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A surprise (albeit tiny) update! 🍂Mirth, Chapter 16: Willow Snake in the grass.

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niall in every larry fic

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well now we know where it went

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Larry tattoo reveal~ Show me yours? 👀

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his job is beach

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what in the punked out christopher robin is THIS

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This is the friend that shows up in the middle of the night when you’ve gotten some bad news. The brother that will pick you up at 2am bc your car’s got a flat. The boyfriend that didn’t sleep bc you’re sick, and he was too busy taking care of you. This is Angel’s fly Louis.

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honestly it looks like someone picked up louis tomlinson and dipped him in larry sauce like a lil chicken nugget (this twt was brought to you by banana babe)

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your big three as chaotic one direction lyrics 😈 (i’ve been properly roasted. qrt to roast yourself)

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@wemadeitsue “yeah his is gary we worked construction together & at night we’d go home & drink a cold one while eating cute little sandwiches on the couch until we fell asleep & when we’d wake up the next morning & drink our coffee & do the crossword I loved his mustache it was so soft”

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this is the gay volleyball coach at your high school who could care less about winning as long as you’re having fun

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if happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow why, oh why, can’t i

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If you care who bottoms—in any fic, in any fandom, in any aspect of life that isn’t your own—I encourage you to interrogate why it feels important to you. It’s fetishizing & deeply rooted in misogyny, even if it’s not immediate apparent Queer folk don’t exist for your pleasure.

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Completely blown away by love y’all have shown Keep Driving this week. 🌈🚗💕 Thank you for reading, but most of all, thank you for your vulnerability and sharing your stories with me. I’m overwhelmed. What a healing experience ❤️‍🩹

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Keep Driving hit 10k today. I’m continually blown away by the stories you’ve shared with me. Thank you for your vulnerability, your tenderness, your hope, and for showing me the power of grieving in community. It has been immeasurably healing. Love you all 🖤

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you’ll be ok we can talk tomorrow i’m on my way w some time to borrow etc etc etc

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This is what Louis’ music feels like

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i mean what is a rocket ship but a space dagger anyway

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@BananaHeathen he’s ken’s buddy!

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I finished Keep Driving a year ago today. To celebrate, There and Back Again, pt 2 is now up on ao3 🚗🌈💕

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can i come over and stare at you like this

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we’ve been categorically tank-TOPPED which means that 2nite we are all bottoms

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A year ago, we got bad cancer news, & I posted the first chapter of Keep Driving. I needed a place to put my grief—to write a different ending—but I never imagined I’d feel so held. During the months I was posting & all the months after, you all showed me the power of grieving+

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harry hismas from the homlinsons 🥂

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I’ve loved so many fics for so many reasons. I’ve loved fics that showed me new ways to love & new ways to live. I’ve loved fics that said “I see you” & fics that made me see things differently. I’ve loved fics that were just for jokes & fics that healed cracks inside my heart+

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As promised, a lil Halloween treat from me~ Mirth at the Edge of the Wood 🍂 Prologue: The Whispers || out now 🖤

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It’s been nearly a year, so I thought we’d check in with our lads in the car 🚗🌈💕 There and Back Again, a Keep Driving Timestamp: part 2 out soon 🌧️

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she gave him her jacket because he was cold

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in a universe where harry is yellow wishing he were blue, he got him a bird that can do both

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your big four as iconic larry moments ✨ here’s mine 😌

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An important message from banana babe:

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at 6:47am my brain woke me up w a fic idea in which the larents are Franciscan monks who have taken a vow of silence & they like share a bed & snuggle but they don’t talk they just look at each other fondly & grow different kinds of pea flowers for science like Gregor Mendel

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Today is two years since diagnosis (and one since remission) ❤️‍🩹 Stay tuned 🚗🌈💕

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i don’t know if this makes sense but i’d like to be this gay (author’s note: “gay” was supposed to be “hat” but my phone decided to autocorrect and, well, both things can be true)

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Reading Mates: A Love Story 💛🖤 🧵🪡

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i know banana babe is currently offline but i need y’all to know that today is our six month [harry shouting] anniversary, which, for the past several hours, i’ve been referring to as our 🖤🍌 bananaversary 🍌🖤

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My Hogwarts AU is officially out 🪄 Friends to lovers, OT5 friendship, fluff, humor, and the tiniest dusting of angst. ✨

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@larrie_akina525 I think the real question is what one direction song does *not* come to mind when you hear the na na nas

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gonna tell my kids this was the fellowship of the ring

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🍂 Chapter 1: Harry Strawberries, tomatoes, stitches, and Bears.

