summer is coming i need to be skinnier, thinner, look better, have discipline, stop being lazy, workout, burn it all, 8+ hrs of sleep, only water, no alcohol, low cal, high protein, omad, fast, fast, fast, starve, starve, starve, summer is coming
dont let ur ed stop u from enjoying ur life, one day of enjoying a meal w friends won't hinder all your progess, we have a lifetime to reach our goals <3
@sillyskinnysero
i was reading that she usually doesnt workout but for the challengers movie they were consistently playing tennis and working out so it make sense she slimmed down, she was always skinny but rn shes teenytiny 😭
when ur younger ur ed feels a lot bigger, bc at one point it was the only thing you can rely on. ur biggest challenges were ur parents forcing you to eat, or restricting became a challenge, how many school lunches could i miss, how many before someone asks, it slowly becomes +
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yall i appreciate the suggestions and im aware vegetables exist however yall dont get it, the image in my head does not exist, i was simply speaking in a hypothetical, like if they made chips from air, its a textural thing fr
reliable, but when ur older? ur ed slowly stops being the biggest part of your life, the world is moving forward and you know you cant fall back, so u start to struggle, u start to wonder why the fuck cant i restrict? how the hell did i manage to go a week without +
a routine you can fall into, its reliable, a crutch. everything else is fucked up, but this? this you trust, this is safe, ur mom will always buy the same oatmeal bc she knows its the only thing you can stomach, ur friends already know not to ask you about lunch, ur becoming +
going over 100 calories, the older you get the more discupline you need to maintain, bc now ur responsible for yourself, for your bills, your career, your life, the people you love, the moments you experience, you cant be stuck in that bubble anymore or else u will lose +
the only life u get to experience, u will see everything move faster and faster while ur stuck in a constant fucking binge and restrict and binge and eestricr and bi ng e and dnkeidn fuck its aggravating isnt it? to have to relive the same agonies each day? my body aches +
i have been big and i have been small and i have been bigger and i have been smaller (mitski understands) but i cant continue this cycle of self-inflicted torture. I want to live a life that was worth living, after all the shit ive put up with, its the least i deserve.
this might sound kinda fucked up but one day i wanna take a trip w someone n we dont eat for the duration of the trip n do as much non food related activities as we can
the way ur ed shifts as u grow older bc ur body has a different set of needs u must take care of is so silly, especially as it translates into shame bc "i used to b able to live off xx cals a day!" "i could fast for xxx n b fine!" +
so i will love, i will laugh, i will eat, cook, bask in the joys of what i fear, but at this point ill know, with time ill learn, im just changing my approach, will i ever get better? who knows, for now ik im going to treat myself a little kinder, keep an eye on things but+
start making them special, that treat ur eyeing? it will still be there tomorrow, it will still be there when you have something to celebrate, maybe a holiday or a birthday or just to surprise ur friends with it, share it with those who sooth ur soul and make u laugh +
i rly just slept through da day n havent eaten cuz i scratched my fucking eye n just chose to knock out ... the eyepatch my bf made me is cunty tho my slay