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18+ | edtwt | pro-recovery in theory but relapsing

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@lacrimosian

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10 months

i'm gonna make a thread sharing my chronic illness journey and how it affected my weight and long-standing eating disorder these photos are circa late 2018, after i spent my entire 2017 pregnant w/ a rare blood disease the CDC was involved with. i was so sick that i didn't-

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10 months

my son took this absolutely adorable photo of me that he asked to take (after i took some of him) and said "you're so beautiful mommy!" ok ok ok i'm never going to hate myself ever again, it was so innocent and sweet 🥹

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1 year

i’m unhealthily obsessed with this random hippie woman i follow on instagram

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4 months

last month versus this month (~20lbs difference) PLEASE tell me you can see the progress

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10 months

holy fuck i'm at 15lbs weight loss in two weeks WHAT IS HAPPENING!!!!!!????!!!!!

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10 months

@cskcals i... honestly don't think i'm mad at her for this, kinda based

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9 months

@cloudicalss this is so crazy. i'm weird af but i would love to see her bloodwork... there's just no way she's not chronically ill in some capacity (beyond and because of anorexia obviously), she looks so dangerously on the edge of life and death and it makes me so sad

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11 months

@calzfix4tion gives off *this* energy fr

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3 months

i am literally one lb away from being out of the 170s and i hate my body slightly less, everyone cheer

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1 year

@lourexicfairy it looks so good yet so terrible at the same time

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12 days

what's up besties??? i miss y'all. i hate that i've been gone in the most toxic way possible lmfao. how are yall doing??? what have you been up to??? how's your ed doing??? talk to me babes !!!! xoxoxoxo if we're not already mooties and you're 18+ let me know and i'll fb!! 💐🎀✨

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@lacrimosian

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11 months

@soraycals ok what should we say instead? (i’m just playing devils advocate bc i agree with you but feel lost on what else to say)

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1 year

@skinniebunnies literally my dream tbh

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11 months

obsessed

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1 year

@reiiexic main character syndrome, ana version!!

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1 year

bmi estimate?

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10 months

@mirubunnie my fav thing in the first photo is the yogurt tube on the counter. relatable queen

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10 months

since y'all loved this picture, here are the outtakes my son was also very proud of himself for lol

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10 months

my son took this absolutely adorable photo of me that he asked to take (after i took some of him) and said "you're so beautiful mommy!" ok ok ok i'm never going to hate myself ever again, it was so innocent and sweet 🥹

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at the risk of being called fat, i actually didn't hate this picture of myself a few weeks ago at the beach, i can kinda forget i hate my body when i look at it

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10 months

@prttytinything god that was such a capsule of time no one will ever experience ever again lol

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1 year

sometimes harm reduction is more attainable for people than outright recovery… ppl need to stop pressuring others into full and total recovery. it’s not black and white. *any* growth and progress towards recovery should be celebrated even if it seems insignificant.

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my version of recovery will be maintaining btw

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11 months

ppl are like “how do you afford protein bars” and the truth is that i steal them and i have no shame bc fuck capitalism and walmart, thanks for coming to my ted talk

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1 year

@reimunstable ok but are allowed to talk about how weird the hair is….

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10 months

if you don't have a mom or you have a shitty mom or an absent mom, guess what??? i'm your mom now!! 😇 i will love you and protect you and lift you up the way you deserve, even if it's from far away 🩷🫶🏻

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10 months

this coffee energy drink is so good and low cal as fck !!!

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10 months

WAKE UP BESTIES NEW LW JUST DROPPED

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10 months

CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP i've lost almost 10lbs and i can *feel* it in my body i'm gonna die of happiness

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9 months

"will you be my girlfriend?" YES YES YES YES YESSSSSS im so happy i wanna scream

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10 months

CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP i've lost almost 10lbs and i can *feel* it in my body i'm gonna die of happiness

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11 months

@ghbdreams theoretically that’s why the techs are supposed to walk the halls and check every single patient visibly every 15 minutes, but i’ve still heard horror stories at the particular inpatient i frequented (ahem) of adult women getting assaulted or pregnant so that’s a nope for me

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9 months

anyways at least i look pretty when i cry 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂 i never thought i'd have to live thru my best friend dying of cancer but here we are i just need her to stay alive as long as humanly possible but i also understand life is ruthless and we don't get what we want, so

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9 months

i cooked a low cal meal today from scratch :-) someone be proud of me!!

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4 months

okay i'm like actually freaking out I LOOK SO MUCH SMALLER AHHHHHHHHH CRYING SHRIEKING THROWING UP (uh not literally), the honeymoon phase is going great, weighed in at 177lbs today 💕

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10 months

everyone calling me beautiful is literally making me cry lol i love you guys

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10 months

my son took this absolutely adorable photo of me that he asked to take (after i took some of him) and said "you're so beautiful mommy!" ok ok ok i'm never going to hate myself ever again, it was so innocent and sweet 🥹

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9 months

would anybody be interested in a thread detailing all the supplements/vitamins i take to help combat nutrient deficiencies from my ed and support weight loss and cerebral function??

