Neil calling Andrew 'lovely'
It starts small, like he's back from his classes and just goes 'hey lovely' while kissing Andrew's cheek
And Andrew is blushing every single time
But then, one evening when they're in the kitchen, Andrew sitting at the counter and Neil cooking,
I think Andrew has really complicated relationship with people calling him beautiful or pretty because Drake called him that and some others, too, and they saw his body as something to claim and use, they didn't see *him*
And with Neil, it's still hard in the beginning+
The foxes are playing truth or dare, they are all quiet drank
Andrew chooses the truth so Nicky asks 'use only one word to describe Neil'
There's silence and everyone think that Andrew will drink another shot
But he looks Neil in the eyes and says 'lovely'
Neil doesn't like being touched even if he doesn't have boundaries like Andrew, he doesn't like crowds or loud places
Andrew is his safe place, his touches gentle, his body like a wall between Neil and other people, his hold on Neil's hand or waist strong but delicate
Aaron walking in on Andreil kissing, he makes the most disgusted face ever and goes 'ewww get a room' but Neil just smirks while standing up and asking 'you want a kiss too?' and Aaron watches in horror as Neil gets closer to him and kisses his cheek
Andrew being so sick he's crying, he can't breath properly, he has a high fever, his cheeks are red and his eyes are glassy and he doesn't know what to do, the last time he was sick was when he was a child and no one cared about him so he just stays in his dorm room +
Neil kissing Andrew on the cheek as a good morning after his run, but one time he forgets and Andrew is so upset he's full on pouting but of course he doesn't say what bothers him
And when Neil realizes, he gives Andrew's face whole lot of small kisses
Neil touching Andrew's tummy for the first time, it's a sensitive area for him and he was reserved to do so for a long time
He knows Neil's hands mean safety, they're quite big, much bigger than his own, with long fingers, scarred but gentle
Andrew's breath stutters for a moment
Andrew doesn't believe Neil when he says he loves him, so Neil says it after every kiss
When he peppers Andrew's face with kisses, he says 'love you' over and over again until Andrew is flushed and out of breath
Kevin wakes up in the middle of the night and feels the heat of another body next to him so he asks, still sleepy 'which baby is this?' and hears the groggy answer 'Andrew'
Kevin says 'ah, the tiny one' and immediately feels a dig in the ribs
Andreil going ice skating together, Neil is actually good at it but Andrew is glaring at him the whole time, falling down every 5 minutes, tries to hold onto something until Neil takes his hands and guids him slowly to the center of the ice rink, showing Andrew+
I love Neil being protective of Andrew because no one was there to protect him when he needed it but now when he's perfectly capable of doing it himself, he still has someone to take care of him, to hold him gently without hurting, to tell people to back off
Neil has really low self esteem like he would be like 'I don't know who I am and what I like so no one will have a reason to like me' and he's shocked when Andrew makes a coffee exactly how Neil likes it or when Andrew picks a movie that Neil really likes after watching+
One of the times when Andrew says 'no' to Neil is when Neil accidentally tickles him
Andrew is instantly panicking, saying 'no no no' like a prayer, than getting up and nearly running to the roof
He is quiet for a couple of days, not touching Neil at all
Neil has to lean to kiss Andrew and he ADORES their height difference
Andrew would never admit that but he likes that he can hide wholly in Neil's arms and, for the first time in his life, he doesn't feel in danger with someone taller than him
Neil kissing Andrew's temple every chance he has
Neil coming back from his run? a kiss
Andrew isn't feeling well while sitting on the couch? a kiss
Andrew is cooking? a kiss while hugging him from behind
I believe that Andrew sometimes goes into 'I must kiss' mode when he sees Neil, no matter where they are or what they're doing, he just HAVE TO kiss his menace
One time when Neil is driving, Nicky says 'so you're a passenger princess now?' to Andrew
Nicky nearly died that day but from now on, Neil occasionally calls Andrew 'princess' when they're alone in the car
What if Neil was sexually assaulted by Lola before but he just doesn't see that it is what it is and he thinks that comparing to what happened to Andrew, it's nothing? What if Andrew is the one who makes him realize that what happened to him also matters?
