Ethereal_moonglow โจ on AO3 โจ I finished SPN on Oct. 1, 2021. This is a safe place for mental breakdowns. Cry with me. Still beautiful. Still Dean Winchester.
MY NEW FIC IS HERE!! โค
I've posted chapter 1 of my sequel to "... You can have me" It's going to have 3 chapters & 21,4k words.
Angst with a happy ending, fix it & bed sharing. This is part 2 of The Black Series:
"... gonna stay with you forever"
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someone on tumblr pointed out how dean's hands are bloody and broken by beating him up while cas' are 100% clean and i haven't been able to shake it off my head ever since
The Supernatural fandom is still alive and strong almost 3 years after the show ended, after being loyally engaged FOR 15 YEARS.
#TheWinchesters
has a HUGE LEGACY to support it and any smart network considering to pick it up should know that
#savetheWinchesters
just thinking about how in early seasons dean knew he was good looking and bragged about it but in later seasons he probably wouldn't believe it if someone told him he was handsome and how that may be because it's post hell and he didn't see beauty in himself anymore
just thinking about how in early seasons dean knew he was good looking and bragged about it but in later seasons he probably wouldn't believe it if someone told him he was handsome and how that may be because it's post hell and he didn't see beauty in himself anymore
Dean really took a photo of Cas and PRINTED it. And the photo looks bent in the middle... like he was KEEPING IT IN HIS FREAKING WALLET?!??!? ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
(headcanon thread โฌ๏ธ)
HOW DID I NOT REALIZE THAT BEFORE?!?! ๐คฏ THE FINAL FIGHT AGAINST CHUCK IN 15x19 IS IN THE SAME SPOT WHERE CAS HAD DIED IN S12?!? LOOK AT THE FUCKING TREE ITS FREAKING BRANCH?!??
do you think jensen ever just... pretends to be dean in his everyday life? randomly bringing him back sometimes, like when he's shopping for groceries, or driving, or whatever, he just... pulls dean out of that part of himself and becomes dean again, lets him take the wheel and +
she's also intrinsically linked to cas in dean's mind because she was literally the first "medium" of contact with him. In that sense, for dean's subconscious, she's the perfect representation of human coming in contact with castiel
This is all inside Deans head. This is what he thinks. Look at what Pamela is wearing, the shirt and necklace. "How come you only want what you can't have?" That's Dean, in love with Cas, but thinking he can't have him. How else do you interpret this???
the shadow said she'd come for cas "when you let the sun shine on your face" and it didn't come straight after cas said "i love you", what if it came here cause that's the moment when dean's soul shined back full of love at cas, speaking invisible words he couldn't pronounce?
I don't have a fixed headcanon for this, and it's highly debatable, but i think Dean realized the nature of his feelings for Cas after he died in 12x23 (widower arc my beloved), then spent s13/14 accepting it ("I'm good with who i am")
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friendly reminder that until proven wrong by the winchesters, DEAN IS CANONICALLY ALIVE FOR HIS BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR, HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY MY LOVE ๐โจโจ
thinking about how everyone always blamed Cas for his choices during the show, but his choices, as dumb or naive or reckless as they were... were the only REAL choices (out of Chuck's control). Cas was learning to excerpt his free will, like a baby learning to walk, and
thinking about how we could have had the show end with Amara becoming the new *female* god and happy team free will living their retired family life on earth
Friendly reminder that this was Dean's first smile in Heaven. Not when he saw Bobby, not when he told him about his mother or father, Dean's FIRST SMILE in Heaven was when he heard Cas was there. That's when he finally showed any happiness at all
Look at this face. The expression. He's so lost in this moment, he doesn't know nor understands what's going on, except he doesn't wanna lose him, that he's all that matters and WHY, why is that, Dean? He doesn't care why, he never did, all he knows is what Cas means to him (1/3)
okay but like.... he could've chosen literally ANYTHING ELSE yet he thought the most important thing he wanted to warn past Dean about was just HOW IMPORTANT castiel would've been for him, like APPRECIATE HIM WHILE YOU CAN, EVERY SINGLE MOMENT because it won't be enough-- ๐ญ๐ญ
If S15 dean would give advice to S4 dean, he would tell him that castiel will be the greatest friend in your life so keep him around.
