e4ting dis0rders are a mental illness NOT a weight illness. be kind to people and listen to their cries for help before they go off the deep end ♡♡♡
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bmi 21 ; start of ed
I have a friend that I used to vent/rant to a lot and he was the first to know about my ed/disordered habits. back when my ed started, I was never really closeted about it and would make a lot of offhand jokes and comments about how I'm gonna starve myself.
(high) bmi 20 ; learning
when I got to bmi 20 I decided to lock tf in and started learning about nutrition and calories. People had yet to notice any change and even my own family shrugged off my eating habits because, according to them, I was still a bit chubby and healthy.
I didn't know a whole lot about nutrition at the time and didn't obsessively count calories back then and I could tell people didn't take me seriously. my comments were a cry for help and people didn't really care or were concerned in the slightest because I wasn't yet 'sick'.
turned into genuine worry because they /want/ me to eat now. my mom had talks with me about my eating and told me that everyone in my family is concerned. I've been told I look like an addict because of my weight by my grandmother. I'm being treated seriously. it is euphoric.
(low) bmi 20 ; struggle
I was still trying to figure out what I had to do to lose more weight. during this, certain teachers that I haven't seen in a while would comment that I've been getting slimmer. my family had told me that I looked like a /healthy/ model.
bmi 17 ; worry
low bmi 17s (current time of writing) is actually insane. I have had people grab my shoulder/arm/wrist and RECOIL and then tell me to eat more. staff have looked me up and down and tell me to eat more because I look sick. my friends jokes about me not eating have+
bmi 19 ; notice
teachers will call me slim, but
/still/ healthy. friends started to take me more seriously and started to offer me food. my family notices my eating habits and will comment on them and would ask me if I was on a diet. I was constantly lightheaded and felt weak.
bmi 18 ; concern
people REALLY started to see my wl now. friends would offer me food and everytime I was lightheaded my friends would just know that I haven't eaten in a while. teachers will tell me that I seem slimmer and skinnier each time they saw me.
my friends still didn't take me as seriously but they started to show a bit of concern everytime they saw me skip a meal or whenever I turned down food. getting noticed and concerned for felt good. I then lowered my ugw from 45kgs to 35kgs.
I got lose it during this time but had yet to hold a streak longer than a week. people still have yet to take me seriously and my closer friends have started to make jokes that I don't eat. they weren't serious about them and they were /just/ jokes.
I was still pretty much just winging the starvation thing and wasn't getting enough nutrients to function properly. I was dehydrated and had constant headaches. I also started to self destruct really bad during this time and tried pvrging (I do not recommend, and have stopped)
I chronically wear hoodies, and I have had people grab my hoodie sleeves, expecting my arm to be there. people notice now. friends would hesitate to buy me food because there's a chance that I won't even eat them. my classmates stare at me whenever the topic of food comes up.
my classmates have this thing for teasing eachother if they were slim, when they teased someone for it, one of them looked at me and go 'and you weigh even less though, right?'. my naturally underweight friend had told me to please eat more because she's concerned for me.
before that, I would regularly skip lunch at school but I wasn't really taken as serious as then. people would see me eat and literally backtrack because they would go for months without seeing me eat a 'meal' in months. when I befriended the staff, sometimes they would grab+
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I want people to literally beg me to please gain at least a little bit more weight I want people to be in joy when I eat the smallest bit of food I'm desperate
it's so funny yet so frustrating to see people think that all edtwt do is encourage disorders which is a fair point HOWEVER edtwt centers mainly on finding a community where we can all starve in peace without feeling alone and +
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I have the same problem ( T~T ) I don't see myself as thin at all even though people constantly call me thin. I found that comparing me now to old pictures really help visualize the wl ^^
saw donuts, was offered said donuts, declined, googled up how many calories in said donut, and walked around school to burn off the donuts calories (that I, in fact, did not eat)
starves
*loses weight*
starves again
*loses more weight*
oh yay i lost sm weight
*binges*
"oh no i gained"
starves
*loses weight*
starves again
*loses more weight*
repeat.
In my video, I criticized the overabundance of Pride Flags for the same or similar meaning, and pared them down to just 8, including the rainbow flag, which I restricted for flashy celebrations.
tastes pretty good 9/10 it made me shit + lose it says that it's actually 83cals per stick instead of 90
there's also a tomato and basil flavour it's pretty decent