Dina asked if I was gonna go to the dance... and she touched my arm. Argh! I’m so delusional. Don’t be an idiot. She’s like that with everybody. Don’t fuck up your friendship.
Still in this fucking basement. The batteries in my flashlight are almost done. The dark is fucking with me. I keep seeing him. Smelling iron. I miss Dina. I miss Potato. What am I doing here?
Jesse told me Cat referred to me as her girlfriend. She's so open about everything. She talks to her mom about us. She held my hand at the lake. Kissed me in front of her friends. Everyone seems to know except Joel. Should I tell him? I don't know. I don't know how he'd react.
Everyone I have cared for has either died, or left me. Everyone - fucking except for you! So don't tell me that I would be safer with someone else, because the truth is I would just be more scared.