Danneel: thatโs the best answer youโve given.
saw this poll on tumblr and now I'm thinking about Castiel's handwriting being absolutely unintelligible to anyone but Dean. for some reason i can see Sam making some cute teasing & Dean kind of defending Cas, trying to prove it's not so bad cause he can *kind of* read it
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seeing the y yo a ti version of this moment only makes you realize how incredibly tender and intensely romantic Dean's expression was when he said "don't do it Cas"
Dean says "I need to uncover the truth about my parents" he doesn't say "i want to", "I'd like to", he says "i NEED TO" which means there's a reason he's uncovering this story. Which means he's gonna have a more ACTIVE ROLE in all this, he's not only passively narrating,
I love that jensen talks without giving details like he's already told misha before, and misha says "WE can afford it" like he knows he would be in it, it's their personal besties-project, they've had talks about it
do you know why sam believed in the easter bunny until 11 and a half?? because dean made it possible, leaving gifts and eggs for sam, because you all know john didn't
no but this scene literally makes me insane, this is angel-of-the-lord castiel, millennia-year-old warrior of heaven and dean goes like "nope, imma dress him up as a cowboy and have him watch all my little favorite movies in my dean cave cause he's mine, he's mine"
think about the potential of charlie living in the bunker for a while, we were so robbed ๐ญ charlie being besties with cas, twinning with dean, noticing things between dean & cas, gossiping with sam and teaming up with him ๐ญ
thanks to the winchesters we now know that the dean who smiled at sam on that bridge has gone on adventures, he's done things. he looks peaceful. he might even have been living with cas for decades for all we know
I was wondering why they used the blue for Mary and the green for John here (when usually Mary is used as a parallel for Dean) then I remembered John is supposed to die at the hands of a vampire in this episode.......
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#TheWinchesters
i know tumblr is the spn website but maybe if we keep posting enough spn content we'll turn twitter into the spn site too which means it CAN'T DIE and even when it does, IT DOESN'T ๐คก
commitment issues?? dean winchester?? my boi being clingy as hell and scared that everyone he cares about would rather leave him is actually the base of the whole show
I've gathered some of my thoughts about The Winchesters season finale and here's why i think it gave me some peace *THREAD*
(yes, this does contain a destiel interpretation, too ๐๐)
The colors are not heavenly though, looks more like the early seasons of spn, so what if Dean is sent back on earth on a NEW mission, alone, *alive*?? To fix something? What if this leads to a S16, the "one last case" HBO 10-episodes-long revival jackles has been mentioning?? ๐คก
guys i know I've been president of the clown wagon all these months but let's not be angry (at the show/jensen) when Castiel doesn't show up tonight in the Winchesters, clowning is fun and there may be a hint of him, but i don't think we would actually get him until season 2 ๐ฅฒ
I think neither Sam nor Jack had the courage to point that out. When Dean undressed that night he saw it on the jacket and almost had a heart attack. That's when he took the bottle of liquor and passed out as we saw him here. It's the first time we see him wearing other clothes
and this is also reinforced in the end when he says "but I'm on a NEW MISSION (and this story is just beginning)" -- HE'S ON A NEW MISSION, there IS going to be a PRESENT STORYLINE and there HAS TO BE a reason for it. Which leads to theory # 2
If the brits exterminated every vampire in america shouldn't JENNY THE VAMPIRE ALSO BE DEAD???? OMG another reason why 15x20 was just a collective hallucination IT DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE?? shut up I'm seeing the light
there is SOMETHING GOING ON in the present (whenever that is) and this is probably leading up SOMEWHERE in the present storyline, so there's a bigger picture here than mary and john's past. Like they're actually a means to an end.
