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@hellofabrainrot

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giving meaning to trauma: blitz’s self-hatred and its contradictions a thread 🧵

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1 month

he still looks at blitz the same way

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the whole fight sequence is framed to make us see things from blitz’s pov a small thread

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25 days

do you ever think about how quick fizz was to forgive blitz, as if he couldn’t spend one second more not being his friend? cause that shit makes me weep on a daily basis

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obsessed with everybody losing their minds as soon as fizz appears he’s so powerful

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@hellofabrainrot

27 days

getting tired of discourse soooo here’s a compilation of every time stolas did things right and tried his best to show his care and kindness 🦉♥️ it’s a thread cause it wouldn’t fit in only 2 minutes and 20 seconds 😌

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@hellofabrainrot

28 days

“you have no idea what I lost in that fire” it always made me wonder: how does fizz not know about tilla’s death? why was he kept in the dark about everything?

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@hellofabrainrot

25 days

you didn’t think I was going to make a compilation for stolas and not for blitz, did you? there you go, every time blitz showed his care for the people he loves and jumped in to protect them 🦎♥️ again, couldn’t fit it all in just one tweet 😌

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@hellofabrainrot

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people died

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@hellofabrainrot

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the way he looks at the crystal ☹️ he hates it but it’s also an unmistakable proof that stolas cares ☹️☹️

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@hellofabrainrot

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here blitz gets angry because of stolas’ seemingly dismissive words “I wish you the best with your business” “you needn’t say anything” “that’s enough to know what this is” but really what triggers him is hearing stolas talk like that just after confessing his feelings ⬇️

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2 months

brandon said that all of our theories about the next episode are incorrect

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@hellofabrainrot

2 months

seeing their reactions is everything 😂😂

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@hellofabrainrot

2 months

I don’t accept any other answers

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2 months

so like when did stolas officially fall in love with blitzo?

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@hellofabrainrot

3 months

I can’t believe I hadn’t noticed this before, it took someone pointing it out on tumblr blitz changed stolas’ ringtone from season 1 to season 2 😭😭

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@hellofabrainrot

1 month

I’ve been thinking a lot about this scene and similar ones where blitz seems absolutely unable to believe that someone (and especially stolas) could love him, he sees all the signs but he disregards and distorts them, anything to remain blind to what anyone else can see (1/?)

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we mostly only see stolas from blitz’s perspective, shots from the back or actions where stolas is moving quickly out of the frame and blitz has to chase him this communicates to the audience how blitz is not able to understand stolas, he’s literally not up to speed

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@hellofabrainrot

14 days

in light of recent braindead events let’s listen to skyen, an intellectual, talking about *that scene* from the circus

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@hellofabrainrot

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viv liking all of these posts I hear you loud and clear

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@strwblitzy also his cute imp plushie 😭😭

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@hellofabrainrot

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while when the focus is only on stolas we get a very simple shot from the side, when blitz starts getting really angry the camera accentuates his movements and distress and makes him look bigger by progressively shifting the perspective so that in the end we’re looking up at him

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it’s only after we see the realisation in blitz’s eyes, only after blitz finally SEES stolas and how much he’s hurting, that the audience is able to see his face from up closer

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@hellofabrainrot

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take a moment to appreciate the iconicity of it all

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@hellofabrainrot

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a very resolute, stubborn blindness. Now, I know that stolas has never been explicit about his feelings and that some of his earlier actions and their class difference are one of the reasons why blitz doesn’t believe for a second that stolas genuinely cares for him, but, (2/?)

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@hellofabrainrot

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I think this was a very smart choice because we already know how stolas is feeling, it was showed to us many times from up close, we’ve seen him miserable at the palace, we’ve heard him sing, on the contrary we’re much less familiar with blitz’s feelings-

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@hellofabrainrot

1 month

here it does the same thing by having three different framings each one more zoomed on blitz than the previous one

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@hellofabrainrot

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of all the things that kill me in this scene I think “I’m sorry” and “goodnight blitz” shatter me into little tiny pieces

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@hellofabrainrot

2 months

again with the forehead’s mark changing because of stolas only this time is from whole to broken 😭😭

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@hellofabrainrot

1 month

in conclusion I love this show and this episode, this was masterful work from the writing to the acting to the stunning animation and directing I’m in love bye

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@hellofabrainrot

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do you also keep replaying in your mind how hopeful stolas was at the start of full moon or are you normal

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@hellofabrainrot

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because blitz isn’t stupid and is actually good at reading people in other circumstances, it seems to me that when it comes to this he “decides”, albeit unconsciously, to NOT see So the question is: why does he need to be blind? (3/?)

