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@sanbnuy
Broke my four day fast with a couple strawberries I got from the fridge
My dad was in the kitchen at the time and when I was taking them out he laughed and said that I was like a "bottomless pit"
went back to my room and had a crisis over that๐
I constantly forget that I'm not 13 anymore ITS SO BAD
I'm sorry to the 13 y/o I followed I swear I'm not creepy I'm just perpetually age frozen and forgetful๐ญ
The new "starving pals" in an attempted replacement of "starving interrupted" is so funny to me
STARVING PALS
PALS ๐ญ
why are you starving mi amigo, my palโ๏ธ
it sounds like a kids show all I can think of is bluey HELP ME
๐ชบ๐ฆ๐โจ๐Starving Pals๐๐๐ป๐๐พ
Anyone else sometimes get the "if I didn't log it I didn't eat it" mentality
Ignoring the hoard of blueberries I just shoved down my gullet
think I'd rather stay blissfully unaware floating around in lala land
My mum "I haven't asked you in a while, how much do you weigh? Are you still loosing?"
I panicked and said 57.8kg (I'm 50.6kg๐) and that I'm not loosing anymore
She said that sounds good and that I shouldn't go bellow 57kg HELP
If she knew I want to get to 37kg she'd flip out๐ญ
Seeing mutuals harming themselves in any way shape or form makes me sad even if I happen to not know them on a personal basis
But the moment its myself anything that isn't the extreme is just embarrassingly pathetic like๐
slit to the bone you stupid fucking bitch
do you get me
There is absolutely no way I just did 21k steps circling around my room this tracker has got to be wrong HELP ME? If it really is that easy...
Okay goodnight my feet hurt
I'm a blind ass I'll see an intro pop up on my tl give it a read before following but the amount of times I've mistaken someones age for their bmi is abysmal
I'm sorry I thought you were bmi 12 not that YOU ARE 12๐ญ
12 y/os on edtwt makes my heart ache
I wish you only happiness
Who bookmarked the photo of my chest WHY DID YOU BOOKMARK IT YOURE FREAKING ME OUT
DID YOU DO IT FIR GOOD REASONS OR BAD REASONS ๐ญ
SHOW YOURSELF.
They're secretly making fun of me chat
Do people on shedtwt have friends
like actually genuinely I'm serious
I technically have one friend whom I haven't seen in ages though aside from that the only people I see are the family members I live with๐
I may be THE loser I'm afraid
Guys did you know that if you actually give into the craving you mind goes quiet? thars CRAZYYY (I had the stupid bloody biscuit I've been eyeing off for the week๐)
I feel so much better now I was a miserable piece of shit over a biscuit jesus christ
pick a struggle god
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name: Dorian
pronouns: Any/all
height: No idea
sign: Aquarius
piercings: 2
tattoos: 0
drink: Tea
food: Can't decide๐ญ
animal: Birds
mbti: Infj
status: Single and never going to mingleโ๏ธ
@sanbnuy
LITERALLY
It sends me into a loop of being paranoid that I'm eating too much but then also feeling good that they can't tell when I'm undereating/dont think that I am
Why are my arms always numb and tingly I swear it's been so bad recently
It spreads down my forearms it's so uncomfortable doing anything
Can't tell if it's muscle based or nerve based but it's driving me crazy
Why do my parents decide that going for a "family walk" two days in a row is a good idea
Why are you trying to bond with adolescents like they're toddlers
I do NOT want to go to a park and fumble down a rickety neon yellow slide that's seen better days??? Help??? ๐ญ
Mastered making volume meals so well that it's actually incredibly difficult to reach my maintenance throughout the day๐
What do I do with my spare 407cals...
I find it funny how a couple months ago I would've cried and had a full on breakdown for eating 600 cals total for one day
but rn I'm considering eating 600cals before going out tonight to make sure I have some energy and don't feel faint๐
There is absolutely no way I just did 21k steps circling around my room this tracker has got to be wrong HELP ME? If it really is that easy...
