Hi I'm Jervis, the 🌸World's Sweetest Man! I am a 🤼♂️pro-wrestler, 🎮Twitch Partner, & MerchBoi owner. {kondron is here too.} Jerviscottonbelly
@gmail
.com,
One more thing about
#SuicideAwareness
.
The suicide hotline really isn't all it's cracked up to be and may often leave you more frustrated.
Try 1-800-CAL-HOPE. You may call 4 times a day for a 15 minute therapy session with an actual therapist, not just an inbound call center
Dear
@BraunStrowman
,
May I please have some of your money? This pandemic made me realize I don’t like working hard. I don’t like working period! I prefer to do nothing with my life & beg for money instead. So, please, help me
#getthesehandouts
. Times are tough.
Warmly,
Jervis
I washed the dishes today! All of them!
I know it may not seem like much, but when battling depression sometimes even minuscule tasks seem monumental.
So to anyone out there who made their bed, brushed their teeth or completed some other small but crucial task: I’m proud of you
Dear Friends,
I have decided to write about my recent
#mentalhealth
emergency. Too many of us suffer in silence and my goal is to shed light on & de-stigmatize a serious health problem. I hope you'll read it with an open mind & heart.
Warmly,
Jervis
My number one goal for 2020 is to wrestle in a match for
@AEWrestling
.
It’s important to write your goals down and share them with others for accountability’s sake.
Now I’m off to workout. It’s time to make this dream a reality.
Yesterday I finished a two-month daily hospital program for mental health 🤗
It’s been weeks since I’ve engaged in any form of self-harm or dealt with suicidal ideation or attempts. I’m very proud of myself for that because for a second it seemed like my wounds would never heal.
Mum’s surgery was successful and the doctors believe they have removed all of the cancer. She is recovering well with a great attitude.
What joyous news 😭❤️
Today in the hospital the doctor asked me “When you‘re feeling suicidal why go on?What is your reason to live?”
First I said Mum
Then I told him all about you. I think I have a responsibility to get healthy so that I may lead by example for all of us who struggle
#mentalhealth
About last night: I have found myself crying round the clock lately because of a medication change & some hard
#mentalhealth
luck. It’s been hard to focus.
What you’re seeing in this video is a troubled man whisked away by the magic of beautiful, wonderful wrestling fans 😭❤️🌻
Dear Friends,
Over the past week I experienced a
#mentalhealth
emergency. With the help of friends, professionals & medication, I am on the road to recovery.
I will share more details soon, but for now, know that I love you & if you are suffering, you CAN get better!
GJ❤️🌹
Lads, I want to provide a
#mentalHealth
update.
Last month I was unmedicated, on the verge of a breakdown.
This month I am medicated, meditating, setting goals & achieving them. I feel like the old me again. It makes me want to cry.
Every day is a battle, but I am winning.
The doctor has informed my family that mum has developed an operable form of melanoma
She often reads my tweets so if you would, please reply here with something sweet for her
She is my rock, my best friend, a my bridge over troubled water
P.S. Please wear sunscreen. I mean it
{For ~10 years I have shared a body with
@GentlemanJervis
. Tomorrow on WOL we will both appear to discuss:
• Complexities of a Dual Identity
•
#ControlYourNarrative
• Founding
@WredditOfficial
• Our 2022 Pro-Wrestling Virtual Restaurant: Powerbomb Pizza.
No more secrets.
}
I just shed a tear thinking about how much my mental state has improved in the last 4 months.
Here are three daily practices that helped me find hope:
• Following doctor’s orders instead of self-medicating.
• Healthy eating habits.
• Meditation.
I love you all. Take care.
16 years ago today, right around this time, a voice came over the loudspeaker at school to announce that one of the best friends I ever had committed suicide.
Frankie liked hockey and Bam Bam Bigelow and I will never ever forget him as long as I live.
Last night was rough.
I’ve just been released from the hospital after a very difficult week.
I am not ashamed of my struggle. I am proud. If you can relate, you should be proud too because for some of us, the fight never ends.
“Why do we fall?
So that we can learn to pick ourselves up.”
Great news everyone! Tonight I’ll make my debut for
@IMPACTWRESTLING
🤗
This will also be my last night on earth as I will likely face my demise at the hands of The Family Pump.
What will happen when chainmail meets soft-cotton? Please wish me luck!
This man is a model fan. The artwork, the performance of another human frees him to express himself exactly as he sees fit.
Every wrestling fan deserves to have a character or story or moment make them feel this way.
