5 months before what should’ve been our wedding I found iz after she had committed suicide in the bedroom of our home. I knew cpr wouldn’t save her this time even though I tried just praying I could save her again. I’ve never screamed so loud-
Please tell your people you love them. the happiest person in the room is usually the saddest. There are signs if your loved one is contemplating suicide, please pay attention
You loved me until the day you died, I promise I will too. until I see you on the other side chickenhead. my dream girl, I only see you in my dreams now
the one thing I’ll always be sure of is we knew the deepest parts of each other. we had a once in a lifetime love, a literal fairytale. I wish we would’ve had the chance to get married in the DR like we planned. wherever you are iz, I hope you found peace
6 months prior we sat in the hospital after her 1st attempt. I walked her around the hospital every day, spoon fed her, was patient as she learned to talk again. The nurses even let me do her transfers bc all she wanted was to be alone with me-
To this day I wonder if there was anything I could’ve done to save her. if I had just told her “I love you” one more time that morning. if we shouldn’t have skipped therapy the week before. there’s a lot of what ifs that have crossed my mind since that day
She was the happiest person I’d ever met. My mom even said so at her funeral which happened to be on her birthday and the day before Mother’s Day. people always talked about the way we loved each other, the way all we needed was each other
I always wondered if she heard me crying as I slept on the hospital bed next to her waiting for the drs to say we could take her vent out. I didn’t eat, sleep, or shower the entire time she was there. the nurses begged me to take a break but I couldn’t
@Pita69s
I’m so sorry, I hope you’re finding your way through the grief. talking to a medium helped me a lot and brought me a lot of closure, I’d really recommend it. he is at peace, the grief is equivalent to the love and that in itself is beautiful
my gf brought home flowers for my late fiancé’s birthday today& she had no idea they were the exact same flowers & vase Isabel bought me for the last time before she died
do people in IF not realize it’s not normal to fight every time you’re at the bars? that shit is so annoying and ugly & just shows you can’t handle your liquor 🤡
@MadamMarie_
@JBrooks_89
while his comment was unnecessary telling someone to commit suicide on a thread regarding suicide is the exact opposite of what you should’ve gotten from the message I was sharing
“you’re the strongest woman I know” is something I can vividly hear you telling me even 5 years after you’ve passed. the most kind love I’ve ever known, I wish you didn’t have to go so soon sweet girl
5 months before what should’ve been our wedding I found iz after she had committed suicide in the bedroom of our home. I knew cpr wouldn’t save her this time even though I tried just praying I could save her again. I’ve never screamed so loud-
@Pita69s
and that’s okay! grief is different for everyone and there’s no right way to heal. it’s as unique as the friendship you had during your time together, sometimes moving forward is all we can do 🤎
got the job I wanted today even being the most under qualified applicant bc they liked how I carried myself AND they’re paying for my schooling until I go to nursing school. I get everything I speak into existence 🫶🏽
Im always the one that goes all out for people's birthdays but never get the same energy back so im taking my ass to vegas for my 22. fuck ya'll i love being my own bestie
it’s important to remember your partner is only human. they will fuck up, be grumpy, make mistakes but so will you. stop demonizing your partners just bc they’re having a bad day, it’s all about forgiveness
realizing I actually am a loud, affectionate, communicative person I was just with the wrong person has been such a good feeling. I was so convinced I was weird turns out I just had zero attraction in my last relationship 🤡
anyone else think they were prettier during addiction vs after bc BABY I WAS FINE AF and now I do my makeup once every 3 months, brain dead and pretty 😌
still surreal I planned your funeral before I finished planning our wedding but the stars are so lucky to have you, amor de siempre 💛🌻 no one could fill up the spaces that you left
what none of you realize is that dating an addict is HARD. you can’t love someone into recovery but you can’t watch someone you love destroy themselves either