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teddy 🧸 nbsteddie 2.0

6 months

this is my #2 steddie acc where i post threads and use it as a backup my carrd: my ao3: my tumblr: this is a directory of top recs + my organized threads: art thread down below ⬇

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6 months

steve learns about fanfic at a convention the party drags him to. he's supposed to just be their ride and plans to chill at a hotel the whole time, but he's bored and doesn't know what to do there, so he just gets a ticket and tags along.

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New book plot just dropped

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6 months

“Have you ever been with a girl?” Eddie’s not expecting the question. He’s laid out on his back on a pool chair in Steve’s backyard, passing a cigarette between them. He’s shirtless, because this is one of the only places he feels safe enough to do so, his scars on open display.

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7 months

steve and eddie having a very Dude™ kind of conversation, and then it lands on the topic of eddie's bisexuality. "I get having no choice about it, but if you get to, y'know, pick, why would you ever not go with girls?" steve asks. and eddie knows he's just curious.

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5 months

“Why are you friends with me?” Eddie doesn’t mean for it to come off so suspicious, and he winces. It’s just that the question has been plaguing him for weeks now, this uncertainty of their situation. It was one thing for King Steve to become the reformed nice guy —

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6 months

thinking about steve being too much of a lover. he immediately pictures a whole life and future with every girl he’s with, marriage, kids, and everything—because all he wants is that soul-crushing, devastating, once in a lifetime kind of love…but his expectations always ruin it.

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5 months

steve taking eddie out for a fun night at a club in indy "to see if we can't find you a girlfriend" only it turns into them drinking in a corner and steve leaning over so eddie can hear him, and every other word his lips brush his ear and the way his voice sounds sends shivers +

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5 months

oohh 🥺🥺 thinking about the way steve kisses...hesitant and tentative at first, easing into it like he's prepared to be rejected, either for being a guy or just for being himself...but then eddie opens up and steve lets loose. kisses like he's devouring him, like he's starving.

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5 months

Steve is here to find Eddie. He’s down here somewhere, they all know it. Something in all their bones, raising hairs at the back of their necks. A sick feeling, their lights flickering a familiar “SOS” pattern. It could be a trap, sure; but somehow they could tell it wasn’t.

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6 months

of Steve’s fingers pass over his thighs, testing out his response to touch, and Eddie allows himself all the feelings that come with that. The desire, the need, the anticipation. He lets Steve draw them out of him, not a thought of denial to shut them out again. (P2 coming)

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6 months

Steve grins at Robin when she arrives. “Guess who’s back?” Robin rolls her eyes. “Don’t tell me. Tammy Thompson’s career isn’t exactly panning out and she had to move back in with her parents?” “Not exactly,” Steve says, right as a voice from behind her calls, “Robin?”

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5 months

my maybe controversial opinion is that eddie is a lot more likely to take on some of steve's interests rather than vice versa. i think steve has a mental block regarding certain music and nerdy things because he just internalizes this idea that he won't be good at them or +

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7 months

#SubEddieWeek — Day 2: Manhandling “You gonna try changing back again?” It’s been a week since Eddie’s been back. A week since he clawed his way out of the Upside Down, his little wings carrying him the rest of the distance back to his friends. He doesn’t know exactly what +

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6 months

steve, the prince who is locked up all day in his tower, overlooking the city square he can never be part of...and eddie, the minstrel, performing for a crowd, right beneath steve's high window. he listens every day for that sweet voice, singing songs of adventures steve has +

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6 months

sub eddie week day 5—omegaverse (not sfw, descriptions of trans anatomy) “Whatcha doing out here all by yourself, big boy?” Steve sucks in a breath. He’s been nervous to find himself alone with Eddie, a little confused about the feelings erupting every time he opens his mouth.

