A delayed happy new year to you all.Had a lovely time away with friends.Managed one semi decent photo which I nearly never shared but I’m trying to work on my self confidence so please be kind ❤️ survived a mini meltdown too so feeling quite proud.Let’s hope 2023 is wonderful ❤️
Just a personal observation but have you ever noticed that those who have been through the most shit in life are the ones who can laugh at most things ? And those who get offended by their own shadow usually have never had anything really bad happen ?
#darksenseofhumour
I know tattoos aren’t everyone’s cup of tea but this is the one I had done today. Designed especially in memory of my late brother. The gecko has huge significance and it means I know he always has my back 💕
Boo! last day for me (yay says everyone sick of seeing my leg photos
#sorrynotsorry
) so it’s an early couple of coffees by the pool to make the most of it. Kos, it’s been lovely - but I still want to shoot that f***ing cockerel 😂😎
Just claimed my self employed grant from gov website. Very impressed with how quick and easy it was. Should get the money in 6 working days.Shame it’s not a bit more money but hey ho😆.very well done Gov on getting that all set up so quickly and ahead of schedule
#PositiveVibes
Feeling really low the last few days after losing my brother in an accident 4 months ago. My dog also died 3 months before that. Walked into a pub tonight and a dog ran up to me and just sat and cuddled me. Instantly felt better
@rickygervais
#dogsarebetterthanpeople
So, I’m sticking to my online dating thing (not for much longer at this rate though) and I’m getting some stick from some blokes as I’ve specified a minimum height. I’m 5’8 and I don’t want to be looking down on a bloke when I’m wearing heels.. is that such a bad thing ?
Finished my 25 days of 25 press-ups today for
#PTSD
and
#mentalhealth
decided to go large and did a full on hours workout , all with 25lbs in my Bergen. Please if you’re suffering with MH, speak out. It’s a sign of strength to ask for help. I did.
Happy birthday me. 52 today. Look at me smiling and happy out with friends. No one knows what lies beneath .
#cptsd
#MentalHealthAwareness
By the way I’m ok xx
Right this is it.. last tweet from me and my legs.. I’ve dragged it out until the last minute today but it’s time to get ready for the airport transfer. Let’s hope we don’t have a 5 hour delay on the way home like we did coming out.
#Kos
#DontWantToGoHome
PTSD can just fuck off
I literally hate myself and my stupid brain right now. I’m ok , really. Don’t want lots of ‘are you OK messages ‘? I’m just screaming into the ether and this is my only vent. Sorry. Needed that.
Just to say the dog I found yesterday has now been reunited with his owner. The vet eventually found his chip. I have deleted the original post as people are still very kindly sharing it. Twitter can be a wonderful place. Thank you all for sharing and caring. Have a lovely day 💕
Haven’t been on twitter much at all lately (too much politics and war for me) so I’d love to see some ‘nice’ things please. Pets, happy faces, good times pics all very welcome. Let’s spread some
#PositiveVibes
I’ll start
Two years today since I had to say goodbye to you, my brother, my world. See you in eternity Ian. Will raise a glass to you this evening. Forever in my heart and soul 💙❤️💙
@scribblerlex
Serious question. When are people going to fight back and say enough is enough? When all the pubs are closed down? When people are dying in their homes? Honestly the apathy from most people is shocking.
In a change from the scheduled ‘holiday leg pictures’ I give you instead sofa legs 🤣 Looking outside at my neighbours houses,I can’t believe how many have all their windows open.I’ve had all my doors, windows, curtains and blinds shut all day and it’s lovely and cool in here 😎
How it started to how it is now. Best friends 50th birthday zoom . Can’t believe I got this dressed up to make cocktails in my lounge .. 😆 uncomfortable picture of me in a dress. Sorry. Yes I am tipsy .. yes I will regret this tweet tomorrow 🥳
Happy as a pig in you know what ❤️ Nature therapy for the soul. Get outside and connect with nature. Once you do, you’ll never look back.
