Involuntary ECT shouldnโt be legal. Having a separate individual profess to know whatโs best for your own head, & that theyโre more entitled to your thoughts, talents, memories, emotions, & intellect than YOU are yourself is the ultimate Orwellian human rights violation
You stole my health from me, you stole my beauty from me, you stole my body from me, you stole my brain from me, you stole my talents from me, you stole my sexuality from me, you stole my family from me, & you stole my future from me. Fuck you, psychiatry.
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@Slatzism
I mean I was targeted by a pedophile at a pool when I was 3 years old. But I was wearing a normal swimsuit, so Iโm not denying what youโre saying. I think parents just like to **believe** they have more power to protect children from predatory individuals than they actually do.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
@trashgyn
Now Iโm just mentally envisioning a group of Barbies cornering & gangbanging & beheading a bunch of cowering Kens while wearing their big wide-ass happy grins plastered across their faces & pink polka-dot sundresses. Nightmare fuel.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
I feel SO angry. I feel SO cheated. I feel SO robbed. And what frustrates me the most is that I was RIGHT. That I was being harmed. But nobody took my complaints seriously. And now I have to suffer endlessly because of it.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
@BecauseIMatter
I used to think white males wouldnโt get gaslit either but my brother with Long COVID has been relentlessly gaslit. He doesnโt have the barriers to care that many other underprivileged folk do & itโs likely not to the same extent as women but it surprised me that it even happened
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
@ah_farsoud
@MarxistRealism
I appreciate you adding in your two cents on the issue. Itโs much more complicated than people are making it out to be & simply removing MAiD is going to cause more suffering without addressing the causes behind the housing crisis. Glad your quality of life has improved now! ๐ค
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
God: *Creates me*
Also God: โIโm going to give you a horrible rare disease where your immune system eats your own nerve-endings and slowly paralyzes/blinds you + leaves you in AGONY & trapped inside of your own body indefinitely and if you try to end it Iโll send you to Hell
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Iโm so sorry for anyone I inconvenience with my brain injury. Iโve cut people out of my life completely because of it. Iโm terrified of ruining everything. There are friends I havenโt talked to in years. They wonโt recognize this new me. This is inhumane to do to a person.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
I called my mother in tears over the phone in the psych ward & told her that ECT was hurting me, that my brain was fuzzy, that I was forgetting things, that I was losing myself. She kept dismissing me & even hung up on me. Now Iโm damaged for the rest of my life. Criminal.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Such a waste of a human being.
Castrated, lobotomized, given motor neuron disease. Who could this girl have been? She haunts me. And I torture myself with the memories I have of her.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Involuntary ECT shouldnโt be legal. Having another person profess to know whatโs best for your own head, & that theyโre more entitled to your thoughts & emotions & skills & memories & humanity than you are yourself, is the ultimate Orwellian human rights violation.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
I think that deliberately inflicting a brain injury upon another human being is one of the most f*cking disgusting things you could ever do to a person.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
I do feel raped, I do feel violated. It wasnโt sexual assault, but I feel so intimately tampered with and rearranged that it evokes the same overwhelming despair and disgust and grief and self-loathing. I want to claw out of my flesh to free myself. I hate psychiatry.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
I legit saw a post on here by a Catholic excusing the suffering we undergo as weโre dying as โkarmaโ for the type of life weโve led. Okaaaay, what โkarmaโ does a five year old terminal cancer patient have?
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
@prntgdcolonized
I once knew a kid that snapped a rabbitโs neck once. All of the adults were disturbed by him, but I was more concerned with what the adults in his life were doing to him to make him act out in that way. Itโs disgusting when the child is blamed for their abuse.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
How was this person me?
I never even got to be a girl and now Iโm dying in my twenties because of toxic drugs & shock my fucking parents forced on me
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
I hate SSRIs. I never want to return to a world where theyโre handed out like candy ever again. I couldโve had a beautiful life if not for psychiatry.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Family is a joke. If they have to drug you in order to โtolerateโ you itโs better to be alone. Unfortunately theyโve rendered me too disabled to live independently now.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
The akathisia that lead to me jumping out of a window made me so on edge. I spent the entire night wide awake & shaking. I felt like my legs were on fire and that shadows were talking to me. I was dissociating. It was horrifying, and now Iโm a cripple because of it.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
โWhat if people get MAiD because they donโt like being disabled!?โ
Umโฆ If a person is so incapacitated by a medical condition that they can no longer reasonably function or derive any joy from life, who exactly are you - a complete stranger - to demand that they continue?
