If I compare my life now with my mental and physical health just 9 months ago it would be like chalk and cheese.
In October I resigned from my job as a nurse after bullying, harassment, toxic workplace and feeling broken with the chronic stress.
I walked away from nursing
I took this photo in October 2020, at this point I was running on fumes. I was exhausted to my bones.
I was nursing 15 COVID patients each shift, I was struggling to process everything. I would go 12/13 hours without a break, I would have colleagues bring me a drink and make me
Iโve been a registered
#nurse
for 3 years.
2.5 years of
#covid
working front line, and left burnt out, seeing such trauma left me
#suicidal
and needing
#PTSD
#EMDR
therapy. In that time I was diagnosed with Autism and this year I buried my mum.
So actually
@RishiSunak
I'm voting Labour on Thursday so that we can finally say a big fuck off to the Tories.
Remember in 2020 when the NHS was battling to stay afloat, meanwhile they partied.
Remember in 2020 when people were dying on their own, with just a nurse dressed like this, meanwhile they
This government is in total chaos. I served my country for 12 years, served in Iraq in 2006, trained for four years to become an NHS nurse. Then the Tories tell me it's just a vocation. Oh naff off!
#ToryChaos
#ToryShambles
I have never been in a position where I am prepared to withdraw my labour. Things have to change
#nhs
#costofliving
#ToryChaos
Standing with
@theRCN
to send a message to this shower of ๐ฉ that we deserve more.
I couldn't work on COVID wards after this (because I know now) was PTSD. After this I vaccinated (pic below) swabbed colleagues for COVID and fit tested people for the new FFP3 masks.
@ChirpyChet
Thank you for your support.
It saddens me to see comments suggesting I was too busy making tik tok videos.
I took this picture after having to pick up a dead covid patient from the floor. Following this three of us submitted catastrophic incident reports.
It was not my fault
@fortytwowest
Much better thank you, I was able to access some pretty intense therapy for the PTSD.
The stress may well have helped me to identify my autism, through daily meltdowns. Helped identify there was something else going on.
You can tell how desperate they are, calling the police to a peaceful protest by veterans. It's pathetic, not long now ๐
#johnnyminge
and
#felicityminge
@carolvorders
@JonathanPieNews
Hi Carol as you can see Gulf War Veterans peacefully protesting in Plymouth and Mercer Annโs Wife phone police and say they are being abusive too try and stop us
@carolvorders
@SamCoatesSky
He's a liar, Sunak is the one deciding to call the election when he did. How on earth could Craig Williams know the election date if he hadn't discussed this with Rishi.
Corrupt to the core
So
@RishiSunak
(choosing to call you this because I feel addressing you as prime minister would imply I respect you).
Please would you like to enlighten me and thousands and thousands of nurses should accept lower pay (as recommended by
@nadhimzahawi
) and yet he can have other
@Haggis_UK
Do you think they think to themselves afterwards that they did great at being interviewed? Or do they just surround themselves with nodding dogs.
Seeing so much transphobia on here today, a great deal aimed at the amazing
@IndiaWilloughby
I am glad to see a huge swell of support for her to help drown out the hate.
India is a huge inspiration to so many, including myself. Since my autism diagnosis I have questioned many
@Nurseborisbash
I don't think I'm strong enough to watch this yet, I came close to ending my life on many occasions because I was a mess. Newly qualified with a few months real world ward experience before head first on to covid wards.
My severe PTSD has left me unable to work on wards, I will
@Nurseborisbash
I'm so sorry to hear of this, in my first week I had a pt very similar to the first one on
#breathtaking
elderly female, no DNAR, peri arrest call, CPR, it was horrendous. ๐ข
Oh sod off Rishi, patronising as per usual. We arenโt children and we can all see through your lies, gaslighting and your complete ineptitude.
#GeneralElectionNow
@carolvorders
@TheMessinaGroup
@Messina2012
Neither of them should be awarded honours. When this party was happening I was in burnout and suffering PTSD. How can they be honoured and yet there are those within the health service that watched needless people die from covid because we didnโt have enough trained staff or ppe?
Dear Laura Trott
Some of us know the meaning of duty. Your piss poor handling of the pandemic and the nation's finances (among many other things) does not mean you can treat disabled people with such contempt.
Yours autistically ๐
@Helen19544
@ChirpyChet
The first thing I did after was to walk off the ward and scream, cry and I called my partner in tears.
When you have to see people die each shift and often not a 'good' death.
