I couldn’t clean my room, my room had clothes all on the floor, plates and cups everywhere, bloody tissues on the floor, I had food that was ROTTING in my room because I couldn’t get out of bed or do anything, I had bugs in my room, I couldn’t even empty my fucking bin
Is it trendy now? Is bed rotting trendy now huh? No, it’s not, it never was, it’s a symptom of depression, it takes over your life and is a mental health condition. Go fuck yourself if you think it’s trendy, it’s hell and I don’t wish what I had to go through on ANYONE
I couldn’t go to school, I pushed all my loved ones away and lashed out at them when they tried to help me, whenever my mum cleaned my room it would always get worse every time, at one point I didn’t talk to my parents and family for weeks
I couldn’t shower/ bathe and I couldn’t brush my teeth for months or change my clothes or sheets, I couldn’t even get up when I was on my fucking period to put a pad on and my mattress is stained with blood stains now because of it, I couldn’t even brush my hair or wash it,
I was tired all the time, all I did was sleep, I couldn’t get up or do anything, I couldn’t feel anything, my room had to get fully re done due to how bad my depression was, I used drugs, smoked, vaped and drank just to feel things. I couldn’t even eat half the time
My appetite wasn’t there, I lost interest in everything I loved and lost myself, I was sobbing in my bed because I wanted to die, I couldn’t even move to go to the toilet half the time and got a fucking urine infection because of it,
sometimes I would piss in cups because I couldn’t leave my room or do anything. I couldn’t get away from my thoughts, I would sob about how useless I was and how everyone hates me and wants me to die.
i want to die, im so fucking fat and disgusting, i don’t need or deserve help
i want to die, im so fucking fat and disgusting, i don’t need or deserve help
i want to die, im so fucking fat and disgusting, i don’t need or deserve help
i want to be fragile and thin like a doll 🕯
i want to be fragile and thin like a doll 🕯
i want to be fragile and thin like a doll 🕯
i want to be fragile and thin like a doll 🕯
i want to be fragile and thin like a doll 🕯
i want to be fragile and thin like a doll 🕯
This tastes like anorexia (I’m only eating it because it’s a bearable taste and fills me up sm, plus I can gaslight myself into thinking it tastes yummy)
this is my kinda meals, if you see me eating anything but these. I’m either forcing myself to or being forced to eat.
If none of those run that ain’t me
if I can’t hit my ugw, I’d rather die
if I can’t hit my ugw, I’d rather die
if I can’t hit my ugw, I’d rather die
if I can’t hit my ugw, I’d rather die
if I can’t hit my ugw, I’d rather die
if I can’t hit my ugw, I’d rather die
if I can’t hit my ugw, I’d rather die
I hate my life so much I just wanna go home I hate my life so much I just wanna go home I hate my life so much I just wanna go home I hate my life so much I just wanna go home I hate my life so much I just wanna go home I hate my life so much I just wanna go home
guess who has to go into fake recovery due to the fact my parents want me to send them videos of me eating my lunch at school for the rest of February. I’m also being forced to eat breakfast. How fat am I gonna be by the end of this?