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7 months

yk what I'd love to see? rather than focusing on will and eddie bonding, focusing on joyce basicaly adopting eddie with how she obsessively fawns over him like he were her own son. says things like "no boy should be without a mother," but what she really means is:

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7 months

steve lifts his head to peer inquisitively at him. eddie smiles. "you can test whether my mouth is also just a hole." eddie likes the way his eyes go dark at the offer. likes even more when they do that again, 3 hours later, looking down at him while eddie kneels at his feet.

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6 months

and silence hangs over them for longer than seems natural. eddie eventually snaps to himself and snatches his story, his eyes frantically scanning the page. "what the fuck..." he murmurs, slowly looking back up at him. "WHAT?"

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5 months

and maybe. maybe. they keep doing this, and steve bemoans how no girls ever seem to show either of them any interest, and eddie doesn't DARE mention that it might be because they look attached at the hip and the splay of steve's hand reads as a tad posessive...

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5 months

GENUINE enemies to lovers steddie but a la megamind, wherein eddie is a villain because he's been villainized his whole life and steve is his arch nemesis and it's really more about getting back at steve as retribution for being the golden boy while he's painted as evil

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5 months

his chest exploding with a million tiny fireworks that steal any last breath from his lungs. “Kiss me,” He makes his decision. “I’m asking you to kiss me.” Steve doesn’t have to be asked more than once.

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6 months

a quick press of lips, just to make him stop, to get his point across. “i always wanted to be loved like that,” eddie says. it’s all steve can do to kiss him back, desperate and deeper this time, two hands cradling his face, and completely mindless of their audience.

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7 months

thinking again about age gap steddie but specifically because of some sort of time travel shenangans where greiving steve gets eddie back, right the way he lost him

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7 months

lrt oh god...silver fox steve with what looks like his young boy toy but actually it's vampire eddie who is like 100 years older than him

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down his spine, and steve keeps putting a hand on his waist to pull him in when he wants to talk again, and the thing is he's so set on playing wingman he doesn't leave eddie's side the whole night so of course eddie never has eyes for anyone else

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5 months

and when eddie jokes about the night being "a bust," steve gives a sympathetic laugh and draws him in, arm around his shoulder, and says they won't give up. and all eddie can do is feel how warm he is against him, breathing in deep to take in all he can of the way steve smells

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5 months

Steve does, because he can. Holds him, strokes his hair, and whispers that they’ll figure it out. He doesn’t know if Eddie believes him, but when he asks, “Let me bring you home?” Eddie nods; and Steve swears, if only to himself, that Eddie will never know lack of comfort again.

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6 months

if u ever want to understand my eddie munson. he is a soaked kitten who bares his teeth and sticks his claws out all the time and the rest of the world sees it and goes "okay you're a vicious predator" without a hint of irony

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6 months

He shifts around a little awkwardly. “I’ve given head before. And one girl made out with me—on a dare, I think, but it was nice.” Steve arches a brow, his head angled sideways to glance at him over his shoulder. “Seriously?” Eddie shrugs. “It probably won’t change, either.”

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6 months

“I know that,” Steve says. “I just wish you both weren’t willing to give up your happiness because of it.” Eddie’s mouth quirks up a little. Steve and his big heart, always managing to make Eddie feel so incredibly fond. “It’s a little different for me than Robin, anyway.”

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6 months

don’t care about that. Like me and Robin don’t.” Eddie makes no remark on the way Steve groups himself with “girls” in his statement, saying instead, “I can risk finding out.” Steve frowns. “You sound too much like Robin.” “It really isn’t safe for us, Stevie.”

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7 months

he shrugs. there are a lot of answers to that question, most of them a little more complicated probably than steve is looking for. "i mean...just for, like, the mechanics of it," steve elaborates, miming something vaguely sexual with his hands. "don't you prefer, like...pussy?"

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6 months

Steve sits up a little. “You mean you’re okay staying a virgin?” Eddie huffs, his arms coming up to cross over his chest, a self-defensive gesture he never quite broke the habit of. “It’s not like it’s exactly easy for me. I can’t just like a girl and have things go smoothly.”

