ryan @kiIocals Twitter profile

Last Seen Profiles

@Leaglem

@Umbruhz

@pasutrii__

@myrrh259123

@Cryptocharts006

@_jecahe

@Johnvjqw

@aus_mini

@MOHGLO_

@izabayoinn

@ErectionLandV1

@FactsUnused

@tsukutsuku1123

@TheRosieOBrien

@Lord_Onimaru

@KhanK49061

@jandakembangstw

@trivelaspors_

@Saifdar888

@leo_thetabby

@jane_manecke

@Demuriees

@jandakembangstw

@egajvpr

@AtlanticLithium

@PFEW_Whistle

@Pencil_wars

@Wisnuzakiirawan

@kylepavone

@BarnesyDaz

@eradotid

@Crunchyroll_PT

@AlgorithmicBot

@OCEagles

@Antalyitiraf_

@luseals

ryan

@kiIocals

3 months

coming back to edtwt after going inactive during a binge phase

40

4K

12K

ryan

@kiIocals

3 months

yeah that food on the left is definitely not 413cals

sarah🎀

@skinnyprinsess

3 months

jesus

40

563

10K

29

131

5K

ryan

@kiIocals

2 months

on this day 8 months ago i was in the hospital at bmi 10 after overdosing on heroin and i was told that my organ failure was so bad that i could die within the next few days and my weight was so low that it was too high a risk to operate on me, and i signed a dnr because i

59

23

3K

ryan

@kiIocals

9 months

this is how anorexics look trying to keep warm at night

27

280

3K

ryan

@kiIocals

10 months

not this random acc indirecting me omfg 💀

72

16

2K

ryan

@kiIocals

10 months

im too fat to be on edtwt

21

677

2K

ryan

@kiIocals

2 months

genuinely thought i was gonna die and i was close to being homeless again and my mental health was at an all time low, but now 8 months later im a healthy weight again and i havent used heroin since and im so much healthier and everything is working out for me again

6

1

2K

ryan

@kiIocals

5 months

5 months clean from heroin today wheres my round of applause ?????

178

5

1K

ryan

@kiIocals

2 years

OMFG I FINALLY HIT MY UGW AFTER HAVING THIS ED FOR 10 YEARS !!!!!! IM SO HAPPY WORDS CAN EVEN EXPLAIN HOW MUCH IM LYING RN

16

36

1K

ryan

@kiIocals

2 months

tbh im really surprised there arent more gay men on edtwt, esp considering gay men are 10 times more likely than straight men to have an ed and most gay men i know have struggled w disordered eating at some point ?

96

12

1K

ryan

@kiIocals

4 months

my flatmate wants to start splitting the cost of groceries BROTHER I AM NOT EATING

28

10

1K

ryan

@kiIocals

5 months

i always notice a lot of people who started at a higher weight and lost to a healthy bmi look sm thinner than people who started at a healthy bmi ??? or am i just tripping

23

10

1K

ryan

@kiIocals

5 months

i thought we agreed that saying this kinda thing on edtwt is careless and stupid???? some of yous need to give ur head a shake istg

27

38

996

ryan

@kiIocals

7 months

imagine getting diagnosed with this omfg i genuinely think i would just have to kill myself

19

49

932

ryan

@kiIocals

11 months

14 year old americans on drugtwt r like 'tw hard drugs // hi i just got out of the hospital after i overdosed on 2 cbd gummies + now im tweaking off this vape and im just about to score some alc from my dealer hashtag drugtwt hastag junkie'

19

42

736

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

myproana, ed tumblr, ed tiktok, ed insta and now ed twitter are all way too toxic fuck all of yall im going to ed myspace

18

63

610

ryan

@kiIocals

3 months

@Saadesadenymph yeah its definitely still relatively low cal, i just dont think the calories can be right bc the egg, passionfruit, bread+cream cheese(?), strawberries and chicken would be around 400 already

6

1

658

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

does anyone else feel like ur faking ur disorder and u dont actually have it but ur trying to develop it bc ur that desperate to lose weight or am i just fucked up 🥴🥴

