I was just released from the hospital this morning. I've had anemia and on top of that substance. Could I just get one person, just one person to say hello to me here. I've only been here a few weeks but I have tried offering and encouragement and I have sent so many messages to
My mother's wisest gift. When I was 16 years old my mother handed me a box. It wasn't too heavy but she told me to put it away and open it someday when I am an old man. My mother was an alcoholic and I attributed what I thought was very odd having her giving me a box with
My name is Russell. I am with Robert right now. I am his emergency contact. I received a call yesterday that Robert had been in a serious car accident. I live in Vermont and Robert is not in our state currently. I flew out last evening and I arrived to him this morning. He had
I have brain cancer. I've had it for over 3 years. I am not well. The last 2 months I have been on the decline greatly. At a pace it has not since October of 2020. I am not a victim nor will I ever be. I will not live a tragedy. I have a new set of physical limitations and mental
When I was diagnosed in October of 2020 I had told my oncologist Dr Jared that I would not fight brain cancer. He was silent as he misinterpreted my information. My choice. I elected to have surgery and chemotherapy as well as radiation but I explained to him I won't find cancer.
3 years ago this week on March 5th, 2021 I woke up after an 11 week coma. Brain surgery from brain cancer did not go accordingly as hoped. What did the nurses see for the unsewing months? What did the speech therapists hear? What did the occupational therapists have to do to
Russell here again. Here is my update on Robert. I arrived here again at the hospital a couple of hours ago. For those who might not have seen yesterday's post Robert has been in a serious car accident hit head-on from a drunk driver. I had mentioned he had an emergency
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OMG. I am indebted to you forever. I swear in all these years I never thought of that. Of course she did. Going up with her she was so often and negated that all these years I assumed it was lost. Then if she was so orchestrated in her plan for me to have the shoe she had to be
There is no denying it anymore. I am slowing down. More than I want and quicker than I would ever desire. I have resisted this with all my energy but I must accept these limitations. Adapt with them and make adjustments without giving up. I hope my final point here will have
The hardest part. The unmerciful hardest part of cancer. And I can't get it to stop. And I never will. I had my surgery in November of 2020. 13 hour brain surgery. Something went wrong. I woke up March 1st, 2021. I easily recall the exact moment of opening my eyes and I
Robert update . He is asleep and has had a difficult day as can be expected. I have decided to spend the night in his hospital room rather than return to his home this evening. He begins to fall asleep and then moments later he jolts awake soaked in sweat. He told me how he can't
Russell here again. I told you earlier today would give you an update tonight. This is getting harder than I thought it would be. I know you guys know when he had his brain surgery he slipped into a coma. And then he was in the hospital for rehabilitation for months after that
Of all the inconsideration. How dare they. Since Monday I have barley been able to move. I have had every symptom known to humanity including menstrual cramps and I'm a man who is not transitioning. I have vomited more in the last 48 hours than I have with all the chemo I've
I woke up today as a cancer patient because I am a cancer patient. I am also a son, brother, uncle. I'm a Christian. I'm a Leo. I am a retired psychologist. I am a reader and I am a writer. I am a man of faith. I am a man who drinks a lot of water and I'm a man who used to drink
I'm thinking about my friends on here with cancer. There is an experience I had tonight and it breaks my heart that others have probably experienced this. Perhaps not all, but all too many unfortunately. I am still beside myself. I was removed from a committee. It has nothing to
Sometimes you just know. A few friends here knew I had an appointment this afternoon and have reached out. Well here goes. Am I shocked? No. Alarmed? No. Based on recent symptoms did I expect this ? I'd be lying if I didn't say I anticipated it based on symptoms, not fear of
Hello friends. If you read Russell's post last night you know that this is a difficult day. He left about an hour ago. It hurts but I want to tell you something. About five or six days ago a friend of mine on here who lives in Oregon made a comment on one of my posts wishing I
I am pleased to tell my friends that I have been released from captivity and Russell's wife Brenda brought me home earlier this afternoon. I know that tomorrow is mother's Day and I want everyone here to know I felt nurtured this week by each and every one of you. Russell would
Okay I'm going to say something to get this off my chest because I don't deal in the world of the ridiculous. I'm going to piss some people off. That is not my intention but I'm going to call this bullshit out. If one more person sends me the cure to cancer by telling me what
Russell here. Ever think you would hear from me again? I will be heading back to Vermont tomorrow. It's killing me. And Robert too. I'm excited to see my wife and children though. Robert and I have had a few goodbyes over the years but nothing like this. He would go on extended
