SPOCK
(gently)
On my world the nights are very long. My people know there is always time enough for everything. You could come with me for a rest. You would feel comfortable there.
KIRK
(hopelessly)
All the time in the world…
SPOCK
And filled with tomorrows.
mr. spock was never unbuttoned, kept himself shadowy, unfulfilled, and so we loved him. and poor captain kirk, going from blonde to blonde, would never understand that he himself loved mr. spock truly, hopelessly, forever.
mr. spock was never unbuttoned, kept himself shadowy, unfulfilled, and so we loved him. and poor captain kirk, going from blonde to blonde, would never understand that he himself loved mr. spock truly, hopelessly, forever.
He can't like boys. He can't, because that's just one more thing wrong with him. It's this thought that breaks the dam, and has him dissolving into ugly sobs, curling up and burying his face in his knees.
when love is unreliable and you are a child, you assume that it is the nature of love to be unreliable. children do not find fault with their parents until later. in the beginning the love you get is the love that sets. i did not know that human love could be depended upon.
mr. spock was never unbuttoned, kept himself shadowy, unfulfilled, and so we loved him. and poor captain kirk, going from blonde to blonde, would never understand that he himself loved mr. spock truly, hopelessly, forever.
calling my lover 'mine' but not in the way that my toothbrush or notebook are mine, mine in the way my neighbourhood is mine, and also everybody else's 'mine' like mine to tend to, mine to care for, mine to love. 'mine' not like possession but devotion.
calling my lover 'mine' but not in the way that my toothbrush or notebook are mine, mine in the way my neighbourhood is mine, and also everybody else's 'mine' like mine to tend to, mine to care for, mine to love. 'mine' not like possession but devotion.
i watch him in the kitchen, and i think of how much it hurts to love somebody. how deep the hurt is, how almost unbearable. it’s not the love that hurts; it’s the possibility of anything happening to the object of your love.
In all my truth, I have always been a gentle creature with a terribly loud roar. Not overcompensation, just habit. Soft underbelly underneath all this softer skin. It is easier to hurt me than I would like to admit.
love each other well, as long and as fiercely as you can. so that even when you’re in the ground, the dirt will know your names. the worms and mushrooms and all that burgeoning life below the surface will know, that you’ve come to help things grow. to help things continue.
okay, but what if im a he, but not a man? but maybe im a girl, but only sort of or im neither of those, but also both, two steps to the left? maybe it's like clothes, or nail polish, and i can paint it on or put it in the laundry when im done?
IM 52 YRS OF AGE, MOSTLY SPEND MY TIME LISTENING TO LED ZEPLIN AND WORKIN ON MY BIKE BUT BOY HOWDY DO I LOVE SOME GARFIELD FROM TIME TO TIME. GOOD FELLER
when love is unreliable and you are a child, you assume that it is the nature of love to be unreliable. children do not find fault with their parents until later. in the beginning the love you get is the love that sets. i did not know that human love could be depended upon.
“Your turn,” he says softly. “Tell me a secret.”
“Hm.” He sighs, watching the tree sway in the crack between the curtains. “My favorite color is blue.”
“That’s a secret?”
“...No one else knows.”
They are often children with each other. They build blanket forts and hunker down and talk in whispers, like there are parents around to overhear. They make hot chocolate and eat candy for breakfast and dance in haphazard circles to ABBA and squabble for no reason and—
okay, but what if im a he, but not a man? but maybe im a girl, but only sort of or im neither of those, but also both, two steps to the left? maybe it's like clothes, or nail polish, and i can paint it on or put it in the laundry when im done?
When he heard the death rattle, Gilgamesh moaned like a dove. His face grew dark. ‘Beloved, wait, don’t leave me. Dearest of men, don’t die, don’t let them take you from me.’
