A cancer fighter and survivor. And fighting again. Triple negative breast cancer warrior. I bought a bus and converted it into a RV and have hit the road!
I made it through surgery! The doc said that the tumor was the size of a walnut, but right on the surface. I had a lot of pain yesterday, but much better today. They are moving me out of ICU this evening. Thank you all for your prayers and kind words!
@ThanksCancer
Tomorrow is scan day - bone, chest, and abdominal. I'm exhausted by everything related to cancer. I’m angry, sad, anxious, depressed, stressed and still in disbelief. A ball of emotion. But I’m not afraid. I’m more concerned with the interruption of my life.
My oncologist called me to come in today… this is my “WTH do you want,” face! I am soooo tired of coming to this place and dealing with this stupid ass disease!
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These pictures came up on my phone today. Five years ago I had my first chemo for this disease. I was so naive to believe that I would be cured and able to return to life afterwards
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I hate when people say that it could be worse!!! Yeah I know that, but I’m talking about myself and what I’m going through. And then people tell me not to hold things in. Well if ur going to dismiss what I’m feeling and going through 🤐
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I haven’t been to the cancer center since Sept. which means I haven’t started chemo. I was thinking of not going back at all-I’m tired of cancer. But I made my appt. for January. I really don’t want to go through it again
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#fuckcancer
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Hey guys! I have to say that you all are the most wonderful people ever! You made me feel so much better! My scans came back and I am still free of cancer! Whoohoo! Thank you guys for your prayers and kind words! You guys rock!
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Thank you guys for soooo many uplifting comments! You guys are the best!!! I had my pity party and now I’m back 💪🏾. Surgery scheduled and I’m ready to get pass this hurdle and move on to some non-cancer things!
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Is it effed up to feel ungrateful and want to give up when you know that although you have cancer, you are blessed bc things could be way worse?
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I’ve decided to take the next few days off. I’m just relaxing in bed, watching movies. I felt like life was starting to feel heavy and difficult. Stress and depression were starting to seep in. So time off!
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-I have to say that these complete strangers brought so much happiness and support to my life and I can say that they helped me get through the pain and…
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They’d already taken my breast, so when it came to having to shave my head, I took a couple of shots of Hennessy, said “f*ck it” and let my stylist who had been doing my hair for the prior 20 years shave it off 😞
This weekend we did a girl’s weekend to Austin, TX. A much needed break away from it all. I have an appointment with my oncologist tomorrow. I am not ready to return to my reality.
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I actually had a family member stop speaking to me because I decided to have chemo instead of going “the natural route.” Three years later and she still barely speaks. She thinks I should be drinking smoothies instead of putting poison into my body.
It amazes me 1) that people who’ve never had cancer feel that they can tell you how you got cancer, how you should feel and what your diet should be and then 2) get offended when you tell them to shut up and mind their own effing business
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So… I was scheduled for Cyber Knife on Monday and Tuesday. They called and canceled it saying the doc wanted to add more sessions but didn’t know why and the doc was out. Got scans results and I have a small tumor on the right & left side of my brain. WTF?
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Same here. Stole my great life and part of my spirit and soul. I’m trying to find it. I’m going on a solo cross country road trip to find some peace and quiet, so that I can concentrate on what my life is going to look like.
At this point, I mentally can’t deal with cancer. Haven’t been to the oncologist since September. I have an appointment next week, but I feel like skipping it 🤷🏽♀️
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My cancer is in remission. I feel guilty because of everyone who is still going through it. I’m trying to live every day to the fullest but the fear of it’s return interrupts that. My emotions suck! I bought a bus to convert into a camper.
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I had never smoked marijuana until cancer. But it helps to take my mind off of the entire cancer thing. Instead, I think about - if a moose and a deer had a baby, would it be a meese, a doose or a meer 🤨🤪
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@Jadeya123
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When the doc told me that it was cancer, my mom took my hand, looked at me and said, “we’ve got this.” And throughout this entire ordeal, she’s been there - my pillar of strength. And she was right - we’ve got this 💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾
@ughkirsten
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I’ve been there! Even when it was growing back and I had earrings on a guy called me sir. I’m tired of that and this cancer crap as well!!! Stand strong and don’t let it get you down!
@fitwithjanice
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My confidence was fine before cancer. Now it’s iffy - no hair, weight gain, scars, etc. Sometimes I look in the mirror with great horror and then sometimes I throw up my hands and just not care.
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The beforetimes…. Haaa! I do remember and miss those times. When I was normal, had my breast, could think clearly and didn’t feel like one of my arms is shorter than the other.