Russell here. Robert is doing okay tonight. He is asleep. He is exhausted. He cannot use crutches because of incisions from surgery but his foot is in a boot. He had therapy. He has not had another seizure and he wants me to tell you all that tomorrow morning he is going to
At last Robert communicates. This is Russell and I may be biased cuz he's my best friend. I am blown away at what he did here. He is having difficulty speaking clearly for voice texting because his teeth are missing so we dictated. He wanted to wait until he was clear headed. I
This is me not facing the day. Yet I have to. Why? Do I really have to? The only musts are digesting 14 medications some every 4 hours some every 6 hours some every 12 hours today or I might not make it to tomorrow which based on today's to-do list might not sound like such a bad
I have debated whether to write this. I'm taking the risk with the hope that in spite of the ugliness it may help someone. I have become intimately involved with many of you. I love that. Didn't expect it. I don't want to ever paint a picture of just one side of my life and I
April 8th. Cancer surrounds me outside my body. I have cancer in my brain with little tumor rocks and I have cancer in a major organ as of a month ago. The perimeters of cancer are not only within my body. Sometimes when I'm standing perfectly still I sense Cancer all around me.
Russell here. I apologize this post is much later than I had wanted for giving you an update but it has not been a good morning and I have been waiting for more information from another doctor's report. Robert is disoriented so much that it broke my heart including that he didn't
Russell here. Good news. I know a lot of you have been following and for anybody who hasn't, it would be fair to say that Robert has been through hell the last few days and he is not alone. It has been hell for me the last few days and I know it's been hell for those that love
Here is the face of your exercising caution. There is no common sense or rationalization of any kind whatsoever and I will not argue this for people who say that they will drink responsibly and then get behind a wheel thinking to themself “I had better exercise caution.” Driving
Russell here. Update time. Thank God he is finally asleep. Big day. He has been emotional a couple of times today because of lovely responses to the post he made this morning. People have been extraordinarily kind. He had physical therapy this afternoon. Sadly the experience
A man on X recently asked for prayers because his father had died earlier that day. Actually the man said his father lost his battle with cancer earlier that day. I won't fault the man that said this and I did pray for him and his family and friends. You cannot blame him for what
Russell here. I just came back on here to make an update and came to three more private messages since the last half hour. I'm not as patient or kind as Robert is. But I'm pissed off. I wish I had not said everything I did last night in my post and I think I need to limit details
Good evening friends. This is a post I really never thought I would make and I'm going to do it because as is typical of me I think there's a lesson here. It was for Russell earlier. We cancer patients have got to pay attention and I don't think I was. I think I was in a state of
Russell and I pictured here. As the evening and week comes to a close I thought I would share a heartfelt post. Before he left this morning heading home, I was able to get into his car. A lot of people have been asking me about how I am getting around now two weeks after my
Russell here. This is a heartful post and I am writing it the best way I know how and I will show it to Robert before I post it. The results for the biopsies came in late this afternoon and he has a new form of cancer in three places on his face below the chin above the neck.
What are your thoughts on this? I have always said as a cancer patient I will not maximize this disease and be a victim nor will I minimize it and be in denial. I manage it in reality to the best of my ability. And I don't want to sound like a victim but there's one thing that
Russell here. There is nobody like Robert and we all know that. How fitting it is that it is his birthday and he gave me and all of you the greatest gift. They let me into the intensive Care unit this morning. I sat there for a while while he continued to sleep. I did not want to
Cancer, chemotherapy and hair loss. It has been one week today. Where has the time gone? It seems moments ago that I was hit. On the other hand it feels I have laid in this hospital bed for months. I have only seen my face perhaps three times, maybe four, since the accident. It
If you were diagnosed with cancer would you pursue treatment? Please do not answer that question. Why did I post it then? To make a point. During the last three and a half years God only knows how many people have seen some of the hell that I go through, the same as each of you
Okay folks Russell here and all I'm going to do for an update this morning is to show you that this is what I walked in on at 8:20a.m. this morning . If I have to see this at the start my week then so do you! Lmao 🤣
Russell here. Update time. Yesterday things were getting better and today they're even better. Now that the shock for Robert as well as for myself and for all of us is less we can focus on stuff other than just the recovery from all this. We have been laughing a lot today.
