“He was eight years old and he wanted the crab from The Little Mermaid on it, which was called Sebastian too.” (Jens Munser about one of Seb’s helmets.)
there is no narrative. no redemption arc. these mistakes are mine forever. there is no journey, no sudden cleanse, the days will build upon each other, and each blur into the other, and the gross mess of sin i see in the mirror will get sicker and will get worse and worse.