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
@joeymarinoactor
@InsularEntropy
What happened to him was a despicable tragedy. ๐ I hope heโs free from his suffering now. He deserved so much better, as do all victims of Pharma.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Was I abused? Seriously abused? Am I allowed to be angry? Am I allowed to grieve? I donโt know what to think anymore. Iโm so confused over everything. This person isnโt me.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
The human body is kind of like a car. It reaches a point where the sheer amount of maintenance that it requires to maintain makes it no longer worth it because itโs just going to break down even further anyway.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
If you are against informed consent for SSRIs because knowing of the harm could deter certain people from being โhelpedโ by them then you are basically admitting the moment a person is harmed by them that you donโt care. Thatโs not what a humanitarian is.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Looking at old pictures of myself before my parents electrocuted me against my will and gave me motor neuron disease is a trip. Like, wow, a few years ago I still looked like a human being. Crazy what criminal assault can do to a person.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
I have to live with a TBI so severe I cannot sense that I have a body & I feel like a floating pair of eyeballs 24/7 because I had ECT forced on me against my will, lost years worth of memories & schooling & my artistic ability in my early twenties. How is this not criminal!?
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
I made a GoFundMe for my leg. This was a last resort. I donโt want to accept money from anyone but I canโt find any other way to go about affording this surgery. If anyone has any other ideas please let me know. This is a pic from my CT scan.
My soul was f*cking deleted and I cannot feel happiness or much of anything anymore. Drugging the sh!t out of children and then electrocuting their heads is rape/torture. F*ck anyone who says otherwise. I will suffer for the rest of my life because of what was done to me.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
I hate when people tell me โYouโre so young!โ
Donโt remind me. Donโt remind me that the Hell has only just begun.
Childhood psychiatry is an abomination.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
People think MAiD is disgusting but not the agonizing diseases that drive people to want to die. Because not *enjoying* being tormented by your own body 24/7 makes you a โeugenicistโ. Piss off with this twisted logic.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
I never really got to meet the me without PSSD. The real me. She died at age 10, when the adults in her life saw it fit to poison her and threaten her with forced administration if she refused.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
#LymeDisease
stole everything from me. I used to be beautiful & now I look like a corpse. I used to be an artist and now I can barely even move my arms (MND). I used to be a writer and now I can barely think. Itโs murder of the soul in the profoundest sense.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
@SurvivingCFS
I cry when I look at old photos of myself. Itโs insane how one can feel so dead yet still be alive.
Keep rocking on, youโre beautiful inside & out!
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
No matter how much I sleep, I never wake up refreshed. Just existing in & of itself is draining the life out of me. I feel as though the only way I could actually get a decent sleep would be in death.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
For me, just knowing I had the option of MAiD would bring about an overwhelming sense of relief. Iโd apply & wouldnโt necessarily go through with it immediately, but knowing Iโd been approved would be a massive weight off my shoulders & would eliminate the dread of the unknown.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
How can I prove that I sustained brain damage from ECT? Could an MRI reveal electrical lesions or something observable & objective? I want to pursue justice for what was stolen from me.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
โMost people like life.โ
So then *most* people *wonโt* be utilizing
#MAiD
, and yaโll can quit rambling on about half-baked conspiracy theories and undermining a hard won human right.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
@Orthotropics
Happened to me with anorexia. Very fascinating to witness and also feel your entire skull shifting beneath your flesh and muscles. My tongue also shrunk in size, retreating deeper in my mouth, and my neck craned forward as it did so.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Psych drugs cause eating disorders. I developed anorexia due to appetite suppression & wanting to starve away the resultant hormonally induced soft tissue deformations. My friends on APs got up to 300 pounds from the binging sprees. These are the antithesis of health.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
@Sebbakus
@englishtrad
MAiD is designed for cases like this. To empower people with choice & ownership over their own lives, rather than be dictated by the religious morals of strangers with no understanding of oneโs own lived experiences.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Idk how SSRIs can make people feel anything other than like theyโre actively dying
Please explain it to me because these drugs made me feel like I was being mummified from the inside out while I was on them
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
@EveSimmns
RUINED MY LIFE. Got 7 treatments against my will in 2020. STOLE MY MEMORIES. Iโm not creative anymore. I canโt stop dissociating. I get constant migraines now. I also started producing deadly autoantibody & am permanently disabled. Electricity DAMAGES. Avoid!