Do they think I'm deaf? They talk about me right on the other side of the door. I hear it all. And it turns out I'm not going home today. They said I need to be observed at least another day and I said well then pull up a damn chair and sit down and start looking. LOL
Russell here. I'll end this post in the spirit Robert would enjoy. I went back to the hospital and I sat in intensive care with him and they let me stay a while but he never woke up. I have read your comments from earlier and I appreciate your experiences and the support. It
Russell here with an update. In light of yesterday's circumstances I did not want to make another update. In light of today's circumstances I feel it is necessary. The love and support for my friend is nothing less than beautifully amazing. There were a few people who really had
Russell here I made a post a moment ago and I removed it I was sounding off. Here is the bottom line. I'm not dealing with this account anymore. I have tried and I did my best. I can handle criticism but what I cannot handle is obviously I've hurt Robert's account. Three people
Folks I do not need everybody to like me or to love me or to adore me. But I'm going to take a break from this app for a while. I have feelings too. And although I don't need everyone to like me I am tired of the personal attacks that people send me in private messages. I have
Russell here. Robert will be okay. He has to. I just phoned my wife back home. I've been given information and I'm not sure how and what it means. They are giving him a blood transfusion because of significant blood loss and his blood pressure during surgery dropped
You've seen them. There everywhere. I would like to ask you to reflect upon a particular observation. I am considered an elderly man now. I have reached this point though my physical body but my mentality remains youthful. Many of the people who will read this are
Please join me in the comments below by wishing a happy birthday to a member of our cancer community here on X who I see as one who is nothing less than heroic. Her name is Wendy. She and I became friends about 9 weeks ago and message each other often. Having been through
Before I tell you the outcome of today's court hearing I need to say something. Many of my followers have weighed in on this. And of course none of us including myself determine the outcome. Some wanted him harshly punishmed. Some wanted him to not have punishment rather
During the second year of my cancer itinerary I remember my 19th radiation treatment. As I left the hospital telling the staff I would see them the following day I was telling myself I can't do this anymore. As I headed home I thought how odd that I'm saying I can't do this
As a man who has been a senior citizen for quite some time I have found myself occasionally asking why am I putting myself through this to prolong life? Treatment is brutal as we all know. Look at this beautiful sunset I captured tonight. Now I remember why.
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Good day and happy New Year everyone. Thank you so much for the support the last 24 hours. It is deeply appreciated more than you know. The sepsis has caused an unbearable amount of confusion And I wish I would have made my post yesterday more articulate with greater
I want my life back. If this is not the most popular phrase of any newcomer to a cancer support group that I am dumbfounded as to what it would be. I remember the very first time I heard this and it was prior to my own diagnosis. It was one of my patients I was treating for
Some of you have made it read a post I made earlier and I went ahead and deleted it. A friend came over and he helped me get the GoFundMe set up. It is now set up but I don't think I will post it after all because somebody wrote me privately from the earlier post offering to
What a hell of a morning. And I knew as I tell you this story exactly what I was doing. I don't write a whole lot on here about social justice but I think we pretty much know I won't stand for Injustice. I decided to go for a walk this morning because guess what I can finally do
I knew I was weak and felt I have been delirious. I won't be on here for a couple days. I'm loving making friends here. I was admitted about 6 hours ago. I've been losing blood. I mentioned yesterday there will be a drawing tonight at 8:00 p.m. EST. My friend Russell will do that
Russell here. I had a phone conversation earlier with Robert. About 90 minutes. I'm in a bad mood. Robert wants me to snap out of it and I told him it's going to take time. I'm tired of cancer. I'm tired of it hurting my friend. I'm tired of it hurting all of you. I did not know
I cannot thank you all enough. Please don't freak out and think oh my God Robert's not doing well at all because he hasn't made a post less than 40,000 words ever. 😂
I am going to crawl into bed. I am beyond exhausted but I cannot let the day end without acknowledging the love
I know people mean well but sometimes I just get so frustrated. I have been having a very difficult day with massive amounts of confusion and the graphs of my brain from recent images are not good and I can accept it. But a woman today who lives in my hometown with tell me it's
Friends, I am sicker than a dog. I wanted to take a brief moment to say something to you. By the way you know that expression is not kind and considerate to our dogs. There have been some things going on in my life recently that I have not spoken about because I tell enough as it
Prior to my own cancer diagnosis I treated other patients from the psychosocial perspective. One of the things I've always seen as a common thread amongst many but not all cancer patients is that some die before they die. I have seen patients say that they want their life back.