Andrew gets insecure sometimes, he thinks that so many people left him, all they wanted was to use him, and he's so caught up in his head that he starts to distance himself from everyone, even Neil
But Neil sees that something's not right and he waits, staying back
'How do you do that?' asks Andrew while lying on the bed with Neil
'How do I do what, now?' asks Neil, frowning a little
'Making me feel safe' answers Andrew so guietly
'Is that a bad thing?' Neil isn't sure if he wants to know the answer
'I'm not supposed to feel like this'
Neil's favourite version of Andrew is him just woken up, barely seeing anything, his eyes squinted, his nose wrinkled, his body still so warm from sleep, he looks so soft and relaxed, hair sticking in every direction like a golden halo
The first time that Andrew laughs openly is when Renee visits with her new puppy
Andrew always wanted a dog, it was his dream to have one when he was a kid, so when he plays with the puppy and it licks his cheek, Andrew laughs softly, it's not loud but it's sincere
Andrew does something adorable, maybe swings his legs a little while they dangle from the counter, maybe pulls down his sleeves to make sweater paws, and Neil is staring at him with hearts in his eyes and says "My lovely 'Drew"
Andrew's whole face is flushed
the fact that Neil went to the Nest willingly to save Andrew from Riko must be so important to Andrew, like he was simply a toy for a lot of people in his life and Neil didn't allow Riko to do the same and it was BEFORE they become 'nothing'
Neil taking care of Andrew's hair when it gets a little longer
He puts masks on it once a week, he combs it gently, he dries it for Andrew, he ties a band around it when he has some work to do
Andrew learns how to accept simple touches thanks to their little hair rituals
Kevin is the only person in the world that Neil and Andrew let lift themselves up
Neil loves when Kevin gives him piggyback rides, when they go running together Neil gives Kevin THIS eyes pretending he's so tired on their way back and who is Kevin to deny him anything
'Neil was like a wild animal: fast and furious. His first instinct was to hide in the corner, but when he didn't have another option, he fought so fiercely that his knuckles were all bloody and broken. the only thing bright in him were those blue, blue eyes'
I like the idea of Andrew wearing a necklace with 10, I know for sure he wouldn't wear something like 'N' but 10? everybody knows what it means but no one is going to point it out and it's not so obvious
Neil is the only person that has a permission to pick Andrew up, he does it a lot to sit Andrew on the kitchen counter and give him a kiss on the forehead
Andrew waking up one night at the dorm, hearing footsteps
On his way to the kitchen, he hears quiet sniffling and then a yelp that sounds like his twin
Andrew is ready to fight anyone, thinking that Aaron is hurt, but when he steps into the kitchen, he sees Matt's back+
It's a night at Eden's when Neil is drunk and Andrew is sober
Someone, maybe Nicky, maybe Matt, touches Andrew by accident and Andrew flinches on instinct
Drunk Neil is a protective Neil, so he frowns and, slurring a little, says all serious 'don't touch my baby"
@_rozamakolce
nie rozumiem tego że dorosłe osoby potrafiące czytać i wiedzą o czym są te książki nadal wciskają je młodszym osobom, skoro jest tam podkreślone że to 18+ to coś to znaczy XD
Andrew acts in a very cute way sometimes, pouting when he doesn't like something in the book he's reading, wearing Neil's too big shirts with boxers only, getting ice cream on his nose while eating and he just doesn't see that but Neil is going feral while looking at him
Neil's character and the fact that he is demisexual is so important to me because I had no idea who I was for the huge part of my life and it was so confusing to discover that no one is attractive to me romantically or sexually after I broke up with my ex
Andrew learns that it can not be sexually, and even if it is, it's safe and good because this is Neil
And Andrew starts to feel beautiful, a blush on his cheeks every time Neil calls him that
Also, Andrew adores when Neil calls him gorgeous while kissing his temple
Andrew feels the love for Neil overwhelming him when Neil is lying on their bed in Columbia, all soft hair and limbs melted into the mattress
So Andrew sits on the bed and kisses the shit out of Neil, small kisses all over his face until Neil is a giggling and blushing mess