By this I mean alone, with no family or loved ones. It still makes me so upset to think of it
@PippaCrerar
I'd love to share my experience of what it was like as a newly qualified nurse thrown straight into a pandemic in the NHS.
Left with severe PTSD from how terrible it was. Took two years to access trauma therapy, diagnosed as autistic and then bullied out of the NHS trust for
@Nurseborisbash
@RishiSunak
I am just thankful to the Greater Manchester Resilience Hub. I don't know if I would still be alive if it wasn't for their help. They got me EMDR therapy which allowed me to process everything I saw and experienced. This experience will be with me for life.
I'm a Royal Navy veteran and have served operationally and I can categorically say that my experience of being a newly qualified nurse on COVID wards makes my operational tour seem like fun in the sun.
Expecting us to nurse 15 COVID patients at a time, being placed nurse in
โFor civilian doctors & nurses, this was the closest thing most will ever experience to life in a war zone.โ
Thank you so much
@gabyhinsliff
for writing this piece ๐
#BREATHTAKING
So frustrating, to be told that I was the best person at the interview, 40/40 perfect scoring, all the right skills, no negative feedback but they didn't give me the job because I was too good for the role.
I'm so angry right now.
Lets say 'tax issues' and remain a government minister? How is it fair to deny those you clapped and yet
@SteveBarclay
can just gloss over the NHS that's in crisis?
I'm 39 years old, I served my country for 12 years including six months in Basra during OpTelic.
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@carolvorders
@NHS
@doctor_oxford
Totally get this, I was a newly qualified nurse in 2020. Thrown in the deep end, seeing so much death. So much so I was diagnosed with PTSD. I'll never forget those we lost, and those who were alone in their final moments. The NHS is on its knees.
@Becky46832359
@JoeGrowling
@RishiSunak
What hurts most is that I never got to spend as much time as I could with her. Working COVID positive wards, had covid three times. The government have a lot to answer for on how they handled the pandemic. And we are STILL paying for their failures.
I've now been an NHS nurse for three years in that time I was thrown newly qualified into COVID wards, seen more death than I ever thought I'd see. Suffered severe PTSD had suicidal thoughts, lost my mum in 2022, diagnosed with autism, battled work challenges.
Care to answer?
Really angry with
#Gullis
comments yesterday about 200 missing vulnerable children. It's heartbreaking to see Gullis reaction. Please
@LindsayHoyle_MP
do something. This is shocking
@RhonddaBryant
@Bren4Bassetlaw
What an awful thing to post Brendan, would you also mock a wheelchair user? Why is MH any different? Such a disappointing thing to see from an elected parliamentarian.
@supertanskiii
I have felt so much more calm knowing the grown ups are back in charge. Makes me realise just how bad the last lot were and how stressful it has been watching them.
Today I cancelled my RCN and my payments to the NMC. I know this means my registration will lapse. I'm stepping back from nursing whilst I see where I fit. Resetting and healing. Battle to self advocate broke me, but the old me. The NT version of me! Good things ahead.
@Boothyfitness
I probably did, after nine months on an under-staffed COVID ward, severe post traumatic stress, a late autism diagnosis followed by being bullied out of Tameside hospital and the death of my mum.
So yeah, I've gained some weight, I've also got fibromyalgia.
@sarcastictvat
And yet Cruella still stands up and shamelessly peddles her right wing rhetoric, it is nasty and breaks my heart to see how far this country has fallen under the Tories.
@JonathanPieNews
How long have we been demanding
#SafeStaffing
?? Now suddenly they want to address this as a reaction to nurses being forced to withdrawing their labour. They are so out of touch.
#GeneralElection
@PolitlcsUK
Has anyone else noticed how Rishi previously didnโt want to discuss his wifeโs finances but now she seems to be attending official visits. Isnโt it about time her finances are examined?
Just watched
#Partygate
on C4, heartbreaking to see. in 2020 I had weeks when my patients would die on every single shift. I would walk home, sometimes seeing people clapping us nurses. The moment I got home I would sit on the bed and cry. Cry for all those that didn't live.
In a few days time we'll mark one year without you to brighten our lives. There are still times when I see or hear something that reminds me of you mum. God I miss you so much. I still have your last text messages to me.๐ฅ Xx
I forgot to mention this in my blog, but I have chosen not to let my nursing registration lapse. I may not be in a nursing job right now, but the NHS still needs nurses (even autistic ones!)