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a wry smile working its way onto his face, “But…” “But like hell that’s happening,” Eddie agrees. “So you’ll just have to get used to being friends with a perma-virgin.” “I’ve been friends with Robin for years,” Steve shrugs, and they both glance at each other and snort.

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So when Steve takes a tentative step forward, glancing cautiously at Eddie, asking “Can I look closer?” Eddie nods his head. Watches on bated breath as Steve sinks to his knees just in front of him, face coming to level with his hips. Eddie’s eyes flutter shut when the ghost +

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the fucking. sometimes it's about *my* hole, see, and I've only got the one." eddie laughs nervously, having been a lot more candid about his queerness than he usually is in the presence of a straight guy. steve stares him down, still leaning into his space.

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6 months

have the one piece of equipment you’re probably looking for?’ Even if I found a girl says she’s okay with it, the vulnerability of taking my pants off for her to see it is…something I don’t know I’ll ever be able to do.” “I’d say maybe you just need practice,” Steve says, +

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he's awkward about it, which is hilarious coming from a guy usually way more open to talking about sex, which nearly makes eddie laugh. "I dunno, dude. a hole is a hole." eddie expects to leave it at that, but steve leans in, even more curious. "is it really?"

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"can I see?" steve asks abruptly. eddie chokes. "my...my hole?" steve nods. "so I can see for myself. if a hole is a hole." eddie burns. "you've got one yourself." steve shakes his head. "maybe you think my ego is that big, but I can't actually be attracted to myself."

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more candidly about personal things he’s never done before, and it’s not easy. “It means…it’s terrifying, man. To be seen. To know that when a girl looks at me, she’s comparing me to all the other men she’s been with before. She’ll know how I’m different. Not like them.”

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Eddie feels like his head is spinning. “But…you’re a guy. You like girls. I like girls, we both—“ Steve shakes his head slowly. “I like guys,” he whispers. “Been figuring it out with Rob for a while.”

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eddie pauses. "well, i mean, there are obvious differences, but yeah, basically." steve keeps leaning. he's getting way into eddie's space. "so you really don't see a difference?" eddie swallows thickly. "well, I do, mostly because I don't always want to be the one doing +

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Eddie says. “Even if I found someone okay with me the way I am, it doesn’t mean I’m ready to be with them.” Steve turns sideways on his chair to face him, taking his turn at a long drag of the cig. “What’s that mean, exactly?” Eddie sucks in a shaky breath. He’s talking a lot +

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Steve sighs. “I know you’re, like, a freak and a rebel and whatever, but there has to be enough girls who are into that kind of bad boy shit.” Eddie scoffs. “You know that’s not the problem.” Steve looks down at his lap. “I guess. But there also have to be plenty of girls who +

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Steve nods. “I think…I mean, I know it’s different, but most guys worry about the same thing, I think.” Eddie tilts his head back, staring up at the sky. “Yeah, well, I wish all I had to worry about was a size complex. How do I look at a girl and say ‘oh, by the way, I don’t +

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but you could be attracted to me? eddie thinks to himself, feeling a little faint. and steve is right there in his space, making him flushed and lightheaded, looking every inch the way he does when eddie regularly jerks off to the fantasy of him...asking to see eddie's asshole.

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by someone you know won’t judge you, and it’ll come easier with somebody else.” Eddie can’t believe his ears. “Are you offering?” Steve smiles at him. “If it means you trust me, then sure.” “To just, what?” Eddie asks in disbelief. “Just get naked while you stare at me?”

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It goes quiet between them, but Eddie can tell it’s because Steve is thinking, his eyes distant and his face pinched. “What’s going on up there?” Eddie asks, leaning forward to flick Steve’s forehead. “Just…wondering if maybe it might be easier to be seen if it was with +

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Steve coughs awkwardly. “I mean…yes? I guess. You don’t have to say it like that, though.” Eddie sits there, contemplating. Wondering why Steve would offer him something like that. Why he doesn’t just feel the pit of fear he usually does at the idea of anyone seeing his body, +

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"what's the verdict?" he says instead. "seens to me you liked my hole just fine." "that I did, " steve squeaks out. "if you'd like," eddie starts, licking his lips, and wondering where the boldness is coming from. "we can test something else out next time."