#weareone
#positivity
#getoutside
Tonight I am very sad. It’s been a really emotional couple of days. not tweeting this for sympathy.I’m just sending it into the ether.I’m sad.I’m tired.I miss my brother.I miss my old life.I will drink wine tonight which I’ll regret tomorrow. Then I’ll carry on like I always do.
I’ve been off Twitter a fair while and although I miss my mates on here I really don’t miss the negativity. So to balance it up here’s me being super happy in the Brecon Beacons yesterday. Dipping out again for now. Remember even a small throw away comment can be hurtful
#BeKind
I split up with my ex husband 10 years ago. 10 bloody years ago!! And yet I still sleep on one side of the bed. Is that a bit weird ?! Maybe one of the reasons I’m still single … 😂😂
I didn’t get the job I applied for .. however they have put me forward for an interview next week for a different role... so I’m focusing on the positive there.... I’ve come a long way in 2 years that’s for sure ...
#ptsd
#anxiety
#PositiveVibes
Cheeky 16 miles today. Not carrying huge weight or going for time. Just really enjoyed it. Plus faced one of my major fears and climbed Cribyn. Absolutely terrified and had to fight off a panic attack but I did it ! Fuck you PTSD!!!
@gareththomas14
Me at the top of Scafell Pike Nov18. My brother died in an accident 6 weeks before.we were meant to be doing the 3 peaks challenge together so I did it by myself and left a pic of him at the top of each peak.I’ve suffered from ptsd since he died so this was a massive thing for me
Man messages me : hey, fancy meeting up sometime ?
Me : no thanks .. not looking for anything right now
Man : you sure ? You don’t know until you try
Me : no really .. thank you
Man : sends 2 pics of him naked in his bathroom
Me : Your bathroom needs cleaning *blocked*
😂
Very lucky to have the day off today to relax after an amazing weekend with friends & family celebrating my 50th birthday.A day of reflection and feeling grateful It’s been an incredible 5 days of different celebrations with everyone & I’m overwhelmed by the love I’ve been shown
Came home, put on my workout gear, took my pre-workout omeprazole (I get really bad acid indigestion and doing mountain climbers without a tablet is not good), came downstairs to prep food for after workout, opened fridge, found already opened wine. The end.
Happy birthday Ian. You weren’t just my brother but my best friend and the only man who never let me down. Still doesn’t seem real that you’re not here. I will love you and miss you until the day I die and we meet again. True love never dies, it simply waits. Say hi to Mum 💙❤️💙
It’s my biggest brothers birthday today.I don’t get to see him as often as I’d like but when we get together it’s fab.Even more precious since we suddenly lost our brother Ian 3 years ago.Never let anyone tell you how to spend your time,you never know when it will be the last 💙
I’ve had a lovely birthday today.Thank you to all those who sent me birthday wishes, cards and presents. I’m very lucky but I’d give it all up for one more day with my big brother.This was taken on my birthday 7 years ago. I miss him more and more every day. Until eternity 💙❤️💙
Ok so a quick one for mainly the blokes (but girls feel free to join in!) .. if I said ‘Princess Leia in the gold bikini’ you know what I’m talking about right ..?
My friend persuaded me to try online dating again, after I gave it up several years ago. I can confirm it is still as shit as it always was.
