maybe finally comfortable? enough to find moots??? if anyone even wants to haha
so, uh, yeah, edtwt intro :3
-20
-coffee addiction
-severe anxiety
-sw ~89kg (~196lbs)
-cw 53.6-5kg (117-118lbs)
-cgw 50kg (110lbs)
-cats!!
-i like to share my meals sometimes :)
vegan hello kitty pizza!
the mozzarella seemingly wasn’t made for pizza but it‘s still yummy nevertheless! maybe a bit salty tho
421kcal | 23.6g protein
finally bought a smart watch!! got a xiaomi one for 40€ for now to see if I am comfortable with wearing a watch before spending tons on an Apple Watch and not liking it
i eat the fried potatoes way too often but it’s so yummy, low cal and one of my favorite safe foods ever (picture a little crooked because i had to take it quick 😪)
total - 723kcal | 27g protein
the urge to purge is so big but nope, I have been clean of that. it‘s not worth it + I‘m still in a cal deficit. but it‘s always so hard to keep it in when it feels uncomfortable oof
I will get pizza tomorrow, sorry for being a junkorexic, it will happen again. but at least I can proudly say that I haven’t gained back a single gram in the past 2.5 years 🧛🏻♀️
you know what? I‘m saying fuck this disorder (I will regret it later) and will eat around maintenance today (:
cinnamood bueno roll, it‘s so good omg
estimated 400kcal?
a little more today because I will travel tomorrow and visit a friend
I already meal-prepped porridges, protein bars and sandwiches for the next two days
total 1111kcal | 35g protein
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I am assuming this is a safe space for mental illness
no one is home, I will now take a big ass shower. have been too depressed to shower and wash my hair and finally do my skincare. my skin has been suffering. Self care is overdue!!!
// Not really a body check but yeah whatever
stupid fucking stretch marks, I hate them so much. I wish I would have taken proper care when I was younger
I am allergic to milk (the high protein puddings are sadly not vegan) and ananas, my stomach hurts 😔
total 671kcal | 42g protein
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@jadeeatskids
Picky eaters 😭 it’s not really even a “red flag” per se I just know I’d be bummed out and brought down if I, someone who loves food and loves cooking, dated someone who only eats like 4 specific things
mix of junkorexic + lettuce plant based in my case (I only eat chicken, mainly for protein but prefer and choose vegan if it‘s an option). and also a bit of wannabe stereotype 😪
my drunkorexic days are over 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻
I have genuinely felt so much better since I started using this account to get my thoughts out when I can’t talk to anyone, and feeling included in something for once, even if it is this stupid disorder, feels so good when you have always been the weird kid and outcast <3
ending my 29h fast with rice pudding
my mom is getting pho xao with chicken for me later and I am estimating to eat around 500kcals (I won’t be able to weigh the food🥲, so it’s very roughly estimated), so
estimated total ~714kcal
sticky rice with spicy marinated tofu and peanut sauce + a bit of this vegan caramel peanut protein bar omad 🍚🥜🍫
sadly did not like the protein bar and ate a hazelnut nougat one instead
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I‘ll be eating out tomorrow and I put the estimated cals into yazio and I forgot just how high cals naan bread is… sadly I love it and I planned to have one whole thing to not get any comments. it‘s my sis' birthday tomorrow, I‘m sure I can go back up to 800 cals right…
nearly collapsed 3 times so I had to eat because I absolutely don’t like feeling like absolute shit 😔
might have to add a protein bar (206kcal) later if I‘m about to faint again since I'm going clubbing (without alcohol, anxiety is gonna kill me)
total 581kcal | 22g protein
whatever; today's eats… did not plan to eat that much, but my mom brought me a croissant "to put calories into my system". at least it‘s good, I love croissants
total 1036kcal | 37g protein
for the Germans, please ignore that I‘m standing next to Tanzverbot, it‘s like the only comparison picture I have for my cosplay but the difference is crazy
been maintaining for 2 weeks, gotta lock in man
think i dropped 100-200g tho, weighed myself after eating before toilet and after. i thought my body was empty, been trying to empty since 5am, & thought I was done but got proven wrong 😩
total 571kcal | 24g protein