You know how ppl use spacing to hide the hashtags on Instagram? I gave this effect/practice a name: THE INSTAGRAM ELLIPSIS. Yeah, you can cite me. If this is all I get done today, I win.
Scholarly award idea: The "Room of One's Own" fellowship, for mid-career women bogged down in service and family and generally denigrated as researchers because of all the shit they can't say no to. So that they can say no to it, for a while, with cash and prestige.
Get vaccinated, kids. I am a healthy 46 yo woman who had chickenpox as a child and now has shingles from the dormant virus flaring up 30 years later. Bumpy, oozy, red, painful, burning welts and blisters all up my neck and face. For a month. GET YOUR VACCINES.
My mom died today, on her own terms, from ovarian cancer. Among her last words were, “Piss off, cancer!” Here she is with my daughter at high tea and all dolled up, a mere three months ago. She will be so, so missed.
The university says "there is no risk to the campus community" but a gender studies class by a female prof in the humanities targeted deliberately feels a lot like collective ideological danger that has now tipped into violence. You can't arrest one person and call it a day.
Per The Imprint, it seems that PHIL202: Gender Issues was targeted. In my building. The professor (I'm not naming her) is a woman even smaller than me and everything about everything feels very unsafe to me now.
The thing is, I don’t “deliver content” like an Uber eats, but for curriculum. I *teach* and presence matters. It’s not the textbook or the exam or the essay or the learning objectives. It’s a relationship.
To my tenured colleagues: A thread on how we can be part of the solution, not just a precious relic of the way things used to be, and the manifestation of disproportionate privilege and inequity in the academy. Let's talk; please share and add.
#cdnpse
What do you need in a video lecture? A thread of provocations, by me. First, here's what you don't need: new camera, new microphone, new lighting, new software. You can make EXCELLENT class videos using consumer-grade tools you already have. 1/
@JeffreyASachs
I have taught very similar material in that same classroom. The university says there is no further risk, but violent misogyny like this is political, ideological, and becoming normalized. You can't arrest one person and act like this isn't now a daily, reasonable fear.
Guys. GUYS. Our course calendar has a typo and the Victorian Sexual Fiction course accidentally got entered as “Sexual Friction 1660-1820” and I am dead. Dead.
The way my brain works: I'm like a slot machine, that pays jackpots every time. The only catch is that *someone* has to pull the handle, or *something* has to trigger a turn. I am not, if you will, a self-lighting firecracker. Remote teaching is HARD for me. 1/8
If someone has come to campus seeking a gender studies class as a site of violence, it very much feels to me like all of us who work in the humanities are very much at continued risk.
If what the Imprint is reporting is true--that the class was targeted because of its topic--then this is an ideologically driven hate crime. And it will need to be addressed as such.
In 1989, in the era of Polytechnique, "gender studies" was understood to be about feminism. When pols decry "gender studies" now then mean its more capacious sense, encompassing sex/gender, queerness, transness, masculinity, feminism. All of us are targets.
Peak 80s scholar AND peak postmodern theory: Gave a presentation on Max Headroom AS Max Headroom, over a screen naturally. It was a scholarly conceit, to reproduce the fakery required to produce the simulacrum. That's it, that's the talk.
Is there a tone of voice that, as a woman scholar, I can adopt so that people listen to what I say as if I might be an expert? I have tried gentle suasion (ignored); I have tried directness (considered a bitch, subjected to tone-policing). Not asking for a friend
@michaelshermer
The reason you are not meant to know the diagnosis is demonstrated here: armchair therapy. Pal, you’re not qualified to treat or diagnose. Norr, apparently, to accommodate to a minimal legal standard.
My
#ADHDphd
friends in remote work: how are you doing? I am really really really struggling. Everyone keeps telling me that we all have a hard time, and that I'm not doing as bad as all that, and they believe in me. But it feels different.
We cannot allow this to be our new normal. We must name this hate crime for what it is, and our institutions--political, educational--have to push back.
“I bought WiFi on the plane so I could check my email to see if one of the students who was stabbed was one of my mentees,” is super 2023 and I hate it.
She’s ok. Wasn’t in the classroom.
But what the fuck
WHAT THE FUCK
The embargo is finally over and I can officially announce I won a SSHRC Insight Grant to support my Rhetoric of the Selfie project--autobiography, social justice, identity politics, duckface. YASSS!
I’m actually very impressed with
@UWaterlooPres
remarks at this very well attended rally. He is naming the violence, and its targets, and the nature of the danger. Thank you,
@UWaterloo
#Fellows
play a pivotal role supporting the
@F_Trudeau_F
Institutes of
#EngagedLeadership
while continuing to demonstrate outstanding academic achievement in their respective fields of research.