#dating
#single
#INeedaDog
Twitter can be really wonderful at times. Thanks to everyone who messaged and checked if I was ok last night🥰Apologies for the head wobble. Lack of sleep and too much alcohol is not a good combo. Back on track today so here’s another holiday picture to annoy everyone ..😎
Just popped up on my Timehop. Taken 5 years ago today. One of my favourite pictures of Ian and I. Love you and miss you always my big brother 💙 Happy Father’s Day to one of the best Dads there was xxx
My boy is 27 today (not sure how that’s possible when I’m only 35 though 😉) and I can hand on heart say he is the most incredible man. Loving, thoughtful, kind, loyal and hard working. One of the two greatest achievements in my life and I couldn’t be more proud 🎂🎈🎉💕🥰
23.47hrs 12.10.18 my brother Ian took his last natural breath age 49 One of the hardest things for me is never knowing what happened to you that night. I will love & miss you until the day I die and I know you’ll be waiting for me. The only man in my life who never let me down💙
Oh my god twitter is driving me insane with all the fucking politics today. Dull dull dull. So , please share with me one photo from 2019 which makes you smile. Here’s mine... taken during my National Three Peaks challenge in July ...
Nightmares are back. Second night in a row now. PTSD, the gift that likes to keep giving.Special thanks to the ‘nice lady’ who left a ‘lovely’ comment on my tweet yesterday. We may have different opinions but that is allowed you know! Whatever happened to
#BeKind
? I despair 😞
My daughter is 16 today … she had her taster day at college today along with my brothers daughter. Another milestone he won’t be here to see. I’ve cried a lot today. Not after sympathy. I know others have it worse. I just miss him so much it hurts .. even after nearly 3 years.
Drunk,tired & a little bit ill. But very very happy that all the hard work paid off and my lifelong friend of 45 years has had a great start to her 50th birthday celebrations. I’ve never been lucky in love romantically but my girlfriends are the lives of my life - I’m very lucky
50th blood donation just done. I’ve been donating since I was 17 but it’s even more relevant since two friends received transfusions this year. If you’ve never done it please book in. An hour of your time could save a life.
#Giveblood
#NHS
#feelingproud
So I started my new job a few weeks ago. Apparently I’ve got two admirers (regular visitors to work) one is and I quote ‘the most awful, racist,homophobic, hard work customer there is’ and the other is 5ft nothing and nearly 70. Story of my life 🤣
What a day. Life is so surreal at times. I am a million miles away from where I thought I’d be by this age in life. Literally couldn’t be any further from where I wish I was. But hey, I’m still here. Alive and kicking. Which is a greater gift than some. So I’ll keep going.
Well it’s been quite a day today so far. Negative : My favourite toilet cubicle at work is out of order (no, not my fault before anyone says anything 😆) Positive : had a very handsome young man outrageously flirt with me. I’ll focus on the positive 😉 Happy Friday y’all 😎
It’s my 50th on May 30th - I am now officially delaying this until June 21st. And no I don’t care it’s a Monday. And you’re all taking the day off to join me at my party 🥳
I had a date last night. First one in a few years. It went well; I like him and he likes me and wants to see me again. I’m confused. This isn’t how dating usually works .....
I’ve just done a rare check on how many followers I have and I really cannot believe 978 people are even vaguely interested in the shite that comes out of my tiny brain .. but thanks for being there you lovely, lovely people 😘
This is what twitter should be full of.. things like this.. I’ve watched this so many times and it gets funnier each time. Love the fact that the delivery guy is quite happily having a little bop by himself on the doorstep and then bam! Squirrel !! 😂
I GOT THE JOB 🥂🎉
I am so bloody proud of myself - as I have been going through the hardest time of my life in the last 18 months.
IN YOUR FACE CPTSD!! I may fall down, but I will always get back up
#cptsdwarrior
#Survivor
Took a very, very , big step today. First counselling session from a very deep
#trauma
which my
#PTSD
has kindly reawakened for me. Feeling scared but also a little bit proud.
The best video I have watched in ages. It’s very short. Please give it a watch. The MSM *should* be all over this and challenging the government why they are still using the expensive and flawed pcr test ... but we all know we won’t hear anything about it.
I can’t believe my baby girl is 17 today. So proud of the lovely young woman she is turning into. I said the day she was born she was going to do something special with her life and I truly believe that. This was her at her prom last year.
#proud
#motherdaughter
🥰