The difference between anorexia and bulimia is drastic. While anorexia feels like a slow madness, an actual illness, bulimia is an obsession. It's an addiction that eats you from inside out and erases your personality.
my mum: *tells me about her friend's extremely underweight daughter to warn me how terrible anorexia is*
me: *gets jealous of this girl and loses 3 more bmi points in a short time period*
DO NOT tell me of others' weight loss success, because i WILL take it as a challenge
Back when I was restricting and/or starving myself, I'd be obsessing over calories, yes. But I also was a HUMAN BEING with interests, goals, aspirations. Now as a bulimic I'm just an empty shell.
It would be very great and fantastic if I didn't have stomach fat rolls when I sit at fucking bmi 17 !!! When will the horror end, I started losing weight at bmi 25.5 and I still don't have a flat stomach
One thing about me is that I won't exercise to lose weight but I will purge to lose it. I'm so lazy, and repulsive, and I'm deeply ashamed of myself. This is the only place on earth where I can get it off my chest so..yeah
I've decided I'm not purging anymore. Whatever happens, happens. I've had the worst episode of purging in my whole life today, and I think this disorder will kill me if I don't stop. Just wanted to let somebody know, since nobody except my moots on edtwt knows about my struggle.
Anyone else bases their worth on their eating? Like if I eat under my limit, I'm capable, reliable, funny, beautiful, but once it's over my limit, I'm a despicable creature and no one must speak to me
being bulimic is basically relapsing BADLY -> promising yourself to never purge again -> purging again -> relapsing BADLY -> promising yourself to never purge again -> purging again -> relapsing BADLY -> promising yourself to never purge again -> purging again
Genuine question why do ppl pace around their house? They know they can go for an actual walk, right? It'd be so deadass boring for me to pace around my 50m2 house instead of really going outside, breathing fresh air and seeing different sceneries
when ppl think I care about "interactions" on the ed sector of the random app on the internet... guys I kinda have other priorities like trying to fix my crumbling life, all I do is come here once in a while, post my thoughts and leave
See I may be a freak but this is where I draw the line, these pics make me so uneasy because I don't want to look like a literal child compared to my partner. It's creepy, period.
As if this generation of boys is any different from all the other generations of boys. Men have been like that for centuries, which is precisely why we perceive them as dangerous.
Anyone else who engages in food polls only when they don't feel guilty? When I starve, I feel like looking at food can be comforting, but when I eat anything, my brain goes "didn't you fat bitch have enough interaction with food today?!"
some bulimia thoughts: being a food lover AND having no control AND hating your body is honestly the worst fucking combination. i'm not exaggerating, and here's why -
Please tell me I'm not the only one who has fantastic self-control when around ppl but once I'm alone I can eat all the food in the fridge and the fridge itself
if bonespo doesn't scare the living shit out of u, i'm so sorry. if anyone argues with me i literally don't care, i'd rather be overweight & healthy (and then lose weight) than a walking corpse with permanently damaged organs(even if i gain weight the damage will never be undone)
bro i'm so dramatic i'm literally bmi 17 and i act like i'm the skinniest bitch alive (i've been overweight for the past 6 years so being underweight feels euphoric)
I'm naturally such a private person, I never tell shit to anyone except my 2 friends maybe, so making this acc and sharing my deepest thoughts and moments of sadness is really exceptional for me. Love you moots <3
Fat activists who glorify obesity are wrong. Anorexics who glorify underweight bodies are wrong. Both sides chose an extreme, and extremes are always bad for physical health.
genuine question,, why do fat activists say itβs ok to glorify obesity but not being underweight?? both are unhealthy and both MAY be reality based on different people. i donβt understand why one is completely ok but the other is so bad?
Guys do you eat this?? This is buckwheat and in my country it's super common. When I was in Italy though, people came closer and asked what the hell I was cooking πΆ
I absolutely love the fact that half of my moots are lesbians considering I had ZERO intentions of it happening
Gays just stick with each other ig π€
Feeling fat WHILE underweight is ...confusing at best. I tried to explain it several times, but each time I couldn't. The best way I can describe it is this: you KNOW you're not fat. But you FEEL fat, all the time.
Those teens who complain about adults on edtwt... bro you're about to get the biggest shock once you turn 18 and your ed doesn't magically disappear on the same day
For all the weird men following me, yall not gonna get any bodychecks or face reveals, only misery, only suffering and rant about the sweet release of death, bitches
Every birthday starting from 19 yo was just a 24hr panic attack. You feel like a child your entire life and then BOOM full-time job taxes apartment rent money management
U won't get your period back unless u have a healthy weight, okay? Our body is smart enough to know that if we get pregnant while malnourished there's a big chance we won't survive pregnancy/childbirth. If u care about ur health, return to ur minimum normal weight at least
it's literally been less than a week since i've started my recovery (after having severe bulimia for 4 years) and my constipation is gone, my period is back and i feel a bit more energized. i had no idea i'd see some changes so quickly tbh
The difference between anorexia and bulimia is drastic. While anorexia feels like a slow madness, an actual illness, bulimia is an obsession. It's an addiction that eats you from inside out and erases your personality.
I feel like a cheater because both my hw and lw are just slightly above or below the normal range. But still, I officially went from overweight to underweightπ
I kid you not my bra size was bigger than my mum's, and now it's not like I have small boobs, no. I have no boobs at all.
Do I care? No I can sleep on my stomach againπ₯°
You know your ed made you fucked up in the head when you hear your heart racing and your throat hurting and you're all fidgety because of how much you panic at the thought of gaining weight
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I SWEAR TO GOD my friend is anorexic and it turns out that i feel so much more comfortable around food when i'm with people without ED than when i'm with her
I can't compare ana and mia in terms of what's worse, but if you think about it, every person with mia would love to be ana (including me, mia is my fucking curse) but I've never met ana who wanted to be mia in my whole entire life
The fact that I either recover and hate myself or fall into my absolute worst patterns and love myself. There's really no in between for me. I either suffer physically and feel happy mentally or thrive physically and feel miserable mentally
People saying "oh you look so thin now, tell me how you did it" makes me soooo sad. You don't want to know, trust me. The way I lost weight is smth I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
I know this question was probably discussed a lot but ANYWAYS, how do mukbangers stay fit if they eat monstrous amounts of food? Are all of them bulimics? Do they exercise 23/7 (one hour for recording a video)? Do they eat on video and then starve for the rest of the week? How?
I AM SO GAY ITS INSANE. IVE SEEN A PRETTY GIRL AND IM LOSING MY MIND SHE IS SO STUNNING TF??? IS THAT HOW STRAIGHT GIRLS FEEL WHEN THEY SEE HANDSOME GUYS.....
I wish I had an ed girlfriend, I know it sounds stupid af, but I really need someone who GETS ME, who feels the same way I do, because I feel like I'm all alone in this world of irls who live their lives happily while I want to cut my throat because of how suffocating my ed is
I used to be annoyed when I saw ppl with literal bmi 12 calling themselves "huge" but then I realised that I used to think I was alright and now when I lost 15 kgs I think I'm fat asf... okay maybe body dysmorphia is real after all
"I just want to lose a few kgs" > develops anorexia > develops nicotine addiction as a distraction from hunger > develops severe bulimia > develops major health issues
But the weight is gone, yay, I guess. My life is a fucking joke.
you know you need recovery when you're afraid of being stuck in a purging cycle MORE than you're afraid of weight gain. bulimia is worse than anything, not even horrifying thoughts of gaining compare