Sober day
#1
(starting over). I hate relapse. Back to outpatient treatment, I go! Thankful to my LADC for calling me today. I needed to hear someone tell me not to beat myself up. I was feeling pretty low.
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Day 8 after sexual assault. But I feel like I woke up. I'm just traumatized and trying to cope with this trauma. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow. I saw Psychiatry on Friday and will on Tuesday again.
#ODAAT
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I freaking hate relapsing but here we are. Sober date 4/3/24. I have sleep meds and slept right through the hangover, thank God. I hate the post-relapse guilt. But here we are.
#ODAAT
#RecoveryPosse
So mad at myself. I slipped on Tuesday and have been recovering until today. It was less than I usually drink but still. I had a date and he brought alcohol. I couldn't even make it 2 weeks! I know I gotta get back up and keep going though!
@RecoveryPosse
I am struggling. I have no support system. I live alone with my cat, don't go out much, no friends besides social media. A recluse. My family has either passed away or hates me. Even my own daughters.
#BPDchat
Help me
@RecoveryPosse
It's the 1st. I have money (yes I rely on the govmt, trying to become self reliant after many years homeless.) This is usually a trigger. I'm trying with all my might not to walk to the liquor store. I'm playing the tape right now... I need encouragement!
Trying to get sober is the hardest thing I've ever tried to do. I am hungover and feel miserable. I prayed to God to set me free today.
#God
#Sobriety
#Sober
#alcoholismsucks
Got a new stove today after the fire ruined the other one. Also hit Walmart for food to actually cook! I'm so excited. It's Taco Day! Woo Hoo!
#7
days sober! A whole week. LOL Feels great though. MN weather is great too!
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Day
#6
since my relapse. Doing well. Realizing I need to focus on my mental health, getting disability, and taking care of myself. So much has happened lately. I haven't processed. I am too hard on myself.
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My older daughter turns 20 today! The best day of my life 20 years ago today. I became a mommy. She is so much more than I ever could've imagined. Happy birthday Amaya!
Sober day
#2
. Job interview today and psychiatrist appointment. I hope everyone has a great day! It went from 90 to 60 degrees overnight here in MN! Craziness!
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Greetings sober beings. LOL Nice day in Minnesota. Cleaning my hard drive (huge job) and talking to my older daughter about our Native American roots. We are Pillager Leech Lake Ojibwe. :) Have a good day!
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If this restraining order gets granted, he'll have to stay away from the apt building. Nothing management can do about it but hire someone else. 🤣If I lose, I move... we shall see.
#RecoveryPosse
by any means necessary!
Hey everyone..starting to feel back to norm a little bit. Sleeping since. I may actually shower today. Funny but so not funny. Thank you all for your well wishes, it means alot to be validated!
#ODAAT
#RecoveryPosse
Are there any men that actually keep their phone without a pin number, screen lock, or whatever? I will not trust or get in a relationship with a man who has the need to lock his phone. He shady!
@CKscullycat
If you don't fall asleep in 20 mins, get up and do a quiet activity like read or fold clothes. Then try again. Try guided sleep meditations on Youtube. Try Benadryl. It takes a ton of sleep meds to make me sleep and even then sometimes I have insomnia. Rebound insomnia!
I always drank liquor straight but I'm going to try mocktails. I had the idea of opening a sobriety bar, but darn it, other people are quicker than me. LOL
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Charges have been filed, no word from the courts. CEO siding with him. I sleep tonight in the room where it happened until I find somewhere to go. Why he gets to stay and I have to go is beyond me. I'm double victimized.
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Tail between my knees, sober day
#5
. I go forward. It's all I can do. If I beat myself up, I'll feel bad and give up and drink. Happy today, I actually sat and watched TV. I haven't done that in years!
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@PamAltendorf
I wondered if they were low key bringing immigrants here. We have a lot of Somalians and Mexicans already. I'm Native American. I'm not racist I'm just irritated by how this is being handled.
Well, my balance today went from $125 to $1.25. LOL But I'm sober!!!!!!!! I'd rather be broke than hungover or drunk. Any day. I had a job interview for a remote job today and they will let me know by mon but it feels good. Moving forward! Love you all! xo
@jgarcia975
@RecoveryPosse
I am online shopping at Amazon and I just had a phone interview for a job working remotely so hopefully I can surf this wave! So far I'm doing okay but the obsession is disgusting to me.
So happy. I wasn't able to afford a bday gift for my 20yr old daughter last month so I got her gifts today. A Blue's Clues tshirt (she still sleeps with the stuffed one I got her when she was 1!) and a Future Dentist mug! I hope she likes them! I can't wait for her to get them
Well I got a Happy Mother's Day text from my 20 yr old daughter but my 17 yr old daughter ghosted me completely. I hope their stepmom is enjoying her gifts! SMH!
Okay, another question.. I walked to the store and my balance was off. It was like I was drunk but I'm not. My hands were shaky. I thought I'd fall..so scared. Too scared to walk alone again! Is this part of alcoholism?
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@SoberEmpath
My sister was 24 when she passed from her addiction and my cousin overdosed on heroin at 26. My mom died at 44 from cirrhosis. Grief is hard and it never gets easier, I'm afraid. :(
I did it. Made all my hundreds of appointments, cleaned my desk, washed my bedding and put it back on, reversed my mattress... it's late and I'm tired so off to bed I go... Goodnight everyone! Sweet dreams!
