Met up with Him yesterday , in short nothing had changed - I had left feeling debilitating nostalgic that I cried, and my heart broke all over again, but we go forwards . The ball is with Him
Now
Really cute pics of me cooking but I’m in my underwear and I can’t show anything on here without getting doxxed or Like. Killed so I won’t. Just know they are Very cute !
Hey guys I just realized I’m never gonna be in love like I was at 18 in that same way ever again IOr honestly ever be able to get along with someone so awesomely like that ever again lol. I’m pretty sure every relationship is gonna feel just as clinical as the last one did. Lol
Unfortunately I’ve come to a conclusion that I’m extremely straight which is disgusting - I’ve never been with a woman and my tendencies and attraction point towards me not liking effeminate men either. Being cursed to love a demographic notorious for hating women. Very good
I think a relationship is like ‘yeah let’s start this Im not sure it’ll last but it’ll be nice’ and a friendship is like ‘I Can Never Ever Lose You Ever No Matter What’
How fun these moments can be little corporeal moments. I’m being really upset right now but my face looks good and I can taste the salt and crying is so silly over things but I must do it and I must look at my face so silly I must. I must I must I must
Fuck Like if I could I would. If I had the spirit and the feeling of showing body on line to promote music I so would and it would be so good and I could quit my job and afford a van and live my fucking dream but my mind castle won’t let me it’s fortified by prudence and respect
Everyone of my conversations feels hushed and quiet. Like conversations taking place on the moon or in a closet. Let’s be hushed about this …. Shhhh…..
Have been settled in for like an hour and genuinely very Liking keeping my door open and hearing the bustle of the kitchen my friends are making Fried rice and I hear the sink running and it’s feeling like home already : D
Last night a man came up to me and got on his knees, tied my doc martens for me and then walked away. Another guy gave me a rose made out of a napkin. To Be Known is to have that shit never happen to you again
I was fighting with a nurse at my job today ab whose fault it was that the patient didn’t have a room to stay in at the nurses facility and the nurse genuinely looked like this for the whole conversation