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as far as he can, until his hole is fully exposed. steve's breathing audibly changes. "can I only look?" he asks. eddie nearly groans. his cock is hot and heavy between his legs, and it's taking everything in him not to grind into the bed. fuck, he's SO turned on by this.

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7 months

eddie is canonly hated for many reasons. foi focused on the stigmatization of him being poor and his father a criminal, while the show focused on metal music and d&d bc of the satanic panic, and it does him a disservice to write off any of those things as reasons why he was hated

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straying, “You look good.” Eddie fights the urge to cover himself with his hands, awkwardly tucking them behind his back instead. “You don’t have to say anything. I know I’m not—“ “You look good,” Steve insists again, finally looking up. “I mean it, Ed. You’re good looking.”

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"no need for that, " eddie assures, flopping over. "that might be the hottest thing that's ever happened to me." steve laughs, something between stilted and kind of crazed, and he drops his face into his hands. "what the fuck." that's my line, eddie doesn't say.

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but also the stirrings of excitement, which doesn’t make sense to him at all. But the answer is obvious. Steve and his stupidly kind heart, who would travel to the ends of the earth for his friends, would offer Eddie anything if he thought it would be helpful to him.

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someone you already trust. A friend.” Eddie’s breath catches. “That might be a bad idea.” “Is it?” Steve says. “You feel comfortable enough around me to take your shirt off, and that’s the first step. Maybe you just need to get comfortable with your whole body being seen +

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had a thought about steddie sharing the hive mind and kind of reeling through each other's memories as it links them and basically getting a first person pov of each other's childhoods, only to be equally smacked with neglect and lonliness and a deep seated sense of being lost

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It feels like a betrayal to himself, to his perception of being a man, to feel so affected by Steve, to want to be seen as desirable by him, to…want him back. Like it’s a lingering remainder of the time he was forced to spend as a girl, ill suited as it was to him, and the way +

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TOO turned on, maybe. "whatever you want," he whines, the words escaping his lips before he can think better of them. there's an unzipping sound, and then the sound of steve spitting into his hand. then the very familiar sound of skin on skin, fast and desperate.

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never known, heroics he's never performed—and with such reverence he could almost mistake the songs for actual affection. he wishes to know the bard, the one who lights up his eves with music, but all he thinks he'll ever be able to do is stare down at him below, and long.

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Eddie feels a surge of panic. “I’m a guy,” he says, warring with the fear that Steve’s words are coming from something entirely misplaced, even though he should know better. “I know,” Steve says, standing up to look at him head on. “You just happen to be a really hot guy.”

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Eddie hasn’t experienced a whole lot of kindness like that. Hasn’t had a whole lot of friends, either. People he can trust the way he does Steve. It means that Eddie might not get another opportunity like the one he’s being offered. Wordlessly, he stands up. He’s outside, but+

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"...can you spread it?" it's a request, but it doesn't sound like one. it sounds more like a command, and eddie feels helpless to obey; even as the crawling humiliation works itself down his spine. he takes his palms, reaching backwards, and pulls himself apart.

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that came with expectations. To fawn over boys, to be flattered if they ever wanted to pursue him. Eddie dedicated himself to being off-putting even before he knew he was a boy, just to avoid it. And now here he is, feeling weak at the knees because a boy is looking at him.

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fluid spurts and splatters over eddie, dripping right over his fingers and across his fluttering hole. eddie gasps at the feel of it, his dick throbbing where it's trapped. "I -" steve stutters, panting still. "I'm so sorry. I don't know what came over me."

