TW: depression
Next week marks 2 years since my stint on ward 21. I had a psychotic break and by the time I got clarity I was in papine barefoot, so I self admitted.
Was an interesting and long 2 weeks. I was started on medication. /1
When I was younger I couldn’t see a future past age 27, if I even made it that far without offing myself. Now I’m 23 (24 in oct), and I feel some glimmer of hope. So we’ll see what happens in the next 3yrs.
To the guys if you need help, seek it…. Please
#MensMentalHealthMonth
@gabwaugh_
He (we) barely speaks but loves there. He raised me, provided for me and allows me to be who i want to. When i said i wanted to study animation instead of going to 6th form "ok" no question. When i decided to go pesc he gets fish and cooks for me separately. Single dad w/ 2kids.
@gabwaugh_
Also he allowed me to use his camera and gear to pursue photography. He came to see my work at Colour theory the other day to see my work on display and said he's proud of me.
The fact He's proud of me, whewwww chile. Makes me feel fabulous
Dawg IMAGINE yeah,
EYE just step out of a taxi that JUST reach back gate. And a driver sees this, looks me dead in my eyes. Then says:
"Liguanea, papine?"
Lmaoooooo
My childhood diagnosis of Mild Clinical depression was revised to be Major Depressive Disorder.
Since being on meds my mental has improved somewhat, it hasn’t been a cure all, I’m still fighting it just makes the fight more manageable. My dad and sib visited me every day /2
I’m glad I had that moment of clarity to self admit, I’m glad I got help cuz I needed it. I’ve had to change meds and dosages time to time but I’m glad I’m on them cuz pre meds my depression was debilitating. /3
In the car with my dad and he suddenly breaks the silence with "you never did tek photos at protoje show?"
Me: yeah?
Dad: how come i don't see you post dem?
M: i posted em to Twitter, but i should prolly post to IG too.
*2 days later*
Me: *posts*
Dad:
Soooooo UWI is finna have a Tedx Event in February and I'm the photography coordinator soooooooooooooo that's cool.
I'll relay detailed updates as soon as I'm allowed to...
Waiting to go up to Irish town and i wanted to go to the atm but i never want the bus leave me.
So mi seh "bwoy mi wah go di bank but di line look like it nah move"
Driver look pon mi and seh "if you nuh join di line, yuh wi always deh a back"
I NEEDED TO HEAR THAT TODAY
To the survivors, sharing, not sharing, contemplating sharing, you're powerful. You're power full, beautiful, and valuable.
Sending love, light, and strength to all of you.
❤❤
"Man cyah even manage but dem garbage in a bin ya, foodbox outta car window, ah clog up di drain, and when di flooding start government di get di blame"
-
@Protoje
Got a lot of compliments on my resume today at the job fair, so i thought I'd share it.
Give thanks to
@PurplecowKris
and the
@UCAJamaica
team for the workshop.
I put my notes to good use
So life is fascinating… 2 weeks ago I tried to OD and woke up the next morning. Today I get news that my maternal grandfather passed today.
I guess 1 ras did haffi drop out lol.
My maternal family is…. Complicated but alas. Just know that mi locs nah get cut out of principle
Since my pops brought my phone for visitation just wanted to pop in and say howdy guys. Stay safe. Take care of unnuh self and ting.
I’ll be out of ward 21 in due time. Inshallah
- morph
Ngl bro I don’t feel like I fit Jamaica. Like I experience so much ostracism by merely being myself.
I’m getting really sick and tired of feeling like I don’t belong in my own home bro.
Am I gonna stop being me tho? FUCK NO. I’m the butterfly man baybeeee
To my Father, the man who raised me and my sibling as a single father.
For always supporting my passions, cooking separate meals for me when I became pescatarian, leaving coffee for me in the morning, for always getting me support with my mental health, love you pops.
Notice:
Someone seems to be using my Government name & my Business name to solicit nudes from persons, claiming to want to set up a nude shoot.
If you receive a message from someone claiming to be me dm THIS account or my ig which is the same handle.
My sincerest apologies.
My little brother messaged me today, he asked me how I was doing. Opened up to him.
His response broke my heart cuz what I didn’t tell him was yesterday was tough and I was contemplating writing a will.
My siblings really make me wanna stay.
So yeah if unnuh a guh get jook tmr:
Bring snack/ eat before you go.
Rise up di water bottle if yuh have one (you should we been trending eco)
Bring a book, handheld/portable game, power bank. You’ll be in queue for a while.
Breathe, relax, breathe.