Habits I picked up as a child model and still carry with an ED, a thread🏩
(disc. These r all obviously very disordered industry habits and not actual medically proven advice)
Habits I picked up as a child model and still carry with an ED, a thread (pt.2!! )🏩🌷
(As always these are pretty disordered industry habits so take with caution)
The whole point of my acc is I quit because I’m sick. You’re right, I wasn’t a real model cause I was a C H I L D who never should’ve been in the industry💔. I hope you find peace and heal your pain, I love you <3
trying to make yourself go to sleep after you’ve fasted all day bc you know the scale is gonna be lower and you’re so excited to see it is the ED equivalent of christmas eve change my mind
Bittersweet ED things
• Your loved ones being concerned
• seeing other people eat
•Feeling like shit after your OMAD
• drinking so much water when you're hungry that it hurts for a few minutes
• Wanting to die over binging and still losing weight the next day
• intermittent fasting
At the ripe age of 9 I was taught not to eat anything after dinner and to stick to herbal tea. Waking up, drinking water on an empty stomach and waiting for the digestive system to kick up. I find this has helped my energy levels in general.
Breakfast:
If I eat in the morning, I have a bowl of fruit. Grapes, strawberries, peaches, bananas, that sort of thing! If I don’t have any fresh stuff available tho I’ll have a small bowl of plain oatmeal and a sprinkle of cinnamon! Sometimes I’ll just have an ice coffee.
A reminder that it’s totally valid to feel shitty about wasting food, especially if you grew up poor. But these disorders are irrational, and you are not thinking about that sort of consequence when you engage in that behaviour. You are not a bad person. You’re hurting
• Appetite suppressants are my friend
I started smoking around eleven as recommended to me by older models, as well as chugging ice water and drinking coffee to prolong avoiding eating meals.
If you have cried over your disorder, it’s real. If you have had anxiety because of your disorder, it’s real. If you’re telling me you’re having trouble with food, your disorder is real.
I am SO sorry to the people who’s parents or loved ones don’t believe them yet. U r valid.
• Core flexing
Models do this strange thing where they will spend their entire day clenching their abdomen in towards their stomachs, as this is a way to multitask trimming your core while literally doing anything else.
Pro tip, if I’m ever being hard on myself because of my disorder I google “eating disorder stock images” and for some reason it always cheers me up like WHAT IS THIS HAHHDDIJD
I’m really tired of everyone in my life assuming I’m emotionally incompetent just because I choose not to make rational decisions for my well being. So let’s talk about the actual studied prevalence between gifted children, Prodigies, and eating disorders
In gifted folks with EDs there has been an explicit connection of psychological distress, identity issues, emotional restriction, and a sense of purpose and meaning found in their disorder, not just a desire to be thin. They often carry and awareness of these underlying factors.
• The diet
Contrary to common belief, most of the diet plans me and colleagues were put on were pretty nutritionally balanced. Nothing Russian gymnast. Balanced meals but definitely SMALL (I’d say 1/2-1/4 the average portion) of lean proteins and fruits + veggies
Because many highly gifted individuals have or had sensory issues, they have an intense relationship with their body. It isn’t just that they want to be “thin and beautiful”, it is that they have already spent years trying to tolerate being “in” this body.
Lunch:
SALAD! Man I love salad. Especially those kits. They have so many varieties now that I can have something different every day. I don’t put on dressings though, I find the calories aren’t worth it.
My favourite greens if I’m making one are kale, arugula and some sprouts.
•Genmaicha tea!
If you’ve ever ordered tea at a Japanese spot it’s probably been Genmaicha, aka brown rice green tea. It balances the blood sugar and prevents cravings and Hangriness. I have a few cups a day and don’t even realize I haven’t eaten.
• Naps
I. Love. Naps. Especially dealing with my hunger. Adore them. Fasting? You just got four hours further without even realizing it. This is time travel and a gift from god.
Snacks:
If I ever eat something in between meals, it’s usually veggies, granola, a handful of almonds, a piece of dark chocolate, or more fruit! everything in moderation though of course, and I don’t snack every day. In my opinion that’s a bad habit for me to start.
Despite the stereotype, studies have proven that stoners have smaller waists and lower cholesterol. Thus the stonerexic was born. These are my own habits I’ve created from being a stoner and having and ED, so please take them carefully! 💓
edtwt is so confusing because half of you are the sweetest people ever and I want to give you a big smooch on the forehead, but the other half I would literally punch on sight
What I do is keep smoking until the hunger is gone. I smoke a bowl, drink from a 0cal energy drink and get some nicotine, then smoke another bowl until I'm too zooted to get up and eat.
• portioning over counting
Tracking calories can lead to some stupid decisions about what you’re eating just cuz it’s “low cal.” Learn nutrition and average portion sizes so you keep track of not only how much you’re eating but WHAT in the fuck you’re eating. It’s important.
• “clean liquor” only !
Alcohol is already going to do enough damage to your progress, the last thing you should be doing is picking something like beer or a daiquiri with tons of crap. Vodka, Gin, whiskey, tequila. Stick to it.
I just keep saying to myself
You can smoke your brains out, you can cry .. you can drink all the zero calorie drinks known to man.. but you must not, under ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, eat when you do not plan to do so.
Traditional eating disorder treatment would address this as part of the “disorder” and not understand that for some, starving can lessen the experience of sensory overexicitablity just as being overweight can help others feel more grounded in the world.
2. No eating after dinner only tokes
I find that it’s really hard to resist food cravings as I get near the end of the day, so instead I just smoke every time I have a craving instead and get so religiously stoned I forget food even exists
• calorie output
I mainly struggle with orthorexia because I have never met another model in my life that wouldn’t throw a fit over missing a workout or not hitting 10k steps every day. We would all go on hot girl walks together.
My idiot brother who is the same grown ass age as me left brownies ON HIS FLOOR and my dog ate it. She’s gone into shock and I am so terrified. She’s going into hospital + I’m pretty spiritual so for my peace, can you guys pls think a good thought for baby Millie if you see this?
•roasted seaweed
YOU ARE TELLING ME ITS 20 CALORIES FOR THE WHOLE LITTLE PACKAGE OF SALTY CRUNCHY DELICIOUSNESS!?? and it takes forever to eat! I LIVE for this shit man it’s my binge alternative every time.
Treat day:
Two days a week I have what I call “treat day.” It kinda sounds terrifying, but it really does prevent binges any other time of the week. Mondays and Fridays I let myself choose 2 Halloween sized candies I have in a big bin-
Dinner:
I don’t eat dinner much. I tend to avoid it. But if I have an evening event I need energy for I’ll usually cook up a small small serving of some lean kind of fish (Mahi mahi is my fave) and make a sheet pan of veggies.