous amount of weight bc when I don’t eat he feels the need to eat extra like he is eating for me… (which is true bc I do feel like I eat through him and I don’t need to eat)
But my god my poor baby
Why some of us nevr want to recover or believe in it?
My therapist brought this up awhile back: we dont bc we are afraid to step into adulthood, to have responsibilities, adult things, normal life. We just want to stay in a childlike state & be treated like a child?To be a child
Pulled a detective again… looks like my bf is talking to some girl… he deleted the messages on his phone but he didn’t realize that messages don’t get deleted on the computer messages… so that’s how I saw them… he has a lot of explaining to do when he gets home