Comfort and grief. I have been reading several posts the last few days from people here emotionally distraught while grieving.
I am 66 years old. I never saw my mother again after the age of 18 as my father deemed my presence in the family as an inconvenience. I taught at a
Waiting for Cancer's return? Waiting for metastasis? I truly believe one of the most harmful enemies to mental health is anticipation. It's a bitch. During the past week or maybe 10 days I have seen more than one person make mention of how doctors have told them it will come
Am I going to die? I want to live.
Tick tick tick. At 8:00pm on Sundays the clock ticks until 9:00pm for 60 minutes on CBS. That annoying sound to introduce segments ranging from a drought in Iowa to aggressively inappropriate TSA pat downs, announces itself in an alarming way
I am going to make a statement about cancer patients. I say this without reservation. I say this with complete certainty. EVERY SINGLE CANCER PATIENT WITHOUT EXCEPTION IS BRILLIANT!! How so? Here's your proof. Mrs Ethel Sparks, my fourth grade math teacher, currently slugging
I'm just going to put this out there. Chemo brain is real. Can I get an amen? LOL oh my God. One has to wonder is it age? Chemo? Naivete? Or just playing damn stupidity. LOL
Has anyone here ever noticed that occasionally I use a lot of words. Ever notice that? Well that's not the point. Don't even answer. LOL. There is a feeling in my heart tonight. Along with frustration. The frustration is because I don't know how to name this feeling. There are no
It is with tears of undying gratitude to the governor of Michigan who granted my humble ass a pardon as I was released from captivity. I'm home. I'm home. I can't stop saying I'm home. It was hell. The warden said she was the head nurse in charge. Not true at all. She stood
Russell here. At last report I have been told he is stable. I am a mess and Brenda told me earlier it's okay not to be okay. Of course it would have taken Robert a thousand words to make the same point. Haha. You can't imagine what it's like to know you're going to go to bed and
Russell will not live to see the light of day tomorrow morning. I have not been feeling well and I have spent an extensive amount of time sleeping today. I have been up for a few hours and I'm ready to go back to bed. His guest room is on the same floor of his living room. He
Would you all please join me in wishing Russell a happy birthday. First of all I'm alive. I had my surgery. I'm out of the hospital blah blah blah. I want to get to something that's much more important. Russell's birthday. Now some of you who know Russell celebrated his birthday
Surgery in the morning. They already have me so medicated the last couple of days of being here. But I'm trying like hell to say something that is important to me. I hope I say it making sense. I saw a post from a woman yesterday on here. She is in the cancer community with us.
Good morning Russell here. First of all I assure you Robert is okay and he has been moved into a regular room. I'm sorry for posting so late until the day. Say a special little prayer as this has been one hell of a morning. But it's getting better. They got him up and moving and
Russell here with update time. OMG ! He is feeling better and he still sleeps a lot but not as much. Robert is being extremely sassy. All I said was have you noticed how everybody in the midwest makes everything a plural. I told him how people don't say Kroger here they say
Russell here. After today with Robert I may need a bed in the intensive care unit. God this man. He is doing better and this post will strongly indicate that he is doing better and I'm worse off. Haha. Hopefully he gets to go to a regular room tomorrow and then home on Saturday.
