i’ve said it before & i’ll say it again: one of my favorite things is when players ask to use my camera.
the content is so fun & authentic when players photograph/film their own teammates & this is such a great example of that.
+ shoutout to Jalen for not dropping my camera 🫡
With the news that Antti Raanta is officially moving on from pro hockey in North America, I have some stories about him I’d love to share.
I’ve known him for 10+ years now and while everyone knows what a kind soul he is, I experienced it on a different level.
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2014➡️2024
TW: SA
as someone who went public with my sexual assault a few weeks ago and is no longer allowed to publicly speak about it, I’m begging my friends and colleagues in hockey (and sports in general) to be vocal about this for those of us who have been silenced.
"we live in this cancel culture, which i don't believe in."
literally SHUT UP. montreal just drafted him 31st overall.
THAT'S NOT CANCEL CULTURE. IT IS LITERALLY THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF CANCEL CULTURE.
Bags and purses of any size are not permitted, including backpacks, clutches, totes, clear bags, and camera bags. Only bring necessary items that fit in your pocket. Wallets without chains/straps are allowed.
TW: SA
Men in hockey care more about repairing the images of other men in hockey than they do about victims who have suffered at the hands of men in hockey.
The victim has already said the steps he’s allegedly taken aren’t genuine or enough. Let’s maybe follow her lead on this.
Logan Mailloux is writing another chapter in his story tonight at Bell Centre.
Personal opinion: We're overeager as a society to throw away the key sometimes. Especially with 17-year-olds who make awful decisions.
Horrible choices. There is no minimizing that. He's paid a real
also, it really is time to have The Conversation about what's happening in the CHL/junior hockey.
the number of employees across the member leagues i've spoken to since leaving who are experiencing/witnessing similar things is beyond disturbing.
i don't have much else to say here other than to continue to beg people to get vaccinated.
i promise that the potential low grade fever and sore arm you'll have for a few hours after getting the vaccine is nothing compared to this.
do your part. please.
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i was infected by someone who knew they were sick but didn't believe in the virus.
they infected 13/15 people in my office.
this could've been prevented, but now i have to live with this because of someone else's actions and choices.
it's so unfair.
protect your athletes.
protect your staff.
athletes and staff should not feel physically and psychologically unsafe at the rink.
also: just because YOU haven't experienced it doesn't mean it isn't happening.
It's finally my turn!
🚨PERSONAL NEWS🚨
I've accepted a job in Los Angeles & will be moving across the country next week. Super excited for this fresh start in a new city. Thank you to everyone in Minneapolis & Chicago who has supported me over the years. I love you all. ❤️
tw: suicide
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a year ago today, i left what i had thought was my dream job in sports.
but a real dream job doesn’t leave you suicidal for over a year. it doesn’t leave you sobbing on the bathroom floor night after night. it doesn’t leave you completely shattered in every way.
Oh boy, this sounds familiar!
Anyway, I believe the people who have come forward about how they were treated, but thanks for publicly threatening your former employees for exposing your toxic workplace. This post makes me believe them that much more.
it's really frustrating to be completely burnt out and have no one notice, so i started actively telling people that i'm burnt out and still no one is listening. this is exhausting, y'all. absolutely exhausting.
i don't know how much longer i care to work in an industry that welcomes my abuser with open arms and continues to do the same for other abusers over and over and over again.
victims and survivors deserve so much better than what sports puts us through every day.
BEAUTIFUL MOMENT as MARTIN ODEGAARD gets Arsenal's beloved team photographer—so popular Mikel Arteta once asked him to give a team talk—to pose for picture with fans at end of MASSIVE Gunners win. This is club culture, built from top down. Your captain, Arsenal Fans. 🫡📸❤️
$110M + unlimited access to a private jet and yet these same institutions claim they can't afford to pay their creatives more than $30K. Make it make sense.
Lincoln Riley USC contract details (not confirmed; best I could do):
- $110 million
- USC buying both his homes in Norman for $500,000 over asking ($1 million bonus)
- Buying a $6 million home in LA for him
- Unlimited use of the private jet 24/7 for family
#Sooners
#Trojans
I have a million more stories I could tell, but ultimately I want everyone to know what a special person he is. He is truly the best of the best.
