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I talk about things to a depth nobody asked for | She/They | 🏳️‍🌈 | 🇵🇭 | studioespxr @gmail .com

New York, NY
Joined March 2015
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@LudwigAhgren I mean isn't that the type of creator they marketed to?
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Wingman Full Squad Wipe in 20 seconds. 100 damage on everyone. @PlayApex #apex #apexlegends #apexclips
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Okay. Ready for an early morning hot take? 🧵 Suguru didn't ask Satoru to come with him because if he had asked Satoru probably would have followed him. I hope you're sitting down.
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They made their choices.
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@Velinxi Please tell me there’s more of this and I can read it somewhere
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2 years
Suguru knew the dark path that he was treading down. He wasn't dumb or delusional or under the assumption that what he was doing was moral. It was just right FOR HIM. He knew it wasn't right for Satoru. Suguru had always served as Satoru's moral compass and his guide to
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@nbcthegoodplace cultural impact: █    █  █  █  _ Jameela Tahani Jamil Al-Jamil Fixed it for you ;) @jameelajamil is the literal best.
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Satoru and his relationship with him. He didn't NEED to meet with Satoru. He didn't NEED to meet with Shoko. But this last meeting was his parting gift to them. He said his goodbyes to Shoko. And Suguru's parting gift to Satoru was the awakening of Satoru's own moral compass.
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navigating their world. From this well known line of Suguru urging him to speak more politely to his superiors to the infamous "Are you the strongest because you're Satoru Gojo or are you Satoru Gojo because you're the strongest?" Suguru has done a lot of emotional work for
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Satoru picked the latter. At that point Suguru had nothing left to give Satoru and he refused to take anything that Satoru would give him. That's why he acted the way that he did. And that's why I believe he had it in his power to convince Satoru to come with him.
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malleable in its infancy. He could've had a weapon. But instead what Suguru gave Satoru and the Jujutsu world is the greatest good that it could ever have: A moral person with the power to enforce their morality. Suguru could've ghosted him.
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There are many reasons why Suguru killed his parents. But I will state the one reason that is relevant here. This is something that certifiably accepted as evil. Even with the entire village that he massacred Satoru had essentially offered up the same thing to him the year before
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But instead he first made sure that Satoru was well equipped to tackle the dilemmas he would face without him. And it was a simply question that had no answer yet. "Are you Satoru Gojo because you're the strongest or are you the strongest because you're Satoru Gojo?"
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IF Suguru's ONLY transgression was the massacre of that village then there was a chance Satoru would have simply forgiven him. If Suguru applied his cult leader charisma to Satoru who loved him deeply, he could have exploited that connection while Satoru's morality was still
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I was sobbing too much to get the words out today, but thank you to everyone who helped me get here. My team, my friends, everyone who hosts, watches, subs, donates, and lurks. I couldn't have done it without you. I'm a @Twitch Partner now.
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2 years
Here is what I learned about the JJK fandom from making that video on misogyny: 🧵
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Got my physical copy of @noranb_ ‘s Unrequited. It looks soo good. 🥹
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@noranb_ I agree that it wasn’t clear. But context or not jumping to literal death threats is not okay when speaking about a literal fictional characters. Fictional characters should never be put over the well being of real life people. There are better ways to handle it.
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This is my final thought for the night. And this is really where the root of my anger stems. This could have been way better if we have fostered a space in where femme presenting creators aren’t scared to tell their experiences.
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There are so many people who don’t understand this. And so many people who continue to perpetuate shitty behaviors insisting it’s not misogynistic. And so many people out there who don’t examine their behaviors or dig deep enough as to why they “just don’t” like things.
@colleensmanga
Gender: Colleen
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Hating feminine things or anything adjacent to women IS misogyny. Taylor Swift, PSL, One Direction, Twilight, fruity alcoholic beverages, UGGs, BTS, The Notebook, leggings All feminine things that are made fun of JUST for being feminine adjacent.
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@LudwigAhgren You’re making that man relive his trauma.
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@omnicollector @TaySpokes Can I come over and make a virtual library in a spreadsheet? I will bake cookies as offering to the manga gods.
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Well, that's one way to nerf the Wingman. It's okay. I've still got my Peacekeeper. ;) #Apex #ApexLegends #ApexClips
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@MOONMOON_OW I clipped this gem last night
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6 years
Similar dress. 17lbs lighter. And infinitely more confident. I've still got a bit more to go. But definitely gonna keep on keto to lose more weight. Here's hoping I'm down at least another 10 before October.