Not all love is gentle. Sometimes it's gritty and dirty and possessive, sometimes it's not supposed to be careful or soft at all. Sometimes it feels like teeth.
does such a thing as ‘the fatal flaw,’ that showy dark crack running down the middle of a life, exist outside literature? i used to think it didn't. now i think it does. and i think that mine is this: a morbid longing for the picturesque at all costs.
he’s okay with it now in the way that you’re okay with a bone that healed wrong and aches a little every now and then. okay with it in the way that you’re okay with grief because it comes and goes but it lives inside you forever and he knows that now.
love is not supposed to complete you, it is just supposed to make you bigger. love is what makes you grow, not what makes you whole. all love. all of it.
being in your 20s is like im 17 and i don't know who i am. im 55 curled up with a book. im ancient. i've been here forever. i never left. i'm 5 years old and i'm lost at the supermarket
He loves to love. It’s something he’s always known about himself. Like a bird takes to the sky with wings widespread, he takes to the world with his heart on his sleeve. Open and raw and vulnerable, pumping pint after precious pint of something warm, red and immutably permanent.
And you don't even remember it, because it was so unremarkable to you, to be so kind to someone. I hated you for that, you know. For being so thoughtlessly sweet, for no fucking reason except that you could, while I sat there turning it over and over in my head.
she won't die, not for a long time. she'll live a long life, and every moment of it will be miserable. does he understand? that is the life he's leaving them. that's the world he thinks they're better off in.
I will love you as a drawer loves a secret compartment, and as a secret compartment loves a secret, and as a secret loves to make a person gasp... I will love you until all such compartments are discovered and opened, and all the secrets have gone gasping into the world.
i love saying 'of course' instead of 'you're welcome,' like of course im helping you thats what i do. you were foolish to even consider an alternate dimension in which im not helping you. you idiot. you absolute buffoon
“Your turn,” he says softly. “Tell me a secret.”
“Hm.” He sighs, watching the tree sway in the crack between the curtains. “My favorite color is blue.”
“That’s a secret?”
“...No one else knows.”
he doesn't have time to day dream about a boy he's only met twice.
honest. swear to god. cross his heart and hope to die.
(okay, maybe he daydreams about him a little.)
I was alone before I met you, she wants to say , I don't think I had a real friend before you. I don't remember how to function without you, or this family we've stumbled into. I'm not alone anymore, and neither are you.
He can't like boys. He can't, because that's just one more thing wrong with him. It's this thought that breaks the dam, and has him dissolving into ugly sobs, curling up and burying his face in his knees.
He misses him. He always misses him. His entire life is swinging between loving him and missing him. There is only one being in all the stars capable of remembering him. Of knowing the song he sings.
love is not supposed to complete you, it is just supposed to make you bigger. love is what makes you grow, not what makes you whole. all love. all of it.
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tonight, i called my friends. we didn't do it for any reason in particular, just to talk. after he hung up i was filled with this great happiness. i remembered that my friends exist. i am no longer alone.
i am constantly having insane galaxy genius ancient greek philosopher level thoughts about everything ever all the time but before leaving my mouth they get filtered through seven layers of autism and come out sounding like a youtube comment made by a nine year old
He won’t. He accepts that too. Nothingness is peaceful. He likes it here. He’ll stay a little longer, and then he’ll remember. And maybe he’ll find nothingness again. Find a place with no ceiling or floors, with endless skies and bottomless oceans.
good daughters pick up shards of glass with their bare hands. they look at their bare hands hoping to look into the face of god but end up finding their mothers instead.
“What did vou write in the letter?”
Frog said, “I wrote 'Dear Toad, I am glad that you are my best friend. Your best friend, Frog.'”
“Oh,” said Toad, “that makes a very good letter.”
I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.
His lips are so soft and his skin is so warm. I drink it all in and hold onto him so tightly I think my knuckles have gone white. I won't ever let this boy go. I will hold him until my fingers burn, and even then I'll hold on through the pain.
“What did vou write in the letter?”
Frog said, “I wrote 'Dear Toad, I am glad that you are my best friend. Your best friend, Frog.'”
“Oh,” said Toad, “that makes a very good letter.”
my mouth hasn't shut up about you since you kissed it. the idea that you may kiss it again is stuck in my brain, which hasn't stopped thinking about you since, well, before any kiss.
People think that intimacy is about sex. But intimacy is about truth. When you realize you can tell someone your truth, when you can show yourself to them, when you stand in front of them bare and their response is 'you're safe with me'- that's intimacy.