He had no obligation to entertain my fan behavior when I was so young, but he did.
I’ll never be able to repay him for the memories.
I quit my full-time job today.
I deserve better than a toxic work environment and "leadership" that thrives on gaslighting and lying.
Bet on yourself. Every single time.
It's all too common to see people using the phrase but not doing the work, so here's a thread on how you can ACTUALLY support women within the sports industry as we head into 2021.🧵⤵️
i miss college football but i especially miss getting to the game early to jam out to pregame music on the sidelines while the athletes are warming up and everyone is greeting each other for another week and the air is cool and we're all just happy to be doing what we love
please get vaccinated. if you are REALLY that against it, then please wear a mask anytime you are around other people. please.
this thread only scratches the surface of my "recovered" experience and i don't want anyone else to have to experience this. it's a nightmare.
some exciting news! ✨
i’m headed back to the bmo!
i’m so excited to be joining the
@goicehogs
as a creative services coordinator!
rockford is where i fell in love with hockey and where some of the best memories of my life were made, so this one’s personal. 🤍
Antti wanted to make sure I was representing his new team when I got to New York, so he asked my mom if he could get me his Rangers jersey as a surprise…
…and he did.
He gifted it to me already signed, including the inscription.
Best buds.
I'll admit it: today is a bad mental health day.
I miss photography. I miss sports. I miss the echo of the music through the arena before fans fill in the seats. I miss doing what I love. It's really been taking a toll lately and I know I'm not the only one, so I'll admit it.
some ✨personal news✨
i'm so excited to be joining the
@WHLsilvertips
full-time as the marketing coordinator! thankful doesn't even begin to describe how it feels to be working with such a supportive team.
let's go tips!! 💚🐻
Being part of the same organization for a few months will always be the highlight of my career.
It was the most special full circle moment and no matter what the rest of my career holds, nothing will ever be better.
i have permanent lung damage and my doctors suspect i have heart damage as well.
my heart rate can get up to 140+BPM while i'm sitting down resting.
i can physically feel when my heart gets out of rhythm. it's scary to literally feel your heart doing things it shouldn't be.
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Twitter, meet Azlan! He's a great pyr & my new foster pup! He's looking for his forever home, but this big sweetie will be cruising around LA with me until he's adopted! ❤️
(btw - follow
@JohnRush32
for more big dog content, he's the ultimate great pyr dad 🐾)
i turned 25 today!
i worked my first pro softball game today!
life is so good, i don’t even have the words to explain how appreciative and grateful i am that this is where i’m at right now.
thank you to this amazing lil AU content team. literally the best of the best. 🤍
I first met Antti when I was just 14. My dad took me to a meet and greet where we took the iconic photo that started it all.
He made fun of me for wearing the wrong jersey and I taught him how to do the duckface pose (again, it was 2014).
✌️ became our thing.
Whenever he signed a jersey for me, I’d ask him to add whatever he wanted in addition to his signature.
He always included something about us being best buds.
I wear his jerseys with an indescribable amount of pride; I’ll never wear a jersey that isn’t his.
i guess it’s time to share a secret i’ve been keeping for awhile… 👀
i’m BEYOND excited to announce i’ll be joining
@auprosoftball
this summer as a freelance photographer!
i can’t wait to get back to chicago and work alongside
@JadeHewittMedia
this season! 🥎
If the NCAA could provide me—the social media photographer for the men's tournament in 2019—with hundreds/thousands of dollars worth of merch, food, and other perks, they can ABSOLUTELY provide the athletes in the women's tournament with IN-GAME PHOTOGRAPHERS.
i was an athlete for YEARS. D1 for a bit. being an athlete was a huge part of my identity.
post-covid, i'm using an inhaler multiple times per day to breathe normally. i can't exercise. if i try to go for even a 1/2 mile run, my lungs feel like they're on fire for days after.
A note before I dive into this: I hesitate to share these stories now that I work in the industry. I also acknowledge that I wouldn’t be working in sports without Antti’s influence over the past 10 years; I’m so grateful I now get to call my childhood favorite player my best bud.