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But not just any boy. It’s Steve. Steve, who has always, always known Eddie to be a boy—who treated him the same, even after he found out Eddie was a different kind of boy than any he’d known before. Steve, who wouldn’t lie to him, not about this. So Eddie has to believe him +

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putting on display. steve gives a curious stroke over it, and eddie does moan that time, his body arching and making an even more debauched offering of himself. "shit," steve huffs suddenly under his breath, and then the sounds of him stroking himself peter off, as a warm +

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i can offer you?" he steeples his fingers, and steve wants to scoff, but he also doesn't want to get on his bad side. he thrusts out the stack of papers in his hand. "would you read my fanfiction?" eddie's whole character drops in an instant. he blinks, his mouth gapes, +

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questioning himself, cursing and wondering what posessed him to agree so easily to this. steve harrington staring at his bare ass. to see if he finds it hot. what the fuck. steve breathes out, and eddie catches his own breath to see what he's going to say.

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jesus christ. "yeah, alright." eddie finds himself saying, like a crazy person. he rolls over before he catches the look on steve's face, be it surprised or enthusiastic, and he takes a breath while laid out on his stomach. then he pulls his pants down, boxers and all.

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Eddie doesn’t know what to do or say. So much of this is overwhelming, the way his belly is swooping and his chest fluttering over Steve’s words, his intense gaze, despite the fact that Eddie knows himself to be a guy, and has established with that how he feels about women.

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last year, he would be shaking from fear. From the belief that he would only see him as maybe a particularly ugly girl, hairy and the growth down there too big. But Steve has not once ever treated Eddie as anything other than a guy, and a close friend at that. He looks up and +

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tucks them right underneath his cheeks, and arches his lower back. he can feel the way steve leans in, hovering over him close enough his breath is warm on his skin. there's a silent moment of observation, where eddie's pulse is racing, and with each passing second, he's +

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"yeah, fuck, c'mon, " eddie encourages, nearly delerious with the idea of steve jerking off to the sight of him. he wiggles his ass, still fully stretched apart. one of steve's hands lands on eddie's hip, palm splayed wide so his thumb lands on the soft ring of muscle eddie is +

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nothing at all, not their surroundings, not the time passing, not even the other things their bodies are experiencing. nothing but the way their mouths meet, over and over, losing track of who is who.

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“so you know what you’re getting into. because it’s all you. the whole thing is about you, and you’re it for me. nothing about what i feel is small, or temporary. and you should know now, because if you realize later that it’s too much—“ eddie cuts steve off by kissing him.

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flush over him. It’s embarrassment, he tells himself. Being unused to being naked in front of anybody. That’s what’s making him feel squirmy and warm. Steve’s gaze lands right between his legs, and Eddie swallows a lump in his throat. “You, uh…” Steve stutters, his eyes not +

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their names, toying with “steve munson” and “eddie harrington,” even though they could never actually get married. he writes sad shit sometimes, like “i wish i was a girl so it would be normal to love you this much,” and he writes “i wish loving this much didn’t hurt so bad.”

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whether it’s because he can’t imagine any of these girls he barely knows in that role, or whether their interests don’t align and he comes off Too Strong to them, it always is his undoing. so when he forms a crush on Eddie, he’s Extra Careful to keep all his thoughts to himself.

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forces his head steady, because he does trust Steve, for all that he hates his own body. Steve won’t see anything wrong in all the places Eddie does, because that’s just the way Steve is. Steve’s eyes are roving him over, taking him in from top to bottom, and Eddie feels heat +

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it’s twice as bad that eddie’s his friend. steve feels like there’s double the risk, like he’ll scare him off both dating AND friendship in one fell swoop. he doesn’t know why he can’t be normal about anything. why he feels so much, wants so much. but he does, and he has to +

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when he says he likes guys. Has to believe that what he sees when he looks at Eddie is a guy, and he likes him still. Has to believe that if it’s okay for Steve, then maybe…it’s okay for Eddie too. That it doesn’t make him any less of a guy to feel the same things Steve does.