Okay goodnight my feet hurt
Was literally not hungry at all throughout the day but just binged probably 1200cals in less than an hour ermm
Don't hate myself for it as much as I thought I would which is kind of odd
Like why do I feel unbothered by this I'm more concerned over my nonchalance than the binge๐
Loose skin and skinny fat is a deadly combo
Doesn't matter how much weight I lose I'll always hate my body no matter what because I'm too much of a lazy fuck for body recomp
Maybe one day I'll get desperate enough
But that day is certainly not today๐
How do peoples food here look so scrumptious mine looks like prison food help me๐ญ๐ญ
Listen as long as it gets in my mouth it doesn't have to look nice I vuess
when doing those cute food poles I am PERSONALLY offended when majority vote picks incredibly AGAINST the option I chose
Literally what the fuck do you mean you'd chose THAT over the OTHER option? you are crazy
I am right YOU are wrong
Twt probably sick of me now but oh my god my arm is so bad my weak ass has been crying for an hour over the pain๐
Want to tell my mum since she's a nurse but I'm worried that she'll see the lack of definition in my arms and realise I haven't actually gained any weight๐ญ
Help me
my mother just finished telling me how she's proud that I have overcome my issues and have been taking better care of myself in the past 3 years (My mental health is the lowest it's been, I have gotten worse๐ญ)
Nodding and smiling as if I wasn't going to kms 2 days ago๐
Took off my socks to find them soaked from my heels bleeding you've got to be kidding me
no wonder people had been giving me strange looks today oh my god๐ญ๐ญ
Is anyone else's biggest absolutely hysteria inducing fear being perceived yet at the same time all you've ever wanted is to be truly seen
yeah me neither that's so funny am I right
Guys I actually cannot cook for shit
I just throw ingredients in a bowl or like all separated๐ญ
I want to start making "meals" rather than just random shit together
Anyone got recipes or recs of accs that have good recipes
Preferably low cal
I'd look myself but why not ask twt
@atariarii
Congrats!
didn't realize at first the red was to censor your feet and that you weren't wearing fluffy red socks like Elmo or something๐๐
guys why don't you love lil ol' me (I fell off๐)
I will weasel my way back into relevancy somehow
boredom allows ample time for stupidity after all
and not only am I stupid
but constantly bored too
Being a loser with no friends has its benefits because if I wanted to post images on this acc I wouldn't have to worry about irls figuring out its me because I have only one irl thats on twt๐
Why some days am I able to completely take food off of a pedestal and actually forget to eat anything
and then other days I think about food every waking second to the point of insanity๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
Social anxiety out in the world is bad as it is
but when it carries over into digital/online spaces..๐
Tell me why I assume some random person online wants me brutally murdered if I like their post
I am inferior I'm sorry for intruding your domain I won't do it again ๐
What part of my body will I think is obscenely wide tomorrow?
- Ribcage?
- Hips?
- Shoulders?
- Stomach?
Take your lucky guesses folks
I'll give you a special prize
(I won't)
Why do I talk more to randos on twt than people I actually know
Have srs anxiety attacks when I want to message a decade long friend first and literally have to psych myself up
yet can reply to tweets & moots at the drop of a hat
Dorian twt alter ego igโ๏ธ๐ช(chronically online)
Was using my phone to check if my sweater properly hides the heinous bloat I have rn
though now just realized my ass literally has a negative circumference
there is NOTHING there
the fabric of my pants around my ass is all saggy and crinkled i did NOT know it was that bad
help
Nan and mum praising me for eating so healthy
As if my vision isn't blurry and my legs don't currently feel like they're about to give out as we walk around with coffee๐
Nevermind I will most certainly NOT be doing this I weighed ingredients for lunch wrong so what I thought was a total of 558cal today was actually 943cal.
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943cal.
This is the last straw I am actually going to lose it
Guys should I start prioritizing quality over quantity
Like as in having a higher intake but trying to really only have "okay" things
I know jack shit abt nutrition and get scared shittless anytime I go over 500 cal so idk how this would go...
Why am I suddenly in so much pain over the last couple days I'm literally not even restricting currently
Someone tell my body to get a grip fucking hell
waiting on a response from my unit coordinator
rocking back and forth
come on man come on I need your response THIS INSTANCE or else I will be spiraling into insanity I cannot wait another nanosecond
Agonize about making sure each macronutrient is present in all my meals
then act shocked if nothing bad happens when I don't have all three
You are not going to fucking burst into flames like a firecracker
Yet I continue the cycle๐ญ
every time I relapse I cant believe the fact that I went without it
like how'd you survive
cutting is just too good chat it is๐ฏ
I could go days, months, years even but I'll always go back to it at some point
I don't see it as a bad thing
Its just nice like a cup of tea yk
Chat this may be a shocker but I think there is a slight chance that I might be mentally ill
Just a slight chance
Very slight
Very little
Very small possibility
Miniscule
Mayhaps
I hate knowing that I'll never look the way that I really want to bc of all the loose skin on my body๐ญ
I look like that wrinkly microscopic organism I forget what they're called
this
when I bend this is what I look like chatโผ๏ธโ๏ธ
This thingy
1. Insanely but would feel guilty
2. Insanely but would feel guilty๐
3. I'd be real shitty
4. INSANELY BUT WOULD FEEL GUILTY
5. No I think theyre corny anyway sorr
6. NO
7. Would really depend on the person
8. (?)I'm not sure honestly
reply with "." for questions
Just woke up and I feel like death herself has possessed my bloody body
She is not a kind mistress
Going to be dragging my feet around all day I feel like a deflated balloon ๐๐
Work that needs to be done, or getting 10k steps in before noon
Work that needs to be done, or getting 10k steps in before noon
Work that needs to be done, or getting 10k steps in before noon
Work that needs to be done, or getting 10k steps in before noon