I want to meet this lad ❤️
This tragedy provides a chance for every one of us to look inside ourselves and ask “what can *I* do to make sure this never happens again?”
You should ask that of yourself often, until it becomes second nature.
Words matter, words hurt, words kill.
#RIPHanaKimura
I really thought I was going to hit my number one goal for 2020; to wrestle a match for AEW.
This is no time to pout and no time to slow down.
Here’s to working harder and becoming a better wrestler in 2021.
I want to share something with all of you that makes me feel afraid
Today I begin a partial, daily hospitalization program to try & correct my
#mentalhealth
issues
If you are suffering in silence, please don’t. Tell someone. Ask for help. Brighter days are ahead for all of us
I can barely make it off the couch/floor. My heart is broken. So many are hurting. I wish I could take all the pain away from everyone who is down. I wish I could make things better.
Oh friends, I feel like the old me again! I have finally found a medication that works. Coupled with weekly sound baths, daily meditation, positive affirmations & 5 days a week in the gym, my health is ever-improving.
I am so lucky and grateful for your support. 🧡
So many of you have called me handsome in the last couple of days & I am flattered beyond words.
I've also been asked "why would you perform under a mask?"
I just wanted you to like me for who I am on the inside.
I realized last night that for the first time in a year I don’t have a single self-inflicted open wound or scab on my body.
Compulsive self-harm is one of the scariest things I’ve ever faced, but this feels like a really proud moment for me and I wanted to share it with you all.
Today let’s all practice not beating ourselves up.
• Don’t call yourself negative names.
• Forgive yourself for making a mistake.
• Don’t compare yourself to others.
• Consider yourself your own best friend.
Let’s all stay
#positive
. You deserve
#happiness
.
Dear Friends,
I have sent my resume, a match & promo to management at
@IMPACTWRESTLING
.
Do you think I would be a good fit for their program?
Warmly,
Gentleman Jervis
I think I’m ready to fight
@CodyRhodes
.
I know he’s been slammed, stretched, thrown & throttled. But has he ever been tummy tickled? Rocked to sleep?!
Perhaps sweetness is his kryptonite!
Today I used these
#affirmations
to achieve happiness. Try writing them down or saying them aloud. I sang them.
“I deserve love.”
“I deserve happiness.”
“I deserve to be happy at work.”
“I am not ashamed of my sadness.”
“I am proud of myself for trying.”
#positivity
Great news everyone! Lord Booplesnoot and I adopted a kitten from the
@ASPCA
.
He is called Archduke Alfred and he hasn’t stopped vibrating since we met.
This is our first feline friend so please share cat tips!
Is anyone out there kicking themselves for kicking themselves? Sick and tired of being sick and tired?
Stop it! Stop it right now. You are not stupid, you are not worthless, you are not broken and I would bet that you’re trying really hard.
Be kind to yourself. Don’t give up.
Support your friends. Compliment them. Retweet their content. Tell them you love them. Wish them success! Urge them to work hard and stay focused.
It’s free, It will lift both of your spirits and it will strengthen your bond.
Go in, try it!
If you are a professional wrestler you should be paid for your work.
If you are a promoter you should pay your wrestlers for their work.
It’s simple, really!
Recently I lost access to my daily medication. I am back on my proper dosage but it has been a terrible struggle throughout
I spent the day on the floor crying yesterday. I felt like a zombie on my way to the Bootleg Theater
Then you made it all better 🥺
You are my miracle.
{when I said I was taking off my mask to show more of my truth, myself, I also meant my body. I've been pushing my body to the limit for 15 years in the service of being a wrestler.
Body dysmorphia is real for soooooo many wrestlers. We just don't say it too often.}
Someday I’m going to get signed to wrestle. Naysayers will bark that I’m a joke. I don’t deserve it. That I’m not good enough. I am only good at being a character.
And you know what we’re gonna do? We’re going to smile & wave because believing in yourself never goes out of style
Ps. I was being sarcastic.
We’re not as afraid of hard work as you think. We just can’t find any work right now, which is an entirely different beast.
If you’d like me to explain the perils of an independent performer in the shadow of a corporate monopoly I’d be delighted.
Hana’s passing hits me so deeply in my soul. A few months ago I found myself the target of harassment here on Twitter while also battling serious compulsive self harm.
Part of me wanted to show my body, how much I was hurting already. I thought it might make the harassment stop
When it comes to Jim Cornette, don’t bother trying to drive out that hate with more hate. Just ignore the fellow.
Or just be a comedy wrestler and he might preemptively block you!