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2 months

wow this just motivated the FUCK out of me today

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9 months

@P3TITED0LL is this olivia rodrigo????? oh my god

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1 year

like??? she’s so??? pretty??? and skinny???

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4 months

beep beep i am officially under 180lbs again someone say yay !!!!!!!!

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10 months

weekly med restock time 🤪 welcome to being chronically/mentally ill!! i'm your host and i hate it here!! 😌

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1 year

@skinnycreepz you are itty bitty don’t stress!!

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9 months

bmi 21 here with the tiniest thigh gap from 5 years ago 😭😭😭 i WILL get it back if its the last thing i do, im in competition with my 21 year old self for who can be the skinniest

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9 months

my dad walked into the kitchen and said "whew, you ain't gonna find another man lookin' like that" lmfao ITS CALLED SELF CARE 😡😡😡😡

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1 year

ignoring anorexia tonight

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3 months

i am a staunch supporter of gaza and palestinians but come the fuck on... how does this morality parading actually help anything?? it's completely performative and immature and uneducated. you aren't doing ANYTHING to help palestinians, you're just being fucking annoying i stg

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1 year

@clelopl i’m so curious as to how the psych wards work where you are - i’ve been to 3 different psych wards multiple times and you’re never allowed to have your phone or leave the facility or anything. you’re in the UK right?

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10 months

i hope all men have a terrible day tomorrow 🩷

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9 months

i'm officially 30 days weed-free!!! i'm so proud of myself, i've been smoking all day every day for SEVEN freaking years, i never thought i'd be able to survive without it. i feel so much better, it's like i've suddenly been lifted out of a fog and can think clearly again 🤠💛✨

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10 months

i'm quitting weed indefinitely starting thursday and i'm not ready for how shitty i'm going to feel. i've been smoking all day every day for basically 5yrs and yes my brain is mush. the withdrawals are going to suck ass and i know i'm going to be so depressed and grouchy :(

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4 months

well, now that everyone is paying attention to me for a sec, i should post my mega thread on vitamins/supplements/self-care products i use as a girl with an ed that results in vitamin deficiency (which is most of us lol), right? 👀

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1 year

@ivycountin ok ok but can i be nosey and ask what medication

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3 months

when ur only support is your autistic brother lmfao i want to dieeeeeeee

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8 months

happy new year everybody 🥰😘

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10 months

uhhh no, my hw was medically induced, not because i was "eating a lot of food to get there in the first place" - check out my pinned tweet thread explaining my chronic illness journey and how it affected my weight and eating disorder.

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10 months

Ur at a higher SW, higher SW means u were eating a lot of food to get there in the first place so when u start eating less/normally, you lose faster.

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10 months

like i'm not crazy there is an obvious 15lb difference right?????? hElp (this was roughly a month ago)

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10 months

i can't tell if i look thinner or not my body dysmorphia is actually killing me rn

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11 months

@giornocals i’m so happy to learn i’m not the only one who gives the side eye to sarah lmfao like gurl bffr

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3 months

i'm taking these facechecks and posting them on the tl so i can have something to qt twt in december when my jawline has finally returned and is snatched as hell again

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2 months

i've been seeing this photo for like 12 years now online and it will live rent free in my head forever

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25 days

this just broke my brain in the best way possible

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9 months

guys what do we think about my scene queen concert fit for tonight

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9 months

i felt personally attacked by the dollar store this morning 🥴

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10 months

so what's the point of this entire thread? i consistently see a narrative among those with ED's who have a smaller than normal bmi that anyone that's overweight is just a fattie that's faking their disorder because they "want to be skinny" but aren't willing to put in the work-

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9 months

good morning to all my babes, how are we feeling today? i'm running on 7hrs of sleep over the last 48 hours and work a double shift today so let us pray that this monster and adderall will fuel me through lmao

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10 months

at the park with my best friend and our kids, crocheting out here in the 65 degree sunny weather, today is beautiful and i am feeling happy and content

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10 months

good morning, my tire blew on my way to work and my bill that's due can't be paid because their system is down, so great start to the day!! at least my makeup looks nice 🌝✨

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10 months

am bc to celebrate losing 12lbs in two weeks (roughly) i hate the way i look but it's motivating to see a small difference and know i'm doing well

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10 months

i can't tell if i look thinner or not my body dysmorphia is actually killing me rn

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10 months

sorry, but i'm actually super beautiful?? i think??