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house would look like and what kind of kids they would adopt and raise together. he has to stuff it all away, put it somewhere else, so eddie never finds out. never gets smothered in the tsunami wave that is steve’s affection. so he keeps a journal. a Book of Eddie.

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but it lasts only a moment. He knows he’ll talk himself out of it if he lingers too long, so he just does it. Shoves the shorts down his thighs to fall the rest of the way, and then steps out. If Steve were any other straight guy—if he were the guy Eddie thought he was just +

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the Harrington yard is blocked off by the woods, and it’s the middle of the day when anyone else is at work or school besides, so he’s not so worried about that. He reaches to fiddle with the button on his shorts, his thumbs worrying over the smooth surface of it in hesitation+

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writing, because he could never come up with worlds and characters and names and everything. didn't have the creativity. but to use worlds and characters that already exist, and just...make them do whatever you want? and nobody even has to know you're doing it?

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6 months

why steve would be a perfect boyfriend to him. he writes down each and every instance he wants to touch him. to kiss him. every time eddie makes his breath catch, every time steve is struck by how beautiful he is. he doodles nonsense on pages, like hearts around+

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“Would you…would you do more than kiss me?” “Eddie,” Steve says, stepping closer, reaching out again to take Eddie’s hand this time. “I’ve got so much love to give. I could love you, if you let me.” Eddie’s pulse races under the press of Steve’s fingertips, +

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put it all somewhere. he’s so used to channeling it into the relationship, being extra touchy, being together all the time, buying them anything he wants, taking them out on frequent dates—but he can’t. eddie is just his friend, even though steve has pictured what their joint+

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anyone else i could show." robin grins and hugs the paper to her chest. "just for me?" she asks with a grin. "that really is too bad though, because you shouldn't let all this go to waste sitting in a pile somewhere." steve silently agrees, but he doesn't have an inkling who +

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@steddiepiss

6 months

and luke skywalker together, makes him hot under the collar. way more than leia did, even with her bikini. he goes home with an itch under his skin, and a million and one ideas exploding in his brain. he always thought he'd never have the skills to do anything smart like +

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he’s not known for writing, so it gets him a few odd looks, and a little ribbing, but he needs SOMEWHERE to let it out, and it works. he writes down every little thing he likes about eddie. everything that catches his eye, makes him smile, makes him feel fond.

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“no,” eddie stops him, “don’t be. please, don’t be. god, i’ve spent my whole life feeling worthless and unlovable, and you write about me like that? stevie, sweetheart…” steve’s breath catches. the room feels like it’s spinning around him, and his eyes start watering.

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6 months

it gets so bad that steve is writing more often than not, when eddie is around; and eddie is around when everyone else is too, usually, which means they all notice. they all get curious, too. robin is mostly worried, thinking he’s having memory problems again, like he did +

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it back to him. “it wasn’t mine and i was being nosy. but, steve…did you mean it?” steve can barely look at him. he nods. eddie inhales sharply, and his hands fall to cover steve’s, squeezing them. “no one has ever felt that way about me before.” steve winces. “i’m sorry—“

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silently, and steve bounces his leg the whole time waiting. "this was good," she pronounces when she's done. "like...surprisingly good. and really sweet. have you ever shown your writing to anyone else?" "no," steve says, quickly. "i made that for you. i don't even know +

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he draws childish looking sketches of the house he dreams up for them, complete with a picket fence. he details out his dream date scenarios, and even fully explains the way he would plan out a proposal to eddie. he fully thinks out what their rings would look like.

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6 months

clenching in his jeans. eddie comes around to kneel in front of him, holding the notebook. “i’m sorry,” steve whispers hoarsely. “you weren’t meant to see that. i know it’s weird, and a lot, but it was only supposed to be for me.” “i’m sorry for looking,” eddie says, handing +

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he ends up going to the first event he sees that he recognizes—something star wars related, and while some of the boys snicker while passing by, steve decides to check it out. what it turns out to be is a reading circle, for something called "fanfiction." now, steve's never +

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