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@hellofabrainrot

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The fire at the circus was an accident, even blitz knows that, except… he doesn’t. He says it was an accident to assure fizz that he didn’t want to hurt him and that he did care, but then he concludes with “I mean, it’s all my fault! I’d hate me too… I mean, I do hate-“ (7/?)

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and contrary to us blitz knows nothing about stolas’ feelings, so it’s very important we see things from his perspective to understand what’s going on emotionally

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@hellofabrainrot

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this whole time we’re only seeing stolas again either from the back or running away and in the last frame we see him from the front but his face is covered and the one in focus is blitz

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@hellofabrainrot

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brandon when I catch you.. when I catch you…!! I have to give you an award for your voice acting in full moon cause I’ll never be able to get over it

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@hellofabrainrot

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On one hand, this is obviously one of the ways that he has to keep people at a distance and not getting attached himself (although we can see that he always seems to fail at the second part, will talk more about that later). He doesn’t want to lose the people he loves- (4/?)

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@hellofabrainrot

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Life is still possible. Love is still possible. But he has to choose it. Blitz taught stolas that he could choose, after all. Maybe in the end he will learn that he can, too (34/34)

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@hellofabrainrot

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like he did in the past, and for this reason he pushes them away and doesn’t let them get too close. He also learnt to expect people to treat him poorly, so he avoids believing that people could love him also to protect himself from an eventual (and in his mind inevitable)- (5/?)

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everyday I open this app and I simp over this weird tiny creature

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@hellofabrainrot

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that the fire just… happened. That it wasn’t in blitz’s or anyone’s control, that he lost everything he had in a few moments, for no real reason. It just happened. That’s just how life is. Compared to the sense of uncertainty and meaninglessness that realizing this- (9/?)

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rejection (note that his behavior towards others also makes this outcome more likely… and here we already see some contradiction. More on that later). I don’t think this is all there is, though. Let’s go straight to the crux of the matter, shall we? (6/?)

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@hellofabrainrot

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he gets it!!

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@hellofabrainrot

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Now, anyone in blitz’s shoes would feel guilty, of course. But I think that by putting all the weight of what happened on himself and building his whole self-perception over it, blitz’s mind is trying to hide a far scarier truth: (8/?)

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@hellofabrainrot

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inevitably brings, even something heavy like believing that you’re a horrible person that destroys everything around you and is undeserving of love, is better than the alternative. It’s better than thinking you have no control over terrible things happening, (10/?)

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Yes trip-stolas, blitz is very much afraid to love people, but he can’t help but doing so. For someone whose’s mental stability depends on not being involved with others, blitz sure goes out of his way to be as involved as he can. He could have chosen to just steal- (16/?)

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@hellofabrainrot

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no matter your intentions. It’s better than finding no meaning to your life just falling apart without any warnings. Fighting this overwhelming sense of impotence is something that for me explains blitz’s refusal to see himself as worthy of people’s love. (11/?)

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brandon wasn’t fucking with us FOR ONCE

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And he shows us this in the most straightforward way possible: with his family pictures. He can only picture himself as part of a family if he deletes himself, both literally and figuratively. He needs to be hated, attacked, made absent. (23/?)

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because he sees himself in her, and loving her is the only way he can heal himself a little bit, because no one loved him like he loves loona, well no one except- Except his mum. Loving loona is the most direct way blitz has to try and recreate what he lost. (21/?)

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being kind to everyone whether that’s convenient for him or not, being blinded by his own feelings but always doing everything he can to make things better, even if he’s facing everything on his own ❤️‍🩹

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Worthy of anything, really. This is also reinforced by his sense of inferiority that is even older than the circus accident and that has indeed been with him his whole life, from his father’s low opinion of him to his inadequacy at performing at the circus, especially- (12/?)

