can you imagine being so ignorant to state autistic people are only “impaired” by society? i have meltdowns/shutdowns completely alone at home.. when the shower sends me in to sensory overload, when i can’t eat any food/drink anything because every texture feels wrong -
so, i never sent an email to forest after their last one as i didn’t have the energy, but last night they decided to send me an email and now they’re using my story that i shared about my bullying experience against me. i have no words honestly. this person couldn’t be more vile.
i need actual treatment for my mental health, not to be discharged from charity to charity where they can’t actually treat me. i’ve done 11 years of just talking, i don’t want just 6 sessions with a charity, i want actual help and treatment for my conditions. -
TW - suicide attempt
a month ago i made an attempt on my life afterwards i received no contact from anyone for weeks. i’ve been given now 6-8 sessions of anxiety management with CMHT, which isn’t helpful when my attempt wasn’t related to anxiety whatsoever. -
i have lost all words. genuinely. done.
and forest if you’re going to talk about me at least use the correct pronouns, you stalk my account enough… and for the record i’m 22, don’t infantilise me.
TW - suicide attempt
i have very delayed processing after events and things get stuck on my head in a loop to the point it distresses me, so excuse me for talking about this months too late. after a suicide attempt in september i was sent to A&E where i was triaged and -
so i end up physically unwell, when even the light coming through the windows is too much… i can continue. you’re experience of autism, is not the same as everyones and to state otherwise is ableist and harmful.
i don’t like when i’m actively suicidal and told to “use my skills“ it really irritates me because if it was that simple i wouldn’t be reaching out for help because it takes me a lot to do that.
my parents asked me to move back in with them because my mental health is so awful and i’m receiving next to nothing from services and i don’t feel safe whatsoever. can’t help but feel like i’m a failure.
how many other Autistic people use cannabis to reduce sensory overload? i do occasionally (when i can afford it), as it calms me down and everything feels more quiet and less overwhelming
#AskingAutistics
i’ve deleted my story about my experiences with bullying & abuse as i thought it was a safe space, but now it’s been used as a way to gaslight and abuse me. im so tired.
these are also all autistic & adhd traits - this is extremely worrying that they’ll use this to screen for PDs, when there’s multiple other things it could be.
Introducing the SAPAS, an 8-question screening for personality disorders, in primary care is a recipe for disaster. It's a perfect excuse to offroll, exclude and delegitimise patients in an already overwhelmed system with 1.6 million waiting for mental health services.
it’s so weird working with mental health services since i was 10 and them saying “we’ll work on your anxiety” “you won’t be anxious forever” to then being diagnosed with autism and now it’s “you’ll always be anxious because you have autism”
TW - suicidal
does anyone else just ever hope they don’t wake up in the morning? i’m constantly filled with dread about waking up in the morning and having to get through another day. i’m exhausted and quite frankly done with life
clearly the autism & learning disability training isn’t working, staff seem to be still completely abusing their power. over-medicating autistic & LD people, physically and verbally abusing us. will it ever stop?
so, i never sent an email to forest after their last one as i didn’t have the energy, but last night they decided to send me an email and now they’re using my story that i shared about my bullying experience against me. i have no words honestly. this person couldn’t be more vile.
@hannaweeny
@FunFactsLulu
literally! it pisses me off. we should be moving away from thinking disorder is a bad/dirty word - like disabled for example.
and why is disorder okay for these people in some circumstances (like bipolar disorder, etc), but not when it’s referring to ASD/ADHD?
this is my form of stimming and i just needed to be able to do this to regulate myself). after i refused they called over security who grabbed me and forced me to sit down and kept shouting at me, once i sat down he told me to “sit properly” as i was on the edge of the chair -
and apparently that wasn’t good enough for him.
