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Rayna

4 months

22 years ago today, I tried to come out to my dad for the first time. Here's a thread with that story, and the story of when I actually came out and transitioned years later, with the help of downhill skateboarding and king gizzard and the lizard wizard.

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3 months

2021 vs 2024 pic on the left was the day I realized I had to transition

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3 months

2021 vs 2024

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8 months

orchiectomy acquired! picture from last friday about 15 minutes before they took me off for the procedure. I'm really happy with how everything went and loved the team at Denver Health! they said I was their coolest patient of the day, and they played Dua Lipa in the OR

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9 months

Just scheduled my orchi for December 🥳

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2 months

@socalledcharlie "Never touch receipts or else you'll be a woman" lmao

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8 days

@BennieDotGay I'm 100% sure my dad is an egg. The way he's described how he doesn't identify with his reflection as he's shaving mirrors my dysphoria when I was repressing things. He's even said he doesn't feel paternal and is almost more maternal and I started calling him mom 2 after that

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7 days

whenever Ambrose plays harmonica on a king gizzard song

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21 days

I put on Le Risque and Dax just started rolling around on the couch

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2 months

@ShelleyBWoke Emily Deschanel!

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3 months

Got ready for a show then realized it's next month 😄

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1 month

@rejectHisDesign @gl00m3sp4wn It's possible, but I've never heard of someone having to get their E levels tested before surgery. If I had a surgery where they required that and tested, I would just continue taking it and then say that I had stopped and that I must just have very high E if they tested it.

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1 month

3 years on E 🎉 I ate really hot wings at hooters and it made my tummy hurt

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19 days

before and after feeding a girl a deep dish pizza

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2 years

@itslaureliza Ah this is so great. My pharmacist, also a trans woman, told me that there was a risk of birth defects if I was to get pregnant while taking my AA and to be careful.

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8 days

@normoboy @BennieDotGay I repressed my dysphoria a lot and was numb to it, but it still manifested as dissociation. When I would see myself in the mirror, it didn't actually feel like it was my face or my body. Sort of like if you had no idea what you looked like and then saw your reflection one day 1/.

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3 months

Daytripper show

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6 months

First day of work selfie 🎉

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25 days

in the texas roadhouse, straight up not jorkin it bc they got rid of all the penits

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8 days

@normoboy @BennieDotGay and were just like "oh, I guess this is supposed to be me?" And then going on to just, assume the role of the person that you saw in the mirror. I couldn't deal with self care when I presented as male and would look in the mirror and not really recognize,e it as me, just as 2/.

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3 months

Happy lesbian visibility week! I ended up with a goggle and boot tanline for almost a year but skiing closing day during pride was super fun

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2 months

@Joan_Atoms I mean, the glue is probably pretty tasteless and it is non toxic... what's the worst that can happen?

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8 months

Reminds me of when I went to a lesbian pride party and met an umphrees McGee fan that said that I looked exactly like what she thought a fan of king gizzard would look like (having never met one before)

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mina 🤹🏽‍♀️

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8 months

I remember once at this party I met a girl who was into jam bands and I told her I liked king gizzard and the lizard wizard and she went “oh so you’re a little fucking freak aren’t you”

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4 months

on July 24 2021. I came out on a video call with my family and read them a letter saying all of the above, and telling them my name. It has been a wild ride ever since, but I have lived more in the last 3 years than I did in my first 31 and only wish that I had done it sooner.

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8 months

This song is actually about going to the bathroom as a trans woman on estrogen

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3 months

@eschadiol i'm still looking for articles on it but it seems that nicotine interferes with the aromatase inhibitors that convert T into E, and in general estrogen can cause nicotine to feel more rewarding for your brain. my understanding was that it inhibits metabolism of E in all cases

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Rayna

11 months

If you really want to be a girl, maybe you just are one

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Alys Avalon 🏳️‍⚧️

11 months

If you want to be a girl, you can just be one ❤️❤️

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2 months

saw I Saw The TV Glow yesterday!

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2 months

Warpaint show 🙌

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4 months

how it would just completely implode the life I had built for myself. Then on Dec 10 2021, King Gizzard released the video for "If Not Now, Then When?", which I could only think about in the context of transition. At 31, I had lived longer than I wanted

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King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard - If Not Now, Then When? (Official...

Directed byDr D FootheadCharacter DesignCelia MarquisLead AnimationJackie SnyderBackground & Effects AnimationDr D FootheadStoryMegan BlatchfordDr D Foothead...

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8 months

@thornhawthorne I hate getting my hair cut, it's traumatic just because of the history I have with it. Until basically senior year of college my mom would cut my hair (basically just gave me a buzz cut) and I always hated it, but continued letting her cut it because of the pressure to present...

