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@buggus96

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1 year

Hey really quick: If you come across my Twitter page by chance, you see my grief posts, and decide you need to share your negative thoughts with me… kindly scroll. You don’t know me. You don’t get to dictate how I grieve and how I connect with the people I care about. Zip it.

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2 years

@angery_chungus @proyearner Hey guys! So lately I’ve been drying buckets of seawater in the sun and using the leftover minerals to season my food, and YOU GUYS, it’s sooooo good! It really brings out the flavor of my food. I highly recommend it. Tag me if you try it!!! ☺️

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@iseeuliars The doctor who delivered my son last year said “yeah, incompetent cervix. Get a stitch next time.” as he was walking out. No “I’m sorry for your loss”, no compassion, nothing. I’m so sorry you dealt with such cruelty at a moment like this. 💔

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3 years

@MxMercuri I hate when that’s presented as an option. 1) it’s financially out of the question for so many people, and 2) it’s actually not an easy decision to completely uproot a family and leave your loved ones behind.

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1 year

@myemtv Or your 7 AM English 101 class ✨

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2 years

@JaneDoeBailey @vvictorman_uel Hey, I’m really proud of you. That takes a lot of dedication and hard work, and you DID IT!! Your space is beautiful!

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3 years

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3 years

@katystoll Fully vaccinated and boosted and I’ve had two pregnancy losses since then- I would be lying if I said I wasn’t scared and curious about if things could have been different pre-shot. HUGELY grateful to not have had Covid thus far. Doesn’t change what I’m scared about.

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3 years

6.5 hours later and I’m okay. I had our tiny little baby. Robin, you were exactly the right size for your gestation, just like I knew you would be. We’ll have a little burial tomorrow. For now, I need sleep.

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3 years

I lost the baby. I have two dead babies. The only children I have are fucking dead. I waited for seven years, two marriages, and countless hours of studying for parenthood like it was a goddamn degree and they’re DEAD.

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1 year

An update. My water broke a little over an hour ago. Last we checked, Julian is still alive. I’m dilated and there’s nothing more we can do but wait for him to be born. Heartbroken doesn’t scratch the surface. My boy 💔 This shouldn’t have been your story. I’m so sorry.

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3 years

@BradfordPearson When I worked at a daycare, I had a toddler get diarrhea up his back, in his chair, & puddled on the floor in the middle of breakfast. They had me horribly over ratio, so I had to make sure he was ok, clean him up, and keep 16 curious 2 year olds out of his shit ocean. 😮‍💨

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2 years

@undeadbiscuit @AITA_online Right? I hope the two of them have an AMAZING Christmas sans judgement and awful MILs. 🥂

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10 months

I HAVE CALLED THE ICU AND THEY ARE AWARE!! I’ll be making a more complete list of all the other stuff and will be informing them of that as well. Thank you sweet strangers for wanting to help. This took off a bit more than I was anticipating after I went to bed. 😬

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1 year

I can’t get over his perfect, tiny eyebrows. He’s so beautiful. I wish I could keep him. I wish I had no idea what he looked like because he was still alive inside me. I wish this wasn’t my life, or Ben’s.

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1 year

Julian passed sometime very, very early this morning. I like to think his grandma and two older siblings came to get him. I’ll be induced shortly. 💔

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4 years

@nimoprosper @Monnney_ SAME!! I saw one of my ankle tattoos in the mirror at work last week and got so excited 😂 they’re so cute and I love them so much

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3 years

@syn1031 @LRuko @aprettyPR @YasminYonis I can’t stop thinking about how TERRIFIED I would be. All alone in a shelter with my baby and nothing else. What if something had happened to her? Or her son? Chills. I hope this man goes straight to hell.

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1 year

@racheljwelcher I go back to my massage job on Monday and I am just dreading breaking the news to my regulars who were so excited with me. 💔 Losing a baby is so hard. I’m so sorry you’re in this space, too.

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10 months

@CarissasNewLife Like what the FUCK of COURSE YOU’RE HAVING ACUTE STOMACH PAIN

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1 month

@cilantrowife I had lunch with a pregnant friend years ago & we were talking baby names- it turns out we’d picked the same exact first & middle name. Instead of it being a fight about “stealing” a name, it was just funny & we congratulated each other on our good taste.

