The age 19, 20 and 21 ain't easy. you lose friends, you make mistakes, you fall, you fail, you realise things, you hit reality, you lose yourself, you go through different phases of insecurity, loneliness and frustration, you go through heart break.
As I grew older, I learned that the key to surviving the day isn't positivity, it's acceptance. Accepting that not all days are good and happy, you will have bad days, you make mistakes, you fail, you mess up, everything's not going to fall into place and that's okay.
: Can I request something?
: Yes, sure.
: If someday we fight and we don't talk, please keep all your ego and come back to me. I can't bear to lose you, again.
โBabe, are you okay?โ
"Of course, yes. Why?"
โAre you sure? Cause your Twitter always makes me think you are not.โ
"Because my Twitter is filled with the things i can't make myself say."
Pretty, but has family problems.
Popular, but has fake friends.
Smart, but has social issues.
Rich, but never happy.
Nobody is perfect, we just don't see it.
: Can I request something?
: Yes, sure.
: If someday we fight and we don't talk, please keep all your ego and come back to me. I can't bear to lose you, again.
Someone said:
1. If a person laughs too much, even at stupid things, he/she is lonely deep inside.
2. If a person sleep a lot, he/she is sad.
3. If a person speaks less, but speaks fast, he/she keeps secrets.
Breakups are okay. Starting over is okay. Quitting your job is okay. Moving on is okay. Saying no is okay. Being alone is okay. What is not okay, is staying somewhere where you are not happy, valued or appreciated, that is not okay.
โWhatโs wrong with youโ
"Nothing, just tired"
Tired of not being good enough, tired of trying, tired of getting put down, tired of backstabbers, tired of crying, tired of insecurities, tired of being unconfident, tired of being me, tired of just being tired .
โWhat are your best talents?โ
Me:
โPretend to be happyโ
โPretend to be okayโ
โPretend to be strongโ
โPretend like iโm not in painโ
Everyday.
2020
Maybe this time, Iโll do it for me.
Maybe this time, Iโm more to myself.
Maybe this time, Iโll be selfish.
Maybe this time, Iโll have a good life.
Maybe this time, no more fake people.