Tbh, my body fluctuates and I know its normal. But I dislike that I rely on lighting to see that “oh that part can look that way”. Maybe I’m too hard on myself. lately I’ve been feeling incompetent in achieving any of my goals. Not just for my “fitness”
It will be my first time tonight dancing (exotic/gogo) in front of the local gay crowd at Candy. I hope they will appreciate me because the gays are harder to impress compared to the straights. Say hi if you come by there ya 💜
Will I maintain this state after this whole month of “soft phase 2 restrictions” ? I am not looking forward to it. But I’ll try my best. It will be a learning experience still nevertheless
Had to chill in the washroom because I ran to work. I was late again. I hate perspiring when I’m not suppose to. Had to rinse and wipe. What a morning 😭
I decided to sleep in today. I have not been nice to my body, by not giving it the proper rest and eating right. Not the best form, but I will keep werking. I want to become the mega digimon form of myself. Hopefully
Back from Thailand. I had the most fun trip ever. Can’t believe I manage to even enjoy myself that much. Anyway, This lighting was so nice, even my weak side looks good. Wanna keep werkin~ and see yall at candy this sat.