You could: sit on hiring committees and push back against always hiring from the same high-prestige programs. You could push forward the idea that diverse hires are necessarily GOING TO PRESENT DIFFERENTLY than the usual hires, including in interview style, exp., interpersonally.
Dear students; if you're addressing a professor you don't know yet, "Dr." or "Prof." is the preferred form, rather than "Miss" or "Mrs" or even "Ms" and "Mr"--you don't know ppl's gender, and assuming age, gender, marital status is above your pay grade. And mine.
Holy shit. I just won an Outstanding Performance Award in my Faculty, based on my "teaching and service." I am completely shocked and now I am going to cry and then next I am going to have a very stiff drink. My next one is going to be for research, please count on it.
You could; sit on undergraduate and graduate curriculum committees and make sure the workloads and degree demands do not assume an able-bodied 18 year old middle class kid with no other obligations than to study. Be inclusive. Push for that.
You could (this is hard, too): look at your own syllabi and do an audit: are you mostly teaching white dude texts and ideas? Because you always have? Because that's what you know? Look at your students: that's not them. Branch out. Learn more. Diversify your syllabus.
Per The Imprint, it seems that PHIL202: Gender Issues was targeted. In my building. The professor (I'm not naming her) is a woman even smaller than me and everything about everything feels very unsafe to me now.
@alexndlau
@dna_heligrace
That first sentence of the abstract. And then, perhaps no one has investigated it because every time they tried, the subjects thought the interviewers were flirting with them and so kept asking them out. 😅
You could: actually perform service in your department and your faculty as if it was meaningful. You have the power to care, and the power to be a pain in the ass to do things the right way. This would be better than complaining about The Powers That Be. You *are* TPTB. Use it.
This is why I find intellectual isolation so difficult as a work environment. It's mostly spontaneous interactions with people that pull the handle--teaching, meetings, conferences. I will spit quarters out literally all day, no problem, but only in interaction. 2/8
Today,
@uwaterloo
made a big deal of commemorating the mass murder in 1989 of women engineering students at Ecole Polytechnique in Montreal. Today,
@uwaterloo
was silent on stabbings in a gender studies class on our own campus less than 6mos ago. (1/3)
@NightShiftMD
@Karen_Patte
I mean, complying with public health and with population level directives is my entire brand. But the rollout has been so incompetent, the lockdowns so arbitrary and ill-timed, the messaging so ... wildly inconsistent, the acknolwedgement of aerosols so late that I lose trust.
@Nicole_Cliffe
My dog’s name is Buddy. People in the street can not resist him. They all come at him with “Hey there buddy” and he LOVES it but then it’s awkward when they ask his name and I’m like “It’s actually Buddy for real”
#canada
#buddy
Yes, yes, I know: you are just one mid-level associate trying to finish your book / get that grant / grade all the things. You're a nobody. Except you're a nobody with very strong job protection, a stable salary, benefits, and institutional access. That is not nothing. Now what?
You could do some positive things: push for better, stable contracts for adjuncts or lecturers. Push for the continuation of tenure lines. Push to protect people below you from the depredations of academic exploitation. Push for the things you claim to value in your research.
@NightShiftMD
@Karen_Patte
I'm an academic with high science literacy. I understand the epidemology, I understand relative risk, I understand herd immunity. But I'm beginning to be very distrustful of our various governments, to the point I don't believe what they say, which is not what I expected.
You could (not easy): think about your pedagogy: how much is construed to perform gatekeeping, rather than teaching. Are you acting as a judge or arbiter, or as a guide and mentor? What kinds of labour are you not doing with your students? Who is doing that labour for you?
You could (this is harder): consider why you only want to teach upper level courses to major, and consider that you are leaving the grad students, the adjunct, the junior people the most challenging courses. That's not, actually, fair: you're trying to skim the cream off the top.
ALL CHANGE IS HARD, AND THAT'S OKAY, a thread for "back to normal" and "coming out of the pandemic" and why you are still terrified and sad, and why no one is making space for that. I got you. It's okay that you're not okay. 1/11
@Bryson_M
@JessicaValenti
“Who can make any sense out of all these gun nut racist white guys lashing out violently against women they want to or once dated / immigrants / Black Americans? There’s no pattern to it at all! If only we could figure this out! Lone wolf! Mental illness! Bully!”
And now I turn it to you: what can YOU do, my tenured friends, to make the university a better place? I feel like marginalized scholars are doing way more to advance this conversation, and it should be work that falls mainly to us. Go!