you know what I need? Neil kissing Aaron's forehead totally platonically
just imagine Aaron's reaction when they are starting to be friends but they're constantly bickering and suddenly... a little gentle kiss on his forehead from the menace
Andrew sometimes behaves like he's jealous of his Aaron because he likes the attention from Neil but in reality he feels so warm inside when he looks at two really important people in his life being so close with each other and he's glad that Neil cares about Aaron
Andrew feeling so much at some point of his therapy that every small comment from someone close to him makes him feel a lot and he ends up crying more than not
For example, when he is closer to Matt but he refers to him as "monster"
I feel like Andrew is aware that other people see him as someone attractive but he just doesn't get it, he has huge problems with his appearance, he doesn't feel good in his own body and I think that's the main reason why he's working out and lifting weights
Neil having a bad day and Andrew is there for him, not touching, never touching without clear 'yes', especially during bad days. But Neil appreciates small gestures like Andrew ruffling his hair or making him some tea or sitting near him on the couch, watching exy reruns
sometimes when Andreil are out, all the people around them are too much for Andrew, so he cuddles into Neil's side, tucking his face into Neil's neck, breathing him in with closed eyes, forgetting about their surrounding for a moment because he knows he's safe with Neil
A lot of people mischaracterise Aaron because they forget that he's not just a nerdy boy who has beef with his brother. he was abused all his life by his mother, the person who was supposed to take care of him and protect him. he was a witness+
One time when they arrive, everyone is seated already and Neil takes the only free seat on the couch and Nicky tells Andrew that he can seat on the floor
Andrew stands in front of Neil and says 'I want to sit here' putting his hand on Neil's thigh and squeezing lightly
Sometimes when they're in crowded places and it's too much for Neil, he just hides behind Andrew and walks like this, with their hands entwined and with his head low, he trust Andrew to keep him safe and take them whenever they are going
I'm thinking about Neil playing with Andrew's hair and Andrew is so relaxed, his body is almost melting on the couch, he sighs quietly from time to time and purrs (Neil would tease him but he's just so on love and Andrew looks calm and comfortable and he doesn't want to ruin that
but they talk about it because that's what they do now, after couple of years of their *nothing*
And every time Neil calls him beautiful, he makes sure that Andrew knows he means all of Andrew, how he looks, but also how his mind works, his personality+
+stroking his hair and telling him that he's not alone anymore, that he doesn't have to pretend that he's fine or invisible because he isn't a burden, not for Neil and not for any person around him
Andrew sighs quietly with relief, cuddling to Neil's side and falling asleep
I imagine that for a long time, Andrew just can't cry even when he finally wants it to happen, when he allows himself to feel things and it's so frustrating for him that he isn't able to let the tears flow
He can scream, he can punch the wall, he can be mad - but he can't cry
Andrew with blonde eyelashes, they're so light, nearly white
Him using a black mascara one night when they're going to Eden's, along with some eyeliner
Neil is so mesmerised, he's just standing with his mouth open in the middle of the kitchen, staring
Andreil as assassins with swords, Neil's sword breaks so Andrew gives him his own
In this universe, giving up your sword to someone means that you gave them your life, so Andrew basically belongs to Neil now and he did it willingly
Sick Andrew with red nose and cheeks, he has stuffed nose so his voice is somehow softer
Neil says "you're fucking cute like this" and Andrew answers with a glare and "I will kill you", but it's unconvincing, Neil only smiles and says "sure you will"
Sleepy Andrew looks so soft, hair in every direction, eyes barely opened
He's wearing some cute, soft pajamas and he clinges to Neil who got back from his morning run
