Dating in 2019 feels like trying to โproveโ to a woman/man that youโre worth a phone call, text, reply, date.. etc &โd I donโt have the energy for it
The ugliest thing about me IS my anger and itโs crazy because Iโm so laid back I donโt even need to be doing all that. I just hate bullshit. I react first, think later.
I wanna stop being so angry, I wanna stop cursing altogether tbh, I wanna stop being violent with words when my feelings are hurt, I wanna stop being easily provoked, I wanna stop being easily angeredโฆ I just want to be better!!!!! & I have never wanted that for myself more
I just canโt afford anything toxic in my life anymore. That goes for family, friends, relationships etc. if you donโt have good intentions just leave me tf alone. The back & forth, the weird vibes .. half fwm, confusion I just donโt want it.. at all. ๐๐พ
Iโm not the type of person to give up on someone. Yes, sometimes I get really mad and upset so I need a minute to cool off but Iโll never abandon you. I donโt leave people. And I think thatโs why it hurts so bad when people leave me.
At times, I get disappointed with myself because I know Iโm wayyy better than some of the choices I made, the things I chose to deal with and the people I had around.
Please donโt let another year pass you by & youโre still making the same mistakes, still postponing your goals, still hanging w/ people who donโt appreciate you, still settling for โjust enoughโ, still waiting until youโre โreadyโ to make that big move.
Yaโll ever started crying cause you want to succeed so bad and it seems like every time you take 10 steps forward you get pushed 1,000 steps back ๐
I get depressed out of nowhere and that shit is mad annoying. I instantly feel unloved, unappreciated & alone all at once!! I be feeling drained and annoyed at times... and it sucks bc I canโt even explain whyโ it just be a million thoughts and emotions going on at once.