We are finding out more details about the name and age and life and studies and job of the perpetrator. Please everyone: using hateful stereotypes to characterize and dismiss him is the same violence but by other means. You can't cure hate with hate.
#UWaterloo
Back to work today after two weeks of time split between being with my dying mother and then absorbing her death. How do I do this? I don’t know. I’m trying to be gentle with myself. I went skating last night, cried a bit, watched the snow, leaned onto my edges.
I'm really bad at conjuring things out of thin air. I'm more Spiderman: I can't fly but I can achieve a flying effect by swinging from one building to the next, one idea to the next. I'm going to need a lot of metaphors: get ready-- 3/8
For
#SelfCareSunday
Jasper wants you to know you don't need to read all the news, if it upsets or scares you. You can SIT on the news instead, or pet a cat, for example.
Here's another thing about larger class sizes: the bigger the group in the room the harder it is for shyer or more introverted students to feel comfortable participating in discussion. This, truly, this is a THING we're not talking about.
I guess now is not the time to say I told you so to all the ppl who designed their courses with a final paper worth 30% and an exam worth 50%? Because that was always shitty course design, but RIGOR.
You could: model integrity, balance, and equity for your grad students. They learn the profession's and field's values from you. Respond promptly, support the whole student, really listen, act as a coach and not just a grader. Be a decent human. It matters.
Online remote teaching is like planning syllabi. There's no one to pull the handle. I'm trying to create pullable handles in the course, so that I can function to my regular standard, but if I could INTERACT with people spontaneously again? This would be so much easier. 8/8
Because *we*, the tenured, are the ones to do it. Who else? Marginalized scholars? Contingent workers? Trustees and boards? No. If anyone has the footing, power, and safety to push back, it's tenured people. What are you going to do?
What you need in your video, then is: connection, intimacy, brevity, and the scale of office hours. Use your web cam. Sit close. Make eye contact with the camera. Talk, don't read. That's to start. 6/13
@nhannahjones
It's good to know that Candace Owens can, in at least this small way, produce a kind of good in the world. If only as an example of the rock bottom we ourselves can use to calibrate our self-judgment.
If you ask me: what are the 10 essential readings in your field? I have LITERALLY NO FUCKING IDEA. I really struggle with that kind of question. But I can name you 40 essential things if you start by "Sherry Turkle used to think computers were cool, but now she doesn't?" 4/8
Family group text, morning:
Sister: (dog photo)
Me: OMG I made it the interview round for a prestigious fellowship!
Mom: 🥰 look at that dog 🐕
Dad: Dogs are going to dog, for sure! 😂
Aaaaaaand scene. 🙃😕
You could: really ask yourself why the degrees you teach in have to be exactly the same as the degree you took 20 years ago. (My BA: 1992-1997 and PhD: 1998-2004--HISTORY!). Our students and our world and the market is not the same. Be the change that will make things equitable.
So. Yeah.
#ADHD
and fully remote work is peeling away my mental health one discussion post at a time, one Teams meeting at a time, one library recall notice at a time. And it's NOT the same as what everyone is experiencing. It's just not.
A lot of us with tenure are watching PhDs leave without finishing, go into debt, suffer lousy adjunct jobs, destroy their mental health. We are watching our undergrad programs turned into scaled-up piecework. Our administrative structure turn managerial. What can we do?
The university needs to clearly state this and push back. It needs to push our political leaders to state it clearly and disavow it forcefully. We need to call it a hate crime; it is a specific assault on women and queer and trans people, and a general assault on academic freedom
All the news as of now suggests that this was a crime possibly driven by the fevered public discourse and scapegoating of professors/work on gender/sexuality.
If so, make no mistake; this is the intent of all the ‘just asking questions’ people. They’re likely delighted at this.
If I have the first building--Sherry Turkle--I can swing and swing and swing and swing. There needs to be a first building, or I'm standing in the treeless north, shooting webs at lichen. Not going anywhere. 5/8
You know what else you don't need? A lecture, actually. Lectures project the human voice to a crowded room full of synchronous learners. A video is an intimate interpersonal communication, that happens to be "broadcast" but is experienced as from-me-to-you. 2/
It's true everyone is finding this hard. But neurodivergent people are finding it, often, truly harder. I just wish someone would believe me. Not believe in me, like "you can do it!" Because I can't. Believe in me like, "this is too hard for you, you need help." I'm drowning.
In a video, we can use our quiet voices. We can make facial expressions. We can lean in and sit close. We can do one minute or five minutes or 20 minutes or whatever. It's more like office hours than a lecture. 4/
I. Can't. Work. Like. This. I can't have everything inside one screen. I can't motivate myself from nothing and no contact. I can't go looking for what I have to do all the time. I can't keep track of it, I can't get ahead of it, I can't keep up. It's the executive function.