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Thursday was Keep Driving’s first birthday 🎈 🧵

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just a girl and her emotional support boyband

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A quick update about Keep Driving: I’ve changed the permissions so that it is only available for registered users of ao3. No need to worry—I’ve been meaning to do this for a while to add a bit more protection to a story that is close to my heart 🖤 If for any reason you can’t +

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Gentle reminder that fic authors often write for themselves as much as they write for others. Fic gives *all* of us the space to practice, to process, & to play. When you say something on the tl, remember that there’s a person behind the story. 🖤

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this is mates h & l in a not part time way

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We love writing for you. We love writing for ourselves. It hurts when we can’t. Sometimes, when we can’t, it’s because we are hurting. Please give us the grace you’d give a friend who’s Going Through It. Patience is so much more encouraging than pressure.

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So, in the last 6 weeks: I started a new job, I moved to a new state, my partner lost her dad, & our families met for the first time. Which is to say, I’ve been a little busy. I’m very much hoping to have a new chapter written in the next couple weeks. But please be patient 💛

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niche twt but—in 1981 bruce springsteen wrote and recorded nebraska alone in a hotel room on a cassette player. when he took it to the studio, they couldn’t reproduce the rawness of the sound, so the low-fi recordings became the record. i can’t wait to see where z takes us ✨

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capricorn + aquarius placements?? you mean talented and pretty without even trying mothers

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babes louis, a few years down the road: “Thought you might like a little helper for the Styles Section. You know, on weekends. Maybe at the park.”

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just showed this to banana babe and they had to leave the room

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Hi sweet friends 🖤 I just got some scary cancer news & am having to do some very expensive travel to be with my family. If you love Keep Driving & want to support me financially, I’ve just set up a ko-fi. If you’re able, it would be immensely helpful +

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siri play home by one direction 🥹

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Some news: Y’all were some of the first to know I fell in love this year 🥹 So, very excited to tell you— I officially got the job that means I’m moving to where atlas is 💛 The next few months of my life are gonna be bananas, but… well, you know how I feel about bananas. xx

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this is an engagement photo

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louis out here feeding a family of fourteen with this whole thigh situation

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Every once in a while, I see a post about Keep Driving that categorizes it as a Sad Fic™️ This always makes me uncomfortable, and I’d like to explain why. I wrote Keep Driving bc I needed somewhere to put my grief, to turn something traumatic into something hopeful & healing 🧵

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I don’t have a snippet ready yet, BUT I’d love to introduce you to the OT5 (+3) of my medieval folklore au for @1DHFF Here they are, the townspeople of Mirth (plus a teaser for new folks) 🍂

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Us: it just a regular, run of the mill Wednesday Louis: double double toil and trouble, bitch

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A reminder that authors can see the notes you make in your bookmarks unless you make them private. I know that Keep Driving isn’t for everyone, but it *is* about my experience with grief. Please be gentle.

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lord bless this meal #grateful

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. @Louis_Tomlinson has just arrived #RSUKAwards #RemyMartin

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im about to beep him through self-checkout

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Thursday 🍂

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An atlas-family update: Dad’s had a few better days. He’s still in rough shape & they aren’t sure what’s wrong, but as well all know, it’s the ~little things~ Like, yesterday dad asked my bro to flip off the lights, so Ian gave the lights the finger. Lou would’ve been proud ❤️‍🩹

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on today’s episode of “adventures of a bb librarian” w atlas:

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i mean we all saw the tommo way

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atlas just now: “he’s not fooling anyone. That man would not survive in the woods.”

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ireland’s national dish fr

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Just a perfect day 🚗🌈💕

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🚨🦉 owl post 🦉🚨 Foolish Wand-Waving is now part of a series! This was always the plan, but today seemed like as good a day as any to make things ✨official✨ Chapter one of HS and the Unexpected Task should be up in the next couple of weeks 🖤

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Keep Driving is officially done! I’m sad to say goodbye to these characters but am so pleased with the way it turned out 🥹🖤

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ANYGAY, HAPPY PRIDE MONTH —Louis Tomlinson, 1 June 2023

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ITS THURSDAY LETS KIT DRESSED

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Stories like the Mates universe remind us that we deserve tenderness, patience & second chances—that hurts you thought might never heal have a chance of scarring over. The strength & bravery it takes to love like the characters in this world is something we should all aspire to🖤

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Someone just commented on Babes & asked me to make them fight at least once please. And here’s the thing: no 🥰 There are lots of reasons I write relationships the way I do. I’ve thought about it a lot & I like it. If you don’t, that’s ok! Read the things you like 💛

