healing is so fucking frustrating.. it’s like you’re doing well, you’re forgiving, you’re letting shit go and you’re working on processing through it all then BOOM, traumatic shit enters your mind and you have to start all the way over processing those feelings & getting past it.
We grow up, you know? We don’t stay the same exact person. We see things differently, we think differently, we even act and look differently. And there’s no good or bad, there are human beings choosing to learn or keep making mistakes.
I hate being so sensitive. I hate being able to detect the slightest change in the way people message me, or talk to me, or look at me. I hate overthinking about it for the whole night. I hate when I can feel someone is slowly losing interest in me.
If I ever stop talking to you & remove you from my life, I hope you understand how hard it was for me. I have a bad habit of holding onto the little bit of good in ppl, no matter how bad they clearly are for me. So if I don’t fw you anymore, it’s bc you pushed me past my limits
this is the part of my life where I silently remove myself from anyone who drains me more than they replenish me, brings me more stress than they do peace, hurts me more than they love me & tries to stunt my growth rather than encourage it, I’m done w/ trying to make things work
I want to talk about what happened without mentioning how much it hurt. There has to be a way. To care for the wounds without reopening them. To name the pain without inviting it back into me.
Being a jealous partner not because you think your partner will cheat, but because you’re scared they will leave you for literally anyone because everyone is better than you.
never ignore your gut instinct. you’re not paranoid. your body can pick up on bad vibrations. if something deep inside of you says something is not right about a person or situation, trust it.
If it hurts you to hear something you probably needed to hear it. Everything happens for a reason & just because things might not be okay at the moment doesn’t mean they will never be okay again. You will make it out of whatever you are going through, better than you were before.
the older you get the more you start to see how important privacy is. not everyone needs to know what goes on in your life keep the beautiful things between you & God, not everyone wants the best for you. some people wish for your downfall & others just envy you. move in silence.
Do you ever notice yourself getting bad again…like, you know you’re not doing work that needs to be done, you know you’re not cleaning, you know you’re not taking care of yourself…you know all the things you need to do to start trying to feel better. But you just can’t.