Husband has this on the wall on his side of the bed. A print photo of my first day teaching as an Assistant Professor, September 2004, in our first apartment. I can’t believe how long ago that was, and how he still looks at this every day ...
Someone suggested my allergies might be hormonal and by god it is a thing. And why have I never heard of it. And guess whose seasonal allergies also turned out to be almost entirely ... cyclical. Women’s health. Maybe someone should study that.
Oh. Hell. Yes. "Wellness week" is about compulsory and performative acts of wellness and "self care" that individualize structural stress and hold the institution blameless. Yup.
I wish university mental health weeks were more about providing mandatory training to supervisors and academics on how to manage and help their students through difficult times and less about getting people to do yoga.
Right. My sister happened upon some intel that Shoppers had 200 doses for the walk ins. She was second in line and called me. We raced here. We’re 20 people back. This is not a “system” this is a lottery. Here we are, surprised to be lined up by the cheese.
Ok but wearing a mask TO the spin class UNTIL you clip in, taking it off, then putting it back on when class ENDS? Is like wearing a condom to dinner, taking it off for sex, and putting it back on to go to sleep.
The heat is absolutely brutal and it’s barely 9:30. Stay cool as much as you are able. I have some tips, from a childhood with no A/C if that’s you. It seems this knowledge is not universal. 1/8
Right. So putting together syllabus readings is excruciating for me because I have to conjure a term out of thin air. I can pitch a course with a research question but it's SO HARD for me to plan it, no matter how much I know about the topic (I know A LOT). 6/8
I have just received a second, phone-blaring, drop everything emergency alert on my phone for a missing child taken by a family member something more than 1000km away. This is not a good use of this technology.
#AMBERAlert
Yeah, I booked myself into a hotel two blocks away from my house for a Writing Retreat weekend and I'm as giddy as if I booked a last-minute weekend in Paris. I used points. It's magic.
@RobinMazumder
Don't binge-write or binge-research. Do a little bit everyday. It leads to much better results and way less stress. Take the weekends off. Seriously. Off.
My therapist: You used to feel like a rudderless boat, then you got a rudder and learned to use it, and now the pandemic is a stormy sea and the best thing to do is let go of the rudder? It feels like regressing, but you are taking control by relinquishing control.
Me: Shit.
This is why I'm always bugging my colleagues, running into their offices with a syllabus question, hoping they'll pull the handle on my brain and I can move forward. Thank you forever,
@Digidor
, you're the greatest. 7/8
Connection: I'm making my videos one at a time, as the term proceeds, and in response to student questions. That way the videos feel real and fresh and relevant, and not like something canned. I respond to the students who have to watch them. They feel engaged. 7/13
Many of you knew Stéfan Sinclair, who died yesterday from cancer. I am collecting messages for his family: please share your thoughts, on the thread or DM. But first: he was a man who dressed up AS A COMPUTER OPERATING SYSTEM for my 30th birthday party, in 2003:
Unpopular opinion: everyone needs to calm down about coronavirus. Your xenophobia and scientific (and statistical) illiteracy are showing. Also, shame on mainstream media for panic-tinged clickbait coverage.
When you realize you're autistic, you will be shocked, relieved, sad, excited, in mourning, enraged at the world, liberated: you will be these things in random order, in cycles, for at least a couple of years. It's okay. You will integrate your sense of self eventually.
If you are
#ActuallyAutistic
and were diagnosed as an adult, please Quote Tweet this tweet with advice you have to other autistic adults who don’t yet know they’re autistic.
Every April we win a lot of new siblings, let’s make their transition easier.
#AutismAcceptanceMonth
Is it possible that all the black squares today are another instance of mostly white people hogging all the attention and bandwidth in an act designed to let everyone know how they're not going to be taking up any space today. Maybe let's all sit with that for a minute.
I am apologizing to everyone who catches me, and avoiding everyone who can't. All my organization and self-regulation and motivation tools have been taken from me by remote work. "We're all adapting!" they say, patting me, but I am not adapting. I am drowning.
I'm sorry I missed the meeting / the deadline / the email / the appointment. I feel sick with shame. Also, I'm going to keep missing them. I'm struggling immensely and working so so so hard, and using everything I've learned from therapy.
@DoctorLindy
Many others are like this. Introversion does not mean "has no social skills or charisma" just like extroversion does not mean "is charismatic and socially skilled". It's just about how you get your energy, right?