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10 months

I WEIGHED IN AT 181LBS THIS MORNING IM ALMOST OUT OF THE 180'S I AM SCREAMING IM ALMOST THERE AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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1 year

i’m sorry but i am very pretty today thank u

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9 months

brb i'm melting into a puddle, im gonna fall in love with this girl 😭

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4 months

remembering 4 years ago when my "best friend" decided to become friends with a guy who was stalking me and obsessively harassing me and then i spent the next 6 months thinking *my* response must have been irrational. now i'm like... why on earth did i doubt this wasn't okay? lmao

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11 months

i miss all of my face piercings :( i only have a single nose hoop and a septum now, boooo

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2 months

same linen romper, 30lb+ difference, i can actually SEE it 😭🙏🏻

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10 months

i'm gonna wrap this up, but if you only takeaway one point from this entire rambling thread, it's to not assume and have compassion and trust that someone knows their own journey better than you. an ED is a mental illness, not a body type. nobody's struggle is superior. 🤍🫶🏻

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10 months

shtwt, question: am i the only one who finds comfort and anxiety ease knowing there are cuts hiding on your body? like just knowing they're secretly there is satisfying and relieving for some fcked up reason and that's probably half of the reason i keep relapsing

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10 months

i'm on day 16 no weed and i'm finally starting to feel the fog lifted after 7 years of daily, round-the-clock smoking and holy crap is this what it's like to actually be an active participant in your own life??

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4 months

good afternoon fellow youths, how ya doin ??

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8 months

new tattoo from my trip to florida with my best friends 🥰 i officially cannot cvt my wrists at all now and that's HUGE for me ❤️

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18 days

like it's actually unreal how ethereal and objectively aesthetically sensual adriana lima is, she was the og 2000's it girl, hands down & bar none

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9 months

@pancakes420_ @AlanHerringtonn lol dude people can like... both types of music?? your assumption here reeks of gatekeeping ngl

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9 months

I KISSED HER I KISSED HER I KISSED HER AHHHHHHDKFNDHFLSMFUFNEKDKDBFJR

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9 months

pretty in pink for the Scene Queen concert tonight 🩷🧚🏻‍♀️🎀🌸💅🏻💕

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11 months

@dandycals @soraycals see in my mind the whole reason why ppl post their bodychecks is for genuine engagement - i would feel crummy if i posted a cute bc and got zero replies bc saying anything would be wrong altogether… i get what you’re saying, but i think it misses the whole point of twitter lol

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10 months

this photo reset my brain

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11 months

@jambearcals a lot of times “wanting” to be anorexic is one of the first signs of an early onset eating disorder bc like you said, normal ppl don’t have those thoughts

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4 months

deep eddy's peach w/ soda water, 130cals sooooooooo yummy 🥰 (ignore my bare and post-work-sweaty-face)

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19 days

@Tedoffthegrid he was busy repeating mantras for his own mental health lmfao

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5 months

i hate my body so much right now but then i take pictures like this and im like okay maybe im not COMPLETELY ugly i guess

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10 months

-which is such a destructive and incredibly false narrative that only isolates people like *me* with an active/chronic lifelong eating disorder but on the outside look like i couldn't possibly be anorexic/bulimic/etc. i consistently eat under 1k cals most days and get 10k+ steps-

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1 year

@tunagurl i was like “is this demi lovato” -ur so beautiful😭

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10 months

evanescence released their 20th anniversary edition of their album Fallen and it has made me an angsty teenager all over again 😭😭😭 brb screaming "IVE TRIED SO HARD TO TELL MYSELF YOURE GONE, BUT THOUGH YOURE STILL WITH ME, IVE BEEN ALONE ALL ALONG" alone in my car

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10 months

@mirubunnie yep, my step-aunt did everything she could to tear apart any ounce of self esteem i could've had as a child, including blaming me for my own sexual assault and telling me how ugly, fat, annoying, stupid, and horrible i was. family bullying you just hits different

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3 months

speed running to the 160s 🏃‍♀️💨

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@lacrimosian

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10 months

ok makeup girlies of edtwt what are your tips and tricks for mastering winged eyeliner bc holy fuck i am so bad at it

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@lacrimosian

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2 months

@NotEarlyNotLate @skinnyprinsess don't worry, she'll fuck you, you don't have to try this hard!

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@lacrimosian

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9 months

wow, we love a properly fitting bra... living life at a 34-36 DD/DDD right now & that'll probably never change even if i lose a shit ton of weight again lol (blocking out my face bc i look disgusting after having a sobbing panic attack on the floor for thirty minutes last night)

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@lacrimosian

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10 months

not the coochie lips on top of the bad photoshopping 😭😭😭

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@lacrimosian

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10 months

@wormsoupx you need tights or leggings for sure maybe paired with some tall socks on top. the billowy tucked in bottom of the shirt isn't super flattering- i would let it fall completely over the skirt so the skirt just barely peeks out. and tall black boots for sure!!

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@lacrimosian

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1 year

@queerbrains i started having suicidal thoughts at 8yrs old, felt this

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