What is going on with these college kids? I think most don't even know what they are protesting.. just a way out of class. It's not going to do anything. So sad. I get it but am sad.
Get off my vagina you sorry ass MFers. You can't be pro life and anti welfare... how are these women gonna pay for babies? Are you stupid? Jesus.
#HandsOffMyBirthControl
TY everyone. At the current time, the CEO said it's my word against his and he hasn't done it before so they are keeping him as an employee. I have to move. I also have to sleep every night in the room where it happened until I find somewhere to go. Mad I have to leave my home.
Isn't it weird how
#Covid
just disappeared? Now we don't talk about it, hear about it or nothing. Some healthcare workers and elderly people still wear masks, for what reason, idk. But that's just insane to me.
When I was drunk I sent a crazy email about the first half of my life to my 17 and 19 year old girls. Bad. I wrote them on IG and told them I will always be here even though I didn't raise them, that I'll always be mom. My 17 year old hearted it!
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I turned on the central air today for the first time since last year. I am basking in it. Did you know in Phoenix they call air conditioners, "swamp coolers"? Idk. The ppl also disliked the way I said "bag." It's a bag. No, they said, it's a baaughg.
I am learning that being in silence is lovely. I live alone. TV not on, no music on my phone, no headphones on, just quietly doing things around my apartment. I think I have sensory issues.
Its crazy that this happens. I won money for playing a game on my phone so I use it to go to the liquor store. Drank a pint of vodka. I would be ok but my hands are twitchy. Drinking water and eating ok. I had sleeping pills so I took those yesterday, slept through most.
My daughter was friends with twin girls who lived on a farm. She would go pet the horses and play with chickens. They were in college. One of the twins hung herself. My God. My poor daughter, too lost a good friend. There were no signs, my daughter said. :(
@SoberEmpath
Ok this is bad but I joined a sugar daddy site. This guy msged me. I thought he was fake. He said he was in Amsterdam on business and needed to get money to his son in the states. He sent me $10,000. It was REAL! I deleted and blocked him. I feel super bad tho...
@SoberEmpath
I was just sexually assaulted last month by my apartment maintenance man. I had already been thru domestic violence. This was in my own apartment. The police charged him at first but the prosecutor said no physical evidence so dropped the case. It sucks.
I was so excited to make tacos tonight but the tacos were not taco-ing for some reason... lol Ate 2 and put leftovers away. The shells were stale. They came out of the wrapper and box, so idk! Anyway... goodnight everyone! lol
@smokey_sullivan
@RecoveryPosse
I am looking on Amazon at stuff I need. I did buy a Prime membership. Online shopping is impulsive too but if that's what it takes, I'll be happy. I am talking to myself... "no, no, no." I just had a phone interview for a job too.. praying everything is good today. Meeting!
It's a new week!
#day12
Lots to do.. teletherapy, groceries, job interview. Long talk with my now 20yr old yesterday. On a great path to adulthood. Worried about my 17... she is a slacker and has no idea what to do with her life...grrr.. hopefully she comes along.
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So sexist. Me and the female officer believe me. The other officers do not. The company is covering for him, for what reason I do not know. Praying on this harrassment order. They'll have no alternative than to hire someone else. I'm sure they'll make my life awful tho
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Ordered my oldest daughter belated bday presents on Amazon. So much joy in my heart for doing that. So excited to see her reaction!
Day 8. Still recovering physically but getting there. Slept pretty good last night. My exbf/physical abuser called me from a RESTRICTED number. I answered because the DV shelter calls me like that. So mad. I hung up on him. I'll have to change my number. He was already blocked.
@kbarlowkstp
It is so hard. I have bipolar 2 and borderline personality disorder, depression, anxiety, PTSD. It's a struggle to breathe sometimes and let's not talk about showering. Just that hurts sometimes. Worse than any physical pain!
@Nevermore17666
I feel your pain. I have 3 days today. It's a vicious cycle. Just picking myself back up again! That's all we can do. Beating ourselves up is not going to help anything!
@bgy1378
@AryasGranny
Thank you. They are covering for him and believing him over me. He keeps his job, I have to move. I have to sleep in the room where it happened and it's very hard every night. Moving soon.
@BestPixMN
I despise these stupid things. They don't have them in Mpls when I was growing up and now I live in Mankato, they are everywhere and I got into an accident the first time I went thru one. I avoid them at all costs! I will go out of my way to not go through one!
@20th_Centurygal
Taylor Swift! Ugh. I get so sick of hearing about her. She's been bubblegum pop for how long? When is she going to mature into her own stuff? I'm sure 12 year olds relate.
@MitchellCohen7
He is the maintenance man in my apartment building. He hasn't been fired. They are conducting an investigation but said it's my word against his and he hasn't done this before --taking his side. They aren't going to fire him. I have to move.
$95 billion for overseas help. Keep that money and use it for America! Homelessness! Hunger! Poverty! Crime! Why do we help other countries? They need to help themselves and fund themselves. Where are their money? We always swoop in but we have problems HERE!
@panda_gongjunim
I have THE WORST. I am telling you, never knew. Tanned like a banchee as a kid, tanning beds.. ugh. Plus I am Native. It's all over my face. Can't afford chemical peels,special creams. I look like shit. Sunscreen is the preventor!