basically all of this is happening because Dean met John and gave him the letter. The Winchesters is the domino effect he's caused!!! ๐คฏ๐ฑ
#TheWinchesters
The choice of a colder tone for Dean's present storyline in The Winchesters has to be deliberate. It seems EVEN LESS LIKELY that he'd be in heaven, NOT WITH THOSE COLD COLORS. Not Jack and Castiel's heaven, at least.
be alive, behaving like he would, morphing his face with the same expressions he would make, while nobody around him would even know he's doing it--just to see that he's still there, even for a few minutes, before he tucks him back in safe and ready to be summoned again
Also, he says "to get to the truth, the real story, means going way back" So IS HE?? GOING BACK?? what if he needs to change one thing to create a chain reaction that changes the finale? What if he already did& it got wrong&that's why it was so screwed up& now he needs to fix it?
Omg what if Dean goes to the past and he meets Cas THEN WHAT i know this sounds like fanfiction but let's be realistic it could be happening because EXPLAIN THIS
I was thinking about how whenever dean hugs someone he's almost always the one hugging the other and how this links to his psychological trauma of always being the one to take care of others, making himself bigger to protect them
(thread ๐งต about Dean Winchester & hugs)
WHEN IS IT SET??
I have been having my theories about this. I've always imagined Dean narrating this from heaven. I've clowned before about how the prequel might be somehow changing/fixing the ending
@realsuperflan
EXACTLY ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ HE WOULD'VE LET DEAN KILL HIM, AND SIMILARLY, IN THE CRYPT SCENE DEAN WAS SUPPOSED TO SAY "I FORGIVE YOU, CAS... I LOVE YOU" INSTEAD OF DEFENDING HIMSELF????
and THIS
(and i know you're gonna say casbaiting but you've been warned this is not a clown-free zone)
THIS LOGO WAS REAL it was not a collective hallucination
The cold color might also indicate Dean's emotions. Heaven has a warm filter, there's peace (& the ones he loves). If he's back on earth alone, it makes sense that it's cold.
Also it's different from the amber filter jensen chose for the storyline of M & J. It marks a difference.
Also, I've noticed THIS.
So if Dean has the samulet it is possible that this is set either before S5 (before he throws it away - but it can't be cause he wore it) or between S10 & 11 (he gets a replica of it in the musical episode and hangs it from Baby's mirror)
@destielesq
Wait am i making things up now or does he change it back to one pillow one nightstand after cas dies? Help this is gonna haunt me ๐ญ๐๐
the samulet is not seen after S11, and it is not seen again on Baby, not when Dean is in heaven, nor after he's dead (look at the rear view mirror) so this might disprove that Dean is narrating from heaven in TW
I feel like we as a society haven't cherished this little moment right here enough, he was ready to kill sam, he's lost all sorts of people in his life and he's standing in front of his omnipotent worst enemy and asked for CAS SPECIFICALLY ๐ญ
Also the scene where he drives away in the Impala mirrors exactly what he did in heaven. Of course it could just be a homage, but WHAT IF -- it could be before Sam dies and arrives on the bridge, or after, if something happened in heaven
OMG THE PARALLELS ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ and in the episode directed by THE Richard Speight Jr.!!
Also what saves them from the enemy thumping at the door is not black goo but bright light here (and they got to actually kiss)
#TheWinchesters
WHO'S DEAN NARRATING TO?
In the final part of the trailer Dean says "OUR parents' past has always been a mystery (and there are questions left unanswered)"
OUR parents. Is he talking TO SAM??
@followsthebees
dean: *momentarily loses the ability to speak, attempts but only incoherent muttering noises come out, blushes and completely ignores it by changing the subject/going on with the conversation as if nothing happened as soon as he can speak again after a "yeah, okay..."*
after more than a month's work, i FINALLY posted my destiel fanvid ๐ฅณ๐๐ฅฐ this song was just too perfect for them and i had a whole vision for it. I hope you like it ๐
Dean & Cas || SAY YES TO HEAVEN (by lana del rey)
Also the car and the road go in opposite directions in those two shots. The car is also on the other side of the driveway. It's like they're opposing. If the road in heaven is going forward to the right, here it goes towards the left. Is it undoing it? Turning back?