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GUYS GUYS GUYS

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@hellofabrainrot

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compared to fizz, and much more, but I could do a whole other thread about blitz’s inferiority complex (maybe I will) Let’s just say that the way we give meaning to trauma, no matter what it is, is always informed by the person we are before the traumatic event(s) happens, (13/?)

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Unfortunately, while this story protects him in one way, it makes him absolutely miserable on the other. Especially if the same trauma that pushes you to hate yourself and distance yourself from others, also makes you crave what you lost: a family (15/?)

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But loona is also a special case because she’s the only one he doesn’t push away or is shitty to, on the contrary he’s always there for her, he praises her no matter what she does, he has a hard time criticizing her even when he would need to. I think he’s able to do that- (20/?)

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stolas’ book and leave him there, but he didn’t. He could have decided to work alone, but he doesn’t and he gets in m&m’s business way more than it’s necessary (or appropriate). He.. definitely could have chosen to NOT have a daughter, instead he goes and does just that (17/?)

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Not just with stolas. In blitz’s mind, m&m will stay because they are his employees, so he can keep them close and be very familiar with them and stalk them AND push them away when he needs to. Loona won’t leave because he adopted her and she lives with him (19/?)

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I’m pretty sure that someone said this before (sorry I don’t remember who) but this is one way blitz tries to compromise his opposing needs and fears (pushing people away vs drawing them in, having them too close vs losing them): he creates transactional bonds with them (18/?)

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@hellofabrainrot

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So how does blitz get better? It’s curious that the first thing blitz does after he discovers that stolas “can get hurt” is try and repair things with barb. Someone he hurt and lost. I think it’s because he’s starting to understandon that he can hurt and lose stolas, too (30/?)

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But because he’s not worthy of love, he doesn’t need loona to love him back (even if we know that she does, she’s just too similar to her dad to express it properly). No, he just needs to give her his love. Blitz is not important. Loona is. M&M are. (22/?)

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@hellofabrainrot

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so it’s not surprising that blitz “chose” to interpret it the way he did. It wasn’t a terrible, chaotic event. It was HIS fault. Because he’s a disaster. This is the story he needs to tell himself. (14/?)

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@hellofabrainrot

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And then there’s stolas. Stolas is terrifying because no matter what blitz does, stolas loves him. Blitz doesn’t believe that, as we said, he CAN’T believe it, but all of stolas’ attempts to get closer to him, his praise, his kindness, the way he looks at him, (26/?)

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Unfortunately, it didn’t work out with barb. But you know who it worked out with? Blitz ruined fizz’s life but fizz is doing fine and he forgave him. Blitz wasn’t able to save him then, but he saved him now. This is a fundamental experience for blitz (31/?)

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register the empty halls, stolas’ demeanour, anything at all I especially like the sound effect as blitz is briefly hidden by the column and then he gets even more agitated, it really gives you the sensation of what it feels like when your anger is rising higher and higher

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What’s the first thing we give to a new person? Oh, it’s a name, isn’t it? “The o is silent now”. Well, it needs to be. (25/?)

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it makes it so hard for blitz to keep pretending, to be blind. Stolas makes blitz desire to be loved, to be in the picture without scribbles on his face. He makes him desire what blitz is convinced he can never have. Again, his inferiority complex also plays a huge part- (27/?)

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“after everything you put me through?!” he’s talking about the deal but really he’s talking about his repressed feelings and how much they must weigh on him after all this time and how stolas’ confession has completely overwhelmed him he’s so into his feelings he doesn’t even-

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But blitz can’t be a cancelled out face all the time, can he? Nobody can live like that. He needs to distance himself from that face as much as he can, just to make it bearable. He needs to distance himself from the person responsible for his life ending, become a new one. (24/?)