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5 months

@AgentStarling3 People are being so rude for no reason. It’s his house too. You’re in a PARTNERSHIP! I hope he listens and you can both continue loving and living in your (clean) home.

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2 years

@elleayevibe @NikkiCallowayy Ah, I see we rented at the same complex. 👍🏻

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3 years

@stepville We’re expecting our first child together this October, a month before our second anniversary. ♥️ loving him is the most natural thing I’ve ever done.

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7 months

@maxgibb At this point they should just assign you an employee during your trip so you don’t have to wait so much 🥴

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3 years

@looksthatkale @veganmylkshake @vegbettycrocker Is there a possibly that you’re pegrant?

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2 years

@Wiglette I used to follow someone who flipped houses & got into hosting, and enjoyed it until I realized she was taking cute houses away from people who’d actually LIVE THERE & just couldn’t in good conscience keep following her, no matter how cute her style was.

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2 years

Mormons STOP pressuring couples to get married as soon as possible because you’re afraid they’ll accidentally fuck challenge

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2 years

@LouisatheLast I’m like 98% sure I know which place this is (or somewhere similar!) & the manager is LOVELY. The first time I went, he gave us free garlic knots, sat with us, gave us his personal recommendations, & remembered us BY NAME when we visited again MONTHS later. Not creepy, thoughtful

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3 years

@Robarge @chunkbardey @macho_shithead Pinching it out of the Tupperware bite by bite in the glow of the open fridge. 😂

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3 years

Hey, Twitter fam. Little bit of a life update. ♥️

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3 years

@tonyajade @rosalarian 🙋🏻‍♀️ I had an abortion with a pregnancy I waited seven years for. She was perfect and healthy but I had a placental abruption, and if it wasn’t for abortion I could have hemorrhaged.

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2 years

I am so angry at the church. I’m angry that they’ve enabled so many men in positions of power to abuse so many people and the “spirit of discernment” never stopped any of them. My best friend’s father was one. I spent nights at their house all the time. He went to girls camp.

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3 years

I have made the decision to just respond with “you too!! 🙂” if anyone says “wow, you’re huge!” Towards the end of this pregnancy.

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10 months

@haudgepaudge It’s exhausting trying to talk him down from all the crap people are shilling!

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3 years

@stepville I met him when I was in 7th grade during a play, and we got to know each other better in high school during another play, where I developed such a huge crush on him that it legitimately hurt to think of me marrying anyone BUT him.

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4 months

@ambernoelle Here are some actual embroidery ideas if you like the dress in the lower left! I absolutely love this book.

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3 years

@stepville This is us in Seussical, where I fell HARD. I cried myself to sleep for days after he graduated because I didn’t want to risk losing him to another girl.

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2 years

@murffyslurtz This is the most romantic thing I’ve ever read, oh my god 🥺

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1 year

We did it. It was a beautiful, beautiful memorial. Turns out the secret is to have incredible family and incredible love for your baby.

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1 year

How the fuck do you even start planning a memorial for a baby who never got a chance

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1 year

Crying dehydrates you and makes it harder for them to draw blood, it turns out. Julian, my beautiful boy, it’s too soon. I’m not ready. 💔 I’m not up for DMs right now. I probably won’t reply.

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2 years

@heyitsmeflex @rachsyme I love the mental image of you cozying up by the fire, skillet in hand, lovingly rubbing oil onto its surface each night as your friends head across town to waste their time going out when they, too, could be seasoning a Lodge.

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1 year

Each time we have had a loss, I am struck with how fiercely my husband loves on his babies and me. He is such a steadfast and caring partner, and he is the most tender, gentle daddy. He LOVES those babies. With his whole heart.

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3 years

Things not to say to a bereaved parent: “God must have needed them more ♥️” More than their PARENTS???????? Also, if God needed them so badly why didn’t He have them run whatever heavenly errand He needed them to run BEFORE they were conceived?????

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3 years

@LRonMexico @JamesTCarterII This hurt my heart to read. That SHOULD have been the case 💔

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3 years

@stepville We took this dumb selfie together after we finally, FINALLY kissed for the first time, and in that moment I knew that the high schooler who stayed up in tears because she wanted him so badly was going to get her wish.

