Some wonderful art from
@Viridea1
Perma-ing Amara was one of the hardest things I've had to do. Sometimes though you make a mistake, you argue, and you never get the chance to say I love you. Sometimes people just die.
Thanks you for joining me for the adventures of Amara Harte
It was sucky but today I finally resigned from being an EMS on NoPixel. I just feel like there's no love for the job anymore, the direction of the server has changed a ton. Thanks to all of the people who started watching me because of rp, and thanks to those I've rp'd with <3
I don't post pictures of myself much and I don't have any 'before' picture but here's a now-ish one. Not where I want to be but proud of how far I've come.
You can reach your goal, and even just the small steps can make it feel worth it.
#TDOV
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I also want to put out a tweet thanking everyone who came to see Amara. Tons of people showed up and even if you didn't come into the room, I appreciate you taking the time to be there. You have all touched my life in one way or another through RP and again, thank you <3
>order a Lyft
>driver gets here
>I get in the car
>driver looks at his phone
>”oh convention center? Yeah I’ll pass”
>makes me get out of his car
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I miss a lot of my gta friends, I just feel like the atmosphere right now isn't exactly what I'm into so I've been hiding and waiting it out. Just wanted to say that I haven't forgotten about gta rp and hopefully I get to rp with friends again soon. Art:
@Viridea1
Seriously considering permaing amara while she’s in icu. Hard decision, I’ve rp’d her for so long. But sometimes people just die and you never get the resolution. Feelsbad rp
Posting a picture of myself I really like because my self confidence is low and I need to remind myself I’m capable of wearing something other than my pajamas
Double chin ✔️
Messy shitty hair ✔️
Little to no make up ✔️
Lots of anxiety ✔️
Way too early for my flight ✔️
Still rushed out my door as if I was dying and missing my flight at the same time tho (:
More thoughts on amara perma situation:
at this point so many people ic/ooc have said they want her to die, and when it comes up no one really talks a bout amara, they talk about 'the effect it will have on tessa' or wahtever. I just feel really discouraged atm :(
I hate to do this in this way but a very close friend of mine passed recently and im trying to get money to take myself and another one of his close friends to his celebration of life. please. thank you.
Had an amazing weekend with
@KylieBitkin
with some fun dates and good food. Finally got home to relax a bit and stream then I find this. I forgot today was my move in date for the new place, guess I won’t be streaming yet haha
Update: The gofundme was completely filled within 24 hours. Absolutely insane amount of generosity and I cannot find words to express my gratitude. The CoL is on the 17th and I will post updates here as well as discord for those interested. Thank you again.
"Day of the dead is technically tomorrow. If only I was as early with everything as I am with this, right? I just wanted you to know I never blamed you, I still love you, and I always wish I could reach just a little further to hug you one more time
Happy Halloween."
@NakkiNakk
Sorry I haven’t been streaming a ton guys. I’m m in a giant depressive rut at the moment and I’m just trying to glide through. Hopefully streams will be more consistent soon ):
I really really want to learn how to draw but getting started I feel like I'm at such a loss. Sometimes I see art and I get really inspired and want to try but I have no idea where to start, what to study, what kind of practice would be effective etc
Just now watching the funeral. Hard to think back to what felt like such a short time ago hanging out every day and running people down on OBRP and NP while shooting the shit.
I think the way he yelled 'Amara' at me so many times will stick with me forever.
Miss you
@CallMeGrub
Exhausted and drained atm but wanted to update: The family has been so kind and very grateful to all of the support. We are showing them clips, art, and other creations from you guys and they have loved everything. They are very thankful for everyone's love and care for Austin.
Some pictures of the 9/11 memorial I took when I went by to pay my respects almost a year ago. It’s very somber and a harrowing experience to stand at the edge of this pit. Thoughts are with those who were affected by that tragedy today.
I had a ton of fun today, really starting to get my 'addicted to rp' vibe back more and more. Glad to be back in the saddle for cop stuff and looking forwards to more and more
today in dnd my character had a hallucination an eldritch monster was trying to kill her and she hid from it. To convince her to come back her friends LARP'd killing a monster and convinced her it was dead
I finally came to a decision on Amara
It took a long long time for me to decide
And there were pros/cons for both sides
Come find out which we're going with
I was looking through some fan arts today and it made me feel like I lost touch with Amara. I think I haven't acted in the ways the character would normally, or that perhaps I've lost sight of what I thought she wanted as a character. Any other rpers experience this before?
I'm not at all religious but god and heaven have to be real. To lose someone like this and imagine that there was nothing waiting for them on the other side... it would hurt too much.
Inclusion and acceptance is really important to me in games of all kind. I think if you can help people feel more 'normal' and feel less insecure you help create an environment where a persons true creative potential can be revealed.
Friendly reminder I’ll be doing an irl stream later today to try and be inclusive to those who don’t have much to do today. I’ll be streaming some board games with my family and probably have twitch chat playing with us. Also I’ll be gross so (:
we should be boycotting 70$ games, especially when like the best games that exist are under 60. Helldivers? Signalis? Want comp, or shooters how about apex, val, or LoL? AAA games at 70+ is a joke
I usually really don't like posting pictures of myself but here's one of the few I'm okay with
5'9" (10 on a good day :p)
I'm the one with the tattoo (:
Quote with your height and a fav pic of yourself
In leu of a stream I got omega prepared for twitch con
Also idk if people are interested in meeting me but on the chance that some people are, I'm going to have a little meet teh strimmr on saturday around 1pmish?
tentative and subject to change, but hope to see your cute ass
Sorry to anyone who was looking forwards to the irl stream. Someone in the family said they weren’t comfortable being on stream so I wanted to respect that. I’ll work on something more in advanced for something Christmas and similar. Sorry again if I let you down today 😭
@LordKebun
Wow, I've never seen the train actually weponized before. Well intentionally at least 😆 You guys definitely come up with some interesting getaways thats for sure