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just thinking about little blitz being super excited about his future even with his less than ideal upbringing and no matter what life threw at him this drive in him survived, no wonder stolas is so in awe of him cause he on the other hand-

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So, blitz is constantly trying to find a balance between his conflicting needs, but that keeps him imprisoned in a mechanism where he’s constantly doing what makes him (and other people) suffer. This “balance” can’t last for long and we know it’s coming down oh so soon 🥲 (29/?)

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here, especially since stolas is a goetia. But again, that’s for another thread. This is why, as people pointed out, the deal with stolas is actually good for blitz in a way. Stolas wants something from him (his dick and nothing else) and as long as he does, he will stay (28/?)

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The only way for blitz to heal is for him to learn that things can be repaired, just like he did with fizz. This means that things have to be broken first! He and stolas need to fight, blitz needs to see how much he hurt him and how much he helped him, (32/?)

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@BlitzDannysaur 👀

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how he helped EVEN IF he hurt him. That he’s not doomed to destroy everything, that he can choose to make it better. He needs to experience it, to believe that he has the power to repair, to protect, to love. Even when terrible things happen, he won’t fall apart. (33/?)

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when did you realise your fave was going to be your fave? for me it was this scene from harvest moon festival: what striker is saying obviously gets to him but it doesn’t make him waver in the slightest, his loyalty goes to m&m and the business he created, no second thoughts

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stolas has always believed in blitz’s dreams 🥺

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😭😭😭

Chloe ✨✨✨ APOLOGY TOUR SPOILERS!?!?!?!

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like, i am legitimately going to cry about how fiercely and bravely blitz protects those he cares about, even when he's up against insurmountable odds, the goetia family and more, and he doesn't even think twice. he will give EVERYTHING. i cannot WAIT to see more of this 😭😭😭

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I’m so excited to hear blitz sing also because he never had the chance to before (and I think this is intentional and symbolic of his inability to accept and express his feelings) and this plays a big part in why many people don’t get him and think he’s just an asshole-

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this demon is so perfect he almost scares me tbh wdym he’s hot, loyal, attentive AND intelligent?? also it’s so cute how proud of himself he is in this scene it makes me laugh every time “so I told him… NO! 😄”

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he’s so bad at feelings but he will always protect the ones he loves, no matter what blitz got your back 🥺

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stolas will never win the stop being pretty challenge 😔

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you know what fair

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@StolsLovesBlitz how to make a masterpiece a even greater masterpiece

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I don’t want to be corny but thinking about the joy helluva brought into my life makes me weep like there was this show that seems to be made for me and I didn’t know it and now I know it and I love it so much 😭 and this fandom is full of the most talented funny wild people 😭😭

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not judging any of you but I can’t understand the circus hate, it’s so good?? 😭

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the stolitz heartbreak gets worse when you think about the fact that they’re actually perfect for each other

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blitz’s incessant rambling, moxxie’s smile appearing the moment he hears blitz has a daughter he cares about… this scene is everything to me

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as a society we don’t talk enough about how good this scene was

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@sgpenpen why is that kinda funny

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I try not to think about it but shit's about to go down

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what truly worries me from this scene is how scared stolas looks

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“blitz has to applogise” “stolas has to apologise” “they were both at fault” LAME how about they were both right and made no mistakes 😤😤

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ok but imagine the power of stolitz when they’re finally together and sure of each other’s love!! they will be terrifying imagine being their enemy they would destroy you

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“you’ve seen hundreds of stolitz kisses by now, surely you’ve had enough” Never

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who else screamed GRANDPA

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please the guy was panicking he didn’t want to mock stolas’ confession, it wasn’t malicious he genuinely had no idea what was going on and this is the only option he thought made sense

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Yes, it was cruel, yes, it was a deliberate echo of Stolas saying he wanted Blitzo to ravish him - but he didn't KNOW, okay? Please give the poor guy a break. Many of you didn't realise Stolas genuinely liked him until Ozzie's. #Stolitz

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look how confused he is the whole time, he only gets this panicked look on his face when stolas says “you don’t have to stay here with me” but everything else that stolas is saying is literally not registering, it’s not making sense in his mind, he’s so perplexed 😭😭

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do you also go insane thinking about how in spite of all their differences in upbringing and personality blitz and stolas can give each other exactly what the need and are simply perfect for each other in every way