regular "updating" your finished ao3 work so it shows up at the top of search results mostly makes you really annoying to me, signed a reader who actually does read based on update order and Hates You
@yummikkan
this is one of the best mithrun fanarts to ever exist ๐ญ๐๐๐๐๐ it is so funny and his hands are so tiny ๐ฅบsquashed between the boobs of two beautiful woman flirting w/ one another, but mithrun doesnt have the desire to leave ... so hes just munching... ๐คญ
4 teeny tiny tokyo revengers nuis for sale!
id like $7 + shipping each or $17 + shipping bought together!
(i use pirateship within us territory for cheap shipping, theyre v light so it shouldnt be much)
hanma, ran, rindou, sanzu!
i love and miss my ex so much. but its grief honestly. i havent loved him for a while. i dont know when it stopped.
i miss some previous version of him, maybe many versions, and ill never have it back
(i tried to make this post 5 times w alt text, it is below)
if u have a kabumisu fic idea u rlly wanna see pls comment it, id be so happy to write and im not sure what ppl want most!
alternatively i might do a poll of ideas i have once i get them together!
before i fall asleep im going to make a priv twitter soon, feel free to comment here, dm me (twitter/discord) and if im comfy ill follow you when i make it
not mutuals only just lmk, not anyone but ill want some ppl to follow or ill feel silly
ill share once its made
ill list da little dolls on mercari if need be, so far 2/4 found homes here tho which is great!!!
shu itsuki and mika kagehira... i believe in u ... find ur forever home
(theyre holding hands waiting together)
yumeship options w dunmeshi for me are like:
-kabru would not date my ass fr
-im not rlly into mithrun in that way
-not rlly obsessed w anyone else enough
this is so sad press f to pay respects
carefully picking out and changing my discord avatar before sending someone a discord friend rq is the online equivalent of making sure my hair and clothes look nice before meeting someone new jSDJFKF
to any friends who i left a group chat or server w, it is not you whatsoever i just blocked my ex. i dont think badly of him, i just really cant form a healthy friendship with him and i am sorry.
ngl im glad i have friends & mutuals who are haters n a priv acct bc sweet baby jesus the discourse abt whos dunmeshi kabru ship is morally superior is nuts
i beg of thee. just block ppl who ship smth u hate. block ppl who say smth mildly dumb. u owe nobody anything
blocking ppl for literally the most insane reason before either of us have ever spoken is my joy. minor? bye. fandom i hate? bye. opinion i hate? bye. i just dislike your vibe? good bye
prev cherry/cherriewinees alt -> drowsydot !
you can call me dot/dottie instead too, if you dont mind ๐
i cant rlly erase all trace of my old un but my nephew finding my fandom nastiness would be so horrifying ๐ซฅ so this provides reasonable distance lol.
my anxiety is pretty bad lately so im tending to spend more time on my priv!
just like this tweet if youd like it dm'd :3
like 99% chance ill give, im kinda paranoid lately so if i dont its not personal. feel free to unfollow it if its too much lol
picked up my pizza and an alt goth fem presenting person w a furry tail got me my pizza. life worth living
*piercings, black and purple hair in low bun, giant gothic cross necklace, green cargo pants and so incredibly hot btw
i did not have to bring my ex bf who owes my family (hislandlords) thousands in rent all of his things only for him and his family to treat me like garbage, but i did. it was a grueling trip to ensure his cat was comfortable. glad theyre all ungrateful for the kindness.
just so yall know, im formally divorcing myself from my prev shared accts opinions on whatever
i was at my worst mentally and in a relationship that wasnt good for me. i dont want tied to those beliefs
im neutral on this, so pls dont hold prev opinions against me
i rlly miss selfshipping but w losing interest in tokyorev i effectively lost interest in that too
i think mostly i miss being obsessed w smth, having no hyperfix always feels super weird
@akanedni
sorry youre getting so much hate for this :/ this kind of fan translation isnt uncommon, bc youre not scanlating doesnt mean youre some kind of demon
going into the tags of smth always has risk of spoilers & you did tag in a pretty normal way. ive seen this for WHA and similar
i just wish this wasnt how things turned out, but i really dont think they could have gottem better. i did what i needed to. tomorrow ill try to have a happier day. today and yesterday were hard
some of my mutuals who follows me from my old acct im like thank god ๐ฅน i love u ppl so much. not saying names bc my new mutuals r great too but some ppl refollowed & i was so relieved
i love mithrun so much but im gonna b real i could never date him hes too much like me. kabru on the other hand is like me but different so i could fuck w that
being a zoomer-milennial inbetween kid is always weird bc im just on the cusp of being either, meaning im kind of both and kind of neither. i think being a kid in the late 90s is a very different experience than being ipad baby
i used to want to go to japan w my partner, but it wasnt even clear if we could since he disliked planes so much. i guess i wont have to give the dream up in the end, but its a little sad
this post is almost def influenced by a low mood due to needing to eat properly but
i wish i was normal, i feel like a rlly fake person and like everyone is going to catch me in the act or smth. and idk what the act is but i presume they do? lol
i dont fuck w ppl shaming addicts and framing them as inherently bad and selfish people.