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1 year

His last week was one full of rest. Of gentle caresses as his mommy and daddy marveled at his growth. Late night Doppler sessions. Full of delight over every kick. Beatrix Potter stories, read aloud so he could test out his new hearing abilities. Full of immeasurable love.

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2 years

I loooooove when I talk about my two pregnancy losses and insensitive bumblefucks find it and give me HELL for having had abortions. News flash: miscarriages are abortions. Medically managing the passing of pregnancy tissue following a miscarriage is an abortion.

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10 months

@aedevaux Oh god there are so so so many herbal rEmEdIeS he’s taking. You can see the ionic silver in the background of the third picture

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4 years

@Tyler_R_S @_cinnamonro11_ They’ve got to just be... constantly gassy. That’s the only thing that comes to mind when they talk about how much cheese they consume

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3 years

@sssabriiiinaaa I can hear the neighbor’s phone on VIBRATE. I also know my other neighbors are in a bad relationship because I can hear everything from the way they scream at each other to the way their footsteps change when they’re angry. I *know* they can hear me going to the bathroom. 💀

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2 years

@cr1nge_qu33n @historicalfits And the color she tries to color it is “glorious heavenly sunshine” and the color she eventually has to re-dye her hair is just “mouse” or something like that. Think about it all the time.

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3 years

Alrighty, let me tell you why it doesn’t ~actually help me all that much when you tell me my daughter is watching over me in heaven, is automatically exalted, I’ll see her again so it’s fine, etc.

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3 years

“We already have two girls so we’re hoping for a boy, my husband needs a boy so badly he says all the women in the house drive him crazy!!!! 😍😍😍” God, y’all are fuckin weird.

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5 months

@meaghancates She is only 8 pounds. Her farts clear rooms.

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1 year

Began induction. Misoprostol stays disgusting, but we’re close to meeting our babe. My family is here and they’re making such a difference

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3 years

@MBurnhamFuture

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3 years

I gave birth yesterday. Even though the bleeding has mostly stopped, my body did something huge. I need to remember to honor that, and allow myself to slow down. I gave birth. My body made and then had a baby. It’s understandable that things are still tender and painful.

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2 years

@ElyKreimendahl The one that gets me is “my partner is such a good daddy, the baby absolutely loves him!!” You haven’t even left the hospital yet. He’s spent the majority of the time on the hospital couch trying to stay awake and the baby doesn’t even know what’s going on

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3 years

@MJaneFaris We had just decided on Robin a few days ago for a boy, and it felt right for this baby. It’s gender neutral and I’ve always felt really connected to it. ♥️ thank you so much for asking.

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2 years

@ayaya10_ @proyearner Is that just hanging up your clothes to dry? Or drying yourself?

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3 years

@raisingwhasians So many people deliberately missed so many incredible messages in Turning Red. That movie was one of the best films Pixar has made in a while! My husband and I LOVED it.

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@lingerie_addict I’ve been trying to find inspiration for a gown I want to make and Pinterest is *crawling* with ai dress images. Breaks my heart and makes me sooooooo angry.

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2 years

@ChubbMary @DataDrivenMD I also had an abortion at 16 weeks- mine was due to premature cervical dilation- one of the only things that comforted me was knowing that she was dying before she had developed enough to have pain receptors. Your baby only ever knew warmth and comfort, too. I’m so sorry. 💔

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8 months

I remember as a kid saving and saving and saving until I could buy my own iPod, digital camera, Nintendo DS, etc. and all of those things are still usable because I worked really hard for and appreciated them! We need to bring back that mentality to quality fashion pieces.

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If you own a Hanifa dress you’ll know that the quality is insane but again, people don’t care about quality or ethics or sustainability. We’ve cultivated a “I see it I want it” culture when we need to be asking ourselves what buying a cheap knockoff really says about us.

