I felt every emotion in that retreat.
Being vulnerable like that wasn’t for the show, it was for me in those moments.
After, I was incredibly nervous of it going public for everyone to judge, but I wouldn’t have changed a thing regardless of the outcome. That was ME. 😮💨
Guys.
I’ll talk about alllll the details you all keep asking for when I get the ok.
I’m not ignoring you for fun, believe me.
80% of my messages all ask the same question.
Please be patient with me as I also have to be patient.
I appreciate y’all.
If you’re here strictly for the show and my relationship, that’s dope. Hi 🌞
If that isn’t the case,
I’m excited to see where this journey goes with you and whatever the outcome, thankyou for listening.
Grateful.
y’all are amazing with the support, even defending me when other people are speaking down on me.
I was nervous about this show dropping but y’all have made it so easy.
Thankyou fr 💜
This experience has also taught me that people will assume and make up any random fucking thing to tear people down.
It’s really sad to see and it’s even more sad to think of the prison someone’s mind can become.
Send love, its worth it.
The amount of stories I’ve heard about myself in the past 12 hours is ridiculous 😂
I very well may take a break for a day or two, I’m exhausted.
In other news,
Daydream will be dropping next Friday, the 30th of December 🌧
I’m learning how to handle my emotions.
It’s a patient process and recently I’ve been failing, frequently.
I’m looking forward to learning more from this experience but it’s been a full on tidal wave.
Embrace yourself.
There’s a flow that you live in.
Letting people, desires, outcomes and perspectives come and go naturally will open so many doors.
This is a message to myself and whoever else needs to hear it.
I’ve had a few distinct moments in my life where I realized this:
I’d go through all the pain, struggle, and confusion again a thousand times over to arrive back at this place-
This place is an appreciation and curiosity for life and love.
If you feel lost, keep going.
It’s never all light.
Being centered or aligned doesn’t elevate you above the darkness.
Life sucks sometimes.
It’s ok to not be ok,
But I think it’s important to remember that every night turns to day.
Don’t escape, embrace.
#mtms
The chaos that comes with having to watch the beginning of one of your previous relationships in HD from multiple angles.
& for everyone to have an opinion on it, 99.9% being vastly wrong & overly confident about it.
We can let that ship sail 🌬️
One bad decision doesn’t define you.
If you spend your time regretting that decision, you’re blocking yourself from the present moment and new experiences.
Embrace it, learn from it, and move on.
“The show being my lowest point” is simply stating that I’m only going forward from here.
It’s not a slight towards anyone, I’m fully aware I wouldn’t have this opportunity without it.
I’m excited to show a different side of myself through passions of mine 💜
Thankyou, ily 🥲
Happy new year,
Embrace this year and the risks and uncertainty of the unknown.
One decision can open many doors, doors that weren’t visible before.
If it scares you, it’s calling out to you.
Love y’all,
Let’s go 🌧
There’s no lack of gratitude here.
I have so much love for y’all. I feel like the connection I’ve established with individuals, through this show, is simply amazing and I love the depth of it.
I’m just excited to move in a direction of things I enjoy.
All this is just the beginning.
This show is the lowest point of the next 5 years of my life.
This song is the first step towards showcasing who I actually am.
I’ll be burning bright in 3 years.
I can feel it, I can taste it,
And now I can share it with y’all.
💜
I close my eyes and dream and dream, the shit I’ve seen I struggle to believe,
I self destruct, it’s quite a scene, I’m so held up with what I need,
But I’m not dead, I’m standing up, there’s so much life, I’m taking lead.