9

179

529

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

idc how many cals it is i WILL eat all the edibles ... im a stoner before im an anorexic

4

87

451

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

remember in 2012 when myproana tried to convince us all that ice cold baths would make us skinny and we nearly gave ourselves hypothermia

14

68

430

ryan

@kiIocals

19 days

king shit

32

6

441

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

i havent used heroin since the 20th of april

37

0

393

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

the fact that they're showering, driving, leaving the house, taking exams etc means theyve definitely never known rock bottom

7

51

338

ryan

@kiIocals

10 months

me at bmi 11 doing my silly little workouts at 2am

6

12

356

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

skinny shaming isnt real because people don't associate being skinny with negative personality traits in the same way that people associate being fat with laziness, lack of self control, and greed. most people just see skinny people as people who happen to be skinny.

7

46

320

ryan

@kiIocals

11 months

why would u send him that anyway lmao like what is he supposed to say

5

0

305

ryan

@kiIocals

9 months

he meant queuers

7

5

316

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

an eating disorder

0

101

302

ryan

@kiIocals

5 months

i wish people understood how cold anorexia makes u, its not the same coldness that non disordered people feel and it doesnt matter how many layers you wear it just feels like its cold inside your bones even if youre physically burning your skin to try to warm up

10

47

322

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

eating disorder. you could start eating

9

31

272

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

me: wants people to think im skinny also me: doesnt want people to notice my weight loss also also me: wears baggy clothes to hide my weight loss also also also me: gets sad when nobody notices ive lost weight

2

98

274

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

i purposely starved myself until my bmi was 13.4 and i was dying and ur saying i cant say i have an eating disorder because a doctor hasnt told me i have one?

1

25

264

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

im gonna recover from life so i can focus on my eating disorder 😌✨

3

86

244

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

tw drug use // a lot of people have asked me about how my heroin addiction started, what heroin feels like, etc so im gonna make a (rly long) thread abt my history with opiates and also try to keep it simple for people who dont do drugs

11

23

264

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

can we pls stop using trigger warnings for anything that causes slight discomfort and just use content warning/cw instead ? triggering content that can cause people w ptsd to have flashbacks, re-experience trauma, and have panic attacks is NOT equal to a picture of an apple :(

10

39

246

ryan

@kiIocals

7 months

imagine being told "you hate your body and everyone can see why" by an actual medical professional

1

2

263

ryan

@kiIocals

4 months

i am not paying for ur weekly 6373848 bags of pasta if all im eating is cucumber salad u fucking idiot kys

3

0

271

ryan

@kiIocals

10 months

like yes i KNOW i was fat thats why im still disordered dumbass

1

0

252

ryan

@kiIocals

10 months

@marcietrot clearly they're the world's best anorexic and anything over bmi 6 is obese to them 😐 brain rot istg

0

242

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

this is rock bottom for peoples who have never known mental illness lmao this is practically a good day for people with mi

3

38

214

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

14 year olds on nsfw twt say theyre doms but are too scared to ask for extra ketchup at mcdonalds

5

22

220

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

me eating cake frosting out of the tub with a tablespoon vs me eating apples

2

54

198

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

since locals are searching #/edtwt and theyre mostly seeing proana twt, maybe we should make a load of tweets encouraging recovery + positivity and put that hashtag at the end of the tweets so the locals get a better idea of what ed twt is like? and to hide the proana part of twt

8

23

198

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

ed twt vs ed tumblr vs myproana

0

43

197

ryan

@kiIocals

1 year

@smallervanilla this is disrespectful as hell

2

1

193

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

idk anything abt makeup i just know jeffree star is a piece of shit for theming makeup around death during a global pandemic and why does he have 2 copies of every shade????? and i know makeup is way overpriced so that palette probably costs like £80

6

28

201

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

i only just checked how long its been and apparently im 10 days clean from heroin wtf

30

1

176

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

Did you ever notice that.. girlfri-end boyfri-end fri-end all have an end? do you know what doesn’t have an end..? weight gain. weight gain never ends.