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Reading @gabydunn 's Bad With Money book and I'm already hooked. I like books with personality. This book has it.
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Sometimes streaming is really tough but I like to focus on the positives. I hit over 120k views on my channel. 200 subs. Over 4.5k follows. Our Discord is almost at 500 members. And I've become a part of an amazing stream team. Thank you everyone for your support.
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Bitches, bros, and non-binary hoes. We did it. Thank you for taking a chance on me especially when I barely had any views. Thank you for growing with me. Thank you. I’m going to keep making more and more content. I will always innovate and do my best to be better.
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This has gotta be bait bc when I was doing JJK videos the most common sentiment was, “Someone not just recapping the chapter and actually doing analysis and theories. Finally!” Sorry but who are these shonen YouTubers that are soooo ✨good✨
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@haydensbakery it seems very shallow compared to shonen content, like yeah shojo analysis exists those eight people are trying their best, but imagine getting one of these shonen tubers on one of these series they'd run laps around them haha
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This isn't even a rare occurrence. There are really guys out there who just fucking hate women for existing and they'll attempt to make you just as miserable as they are for just being in the same game.
@littlemotac_
Mollie Evans is 🪫✨
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'SeXiSm DoEsN't ExIsT iN vIdEoGaMeS aNyMoRe' you say? well i raise you, this thing~
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okay tl asleep i'm gonna finally say it. the fact that gege planned this twist and this whole thing hinged on the technicality of the word "anyone" is dumb as shit.
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TwitchCon bound. ✈️ I'll see you later, New York. I can't wait to see everyone. 💜
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2. People refuse to understand the concept of internalized misogyny. I have it. You have it. But self-reflection is tough and it's easy to just make misogyny into a bad word and think that your mangaka is good and therefore not misogynistic. I think that Gege is trying his best.
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There is also the dialogue of Takeda saying how he has some savings that he could chip in for the volleyball team that Coach Ukai dissuades him from doing. Overhearing this though leads Yachi to create the posters for the donations.
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!!!! and this is just the most obvious example, visually speaking
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Our animanga space still hasn’t grown to the point where femme presenting creators are fully comfortable and supported and accepted. At large it is still very much a misogynistic space. While your immediate circle might not be the problem look further.
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How hasn't sexist guys in voice comms on literally any multiplayer game not gone extinct yet. It's 2021. Girls play video games. This verbal abuse isn't "normal" this is just sad and pathetic. If you can't handle a girl talking in a video game, newsflash you're the sensitive one.
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Okay, so I've been gushing about this all day, but I started keto about a month and a half ago and I've been really good with sticking to it. I weighed myself today and I've lost almost 16lbs. Which is insane and I just honestly wanted to keep saying it cause I'm so excited.
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hey :)
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@G0ffThew Plus Rukia is the biggest shipper of Ichigo and Orihime.
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try to tell me that the animanga community isn't misogynistic when putting out just the thumbnail of my video talking about jjk's poor treatment of its female cast lost me 20 subscribers lmao good riddance. don't let the door hit you on the way out 🫡
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@studioespxr
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I think that it's appropriate that my first meal in Cali is In N Out.
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@studioespxr
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And men of this space, I want you to know I am holding you to a high standard. It is not enough to just be upset. We are building this space together. We are collaborators, creators, and friends. We all exist in this space and we need to be responsible with how we build it.
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Unfortunately most men in the animanga space only look to other men to teach them how to act in these times. So teach them empathy and call out your peers who aren’t showing up for the victims. To the men who are showing up for us. I see you. And thank you.
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Is he maybe coming up short? Yeah, but I can recognize that, point it out, and not hate Gege for it. What a revolutionary concept, right? I think that the best way to combat misogyny in these spaces to be accepting of the people who are willing to change. Gege has shown an
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SDCC was a riot. I hope I can come back next year. 📷: @swaynami
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I think I clean up okay. (I still have no fucking idea what business casual means. But the docs stay.)
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They look like the cast to a sitcom.
