on this day 8 months ago i was in the hospital at bmi 10 after overdosing on heroin and i was told that my organ failure was so bad that i could die within the next few days and my weight was so low that it was too high a risk to operate on me, and i signed a dnr because i
genuinely thought i was gonna die and i was close to being homeless again and my mental health was at an all time low, but now 8 months later im a healthy weight again and i havent used heroin since and im so much healthier and everything is working out for me again
tbh im really surprised there arent more gay men on edtwt, esp considering gay men are 10 times more likely than straight men to have an ed and most gay men i know have struggled w disordered eating at some point ?
i always notice a lot of people who started at a higher weight and lost to a healthy bmi look sm thinner than people who started at a healthy bmi ??? or am i just tripping
14 year old americans on drugtwt r like 'tw hard drugs // hi i just got out of the hospital after i overdosed on 2 cbd gummies + now im tweaking off this vape and im just about to score some alc from my dealer hashtag drugtwt hastag junkie'
@Saadesadenymph
yeah its definitely still relatively low cal, i just dont think the calories can be right bc the egg, passionfruit, bread+cream cheese(?), strawberries and chicken would be around 400 already
does anyone else feel like ur faking ur disorder and u dont actually have it but ur trying to develop it bc ur that desperate to lose weight or am i just fucked up 🥴🥴
skinny shaming isnt real because people don't associate being skinny with negative personality traits in the same way that people associate being fat with laziness, lack of self control, and greed. most people just see skinny people as people who happen to be skinny.
i wish people understood how cold anorexia makes u, its not the same coldness that non disordered people feel and it doesnt matter how many layers you wear it just feels like its cold inside your bones even if youre physically burning your skin to try to warm up
me: wants people to think im skinny
also me: doesnt want people to notice my weight loss
also also me: wears baggy clothes to hide my weight loss
also also also me: gets sad when nobody notices ive lost weight
i purposely starved myself until my bmi was 13.4 and i was dying and ur saying i cant say i have an eating disorder because a doctor hasnt told me i have one?
tw drug use //
a lot of people have asked me about how my heroin addiction started, what heroin feels like, etc so im gonna make a (rly long) thread abt my history with opiates and also try to keep it simple for people who dont do drugs
can we pls stop using trigger warnings for anything that causes slight discomfort and just use content warning/cw instead ? triggering content that can cause people w ptsd to have flashbacks, re-experience trauma, and have panic attacks is NOT equal to a picture of an apple :(
since locals are searching #/edtwt and theyre mostly seeing proana twt, maybe we should make a load of tweets encouraging recovery + positivity and put that hashtag at the end of the tweets so the locals get a better idea of what ed twt is like? and to hide the proana part of twt
idk anything abt makeup i just know jeffree star is a piece of shit for theming makeup around death during a global pandemic and why does he have 2 copies of every shade????? and i know makeup is way overpriced so that palette probably costs like £80
Did you ever notice that..
girlfri-end
boyfri-end
fri-end
all have an end?
do you know what doesn’t have an end..?
weight gain.
weight gain never ends.
@wzvly
tweeting about drug use isnt the problem, it's the fact that they're purposely talking about how it caused them to quickly drop 6lbs in a community full of people who are desperate and will do anything to lose weight.
i know someone is probably gonna call me sexist or a meninist or smth, but as a guy on ed twt it feels like we have to constantly walk on eggshells, ofc men have eds too but is it any wonder we dont wanna talk about it? so many of us get called predators just for joining
dont let ed twt make you think that you have to "hallucinate" a different appearance to have body dysmorphia!!!! that's just a symptom of bdd that a lot of people don't actually have, it's mostly about hating your body in a way that significantly affects your day to day life!!!
why would u say eating disorders have literally anything to do with astrology .... i starve myself because i have trauma not because i was born in april??? correlation ≠ causation
@roxiethins
ive been told that anxiety disorders can cause ur traps to become overdeveloped bc u might always be on high alert and it causes them to get tense and overgrown, idk if that applies to u? also sitting at a desk all day can worsen it
if you insult ANYONE for their weight or bmi regardless of who they are as a person, then you can ahead n take that 'not pro' out of your bio bc you're actively insulting disordered people's weights in a place where other disordered ppl with similar weights and bodies can see it
apparently this is an unpopular opinion on here atm, but imo intentionally seeking out meanspo and trying to worsen ur eating disorder doesnt make u a wannarexic?? people who have a healthy relationship with food would not be doing that
okay but where is my skater bf who smokes weed 24/7 and is a complete idiot and eats mcdonalds everyday and is v dumb and has a lip piercing and a big dick and a benzo addiction
fasting for extended periods is NOT healthy ESPECIALLY if its not recommended by a nutritionist or dietician, please dont think that "its what cavemen did so i can do it too" we have evolved and adapted significantly since then and it's NOT healthy to starve
UNDER-DISCUSSED FORMS OF SELF-HARM
- fucking/dating people who are bad for you
- hanging around someone you’re in love with but who doesn’t want you back
- playing music so loudly that it hurts
- eating unhealthful food
- skipping showers
- reading bad news
- procrastinating
stop pretending to have disorders you dont have just to get prescriptions for medications that can cause weight loss lmao some of us are actually struggling with thise disorders and not being taken seriously enough to get help because of people like you
not to be controversial but if this video was a tweet worded like
"what i eat in a day
10am: ice water
11am: ice
12pm: fresh water
2pm: mint gum
3pm: more ice water
4-5pm: deep breaths
6pm: final refill"
yall would be eating it up
@megumicursed
im not debating that, it obviously a more balanced meal and its gonna keep you full for way longer, im just saying the calorie count is definitely not right 😭
fatphobic ppl on edtwt always say some shit like 'being overweight can cause problems with your heart and joints!' okay and anorexia does the exact same thing so what now
if addicts on drug twt cant talk about drugs because its considered to be romanticising drugs, then why is it any different for people to talk abt their eds on twt
i know body dysmorphia in men tends to present more with exercise addiction/wanting to gain muscle rather than restriction, but i think most of the other gay men i know tend to restrict instead (especially bottoms yk)
mental illnesses dont die out like that bc they arent caused by a virus/fungus/bacteria, they arent contagious theyre largely environmental and not always genetic
stop bodyshaming people even if they're bad people!!!!!!!! bodyshaming isnt directed at that person and their behaviour, it's directed at their body type and anyone who sees it and has the same body type is gonna feel shitty too, attack their personality instead
the og tweet that i quoted in the ss wasn't about me, my ugw has never been 150 and idk who piper's tweet was even about but either way i think its dumb to make fun of people for their ugw, we're all disordered and all have different circumstances so just mind ur own business
at least the standard body dysmorphia diagnosis is nicer about it omfg at least u can tell yourself that your hatred of your body is irrational, this is just like you SHOULD hate your body because everyone else can see all your flaws too