3

66

165

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

@ people who wear makeup pls keep doing the thing where u make ur cheeks + nose kinda pink/red idk i love it thank u

12

11

166

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

wtf why are so many people sharing this ........... ur literally giving people tips on hiw to starve themslves???

24

8

143

ryan

@kiIocals

5 months

@wzvly tweeting about drug use isnt the problem, it's the fact that they're purposely talking about how it caused them to quickly drop 6lbs in a community full of people who are desperate and will do anything to lose weight.

0

165

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

i know someone is probably gonna call me sexist or a meninist or smth, but as a guy on ed twt it feels like we have to constantly walk on eggshells, ofc men have eds too but is it any wonder we dont wanna talk about it? so many of us get called predators just for joining

9

11

152

ryan

@kiIocals

10 months

@zerocalmunchies the funniest part is that theyre calling me fat but my cw is lower than theirs

1

0

156

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

dont let ed twt make you think that you have to "hallucinate" a different appearance to have body dysmorphia!!!! that's just a symptom of bdd that a lot of people don't actually have, it's mostly about hating your body in a way that significantly affects your day to day life!!!

4

55

146

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

why would u say eating disorders have literally anything to do with astrology .... i starve myself because i have trauma not because i was born in april??? correlation ≠ causation

5

8

140

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

@ people who don't understand why exposing ed twt is a bad idea

0

45

135

ryan

@kiIocals

2 years

@roxiethins ive been told that anxiety disorders can cause ur traps to become overdeveloped bc u might always be on high alert and it causes them to get tense and overgrown, idk if that applies to u? also sitting at a desk all day can worsen it

6

0

135

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

kissing someone and exhaling the smoke from ur joint into their mouth is the stoner version of feeding a baby bird

3

21

136

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

if you insult ANYONE for their weight or bmi regardless of who they are as a person, then you can ahead n take that 'not pro' out of your bio bc you're actively insulting disordered people's weights in a place where other disordered ppl with similar weights and bodies can see it

1

34

129

ryan

@kiIocals

4 months

i gained from 378 cals

10

0

135

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

i cant trust anyone who uses these lighters

13

121

ryan

@kiIocals

5 months

apparently this is an unpopular opinion on here atm, but imo intentionally seeking out meanspo and trying to worsen ur eating disorder doesnt make u a wannarexic?? people who have a healthy relationship with food would not be doing that

5

15

135

ryan

@kiIocals

2 years

i dont have an ed im just microdosing food

2

31

130

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

everyone on ed twt has seen it and we still have eds so 🥴🥴🥴

tori ☆

@CARTIERANG3L

5 years

I honestly don’t even want to know 🥴

10

5

130

6

1

120

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

there are morbidly obese people who can do this and there are underweight people who cant ,, proanas really have no idea what obesity means huh

6

4

115

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

okay but where is my skater bf who smokes weed 24/7 and is a complete idiot and eats mcdonalds everyday and is v dumb and has a lip piercing and a big dick and a benzo addiction

4

21

110

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

fasting for extended periods is NOT healthy ESPECIALLY if its not recommended by a nutritionist or dietician, please dont think that "its what cavemen did so i can do it too" we have evolved and adapted significantly since then and it's NOT healthy to starve

1

13

107

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

these arent self harm, theyre destructive behaviours bc they aren't intentionally physically injuring your body

Vivian

@suchnerve

5 years

UNDER-DISCUSSED FORMS OF SELF-HARM - fucking/dating people who are bad for you - hanging around someone you’re in love with but who doesn’t want you back - playing music so loudly that it hurts - eating unhealthful food - skipping showers - reading bad news - procrastinating

212

4K

16K

1

9

105

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

remember that phase when people used to say smexy ??? yea what the fuck was that

6

3

101

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

stop pretending to have disorders you dont have just to get prescriptions for medications that can cause weight loss lmao some of us are actually struggling with thise disorders and not being taken seriously enough to get help because of people like you