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@studioespxr
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This is a nice little thing to see. 3000 follows. Never thought I'd get here. I remember struggling super hard to hit 1500 follows not more than a couple months ago. I more than doubled my follows. Everyone in the Tarkov community has been so immensely kind to me. Thank you. <3
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Inching my way toward 50k slowly. Thank you for 38k on TikTok! 🖤😘
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1. The fandom is clinging really hard on the possibilities of what can happen. Which I understand. Been there done that. It would be interesting to explore this aspect when the manga is done because I think people tend to attribute good intentions to things they like.
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I've embraced the fact that I'm always just gonna be wearing all black.
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active effort in telling female narratives and uplifting them. He is not a misogynist in the way that everyone views it. But I think that like many of us he has internalized misogyny and that has influenced the writing quite a bit.
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My latest video that I’ve been working on for the past month is finally live on my channel. How Naoya is actually the key to understanding Kenjaku’s plan. (Thumbnail art by @MyralliaUriel )
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I'm laughing cause it's true. 🤣🤣 10/10 skit. It's fucking weird when it comes from regular viewers too. The whole you're not like other girls thing. Pro tip: NEVER FUCKING SAY IT. My girl friends on this platform are fucking insanely wonderful. I wanna be more like them.
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Thank you @KleanStreams for the host you absolute beast <3 I honestly can't wrap my mind over all the support you've given me man. We hit 1000 subs today with hundreds and hundreds of gifted subs. I can't wrap my head around the fact that that's a number I get to see. Ily guys.
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While I'm spamming you guys with tweets. I cut all my hair off.
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BRO THE WAY KURAPIKA IS JUST LOVINGLY CLOSING HIS EYES AND LISTENING TO HIS VOICE. This man who only knows hate goes soft for Leorio. I cannot. HxH 1999 really was the superior version.
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there is no possible heterosexual explanation for this scene
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This is an oddly specific request, but help me out. Does anyone know an artist that does 90s anime aesthetic backgrounds/art? I'm looking to commission. Kinda like these:
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I. Can't. Fucking. Believe. You. Guys. Two days in a row. 205 GIFTED SUBS. An insane host from @Deadlyslob . And so many follows. I can't wrap my head around it. We're at 4 new emotes. And 185k+ views. And working toward 6k. Again. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart.
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Clutch as fuck 1HP armor swap. I've been having a tooooooon of fun on #ApexLegends . Thanks for coming to chill with me today. You guys are awesome.
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@studioespxr
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With the other @PlayApex clip blowing up. A lot of the comments are asking me to do that with any other gun. This is a 2v1 with the G7. And everyone's favorite gun. The mozambique. Enjoy. #apex #apexlegends #apexclips
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There's something vaguely poetic going back to @DayZ and getting the same exact first spawn I got when I first started playing. (My computer has improved massively since 5 years ago. Also I now know how to change my aspect ratio.)
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There are so many things that has pissed me off about this drama but the one main thing that has been really, really rubbing me the wrong way is this insistence on men to be aloof to their friends. Men can and should show affection to the people they care about. 1/
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I swear some people just be talking out the side of the neck
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This was an amazing video. Any artists who follow me interested in publishing a book, this is an amazing resource. Sha'an consistently puts out great advice and this is no exception.
@furrylittlpeach
Sha'an d'Anthes
4 years
HOW TO MAKE A PICTUREBOOK! I share everything I know about making a picturebook after having published my second! From idea, to getting published, storyboards, roughs, final artwork and beyond! Pre-order Bandits here:
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The PUBG party was fucking amazing. This weekend just keeps getting better. To old and new friends. Doesn't get much better than this.
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@manga_nostalgic I also prefer this person’s father.
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bro this jjk chapter lmao
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I raise everyone who has ever said they have 1HP in @PUBATTLEGROUNDS @poopieQueen
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I love all of these “checkmate stop applying your western ideals to my anime” comments. I grew up in the Philippines in a very matriarchal family. My family continues to be very matriarchal. But western commenters. Please feel free to tell me more about Asian culture. :)
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I have to say the most common thing that was said to me during the convention was, "Esper, you're so smol." So I got the two tallest guys in our group and took this picture.
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🖤💀
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@MissGinaDarling
Gina Darling
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Thirst traps are disgusting. I hate them. Hot people who post thirst traps should be ashamed of themselves. Have some modesty. If a bunch of hot people replied to me with their best thirst trap pix, I’m gonna be so upset. So you better not or I’ll get so mad 👀
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@CDawgVA None of us are but you know we’ll still read those chapters the moment they come out.
