non-minneapolis friends: there was a fatal mass shooting at a diy punk spot/show last night. please consider donating if you can.
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hey i’m actually very sick of MEN making their disdain for moshing MY problem??? if i’m seemingly the only person you’re getting mad at for moshing + dancing at shows, i will simply assume you’re misogynistic + stupid!!! eat shit, loser!!!
when random ass dudes pull me aside after a set + start lecturing me about how hardcore moshing “ruins show camaraderie” + makes shows “less inviting”….
i’ve had a crooked jaw for the majority of my life & last night someone full fist clocked me during war prayers last song & knocked my jaw into alignment lmao
tw abuse + suicide
an abuser killed themselves? man i feel really bad.... for their survivors who will never get real closure because their abuser never faced justice + the entire scene is sympathizing with said abuser, which can be super invalidating to the survivors
today marks one year since my last suicide attempt + mental hospital inpatient, which is the longest streak for me since 2018. i could say a lot, but all i’ll say is that im happy to be here.
here’s some people + moments from this last year that im happy i didn’t miss out on. ❤️
not to be sappy/emo on main, but i moved into my own place for the first time ever today + im just so :) !!! about it bcuz i didn’t think i’d make it to 23, i didn’t think i’d make it out of morris + to minneapolis, + i didn’t think i’d feel okay alone. lots of growth this year!!
referring to me solely as “marc’s girlfriend” is extremely demeaning and dehumanizing. as much as i love him & spending time with him, i am my own person capable of my own conversations & actions. people only caring about me because of who i’m dating mad sucks.
honestly i deserve to flex this graduation. so many people told me i’d never make it or finish. i never thought i’d be alive. i am 20 YEARS OLD graduating with a BA in music and starting at grad program in music therapy at 20 YEARS OLD. it’s crazy. wow.
hello i am non binary so please DONT refer to me as chick, woman, or girl/gal. it’s totally fine to use she/her pronouns (or they/them!!!!) in reference to me, but please don’t use those awkward gender indicators.
i’m sitting in the car at chipotle and this dude is down on one knee proposing to his gf outside or the ashely furniture store and these cops in an unmarked car in the parking lot are laughing at them
god forbid minneapolis address the issues of snow, plowing, infrastructure, city resources, or anything else affecting the roads!!! instead they will just ticket, tow, + profit for 2+ months while this problem literally just gets worse!!!!
tw: abuse
hey um quick psa called if someone outs an abuser & is brave enough to share their story & you don’t denounce the abuser because they’re your pal or in a band you like, THEN YOUR A PIECE OF SHIT WHO CAN ABSOLUTELY ROT IN HELL thx
when random ass dudes pull me aside after a set + start lecturing me about how hardcore moshing “ruins show camaraderie” + makes shows “less inviting”….
i made this video & couldn’t stand it with cheesy cute music.. so here’s a video of the last year of adventures with marc set to a one direction song. so filled with love & happiness from spending the past year with marc by my side. 💕
the fact that’s it’s not illegal for places of work to not disclose to its employees that coworker has covid is disgusting!!! it’s negligent + lazy for places to not be transparent to its workers!!!
we’re in a female rock star deficit right now. everyone wants to whisper on the mic. who the fuck is shredding and screaming anymore??? if u know please tell me
tw: eating disorder / ed
saying that EVERYONE should be vegan negates people who have or are recovering from eating disorders
instead, let’s be happy for pals (+ ourselves!!) who are eating at all, building a good relationship w/ food, + taking care of themselves!!!
emailed my prof saying i was sick. later he waited in my advisors office for me to show up to my advising appointment. they both got mad & said “gotcha! you’re NOT sick” & so i yelled at 2 grown men about privacy and my uterus/cramps making me barf so that’s how today went
i attempted to OD exactly 4 months ago today. i’m thankful i’m here, im thankful ive experienced these moments, im thankful for the love of my friends + community <3
this is where i was less than 2 months ago. my feet were so swollen i couldn’t walk, no feeling in my leg, & constant pain throughout my whole body. this is a reminder to myself that just because i can’t always see my day to day progress, i am still getting better & healing.
I JUST GOT ACCEPTED TO A POSITION AT MIA DOING WORK TO MAKE THEIR WEBSITE MORE ACCESSIBLE!!!!!!! i’m so excited to continue to work for causes that promote accessibility in my communities!!!!
every now & then i think about how in 9th grade i didn’t fit into the formal dress that i wanted & that destroyed my self esteem so my best friend’s mom made us a HUGE lasagna from scratch, sat me down, & told me that it’s okay because men like fat asses anyways
yeah it may be selfish for me to be crying about commencement being cancelled but i’ve gone through 5 years of absolutely hell + fought through hospitalizations + suicide attempts so all i wanted was the 10 seconds of gratification walking across the stage in front of everyone
i spent the past week developing, scanning, + restoring film that my dad shot in the late 70s from when he was stationed in germany + it has been such a fun process
growing up in a religious, conservative & homophobic town has made coming to terms with my identity so difficult. my school, church & peers constantly expressed how much they hated the lgbtq+ community.
but fuck that, i’m pansexual & proud!! happy pride month!🏳️🌈
#comingout
when i first became sober/claimed edge, i became really lonely really quick. it was hard to realize how much of my socialization centered drinking/substances. but now here i am, 400 days of sobriety down with the biggest/best group of friends/support ever!! tc mfn straight edge🫶
i am bipolar. the difference between kanye + i is that i am not a billionaire. so when i am denied health coverages + treatment, disproportionately incarcerated, or inadvertently discriminated against at work or housing, i cannot afford to live or even access the resources i need
came out as non-binary to my therapist + within an hour of my appointment, all of the pronouns in every single document in my chart were changed to they/them :))))
a dumb guy working at zumiez didn’t believe that i skate so he said he’d give me 20% off if i could impress him with a trick & i did a mediocre ollie & the entire store freaked out, made some lowkey misogynistic comments & i got a free beanie
i hated my high school and so these are the senior photos i submitted for the yearbook + graduation slide show... they cropped the first one to use it + the principal emailed me saying to stop being difficult.
pics by nie
it’s been 2 years since my last su*c*de attempt. grateful + happy to be here. happy i didn’t miss any of these people or these moments over the last couple years ❤️
(first pic brett rosiejka)