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2 months

Wand show 🥰

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7 months

Gf: I made a meme for you, I'm gonna tweet it hang on

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8 days

@BennieDotGay Also notably, 2/4 of my parents kids(me and my sibling) are transitioning, and the jury is still out on my brother. My parents may end up with 4 daughters instead of just one.

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28 days

my favorite hiking activity is kicking over those stupid stacked rock towers

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3 months

Picture of me from 8 years ago that ended up being a centerfold skate ad 🙌 (I'm in red and white on the bottom left)

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18 days

does anyone have a good doomsday cult I could join?

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3 months

Coworker told me I'm "top of the morning". Thanks but I'm actually a bottom.

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10 months

@Welcome2H These are my favorite characters of yours 💜

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4 months

If not now, then when, when I'm in my 60s? I knew that I had to change in order to be able to live my life. I was ready to actually come out and start transition. I started taking steps to transition, starting hormones 6/24/21 and finally coming out to my parents for real

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9 months

@gizzverse Transphobes have no place in the gizzverse

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3 months

coworker had to get a shot for her back and they said she could still work today, now she's at work talking about how high she is and it's like watching "baby's first time being high at work"

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4 months

almost nightly for god to help change me let me wake up as a girl, and when that didn't work I just hoped to have dreams where I was a girl. Since I didn't magically wake up in the right body one morning, I finally worked up my courage and picked April 1st 2002 as the day I

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3 months

this is yuri

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2 months

Found a cool plant 😳

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1 month

Fun botanical gardens pride night date 🥰💜💛

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7 months

Pipes are frozen and all I have to drink is seltzer 😔

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10 months

Had an interview this week where I said "I think you're only old when you quit skateboarding" and mentioned that my favorite band is King Gizz. They want me to come back again so I think it will end up being a good fit 😄

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2 months

What exactly do you do here?

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4 months

that if I ever had to be anaesthetized I might spill my guts, or that potential partners would be able to tell, and lived in pretty constant fear. Dysphoria made it difficult for me to really ever live my life and take care of myself, and made me feel really indifferent about

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4 months

If Stu hasn't ended a king gizz set with "alright see you later alligators" he needs to

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7 months

Or the best pussy of your life

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7 months

pov it’s 2011 and you’re about to get the worst dick of your life

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7 months

it's important to have little signals with your partner: if I ever use a bunch of ketchup on a meal they know its time to take me out back behind the barn

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10 months

Pretty cool signing into a game and seeing your vision for yourself 11 years ago come true

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2 months

It's ok, my girlfriend thinks my jokes are very funny and likes almost all of my tweets

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4 months

I had waited for the day for a while, planning to tell him on April Fool's day because I had wanted to be able to play it safe and gauge his reaction when I said the words "Dad, I really actually want to be a girl".

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4 months

my life and my body. At the same time, I started seeing videos of people doing really cool stuff on their longboards and racing downhill, and I realized it was something I wanted to get into (this is actually an important part of the story). I started skating and then moved to

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4 months

an embarrassing thing, something that the partner of the person on the show was shocked and disgusted to find out, which only added to me feeling that this was a shameful thing. Then, I saw something about Candace Cane, and saw she was a beautiful woman that people treated

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3 months

downhill skateboarding is a hell of a drug. this was 8 years ago today! docs said I'd never be able to skate again but I did my best skating after this and picked up skiing and downhill mountain biking too. this accident changed my life, if I could go back I would do it all again

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4 months

I ended up in the hospital for 13 days, only starting to remember things again starting on the 9th day. One of the first things I remembered was thinking of the transition journal and the woman's story, and then I realized that this injury was actually a blessing and I could

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2 months

@SigmaGirlfriend check out this list of informed consent clinics! I started my affirming care at an informed consent clinics because there was a long wait to get in with the program I initially wanted, it was a super easy process.

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8 months

most recent twyla picture!

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8 months

If you see this tweet, QT with the most recent photo you took of your pet. No cheating!

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7 months

*get a phone call* Voice on the other line: are your joints still running? Me: yeah... Voice: well, you should go catch them! *Cackles and hangs up*

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4 months

I ended up in the hospital for 13 days, only starting to remember things again starting on the 9th day. One of the first things I remembered was thinking of the transition journal and the woman's story, and then I realized that this injury was actually a blessing and I could

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4 months

use it to forget who I knew I was inside, and who I wanted to be on the outside. I vowed to never think about it again, and threw myself into my career and extreme sports as soon as I was able. I continued to bury my feelings for another 5 years, and then the lockdowns started.