Aftg is strange, like you read it once and think about it for the rest of your life, you fell in love with the characters that would kill you if they were real, this books aren't even written in a good way but I love them with all my heart
I was thinking about Andrew getting naked in front of Neil for the first time, it would be a huge deal for him
Neil is sitting at the edge of the bed, Andrew is standing between his thighs, no touching
Andrew is slowly taking of his shirt, they are holding eye-contact
I really like fanarts that picture Neil and Andrew as boys, where they look young because they ARE young and that gets me every time because they came through so much already, they aren't kids anymore but they aren't adults yet, either
Jean learning to enjoy kisses and casual touches, Jeremy teaching him that touch can be nice and gentle
His little sunshine smiling at him so fondly, Jean's breath catches for a moment
When Andrew feels comfortable with Neil and with their relationship, he lets Neil handle some situations for him because he finds Neil being protective of him hot
He knows he can handle the situation perfectly by himself, he just choose not to because he can
When Andrew's stomach is full and his face is dry (Neil wiped it with a wet towel as gently as he could while Andrew's eyelashes fluttered shut), Neil asks 'do you need anything else?' and after long moment of silence, Andrew whispers 'stay'
So Neil lies with him +
Andrew reading a book out loud to Neil who kisses his neck from time to time just because he is a menace
Every kiss results in Andrew's breath hitching slightly and his cheeks getting pink
I didn't like Aaron after reading aftg but the more I think about his character the more I understand his behaviour, he still isn't one of my favourite characters but I adore this boy
until Neil comes back from his classes and his heart breaks when he sees Andrew in this state
There's no point in asking why didn't he call Neil, Andrew is used to being alone, trying to survive, so Neil sneaks to the kitchen, searching for some medicine and heats canned soup+
just Andreil dancing in their kitchen, Neil twirling Andrew, holding his hand gently, Andrew's blonde hair moves with the move, he's smiling so sweetly, his eyes sparkle and Neil thinks this is the most beautiful view he's ever seen
Neil's hands on Andrew's waist
The amount of trust he has in Neil to allow him to touch this area, he actually loves soft touches on his belly and hips
I have this tiny little headcanon that Nathan was from Poland so Neil knows some Polish words and his favourite pet name for Andrew is 'słońce' which literally means the sun
Andreil spending weekend in the Columbia house, it's really early but Neil's already coming back from his morning run, Andrew is waiting for him with coffee on the porch, his hair is disheveled and he's in Neil's shirt
Andrew jerks awake and he feels blood leaking from him, on his thighs and under his butt. He panics, thinking that he's in Cass's house and that Drake did something to him during the night. His tossing wakes Neil up and when Andrew sees the blue of his eyes, he know that's+
Andrew wanting Neil's attention when he's studying, so he throws his hands around Neil's neck, hugging him gently from behind and kissing the back of his neck until Neil shivers and leaves his books to kiss his needy boyfriend
When he's ready, he asks Neil 'roof?' and Andrew tells him that the first time someone touched him without his permission, it started with tickling him until he had tears in his eyes and was screaming 'no please' over and over again when it turned into touching and pain
I like to think that when Neil and Aaron become friends, Neil is the first person ever to say to Aaron 'you are enough'
This poor boy deserves some love
Neil is sensitive to smells so he uses products that smell like strawberries and cocoa and Andrew loves that because come on, his boyfriend smells amazing, like a desert!
Andrew having a bad day
Kevin is back from the training, he finds Andrew on the couch, his face blank but there are unshed tears in his eyes, he's wrapped up in a blanket
Kevin approaches him slowly, asking if he can touch him and he lifts Andrew into his lap+
because of Aki I think about Andrew standing on his tiptoes to kiss Neil... but he still can't reach so he has to actually say 'kiss me' for Neil to bend a little, with the biggest grin on his face (Andrew tells him to fuck off when he's still smiling after their kiss)