@jennyjennijenne
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@amanesciri76
@Mission_Rem
I have stage 4 TNBC and throughout the chemo, radiation and surgeries, I never “looked sick.” So ppl always and still think that I’m okay. I finally was able to tell them that I’m not healed, I’m not okay and every day I feel like I’m struggling. It felt great to say it out loud
On this day five years ago I was told that I had TNBC, they also said that I wouldn’t make it to the five year mark. Liars!!!! Only God knows my destiny! So today, we celebrated 🙃
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@FeedleFi
I’d start an organization that delivers fresh meals (breakfast, lunch and dinner) to individuals going through chemo. I would also provide transportation to and from office visits. And provide home help.
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I bought a school bus that I am converting into a rv. Mymom asked me if I was mentally stable bc I want to live in a school bus and drive around the country. I told her that my plan was to see beautiful places, meet people and RELAX. She thinks I am losing it.
@JennyClaySays
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We’ve been watching a tumor in my lung since December and it has stayed the same size. This scan showed that it’s still the same size, but now I have a tumor in the lining of my stomach - peritoneal metastasis
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And dishes! I ALWAYS kept my kitchen clean. Now 🤷🏽♀️ I suck at keeping the dishes washed. I buy paper plates, plastic utensils and aluminum pans and still end up with a messy kitchen 😖
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Exactly!!! People telling me - but you are cancer free now - make me want to vomit 🤢
I’m stage four and it has come back every six months since I was diagnosed!!!
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I like to say that I am being positive and then give the biggest fake smile that I can give, then roll my eyes and walk away. Being positive doesn’t make a tumor disappear - some people 🙄🙄
@PanCanBry
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I finally went and bought a pill organizer yesterday. I got tired of wrecking my brain trying to remember whether or not I’ve taken my meds every night. SMH 🤦🏾♀️
@mrmills1972
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I did not know this! I never even thought about why they say to get it flushed every 6 weeks. I haven’t had it flushed in a while. Not sure if it’s laziness or the fact that I hate going to the cancer center. I’m not trying to get any kind of infection so I’ll get it done.
@stacy_hurt
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@Spritestar
Rebuilding is difficult. I have no idea what to do or what to aim for. Most people don’t get it. Having your life plans snatched away and then told to enjoy your “new normal.” I don’t want my new, I want my old 😫😫😫
Before cancer, I'd never really thought about mortality. I mean, I knew that one day I'd die and the people that I love would eventually die as well. But I never really THOUGHT about it. Now I think about it daily, more than a few times a day. Mortali
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It’s still being worked on, but I plan on being done by May. Here are a few pics… the bed is built, as well as the shower and a pullout chair (if I ever have guests).
Cancer has taken so much away, but this year, I plan on doing it different. I will focus more on me and my happiness and I will work on letting go of my anger towards myself.
@irene606212
I did that for a year and it still came back. It’s come back 7 times. I don’t know what to do. I think I’ve tried them all. So now, I don’t deny myself, just work on quantity-don’t overdo it.
@cancerisSOFUNNY
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@terannjames
I was diagnosed at 45 and couldn’t work. I had to wait for eight months for disability to kick in and two years for Medicare and these bills are still kicking my ass!
@littlekbomb
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Mine don’t. Because I don’t look sick, they act like I’m not dealing with cancer or that I do not have a compromised immune system. I am still worried about COVID. People, including family suck!
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Here’s my boss and Lovee! The first pic is her looking at me bc it’s passed our bedtime, the second bc I turned the light on and the last is her taking in my tomfoolery 😂😂😂
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Struggle doesn’t begin to describe it! My real life support is here and strong. But I struggle every day. I’m exhausted- mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually.
@mikejwhelan
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I didn’t take it as being cruel. But I will never accept the little dumb things people say in regard to my having cancer. Just like I called the person who told me that it could be worse, I will continue to do. We all have a brain and b4 I had cancer, I asked
@FeedleFi
Thank you. I really am considering it. I look at all the things that my mother does for me and just can’t imagine what it’s like not to have anyone to help. I know that there are a lot of people out there that don’t have anyone and the service would help out a lot.
@blackgirlinmain
Same here. I learned a few years ago when a friend passed and I wondered if he knew that I loved him. From then on, I’ve made it a point to let people know that I love them.
I started a blog when I was first diagnosed. I don’t write as often as I should, but it helps to get my thoughts and feelings out. Cancer is hell on earth. Take a look if you’d like -
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I bought a bus!!!! Most of you probably remember that I was planning a cross country trip last year. That didn't happen due to my health but also because different people in my life projected their fears on me, making me afraid to go it alone.
@EyeVey
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I actually found a huge lump. It was like it appeared overnight. Not exactly in my breast, more up near my neck. I thought that I’d sprained my shoulder or pulled a muscle. Breast cancer wasn’t even a thought 😞
Tomorrow is scan day - CTscan, bone scan and brain scan. I hate scan day and all of the days that lead up to it. I don't think I have scanxiety, I'm just angry that I have to go through this every few months
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