itโs been 5 months since my beautiful best friend died from Anorexia.
iโve thought a lot about this, and iโve decided she would want people to know her story.
โผ๏ธPLEASE SHARE IF YOU ARE PRO-RECOVERY โ ๏ธ
I will never stop loving you Nicole.
Youโre eating disorders only job is to kill you. Weโre all hypocritical when we say this, but itโs either recovery or death. eating disorders are serious for people of any weight, gender, race, or age.
Nicole was more than anorexia. she was funny and kind and a genuinely optimistic person. she wanted to be a pharmacist, her favorite color was green, her favorite animal was a capybara, she loved grandma sweaters, and she said โoopsie daisyโ a lot.
dying from an eating disorder doesnโt just mean you die, it means your siblings lose their sister or brother, your parents lose their kids, your friends lose their friend, your grandparents lose their grandchildren. engaging in this disorder is effecting everyoneโs life.
Nicole died because of misinformation and fatphobia. coming from someone whoโs been 20+ times, eating disorder treatment saves lives. Nicole said she wasnโt scared of death, but I was scared of her dying. Her parents were scared of her dying.
the last of her life were at home starving herself.
In may, her heart stopped in her sleep. she was still clinically obese so they did autopsy because they wouldnโt say it was just from her eating disorder. her autopsy showed a shrunken heart, osteoporosis, and liver failure.
PREFACE:
Iโm gonna be using words like fat and obese in a neutral connotation. Nicole believed in Using these words as adjectives.
This is pretty detailed and thereโs some sensitive information, but Iโm going to try to protect her privacy as much as possible.
despite popular opinion, not all fat people are fat because they gorge themselves every day. she was obese due to a underactive thyroyd gland. and PCOS(exactly like me)
I met Nicole the second time I went to ED treatment. we clicked right away and became really close in the month and a half we lived together.
She had โattypicalโ anorexia, and struggled with ana+ortho since she was five but didnt get help til she was 12.
she did try really hard to get better, But in December 2023, she relapsed, really bad. Because she wasnโt losing weight and her BMI was still high ,the doctors thought she was lying about her eating disorder so they wouldnโt place her in treatment again.
one of the reasons we clicked was because we were both fat, we could relate to how hard it was not being taken seriously and feeling different in treatment because of our size. but she was also more than that she was funny, kind, optimistic, and so pro recovery.
Sorry this was a long ass thread, itโs just pretty emotional.
Please share this if your pro-recovery, even if it just helps one person recover thatโs worth it.
@jupiterstarve
it kinda infuriates me ngl, especially when most of them have never ACTUALLY been fat.
to me itโs just like when rich people call themselves poor
please tell me if iโm an ignorant dumbass:
so Iโm a lesbian, and sometimes Iโll see ppl more fem presenting and be like โoh my God sheโs so hotโ but then I find out their trans FTM and automatically mega turned off, like i canโt see it anymore๐ญ
is this wrong of me?
@wildwomendatdri
yes, I have an ED, and yes, I do care about the BMI bc of that BUT
the BMI was created by a mathematician and wasnโt meant to actually measure health jsyk
๐shedtwt i n t r o๐
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โขSTATS
56"/167
HW:262lbs/119kgs
HBMI:43.3
โขDNI: buttholes๐
โขIโve been in a mental hospital 52 times in the last 4 years/srs
Please b my friend ๐
Things I likeโฌ๏ธ
@paran0idbtch
ana b/pt sometimes comes without purging, but fasting, excessive exercise, or more stricter restricting is also purging
when all the symptoms overlap, thatโs called OSFED(Other Specified Feeding oe Eating Disorder) or Unspecified Feeding or Eating Disorder
BE MY FRIEND IM BEGGING๐ซ
PLEASE๐
๐updated into cus i was inactive๐ช
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||bulimic||
||she/her||
STATS
5 6โ/167
HW:262lbs/119kgs
LW:164lbs/74.5kgs
CW:178.1/80.9
GW1:160/72
UGW:?
i interact with pretty much anyone as long as your not a dickhead or under 13:)
i have lost my life. what the fuck is even left for me?
i have spent 869+ days in the last 4 years in the mental hospital.
rather starving myself, cutting myself or trying to kill myself. i am miserable
HELP I WAS JUST PURGING AT SCHOOL AND A GIRL CAME IN AND SHES LIKE
โumโฆ are u ok?โ AND IM LIKE
โohโฆ yah Iโmโฆ not feeling goodโ
AHHHHH IM GONNA KMS HELPBRO
i had a good friend who fucking died from Ana at bmi 31(her weight wasnโt her fault because she had hypothyroidism) she wasnโt admitted to the hospital because of her weight. she staved herself to death. edโs are not weight disorders.
i love you Nicole iโm sorry your not here.
hypothetically, if i were a minor and i HYPOTHETICALLY wanted some alcohol and i HYPOTHETICALLY donโt have any friends and my parents are HYPOTHETICALLY sober and kinda strict HYPOTHETICALLYโฆ where would i get some alcohol? ๐