To clarify:
Sydney Large is the woman who abused me. She is the founder of "Support Women in Sports" and the woman I have a restraining order against.
The co-founder, Alana Meraz, did not know about Sydney's abusive behaviors. She's been wrongly caught in the middle of this.
my attention span has become non-existent. it's as if i've developed ADHD overnight.
i used to multitask constantly. i was so productive and quick to complete anything i needed to get done because i could focus, but that's all gone now.
We traveled to see him any chance we got.
Arizona, New York, Minnesota, Nashville, Boston, Tampa, Sunrise, Detroit…
Antti always made time for me. He didn’t have to, but he always did.
tw: sexual assault/abuse
it's already impossible to separate on-ice success from off-ice failure. i was driven away from the team when the allegations against kane were made public and upon being made aware of other things happening behind the scenes.
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If the allegations of sexual abuse (and of the unwillingness to report it) against the Blackhawks prove true, it’ll be impossible to separate the team's on-ice success from an unconscionable off-ice failure.
Column from both me and
@ByScottPowers
:
In 2015, I won tickets to my first IceHogs game. The seats were right behind Antti; he gave me a ✌️ during warmups and gave me the game puck at the end of the game.
I went to Rockford as often as possible to support him. He’d always stay to chat with my family and I after games.
breaking out of this depressive episode!! finally left the house and took myself thrifting, cleaned my apartment, and did laundry. someone say they're proud of me
maybe instead of paying MLB players unfathomable amounts of money, the league could better allocate that money to the minor league affiliates so athletes in the system can afford basic things like, I don't know, food and housing?
imagine if you woke up one day and half of your vocabulary was gone.
i constantly struggle to come up with words that feel like they're on the tip of my tongue. it happens 30-40 times per day, even with simple, everyday words or phrases.
I was at Game 6 of the Stanley Cup Final in 2015; I’ll never forget watching him hoist the Cup on home ice.
A few weeks before the season ended, we talked about what the following season looked like.
“If I go to another team, you will have to move to me so you can see me play!”
as dark as this sounds, it's the truth: there are days where i wish it would've just killed me.
my life after "recovering" has been nothing short of hell.
Barstool culture infiltrating the NWHL is literally the last thing the league needs. Barstool culture infiltrating literally anything is the last thing sports needs. It's a toxic culture that brings horrible people with it & there is no place for that in sports or anywhere else.
TW: SA
i guess i actually can provide an update on this.
the man who sexually assaulted me is in jail now, but not for what he did to me.
he stabbed his boss multiple times.
the stabbing was four months after i initially reported the assault & three weeks after i went public.
TW: SA
as someone who went public with my sexual assault a few weeks ago and is no longer allowed to publicly speak about it, I’m begging my friends and colleagues in hockey (and sports in general) to be vocal about this for those of us who have been silenced.
young people want more than just a job & a family, & that's what every employer is failing to understand about this generation entering the workforce.
we want to enjoy our jobs, be paid fairly, have adequate time off, be respected & heard, & have an actual life outside of work.
i reported a cop's personal car to the city's parking enforcement for illegally parking outside my office and he just got a ticket. happy tuesday everyone ❤️
He’d wave or wink at me during warmups as an acknowledgment that I was there.
The indicator is a flag that we had been gifted by some Finns we met on one of the New York trips. If Antti saw that flag, he knew I was there.
— personal news! —
after just 4 months in beautiful los angeles, i accepted a promotion and will be moving to seattle! i can't wait to call yet another new city home and see what all seattle has to offer. ❤️
This is especially ridiculous considering March Madness as a whole generates 90%+ of the NCAA's total annual revenue. The NCAA will make $900M+ from the tournaments but they're claiming they can't afford to hire a few photographers for the women's games? What a joke.
NCAA confirms to me what
@Russ_Steinberg
reported-Say they do not have enough photographers to staff/budget to cover all rounds of every championship
Says this is actually the first time in
#ncaaW
history NCAA photos will be covering Sweet 16-Final Four