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Life really is an abomination for anyone who gets sick. Your body just continues to warp and rot and distort and youโre trapped in this deteriorating meat vessel, oozing, secreting, melting and in agony as you wait for death to finally take you.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Irrespective of your intentions as a parent, child psychiatry is child abuse. Your child only gets one mind & one body & itโs supposed to last them their entire lifetime. Taking reckless gambles with their health before they even finish development is inherently abusive.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
My mother said she was convinced I was broken from the moment I was born because I cried too much. Once a woman is convinced youโre broken sheโll never let it go. I wish Iโd had no adults in my life growing up. They medicalized my personality.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
@DiaryofaSickGrl
It gets mixed in with their fear of death. โA person with problems that *persist*โฆ humanity *doesnโt* have all the answers!? A vulnerability. It must just be them! Certainly not me, Iโm not weak, I will never succumb, and if something does happen the doctors will fix me!โ
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Iโm in denial. I keep clinging to the old me. But sheโs gone. Maimed. Brain fried repeatedly. Now a frail shadow of her former self. And I can never have her back. Itโs such a unique despair to mourn yourself while youโre still technically alive.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
The most terrifying thing about the psych ward was how delusional the women who worked there were. That they believed I was unreasonable for not wanting to doodle in childrenโs coloring books after having sustained life-altering injuries after surviving jumping off of a building.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Once psychiatry destroys you itโs FOR LIFE. Why are adults allowed to target children with this? Children cannot consent to lifelong castration. It is irreversible. Why is this okay???
#PSSD
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
The only thing I ever wanted in life was for my own body to belong to me and for other people to stop tampering with it and giving me irreversible health problems against my will.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
My mother told me today that she wouldโve forced ECT on me even if I hadnโt been in an accident, because Iโm โbrokenโ.
I hate my eugenicist family.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Iโm so sick of this. This isnโt a life. Thereโs no joy to balance out the suffering. Itโs nonstop, unending misery, and Iโm so blunted I canโt even grieve properly.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Aside from rape, ECT truly is the most evil thing your parents could ever possibly do to you. It is the modern lobotomy, & forcing your child to undergo it against their will multiple times as they beg you to stop, & forever robbing them of their talents/memories/mental capacity.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
All of the misery and suffering in my life was a direct result of psychiatry. Fluvoxamine castrated me & it persisted even as I went off. I became depressed as a result. My family convinced me to go on Pristiq. That made me so on edge & dissociative that I jumped out of a window.
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
ECT is a legal way for idiot parents to make their high IQ children stupid against their wills
You cannot make this shit up
Psychiatry is an abomination against mankind
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
I do love my parents. This entire account is just an incredibly unique form of grief, because few people on this earth will ever understand what itโs like to have their brain stolen before it even finished developing & their artistic gift forcibly removed from their skull
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Iโve tweeted so much cringeworthy garbage on here and itโs literally because I donโt have a filter or thoughts or emotions anymore to keep me in check
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
@adamfare1996
My school used to sit on small children until their faces turned purple & theyโd scream they couldnโt breathe & their eyes turned bloodshot. I had to watch them do it to my emaciated 11 yo friend, the woman was crushing her & she cried to me to help her. This abuse is commonplace
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The โMatrixโ ๐๐ฐ๐ (ECT torture survivor)
Idk why I even have this account because itโs not like my advocacy is going to go anywhere. PHarma is much too powerful. We can just bond over mutual suffering & try to serve as a warning to others but nothing changes the fact that weโre thoroughly screwed.