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1 year

I never pictured myself with a son but I sure as hell never pictured myself without him once he was on his way. I’m so ANGRY

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3 years

I’m so fucking mad why did it have to be her why did it have to be my daughter

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1 year

Waiting to meet this precious boy is the worst game. It’s not fair. I want his last day back. I want to go back and protect him. I’m so devastated

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2 years

@eastcoastcomie I still remember the manager who straight up turned all the lights in the restaurant off bc there was a group who wouldn’t leave. I’m forever grateful to him

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2 years

@RaeHoffmanJager When I was in the hospital with my 2nd miscarriage, my ultrasound tech (who had had 10 losses!!!) told me I’d be lucky if I was taken seriously with my next baby. Nobody starts to care until your 3rd loss. We HAVE TO CHANGE THIS

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3 years

•If you think I’m “cursing God” it’s probably because I am. I just lost a BABY. I’m allowed to be angry. I believe God’s love is big enough to handle my anger. If They are the parents I think They are, They can withstand Their child’s anguish and rage.

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4 years

@leighthaus @2sp00kE @butsh_feygele I like lighting mine on fire. The colors are so pretty! 🥰

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1 year

From the bottom of my heart:

@WhereTrueLoveIs

🌈The Where True Love is Movement 🏳️‍⚧️

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3 years

@prollycari @nisaxcole @thisisnefertiti It’s gonna turn into a gooey awful mess after exactly two showers 🤢

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3 months

@chronicallybeee “She’s the office baker” has me on the FLOOR this is so unhinged

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1 year

Put together a bouquet for my boy. It’s wild and unruly, the way I hoped he’d be as a toddler. Far from perfect. But that’s okay.

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1 year

Can’t get over that perfect little pout.

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3 years

Late night thought: if one of the big reasons you want to circumcise your son is because you want him to “match Daddy,” you’re real fuckin weird dude.

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1 year

@EuphoriTori This is me this morning! I have to shave every day. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I’m even the one who taught my cis husband how to use a razor properly! It’s not a big deal and I cannot with these transphobes acting like it is.

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3 years

“It’s not anti-vax, it’s pro-freedom”

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2 years

My husband brought up the possibility of getting a vasectomy & I feel like it needs to be said that VASECTOMY REVERSAL IS NOT A GUARANTEE!!!!!! If you are planning or hoping to have children in the future, PLEASE do not bank on a reversal being your ticket to babies.

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1 year

@mshavisham My husband and I call those “dead baby bills” and I just throw them away every time. 😬

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3 years

She was so. Cute. Look at that nose!

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2 years

Thinking about the time my aunt’s bishop had the down east basics shade shirts banned from church because they were too form fitting to be modest and the sisters’ boobs were a distraction 😇

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3 years

Love you, Robin-baby.

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2 years

@heywardboyce Yes!

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3 years

•I’m not doing this for clout. •I talked about both of my pregnancies on here, and it makes sense to talk about my losses, too. •I get blunt & angry about it because that’s how I process grief. Grief is not gentle tears silently slipping down porcelain cheeks. It’s messy.

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3 years

Because there have been some jerks making weird assumptions about me and the decision to share my miscarriage on Twitter:

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3 years

•I talk about this in the hopes that someone somewhere will know they aren’t alone. Losing a baby IS a big deal. I am NOT watering that down by talking about it. If I can help a SINGLE PERSON NOT FEEL ALONE, it’s worth it to me.

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1 year

@MMorrow72151672 He passed this afternoon. He was absolutely perfect. 💔

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3 years

@fact_sack @TheRightCant

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5 months

The two halves of my heart. I thought about you all weekend, my tiny loves. I pictured toddler Sofia in the kitchen “helping” me make dinner (getting flour everywhere), and wished I could end the day in the dark, rocking and feeding Julian to sleep. My love for you is endless.

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2 years

@whatstudiedtor1 @oldenoughtosay Your doctor didn’t tell you that your baby will float away if they get too carbonated? Glad this person was looking out for you!!!!!!! /s

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2 months

@Lucyjoyviolin @Komaniecki_R Whispering into the baby monitor: Hey! I'm so glad you reached out. I'm actually at capacity / helping someone else who's in crisis / dealing with some personal stuff right now, and I don't think I can hold appropriate space for you. Could we connect [later date or time] instead-

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1 year

@Imani_Barbarin Didn’t she allude to her first pregnancy being a result of said uncle??? I don’t watch her, but I do remember assuming that she’d stop making videos after she got pregnant and was SHOCKED that she kept it up.

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10 months

@aliahdomino His icu nurse last night was chatting with him about this shit and hydroxychloroquinone and I wanted to slam myself through the window

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