I also had an incident where i had a meltdown and i hid in the bathroom, they started screaming at me to “grow up” saying “this is getting ridiculous now”. i can’t bring myself to go back there ever again. -
placed in the A&E “fit to sit area”, i was pacing around because that’s what i do to regulate and calm myself (it’s mentioned in my autism care plan, hospital care plan, etc). the MH nurse kept telling me to sit down and asked if i wanted medication (i did not need PRN -
the MH team discharging me whilst at the same time saying they know i’ll end up back in crisis to me is completely irresponsible and bordering on neglect. not sure how it would stand in inquest is all i’m saying
to follow on from this i received a response to my complaint and honestly it was the best apology i’ve ever received from a service. no blame put on me whatsoever and they took full accountability.
So, since August i’ve been trying to contact my social worker to arrange the assessment as was planned when i finally had a permanent place to live. She’s ignored both my emails i’ve sent to her and i emailed her again, to finally receive this response. (i will name and shame) -
there is nothing wrong with the using the words disorder or disabled, by separating yourself from these words you’re showing your internalised ableism and privilege.
i’m physically disabled and Autistic - that doesn’t make me “profoundly” Autistic - it makes me Autistic with a physical disability. i can’t understand why they can’t get this.
I’ve been told many times previously “you’re not engaging”, but when i ask what i’m not engaging with they don’t know how to respond.
i attend all appts and do everything they suggest, but because i’m not getting better it’s clearly my fault - they like to shift the blame.
"Consider this phrase instead: 'We have not been able to engage them.'
"The onus is on us to try to help a person to engage - not simply to expect that they will. We need to really consider what each individual needs & do everything we can to provide it."
as an Autistic person i cannot work, i dropped out of school and college, i struggle with basic everyday tasks, can’t live independently.. but yes, definitely a superpower 🤦♂️
@hannaweeny
Yes you do! Autism gives you the ability to see the world in a completely different way from other people! You can focus on details that others simply cannot see. People with Autism can solve huge problems, because they aren't constrained by the same box as a normal mind!
@brenspole
@YaruarEstMorte
@JackDunc1
@RepLuna
idk, my sisters have both said if he walked in the womens bathroom they would feel uncomfortable. i also don’t think trans women who don’t pass should use womens bathroom.
@Lgb_Republic
@timsykes3
@MrHarryCole
@NatashaC
I was a trans kid, came out when i was 14, still trans at 22. i absolutely knew what it was and that is was the right decision for me. without transitioning i was trapped in an eating disorder
had a call from the council and finally they’re offering me a downstairs flat in the temporary accommodation place - after the weeks of abuse, lies and threats i have had from them with no apology suddenly i’m right and they can give a me a downstairs flat because of -
i feel awful for the amount of GPs that are now relied on by MH services to do what they should be doing - it’s utterly disgusting.
my GP is always clueless and admits he’s out of his depth and all he can advise is A&E and can’t touch my meds.
@pot8um
@forestvanslyke
they always rant on about how others read in to things that aren’t there because they’re “so sincere” - yet that seems to be them who do that all the time…
i see the psychologist again tomorrow, but i’m not really looking forward to it and i haven’t done any of the “homework” she asked me to do yet as all of it is very much for the allistic mind and i can’t work it out. i’m just not sure what else i can do anymore -
my family have said i seem on the verge of another episode, which is a big red flag as i never recognise my episodes at first my family always do. now living alone without any actual support from CMHT i’m quite scared. i can’t even see a psychiatrist for 5 months to discuss meds
i feel like with my psychologist i may actually get somewhere for the first time ever while under MH services - she’s actually kind to me and wants to understand me. can you believe it? cause i can’t.
you’ve posted about me several times actually… remember when you called me a “traumatised kid”, misgendered me, etc? or are you just forgetting all this?