9

24

108

ryan

@kiIocals

2 years

is it just me or has this month been insane for edtwt

9

1

109

ryan

@kiIocals

5 months

@AngelCarati if u have no idea what ur talking about then maybe u shouldnt be commenting on it in the first place lmao

0

115

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

not to be controversial but if this video was a tweet worded like "what i eat in a day 10am: ice water 11am: ice 12pm: fresh water 2pm: mint gum 3pm: more ice water 4-5pm: deep breaths 6pm: final refill" yall would be eating it up

6

14

96

ryan

@kiIocals

3 months

@megumicursed im not debating that, it obviously a more balanced meal and its gonna keep you full for way longer, im just saying the calorie count is definitely not right 😭

0

1

119

ryan

@kiIocals

8 months

fatphobic ppl on edtwt always say some shit like 'being overweight can cause problems with your heart and joints!' okay and anorexia does the exact same thing so what now

1

7

105

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

if addicts on drug twt cant talk about drugs because its considered to be romanticising drugs, then why is it any different for people to talk abt their eds on twt

4

12

108

ryan

@kiIocals

10 months

@smartandstarved u need to go outside a bit more if ur seriously mad that an lgbt magazine is putting an lgbt person on their front page

0

2

105

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

everyone saying this is toxic has never been abused lmao

𝓼 𐙚

@iksaints

4 years

saying ok > arguing.

183

50K

157K

9

107

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

so im highly anorexic and when i say anorexic i mean FUCKING ANOREXIC [cries when i step on the scale and googles if coughing burns calories]

0

16

99

ryan

@kiIocals

2 months

@sergphobia yea who tf would do that...

1

114

ryan

@kiIocals

2 months

i know body dysmorphia in men tends to present more with exercise addiction/wanting to gain muscle rather than restriction, but i think most of the other gay men i know tend to restrict instead (especially bottoms yk)

2

0

111

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

can we stop calling destructive behaviours self harm pls ????? fucking toxic people is NOT the same as intentionally physically injuring yourself

4

17

104

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

if u call this anything other than a chip butty ur dead to me

LADbible

@ladbible

5 years

What do you call this? 🤔🤔

8K

305

3K

8

9

99

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

mental illnesses dont die out like that bc they arent caused by a virus/fungus/bacteria, they arent contagious theyre largely environmental and not always genetic

2

11

99

ryan

@kiIocals

10 months

fasting is so much easier when u do it with the intention of killing urself rather than losing weight

3

8

101

ryan

@kiIocals

8 months

in a completely body neutral way, this is exactly what borderline obesity looks like

Nano⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

@youcanbethinner

8 months

Yall need to get in ur head that this is not OBESE😭😭

255

503

7K

11

2

100

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

why would u make fun of the food that somebody eats when you know they have an eating disorder

3

6

99

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

guys help i think there's a kidnapper in my garden 😰

4

8

87

ryan

@kiIocals

4 years

stop bodyshaming people even if they're bad people!!!!!!!! bodyshaming isnt directed at that person and their behaviour, it's directed at their body type and anyone who sees it and has the same body type is gonna feel shitty too, attack their personality instead

1

32

94

ryan

@kiIocals

5 years

this thread is kinda :/

3

5

88

ryan

@kiIocals

10 months

the og tweet that i quoted in the ss wasn't about me, my ugw has never been 150 and idk who piper's tweet was even about but either way i think its dumb to make fun of people for their ugw, we're all disordered and all have different circumstances so just mind ur own business

0

1

98

ryan

@kiIocals

3 months

@Saadesadenymph but thats one egg cut in half 😭 i definitely think its higher than 400 but i think 800 is probably way too high

1

0

97

ryan

@kiIocals

7 months

at least the standard body dysmorphia diagnosis is nicer about it omfg at least u can tell yourself that your hatred of your body is irrational, this is just like you SHOULD hate your body because everyone else can see all your flaws too

0

94

ryan

@kiIocals

10 months

@cunteyecircle im 6'5 / 196cm !

4

0

87

ryan

@kiIocals

11 months