the reason i keep failing wl is because iโve been setting too many unrealistic goals. im aiming to get to 45 kgs in the next 3 months, leaving me bmi 16.5. iโll lose 7 kgs n maintain for a bit. iโll liquid diet, but aim for 700 cals on active days and (1/2)
thereโs this girl in my class and shes so fucking huge oh my god i felt so skinny near her ๐ญ her stomach was rly hanging out of her shorts. made me wanna starve for weeks
today i ate some of my fear food! i ate 437 cals which is a bit more than usual but im trying 2 boost my metabolism. itโs super scary tho.. iโm bloated n feel like a failure :/ might purge or take lax idk. atleast i got 10,000 steps in
all of my scars ๐ค
(donโt mind my fat thighs)
i did these throughout 2022-2024, theres ones that r older n in diff places like my stomach but theyโre small n quite faded..
i need more tbh
am i the only one that has a comfort clothing item? mine r my jeans n jacket , when im not wearing them i feel uncomfy and unsafe and upset ๐ญ i also think i look fat in anything else
does anyone have issues w replying n talking to people? iโm always so overwhelmed and stressed so i donโt even want to talk to people (even if theyโre my friends) and i leave them on delivered for days. (1/2)
walked 30 mins to the store to buy a cookie mix to bake cookies (im the worst anorexic)
theyre 133 cals per cookie, the walk was scary but worth it honestly
hahah fucking freaking out i tried 2 enemas, lax, fiber n everything u can think of n im still not shitting i am SEVERELY CONSTIPATED im sobbing rn i might have 2 go to the hospital and have someone shove smth up my ass tf pls help me
ana + being tired makes u stupid ๐ญ i was supposed to leave school in an hour but my fucking dumbass self left an hour early so now im stuck outside walking around in this fucking cold ๐ atleast i can get steps in ig