One of the most profound moving emotional experiences of my life happened on November 2nd 2023. I'll never forget. I was leaving Denver heading to Boston. I had to be at the airport at 7:30. At 3:00 in the afternoon there was a man outside CVS on 16th Street with his 4-year-old
I'm going to ask my fellow cancer sisters and brothers and caregivers to consider this reflection, and for some of you this will not be easy but please take a moment and be open-minded. I write this with sensitivity of my best ability. There are millions of cancer patients
Someday I will look back on this and laugh but at the moment it feels like utter cruelty. LOL I had my surgery Tuesday I'm still in the hospital and I thank you for your love and support to those of you who have been reaching out. However, about an hour and a half ago the nurse
The one gift I have received being a cancer patient is one that I am not surprised at yet never thought of it until I was a few months post diagnosis. I am a United States citizen. I also belong to a particular political party. I am also a Christian. And I attend a 12th step
Had a bad morning. Beginning last night I became focused on the court date tomorrow. I honestly don't want to see the guy but I'm ready with my victim impact statement that I posted here a couple of weeks ago that you people acknowledged wonderfully and I am grateful. So I
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Now just a second. My mother thought she could do that. We lived in Vermont. My head was out the window all the time I knew what was coming. Lol
I would be honored by asking my good friends here to please consider reading this post. This is for my grandfather Walter and another sacrificing Walter. At the beginning of this year a woman wrote me of her husband who had died from lung cancer and how the chapter called The
Friends I know that Russell had made a post telling you I will be having surgery tomorrow Tuesday and that I don't want to talk about it. I'm not in denial. I talk about it with whom it is necessary, which means the medical team. I will continue to speak about cancer and
Please read. The roller coaster. Russell arrived back in town Monday. Staying through the week. I have still been physically adjusting to everything. He went out this morning to run a couple an errand as well as run in the park that is next door. When he came back he said it
Bad night. I will not be on here today other than right now for this post. Chemotherapy and the air quality of the Detroit area do not mix well. It is so bad here that motorists have been advised not to get gasoline to try to carpool or take a bus. And if you get gas do not
Day 11 of this. A week ago today I made a post about acquiring the flu. That is the last time I said anything yet I have said much of other events. I hope the point of this post is not lost on people. My condition has progressed. To the negative. Evidently the cancer has spent my
The boot is off! I am ready to head to the NFL summer camp as the starting place kicker for the New England Patriots! 😆 I'm able to take a few steps with the support of an ankle brace. Progress, pain, perseverance, peeved, proud, problematic, possibilities, perfection! Um....
Claire of vacation. Actually clarification. Well this is going to be revealing. First and foremost thank you to everybody who put up with me this week and I acknowledge I have been something to put up with. A neighbor of mine said you know usually you look like you're so tan,
Why did my nephew wake me up at 3:00 in the morning on Butler avenue on Tybee Island? Why did 7 time Oscar nominated Glenn Close take her pen and jab me in my chest? Why do many cancer patients live for the 25th hour? What is the heart of the matter for those living with this
Yesterday afternoon a woman I never met came to my home to bring a meal. And the later someone else came to take me to physical therapy. I am grateful. Interesting experience with the first woman. In getting to know her I inquired with a few friendly questions. The analyst and
It has become very apparent that people really enjoy Russell and our taxing friendship. You love hearing about him and I know when he spoke for me when I had the car accident that you all absolutely loved him and you supported him and you get a kick out of our methods in
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I am so glad I reached out earlier the way I did although I felt very humbled. But the welcome is awesome. I truly believe people living with cancer are the strongest people. I just don't think any of us know the strength we are capable of until we have to do well within and
I am over the moon ecstatic. And every one of you are a part of this story. If you think you're not, think again. When I was in the car accident 18 days ago I was supposed to have during the following week three different interviews to promote the release of my book. Those
Good day friends. First...I love you all and I appreciate the support. I would like to offer light into a decision I made. When I said yesterday evening I was taking a break from here I saw where people responded and for the first time I did not respond to every comment. I will
Shout outs and a little damnation!
Give me Your Best shot. Come on, come at me. This morning I made a post and it arrived DOA. In 10 minutes it had been viewed 8 times which is rare and stopped. I received a warning from Twitter as two people reported the post because it
Russell here. I was at work so I couldn't tell you all this earlier. Robert called me after getting the massage. He is the only person that can be worse off than he was. Haha. He was so stressed I was cracking up. I asked him how it went and he said well Russell how do you think