The swollen face from crying my eyes out for an hour, because a male nurse insisted on me having to be fully topless for my X-ray, while he stared at me the whole time..😭
I’m starting to show severe symptoms of heart failure.. Swelling of my belly area. VERY rapid weight gain from fluid buildup (we’re talking 8kgs in 12 days). My heart is racing and I can hardly breathe. I’m too nervous to go to the doctors but I’m also scared of dying…😭
- a long and detailed thread 🧵 about how i lost 22 kgs in 3 months.
disclaimer: this is for edtwt only, so if u do not already struggle with an ed, please get out and save yourself from an unhealthy and dangerous lifestyle🤍
Some days i just hate my disorder a bit more. i’m literally in Disneyland with my family but i still need to get my steps in. missing out on all the fun
Is it finally time to admit that most people (including myself) don’t exercise at all and still lose weight. Like u don’t need to walk 10k steps a day or run 5 miles every morning to lose🫣
just wanted to update and say that I’m alive and doing better. I’ve been pretty bad physically but my heart is doing better now that I’ve started on a lot of meds. I should be discharged soon🫶🏻
thank u for every sweet and supportive message I’ve received- it warms my heart ♥️
Some1 please remove this tube from my face, for everyone of u who says they want a tube to feel valid or “sick enough”, it’s not the reality. i don’t feel a bit more “valid” bc of my tube. i wouldn’t wish this upon my worst enemy
@FORASMMRBODY
Yeah I know I have to be topless for my own sake, but the thing that wasn’t right was that I had to strip my clothes in front of him and did only take the pictures after he had stared at me for a whole 10 minutes while asking me to stand in different positions.
this is edtwt, we’re suffering from a disorder that makes us see things differently than others may, tbh it’s both mean and pathetic to shame and bully some1 for a disorder that they can’t control… 😪
@sillyrexie
i didn’t think it was that serious..😭 just got off the phone with my doc who told me to call 911 so now I’m just waiting.. hopefully I’ll get better soon
ok didn’t think this post would give so much hate from non-edtwt people like..?.? I mean “Eat a burger” is literally just dumb af. This is edtwt and we’re struggling mentally so just calm down ok
I know that there always will be bullies out there, but bullying and shaming me for a disorder I can’t control is just mean and pathetic. didn’t think it would affect me so much, but tbh I’m sobbing rn😢😭
—> intake:
at my hw(65kgs) my bmi was just about 21 and i ate everything i wanted. I went from about 1800 cals a day to 800 cals while doing the 18:6 fast every day. So basically i only ate from 12pm to 8pm 🕗
@FORASMMRBODY
and they have never done anything like that the other times I have had an X-ray of my upper body i always stand with my chest up against the “X-ray-wall” so u can’t see my chest only my back but this guy insisted that I turned the other way round so I was facing him the entire ti
I’ve been so depressed and suicidal lately so I took some ❄️ and I feel fkn amazing! And the BEST thing about ❄️ is that it takes away my hunger completely🙏🏻🥹
🤍 —> food:
some days i only eat yogurt, some days only soup, and some days both. i still stayed under 500 cals every day. if i did go over, i made sure to burn the amount i had exceeded my intake.
—> activity:
i didn’t exercise besides my walking, and i still lost weight, so don’t stress yourself with tons of workout routines! <3 and walking is a great way of burning cals in a non-stressful way, and tbh it can be quite calming too sometimes!
TW - $uide att€mt
The dilated pupils from drugs though lmao. Oh well I tried to hang myself - obviously was a big failure. Feeling like I can’t do anything right. That I’m just a failure at everything yk?
Doing coke with my friend and I feel amazing and energetic for the first time in weeks🥹 I don’t think about how fat I am and the best is that I don’t feel hunger AT ALL💀 (not encouraging drugs btw!!!!!)