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this is the pic your gf pulls out when she wants you to know just how hot her mom was in the 80s

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For unimportant reasons I went looking for whohashitmeintheheadwithafuckingchickennugget and came across this incredible piece of art Hail Louis, full of grease

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hello internet!! i’m presenting my grad thesis tonight & i am! v! nervous! i’m going to be talking about grief in children’s fiction & wanted to thank all the writers & readers who have shared their grief stories with me over the last few years. this was, in part, bc of you 🖤❤️‍🩹

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me, walking into my graduate lecture w a goofy lil smirk: they don’t know i’m a one direction girlie

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Shania Twain looks great today

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me and harry’s house today

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when you run into your classics prof during the weekly lads brunch

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Everyone has fics they hold close to their heart, so the classics debate always feels very tricky to me. BUT. Don’t ever let anyone tell you there isn’t meaning in softness. Fluff and humor help us heal and reimagine kinder worlds, which is its own special kind of power ✨🖤

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never seen anyone call it a classic it’s unfortunately a very underrated fic that deserves way more attention also there is nothing wrong with a “light hearted basic fic”, I especially enjoy them bc they take my mind off of things

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Just a note to say~ I’m with my family & we made it through another day. Thank you all for showing up for me—you’ve made it so that I can be present with my dad & not worry about the $. You can’t put a price on that sort of gift, bc, really, it’s the gift of time. Love you all x

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💔❤️‍🩹 “Tell me about your mum.”

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one year 🖤💛

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Hey @ded_tobeginwith — just wanted to say that I recently read Keep Driving & it was so beautifully crafted and poetic, and incredibly moving. I'm a sucker for a story told in vignettes, and you did such a gorgeous job with the structure & weaving in references. Brilliant work 💛

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One year 🖤💛 You are so obscenely loved, @BananaHeathen

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Want some✨fun✨ breaking news from this week? @ded_tobeginwith is reading Mates for the first time & is the first person to do so while also newly dating the author. What a time to be alive 💛

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my girl is pregnant!! must protect!!!!

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Spring has sprung! Clean your house! Stay up all night! Tell all your secrets! Jump in a pond! Grow flowers! Make babies! PART III: March is finally here:

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michelle🌞, so confusing version with lorde

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@wemadeitsue *whispers* in my medieval folklore au louis has a topknot

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hbd to my very first fic, Style (Louis’ Version) 🥳 I can’t believe it’s been a year. Writing fic has given me so much, and it started with this incredibly self-indulgent love letter to OT5. Ty for being here with me. ✨ what a feeling ✨

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Mates Zed dressed this Liam after he painted The Cock

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Thursday 🍂

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HE’S INSANE

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🚨AND ANOTHER🚨 Before you know what Zayn’s job is in a fic, what’s the 1st thing you imagine him doing if he’s not a musician? Me? I’m down w tattoo artist Z every time. I don’t care if it’s 2023 or 1623, my man’s out here inking up the town, begrudgingly being perceived.

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I love fics & I love my writer friends. I love my reader friends & I love this fandom. Write what you want to write & love what you want to love. Tell the people who write the things you love how much they mean to you & why. To me, there is no higher honor. 🖤❤️‍🩹

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My medieval folklore au (originally for @1DHFF ) has a title! And a release date! The prologue for Mirth at the Edge of the Wood will be posted on October 31 🍂

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not me and banana babe spending the afternoon writing together like two toddlers playing different games of make believe in the same sandbox

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hello and welcome to my larry fic advent calendar, wherein I post one fic rec a day until the annual celebration of our lord and savior, LWT. 🎄festive🎄 Here we go 💫👇

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Banana babe read chapter 42 aloud tonight, and I had a bit of a moment. Zed to Louis: “you’re so obscenely loved” Me to me: “you’re so obscenely loved” It really is quite something, when your partner’s in charge of romance.

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An important message from banana babe:

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banana babe just shuffled into the room & said “bb what do u call it when 2 shellfish meet in secret” & i said “a clam bake” which i thought was clever for absolutely no reason until they grinned & hit me with “a clamdestine meeting” anyway this has been fish pun w atlas & dee

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This weekend @_falling_walls surprised me w this incredible copy of Foolish Wand-Waving. It’s been several days, & I’m still absolutely beside myself. (Yes, I cried. More than once.) I mean!! The cover design! The layout! The chapter illustrations!!! Brilliant 🥹 ily sammm 🖤

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