i just dont even begin to understand how you can be so shameless. do you have empathy? compassion? sympathy? a brain? like. get over yourself. addiction is hard as hell to escape.
the best part of top surgery will be being able to go shirtless w/o people being weird abt it. bc i overheat so easily and that would be a life changer w my thermal dysregulation. but the fact u have to chop ur tits off to have ur shirt off is fundamentally fucked for afab ppl
i finally gave in and blocked someone ive wanted to block for a long time but didnt for some reason, and there is no better feeling* ๐
*except boobs in my face/hand
following/interacting a 15yr old on accident and feeling bad but i unrt bc i dont want them to mb see smth bad here TT_TT i love your art i just made this an 18+ page so i feel weird rting minors stuff
made curry with rice, which is how you know i had a good day lol. i actually had it in me after doing stuff to cook myself something nice to eat !!
im so tired, i know japanese curry isnt too difficult but in the end peeling and cutting and cooking etc it feels like a lot
idk i feel like as someone who keeps witnessing people i love losing themselves and/or dying to addictions to various substances i just cannot be fun and hip
i feel lame when i say i dont smoke/drink/vape like im inherently unfun. but my fam is addiction prone, so
the thing w my prev accts opinions i was insanely mentally unwell and very manic depressive, i said shit i now disagree with.
i wasnt in the right mind to be making firm opinions. ive never been so mentally ill on my life
what i say now is the truth so please listen to me now.
really mourning the things ill never have again, that i thought i would. an apartment with someone else. cooking food together in it. the room with our pc and various dream pets (snakes, hermit crabs, and more) and... its gone. i feel so selfish to say goodbye to so many dreams
i had v delicious scrambled eggs w toast and decaf mocha coffee but since my paranoia is so bad i act like im in witness protection & i didnt take this in a very generic location have this. inn black and white , cropped, and drawn over with stickers
being trans nonbinary is so weird bc being born "the opposite sex" wouldnt have even fixed me . i would just have different problems & still have gender dysphoria. im literally never fully happy its nuts
oh god above my for you page became bpd mentally ill puppy tgirls only. i love yall but i need to quickly switch to my following page to get my anime fanart back
near the end of the tikka masala... probably my last bowl bc i rlly dont need all of it, ill freeze the rest
its been v delicious! today w brown rice bc im out of white rice and need to grocery shop
making friends is scary, bc i want to trust them w my whole heart and i know i will, but im so scared of losing them more than anything. and nobody knows the future, so ill just have to do my best
i do not have a very great impression of my ex any longer since he thought it fair to harass me over video games he didnt receive.
i could go more in depth but i wont! bc i actually respect boundaries. but that doesnt mean i dont have feelings, and dont get mad.
"we should shame people out of their addiction" is a sentence that fundamentally has 0 understanding of addiction.
ive had dozens of family, friends, and even a partner lost to addiction. some came back. some died. some i cut off for my own sanity.
you cant shame addiction away
how is there so much discourse abt mithrun lately... i say everyone should have recess. lets go play in the field and pretend to be horses. or maybe u like to be a wolf. we can build homes for the bugs
gnini mutuals, i need to commit to sleeping even tho its scary and try my cpap bc sleeping properly is good!!!
(ill try to brush my teeth too... ive not kept up w it well the last few days)
i dont talk abt my DID here because while its a huge part of my life, and affects every waking moment, and is incredibly deeply personal... it can be hidden easily. it is a hidden disorder.
im tempted to make an offshoot priv for DID stuff, but idk if anyone would follow? lmk
tbh not qrting is such a blessing. i know "vague posting is bad" but its so much more harmful to you AND a random stranger (or friend!) to qrt
also why spread the beliefs of someone you disagree w anyways
i felt so grimy and awful, but i took a shower and brushed my teeth + i swear my hygiene meter went up like a sim & subsequently my happiness meter did too like it was cartoonish. i feel so much better
ah yes the daily past 9pm "do you think everyone hates me" thought . im so glad i realized this is just a problem i have after 9pm and not a real legitimate thing to worry about jfSJFK
ptsd kabru means so much to me. i just dont have the words but hes been through hell and back and that fundamentally shaped him as a person and every action he makes. even his relationship w his mother. i felt that
Q: I would like to know the name of Mithrunโs brother or his brotherโs crush!