While this has made a lot of people upset and angry, the essential point - that a diagnosis of ADHD should be made properly, after full and competent consideration of the patient and possible differential diagnoses - is a fair one. People deserve and are helped by good diagnoses.
interesting how forest is trying to claim they used they/them pronouns for me to hide my identity rather than just the blatant fact they used the incorrect pronouns. everyone knew who your tweets were about.
i don’t like they/them pronouns the same way i do not like she/her pronouns, my pronouns are in my bio for a reason. just because they’re “gender neutral” doesn’t make it okay
my sister has a GP appt tomorrow to be referred to the same CMHT as me and i feel awful for her because i know her luck probably won’t be much better and she’s also autistic.. so she’ll probably also be slapped with an EUPD label inevitably.
i don’t think i’m going to go to anymore appts with my psychologist, i’m finding it draining and there’s a massive lack of understanding. i’m asked why i don’t look for a part-time job and when i go in to explaining why i can’t manage it i’m lectured on the fact others -
supposedly being an “advocate” for us, but actually manipulating and abusing us shows you’re a dangerous person to have a platform. maybe when your family called you manipulative, you should have listened rather than stating “it’s because i’m autistic”
it seems CMHT just want nothing to do with me anymore, but at the same time they won’t refer me on to a different team and just keep discharging me instead. i’ve been told by the psychologist it will take years to improve my OCD and other MH issues, but at the same time -
TW - suicide
it seems the MH team only take suicidal ideation seriously if impulsive and not chronic. when you’re like me and an in detail planner and have chronic thoughts, it means you’re not taken seriously and not helped. -
i’m trying to move past feeling ashamed that i’m addicted to drugs - the stigma attached to is incredibly harmful. no one wants to listen to us and our story - it’s just the fact we are is enough for people to judge.
@adamfare1996
I have a Motability car and as you say it takes all of my monthly mobility allowance, meaning i can’t afford anything else for my mobility needs. may have to hand it back soon because i just can’t afford it anymore. i hate the article stating we’re being given these cars -
when i was in college i overheard staff making fun of us, calling students attention-seeking, laughing at us during meltdowns or when we we got things wrong, telling my friend to “grow up” when he was going through a shutdown (couldn’t speak) - none of this surprises me -
I often talk about "attitude"
It's the attitude of staff that drives the punitive culture in our schools.
THIS is what I mean.
#CalumsLaw
BBC News - WhatsApp messages show teachers mocking vulnerable pupils
@underxood
@JediNabber
this is such a ridiculous take and so aggressive for what?
i’ve owned hunting dogs, they’ve never bitten me - not once. clearly Fraser doesn’t need shit from you when he’s going through enough and taking advice from a professional.
@samimast
they’re beyond manipulative at this point by saying Hannah has caused people to attempt suicide. they need to get off every single app, they need to stop being a “coach”, take their shit book offline. i will come for their livelihood if i have to
i’m diagnosed Autistic and i couldn’t care less if someone else self-diagnosed as Autistic - how does it have any impact on my life?? if anything, i’m privileged to have the dx.
also, i’ve self-diagnosed with physical health issues and after testing have always been right 🤷♂️
my dad is autistic and dyslexic and was in school in the 70s, he was segregated from the other students and placed in what they called “the naughty childrens class”. my uncle has ADHD, he was placed in special ed also in the 70s/80s. neither my dad or uncle was diagnosed -
I was in elementary school in the 70’s.
My experience:
Did not know ONE autistic child.
No one had a gluten allergy.
No one had peanut allergies.
No one had milk allergies.
No one was bouncing off the walls from ADD or ADHD.
No one had autoimmune diseases at that
ironic that the
#actuallyautistic
community (self-dx/NDM bunch) do not like actual people with autism and often attack us, resort to name-calling, etc 🤷♂️
in 6 sessions i won’t even be able to open up and what would be the point in doing so anyway just to be discharged. what are they going to suggest? that i try journaling, going on a walk, drinking a hot drink… like seriously i’m done with it
interesting how they state they’re a “low context blunt autistic” yet never communicate that way whatsoever, is this just another way to manipulate us?
my gender dysphoria is/was so bad that i had to transition to survive - it led to an ED, suicidal ideation/attempts, emotional distress, etc. so the thought of not transitioning because women (rightfully so) say they hate me, is ridiculous.
well.. maybe the reason i didn’t answer… is because i struggle with phone calls. i also need a lot more notice than 45 mins. you could of just emailed me in the first place.