Today is
#WorldMentalHealthDay
. Perhaps you feel alone or unheard, maybe like your feelings have been invalidated. I’m here to tell you that you are worth it, you are enough and you are so very beautiful.
Hug someone if you can today. Try to spread some kindness.
I love you.
In 2020 we’re going to make
#WholesomeFest
a reality. It’ll be a G-Rated show with wholeaome wrestling, the good silver balloons that last awhile, a petting zoo & everyone will leave with a warm and fuzzy feeling in their hearts.
Let’s make this dream a reality! Are you with us?
Sometimes I hear a voice in my head that says “the world would be better off without you.”
This is false! And if you’ve ever heard that voice you must know that it is not the truth. The world needs us all!
We must live in this moment to share love, friendship & kindness.
My heart is crushed. This isn’t about me, at all & selfishly I tend to worry about my own feelings first but wow. My heart aches for the family & friends of Jon Huber. He will live forever through his work & we will uphold his memory as long as we are still here
#RipBrodieLee
I woke up in the middle of the night so I callled my mum to ease my restless mind.
She told me “Be Jervis. That’s who you are. That’s when you’re happiest. Just be Jervis.”
I don’t deserve a mum like her.
I keep seeing that AEW needs to sign ____________.
Let me just toot my own horn and say it plainly;
@AEW
needs to sign me, Gentleman Jervis.
They've never seen anything like me before and they'll never see anything like me again. You can set your watch to that!
To all of my mates out there struggling with mental health troubles today, please hear this:
I love you. You are strong. You are resilient. You will make it though this. I believe in you.
Dear Friends,
I have been lucky enough to be afforded the opportunity to host a panel at this year's LA Comic Con.
Our topic will be mental health in professional wrestling.
It's time for us to open up this conversation and destigmatize mental illness.
I was invited to Shad's memorial the other night to honor his memory. I parked my car when I arrived but for some reason I could not bring myself to leave it. I sat there and cried. I don't do well with death and I paid my respects privately, but I wish I had seen my friends.
Dear Friend,
You are good enough! Life is beautiful. Life is wonderful. Sometimes there will be dark clouds that appear & cover the sun but dark days are what makes sunshine so special
You are loved, you will succeed & you’ll always have a friend in me
Warmly,
Gentleman Jervis
I want to make sure everyone knows my phone number. In case you feel lonely, down or out of hope this holiday season let me share some good cheer with you 🎄
(765) JERVIS-5
I love you.
I don't often share this, but I quit drinking alcohol in 2016 and it's one of the best choices I ever made.
@JonMoxley
is setting a great example and smashing norms on addiction & mental health. Bravo, Mox. I admire your strength.
To all of my friends out there dealing with
#mentalillness
who are also afraid of losing their job because of it, I am with you.
Sometimes the world is not fair, but you are not alone as long as I am still here. Someday things will be better for us.
#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek
Poor Hana Kimura. Rest In Peace, Sweet Angel.
No matter what you think they’ve done wrong, regardless of their place in the public spotlight and no matter how you justify classless behavior, people deserve to be treated with dignity.
We owe it to her to be better to each other
In America we are celebrating
#Thanksgiving
🦃
The holidays can be a sad and lonely time for many. We can’t all be with family today, so I want to remind you all that my text line is open (765) JERVIS-5. I’ll send forth some positivity
Lord Booplesnoot’s first snow experience:
I am very sad today, and that’s okay. Sometimes sadness is there to remind us how good happiness can feel.
If you can read this, I love you and appreciate you all no matter who you are 💕
Warmly,
Gentleman Jervis
Someday I’m going to wrestle a match for
@AEWrestling
and I’m going to show the whole world that being kind is cool.
If I don’t believe in myself, why should anyone else believe in me?
All I need is a chance.
Friends,
Today is a tough one. So I have forced myself to eat two cups of green vegetables, I’ve walked 3 miles and now I am laying in the sun. Oh yes, I’ve also drank plenty of water.
#Depression
hurts but we are stronger.
Warmly,
Gentleman Jervis
Today one of my childhood heroes called me on the phone to discuss a booking opportunity.
What a ride. Thanks for being on board with me. Next stop: the promised land.
Are you afraid that you might not make it through today? I’ve felt that way too recently. You are not alone.
If you’re feeling like you need an extra helping of compassion, strength or hope today please text me (765) JERVIS-5. I could use it too.
We can be there for each other
@WWEGraves
@ayy_marino
It was gross when Lawler did it 20 years ago and it's gross today. Tell your character, if he's listening, to act like he's seen a beautiful woman before and to get over it. Reducing women down to only their looks is not okay in 2021, in-character or out.