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@studioespxr
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I recently just started hanging out with IRL friends more. It was so weird to have to get used to being called my real name instead of "Esper."
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8 years
Also, I'm so in love with the The Long Dark. I'm gonna make a point to stream it more.
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@studioespxr
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6 years
I also just wanna share this clip of me absolutely owning this guy.
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I have a pet peeve and it's people thinking you can't like a series and criticize it at the same time. If I just blindly liked things my analytical opinion wouldn't be worthwhile.
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I took out the camera and snapped a bunch of overexposed pictures. Enjoy the only good one.
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So remember a few weeks ago when I posted my #apex kobe? Well, I have literally outdone myself. #apexlegends
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I mean. I’m glad Nobara is back but let’s not pretend that JJK knows how to write consequences properly. The binding vows have been a constant source of get out of jail free cards for necessary plot movements. Despite their importance no real consequences ever came of them.
@FallenAngelJ4Y
Jefe🎭
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you know what I love about jjk??? its the fact that consequences stick… my biggest criticism for nobara if she came back would’ve been the speed in how she did & in what condition. one of Gege’s biggest strengths as an author is how his antagonists impact these characters -
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Today is my birthday. It's been a long journey for me of being part of the anime and manga community. So here is a thread 🧵of the five anime and manga that define me. My video is here: But I also wanted to share with Twitter in this format ⬇️
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I FOUND THE ORIGINAL "It's a boat, Deckerz. It doesn't go on land." CLIP. OMG. I THOUGHT IT WAS LOST FOREVER.
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@studioespxr
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Braids or no braids? Reppin some @BDG_Esports merch to run some errands today.
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I don't care what anyone says. This dog is the cutest thing in existence.
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I'm trying to pack my whole life into boxes and this cute motherfucker is just asking for pets.
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It was so nice seeing you again @Eryn_NotErin 🖤
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@studioespxr
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Thank you so much for the host today @Deadlyslob . I promise I didn't start crying again. I appreciate having everyone around. And I thoroughly enjoyed my first full stream as partner.
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Things are unfolding really quickly right now and I don't have a lot of coherent thoughts which I know is a rarity for someone who can't stop talking, but I am stunned. First things first the most important thing is that YOU ARE ALL SO, SO VALID IN YOUR EXPERIENCES.
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@studioespxr
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DUUUUUDE. Waking up to find that my last JJK theory was right is CRAAAAAAZY. Ahahaha. This is fucking insane.
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pls watch. for bi visibility. (i’m bi and i’m visible in the video)
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NYC subway vs. Tokyo subway
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@Its_Ridio @PlayApex This is an R301 2k clutch. I like to think my tracking was pretty good. ;)
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Clutch as fuck 1HP armor swap. I've been having a tooooooon of fun on #ApexLegends . Thanks for coming to chill with me today. You guys are awesome.
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I want you to know I took like 200 photos and I hated all of them. But I literally took all these clothes out of my closet. 😂 My corset also laces in the back and not the front 🙃
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@studioespxr
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4 years
A collection of emo outfits (I love the shorts because it has pockets!)
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@studioespxr
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1 year
@Leelioh Fwiw, I think you did a great job setting boundaries and expectations. You acted in line with the things that you said. The homophobia with her accusations is so awful. You don’t need a reason to not want a relationship. A no is a good enough reason.
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@studioespxr
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6 years
I was high key scared that I wasn't going to get any viewers playing a different game but you guys showed up and hung out. I had loads of fun playing The Forest. We're back to Tarkov Thursday. Thank you for the support. Butt touches for all. <3
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@studioespxr
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6 years
I'm working on a tutorial video today and a highlight video. Then I think tomorrow I'm going to go and play something other than Tarkov. I think with how frustrating it is for me right now it's hurting my channel more than helping it. Thanks for understanding. ❤️
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@studioespxr
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5 years
Not feeling well? Tea. Wanna feel cozy? Tea. Feeling cold? Tea. Feeling hot? Tea. Need to sleep? Tea. Need to feel awake? Tea Suck at video games? Sorry, even tea can't fix that.
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@studioespxr
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2 years
Reply to this with a manga panel you still think about to this day. I wanna see something.
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@studioespxr
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7 years
Look at all these fucking qts. Going to PAX was the best decision I've made. It's surreal meeting people I've known for years for the first time.
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