I'm like gay AF, like 98%, but those 2% go wild when I see straight porn. There's just something that makes me brick up seeing a guy pounding pussy, and not in the sense of wishing I was getting pounded, I'm picturing myself as the one pounding her
This is why I resent being gay.
I've accepted it. I don't hate myself for it. But I'm well aware that this is what whatever quirk of psychology and/or biology has taken from me.