So I've hesitated to post these but here goes. I struggle with depression, anxiety, and self-image. It fucks with me physically and mentally. And some days are still bad. But I've worked really hard to make changes for my mind and body.
I'm proud of myself.
#MotivationMonday
Uzumaki ๐ค
Done live on stream ~ inspired by
@junjiitofficial
's manga. This was the toughest facepaint I've done to date and I'm proud that I pushed through to finish!
#twitch
#junjiito
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This is makeup! Last night's live facepaint was my most challenging yet but phew, feelsgoodman. It was therapeutic.
Inspired by M. C. Escher's 'Bond of Union' and geminiblush on IG.
#twitch
them: you look fine
me: ๐ฅฒ
created live on twitch - an expression of invisible illness & disability. looking โfineโ but underneath feeling like iโm crumbling from the pain.
#arthritis
#NEISvoid
Undone ๐ค
I've wanted to turn my ribbon face paint into a body paint for a while. And I finally did it. Last night broke me a few times, in the best way, so, thank you for everything.
People always talk about red flags in a relationship but here are some green flags
๐ excited about your goals and dreams
๐ asks about your day
๐ makes sure you eat and drink
๐ never gives you up
๐ never lets you down
๐ never runs around and deserts you
If you wanna โtwo sidesโ today, unfollow me, donโt come to my streams, good riddance. Iโll remove you myself if I see your bullshit in my feed.
Starry Night ๐
This is body paint. The most epic stream. 13 hours! Thank you for going on this journey with me ๐
When I ended stream I saw
@Twitch
's body paint policy spelled out and I feel validated. I. Am. Here.
Iโve dreaded shopping for clothes lately cause Iโm struggling with my chronic pain and how itโs affected my body. But I found this top and jeans today and I feel amazing in them and look at my BUTT!!! itโs just a nice win ๐ฅบ
I was in the grocery store today, buying eggs, and I opened a carton up to look at them. Someone approached me and asked why. So I can make sure they're not cracked!
Do you look at your eggs before you buy them? Or am I just weird?
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Last night's bodypaint was trippy and I pretty much panicked throughout entire process. But pushing myself out of my comfort zone isn't supposed to be comfortable. I love how it turned out ๐
Based on a look by cedoviste on IG.
#twitch
"Women streamers were routinely called โboob streamersโ by men in the office. One employee recalled male co-workers joking about streamers sleeping with people to get favors or slut-shaming them.โ
So itโs not only random shitlords. But from within Twitch too? I feel gut punched
PSA: When replying to a tweet with lots of mentions, untag people if you're not replying to them (tap on replying to, uncheck others).
Think of it like Reply All in an email - be deliberate. Do you really want 50 people to get pinged in your conversation with one person? ๐ญ
I was lost for words when I got my email and Iโm still processing but... Iโm so grateful for you. Thank you.
Iโve poured so much of myself, physically and mentally, into my work. Feels amazing to get here and Iโm proud to represent
@Twitch
. Letโs go ๐
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~ this is makeup ~ I had a rough couple weeks struggling with a depressive episode. I felt hollow, broken.โฃ Things are getting better but I had to paint this. Big feels. Thanks for the great stream ๐ค
inspired by cedoviste's work on IG
#twitch
#MentalHealth
"And don't call me puddin'."๐
Ahh this body paint was a blast to do! I took some bits from Nicholson's and
@HamillHimself
's Jokers for my own twist.
I don't always feel good about my body. I often see something different in the mirror. But today I look at myself and remember:
My scars and stretch marks travel with me as proof of battles won and life given. And that's pretty cool. Thanks, body.
#MotivationalMonday
Body painting is my passion and Iโm grateful
@Twitch
gives us a platform.
But there are serious concerns within the community: targeted harassment, silence from Twitch, vague and inconsistent enforcement of policy.
Please support our proposals!
Sore throat, no voice, my body hates me, and my friends aren't hugging distance anymore.
#TwitchCon
was amazing and the next week or so is going to be tough readjusting. But the greeting I received this morning was pretty amazing, too. ๐
When you take your basketweaving class too seriously
this is makeup ๐๐ probably one of my toughest to date! y'all really do help me push through tough streams like these so ty for always having my back
I started my streaming journey as a variety gamer. Seven months in, I began to explore makeup and body art and found my passion. ๐
Pivoting content is scary but you never know where itโll take you.
2019 โก๏ธ 2020
showering uses up so many of my spoons I have to plan around it. I finally bought a shower stool. I held off way too long like โdo I reaaally need one??โ YES! now Iโm so happy I could cry ๐ญ
#NEISvoid
Iโm nervous to post this but I think itโs important to share the ups & downs of my art and streaming.
I didnโt finish my paint on stream. I had to call it, exhausted and down. Itโs not easy to do. But Iโm a work in progress and so is this face paint. Iโll get it next time ๐งก