A: His brother's name is Obrin (ใชใใชใณ). I haven't thought of a particular name for his brotherโs crush, so I'll name her appropriately now. Hmmm. Sultha (ในใซในใ).
i miss the sims 3, and i saw a good video of a sims 4 player reacting to it in complete shock and never going back to sims 4 and its like
WELP!
i have late night, supernatural, seasons, ambitions, generations & pets DLC. so this will be a hell of a fun time
unsure if i didnt follow this person back or if twitter unfollowed them for me bc i swear to God i keep finding out ppl i check religiojsly are unfollowed
OK TRULY UNDERRATED SHIP yall might hate me. thistle and falin . im not defending myself here i just think at least theyre great qpps and maybe a lot more. TO ME!!! I THINK THISTLE GROWS FOND OF HER even if he is, uanware she is a girl
wrt my prev post, i want to clarify:
my ex still had his card connected to my # for fraud alerts, it was actually his own money but i was unaware
i was sure hed prev had my paypal/card connected to pay for me + was afraid
im not asking for anyone to harass him + never was
having chronic fatigue sucks, i dont want to sleep such a nice day away but i know if i dont rest ill be extra-exhausted tomorrow, too. i have a drs aptment so i dont think thatd be good...
this mostly goes for not wanting involved in shipping (as in pro/anti) discourse
but basically just asking to please not hold shit i said when i was very unwell against me tysm
im not making this post bc he asked, im making it to eliminate confusion as to why it was taken down
i wasnt lying, i was gen shocked bc i thought hed spent *my* money without asking. i had no reason to believe his card would still be connected to my phone number
im sad i deleted me & my ex's private server but i couldnt handle havinf it it sucks. i feel like i should have kept it but i wouldve hurt myself with it honestly. it is best to let some memories fade but that sucks
@papi_kyo
it aint your fault, tbh they just want to be hateful. they wouldve taken anything out of context to make people seem bad, im just sorry it was a harmless joke
i rlly think sexualized caretaking kabumisu fic would be interesting but also half the fandom would hate me. they kinda already do tho
like sexy teethbrushing, omorashi/diapers, showering, etc... idk. im disabled n folks would call it ableist but idc
WHY DID MY PHONE MAKE ME UNFOLLOW SOUP ๐ญ hater behavior???? !! it said i didnt follow but i could see her posts so i went to refollow and it unfollowrd
i didnt want to but i went outside after my walk and helped my dad with some chores... i feel good :)
ill be using my seasonal affective disorder light and opening up the windows in my room to hope to help my SAD more
fall is absolutely crushing me, i cant wait until i adjust my psych meds bc on god on christ
i need to start using my happy light too. shoutout to my fellow seasonal depression warriors
like obv as a fan u will respond to criticism of ur fav guy but im shocked there is endless discourse abt mithrun to begin w lately, hes just some little dude. ur getting upset abt this little guy who is so silly
i finished unloading dishes, i guess my finishing note today is that it was better than yesterday!
had a nice bath w epsom salt and lavender bubble bath, ate decent even tho ED acted up, and fought the depression demons best i could
re-downloaded pokemon go and blew my nephew out the water with excitement from my 2016 account i havent touched lol. he got so excited, we got shushed several times as fam was watching a movie
i h8 when im upset & my mom is like "ur giving them what u want, playing into their game" like well thats their issue for wanting to upset others on purpose?? not mine
the other day in therapy i stated how i related to how mithrun felt like leftovers and my therapist did a deep dive into rewiring why and how i thought that way when i am not, and anyways my therapist has literally used mithrun kerensil to help me recover. go off
trying not to let mysdelf want to never wake up again is soo hard im just like clearly nobody cares and i do have friends who care but Wow. i am going THROUGH it. i want to believe being alive is beautiful but it is so un-beautiful and painful rn
today was actually pretty okay????
i was exhausted and took a 4 hour "nap", but i havent slept well in over a week so
it was a good day. nothing so bad happened. i feel good right now
the fear ever ill scare ppl off bc i get rlly excited abt the idea of meeting online friends but i dont wanna seem creepy (not vague/ abt just one friend even if its bc of one atm, im always like this HDSJF)
my 17 y/o cat wanted up on the window sill but couldnt jump up (too nervous), so i picked her up and put her on it and she is SO happy. my parents rarely open the windows lol
i put a chair behind her so she can get down/up easier <3