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8 months

@KayElf3 @AlanaFeral wait for real? that's too great

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2 months

Twyla loves when I play The Silver Chord Extended vinyl

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8 months

@EuphoriTori I transitioned so that I could get people to help me open pickle/olive jars

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4 months

would come out to my dad, because surely if there was a way I could do this, he would be able to help me get care. I don't remember how he reacted exactly, but I knew at the time that I just had to leave it as "just a joke" and never talk about it again. I buried my feelings,

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4 months

every broken bone (>18). I had never felt more connected to my body than when I was skating downhill, and I knew that with the risk there was a good chance I wouldn't live past 30, which is exactly as long as I had thought I would ever want to live. Skating was an outlet for

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2 months

Great job babe, I had a boner until you regaled me with tales of your losses in fortnite

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10 months

My top 5 KG songs (in order) 1) Her and I (Slow Jam 2) 2) The River 3) If Not Now, Then When? 4) O.N.E. 5) Head On/Pill

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4 months

because surgery was scary and not something I knew I wanted yet, and unlike the woman in the journal I was not straight and was exclusively attracted to women. I buried myself and my feelings deep in the closet, always afraid that someone would find out my secret. I was scared

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4 months

"normally" and not just as some "freak", which is what I felt I was at the time. This was sort of my first glimmer of hope, that maybe someday that could be me. I knew that there must be SOME way to change my sëx and be who I knew I was "on the inside". I remember praying

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4 months

Colorado, my sights set on the mountains and downhill skating. As I learned how to skate, I learned I really enjoyed pushing myself physically and the injuries that came with it. "The body is evil and must be punished" was a motto, and I relished every bit of road rash and

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2 months

i'd be a GREAT sleeper agent, i love sleeping

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8 months

My girlfriend has trained a pavlovian response in me where I hold my hand out whenever I hear the bag of edibles rustle

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4 months

feeling like there was no way that I could ever be the woman I knew I was meant to be. Despite my best efforts to drown them out, these thoughts were the backdrop for the rest of my time in highschool and college. I continued reading about it and thinking about it almost

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4 months

Growing up, I had always wanted to be a girl, but felt that this was "wrong" because of my very conservative upbringing, and not seeing anyone else that really seemed to be like that too. The first time I saw tråns people was on shows like Maury, and it was always presented as

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3 months

@eschadiol Like regardless of how the E is administered (orally, injections, or produced by the body)

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8 months

not to kink shame, but...

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4 months

my desires to self harm, and the constant adrenaline helped to drown out my inner voice. After years of skating and pushing myself, it finally caught up to me and I had a pretty horrible accident, crashing into a car head first and being carried off unconscious on a stretcher.

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4 months

Through 2020 my feelings were becoming harder to ignore, slowly growing until October 2020 when I realized that I could no longer live my life as this person everyone perceived me as and the identity of "grody skate rat" I had cultivated. I kept thinking about transition and

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2 months

the first time the church betrayed me as a little girl was when I found out the mocha at the coffee shop was just store brand hot chocolate and folgers

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24 days

if you're waiting for a sign, this is it!

@3letter_

3 random letters every 10 mins

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H r t

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3 months

cringe: my gf is dating a reddit mod 🙄 (monogamously)

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3 months

At a work lunch that was wizard of Oz themed and a lady dressed as Dorothy was standing holding a little brown dog. I asked if I could pet it and she said yes but it's a hand puppet.

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24 days

@silvercourd They do have to pay you for those two days still! If they don't pay you, you can report the unpaid wages to the department of labor!

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10 months

@THEPRINCEWIFE I just don't need to at this point with how stuff changed for me which is pretty neat, but I never tucked since it just seemed like a bunch of work

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8 months

@Yona_Mlem Hell yeah! Getting mine chopped in 15 days!

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6 months

writing my ex's phone number in bathrooms: "For a toothy time call ###"

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2 months

@Joan_Atoms If their pizza is really bad it might be worth them trying it

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19 days

why do they call it frotting instead of cockfighting

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2 months

@silvercourd No I think KG is free of silly voices, unless you count the "woo!" In hungry wolf of fate maybe?

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8 months

@KayElf3 @AlanaFeral holy shit that's great

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4 months

constantly. Through some webring, I had found a journal describing a woman's transition and the steps she took and I would pore over it, trying to understand myself. It was hard to relate entirely to her story, and it left me in my teens feeling that I couldn't be tråns

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9 months

Just scheduled my orchi for December 🥳

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7 months

do they change the layout of the grocery store every week, or is it just me?

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11 months

@realamandarae @Veronicaeve32 Yeah, weight cycling like that helps a lot I think, kind of a pain but totally worth it

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2 months

Flipped off an old lady just now in the McDonald's drive thru idgaf

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8 months

why my partner is such a good fit for me:

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