A journal of my life for the particles!
(This account is fan made and purely for entertainment purposes. It is not in association with Ranboo or any other CC)
Hi :D
So I’m starting another one of these little “memory book” things.
Well, it’s more of a journal if im going to be honest.
Things have actually been really good with Michael and I! My memory is a lot better but I think it’d be nice to still write down what’s been happening.
Happy birthday, Tommy. I’ve still got flowers for you if you’d wanna accept them this time around. I know, I know.
Hope you’re doing well wherever you are.
Generation Loss! Oh wow! What a great piece of media! It really had me thinking! Mhm! Yep! Very insightful! I really liked it! Great craftsmanship truly! I mean it!
No lasting thoughts though!! Nope! Just appreciating the art! You guys have great taste!
Ranboo seal of approval!
Hi Ranboo,
I hope you don’t mind me borrowing your book. I won’t read it I promise! I just want to leave you a note inside.
For one, you purr like a cat when you sleep and it’s quite silly.
It’s been really nice to see you again. I don’t remember you being so tall before.
You dropped your book, my love.
Don’t worry, particles, they’re just getting lots of hugs and kisses right now. Thank you for looking after our baby.
Give him just a few minutes.
- Void (and End) 🖤🤍 ✨
I am so proud of my son. Did you know that? I love him so much. They made the word son sound like sun because of Michael actually. Have you ever seen someone so bright? I don’t just mean smart, my kid is a super star. I love him so much. Michael!!!
Michael was up even earlier than me this morning. I heard him laughing and somehow he’d gotten balloons and party stuff. He started making a cake too. I told him we can bake but he’s a little too young to do it alone.
He told me he wasn’t alone. That’s why he decorated.
Man you guys have really grown up a lot haven’t you? And I don’t just mean you guys getting bigger and having legs now— I don’t know how particle??? mutation??? works. We’ve been through a lot though, huh? But we made it! I’m really proud of you. You guys are doing great stuff.
So you may be wondering: hey, Ranboo, why did you not update us after finding wings?
Well, chat, my little particles, after a small just a teensy little mishap I no longer have wings. Why is not exactly important but I am down one of twenty totems but that isn’t important mkay
Okay so I was wondering why I woke up to a bunch of cookies in one of Michael’s bowls just fully on my chest this morning
I’m losing my mind actually (he is so sweet. my son. my boy. I love him dearly.)
to do list for later:
• clean up the house a bit
• check if Michael has any homework
• make sure the greenhouse has waterr
• hug tubbo when he comes home (what time does he get done again? look at shcedule)
• see if the record player stilll works
• go to bed earl-~__
Huh so I guess a “rumor” got out since Michael’s party that I can duplicate cakes somehow.
I caught Michael with a bunch of other Piglin kids with a smug look on his face and pretending he doesn’t know me. They kept looking at the house and I think they were plotting something.
Happy Valentines Day :D! More importantly, it’s Michael’s birthday!!! His party is a little later on still but I woke him up this morning with a big hug and a kiss on the forehead. He protested but I saw him smiling haha. I love my boy so much.
New day, new morning. Things are gonna be good. They’re all gonna be good.
Now come my little particles I am gathering resources and various treasures today hoorah!
I saw Z for the first time in a long time today!
They weren’t happy that I watched Generation Loss but I’m completely fine! I don’t think about it at all. Not at alllll.
Right now though I’m watching Bluey with Michael!
When you wake up, please don’t be alarmed. I know you are going to forget. This is reassurance that I stopped looking long ago. You know this. Trust me like you did before please. No part of you seeks destruction. This just happens to relieve stress when your body can’t rest.
Happy Trans Day of Visibility 🏳️⚧️!! You all are awesome! (hehe)
Really though you deserve the world and I hope you’re all taking care. I’m happy you’re all here. No matter where you are in your journey you are worth celebrating and so, so valid! :D
I found out that humming apparently makes you stop thinking which is sick actually. Dude I’m going to hum an entire discography and my head is going to be EMPTY
Oh man I just took a really nice nap.
I had this crazy dream I met this person. They were tall like me I think. I don’t remember the details but there was something nostalgic about it. I don’t know, I’m proud of that guy. Just for some reason I am.
Did you know? That it wasn’t a stupid table? That it was a portal home?
It’s not home, no, no that’s not it. But did you know this whole time? Why did no one ever tell me?
Welp *clap* that’s the birthday party.
See what I did there? That’s called a CALLBACK BABY!!!
Yeah I’m gonna go lay on the floor now. We’re both wiped out but Michael’s very excited to use his new paint set. Hopefully he doesn’t fall asleep and face plant in it this time heheh.
I’ll see you tomorrow in the morning so keep this note for later, ok? If you ever need anything I’m here and I’m going to need some taste testers for my baking.
Take care and keep in touch (you better!) Remember your ‘book club’ family loves you always.
- Niki
Aimsey and I finally talked about everything. The pit in my stomach went away a little which is good I think. I’ve been so tense it’s been hard to breathe honestly. But yeah, I finally managed to confide in someone and they didn’t want to kill or exile me! Hooray!
WHICH ONE OF YOU TAUGHT MY SON THE PHRASE “YOU HAVE NO RIZZ” HE IS SEVEN YEARS OLD I—
Jesus christ it’s over for me actually. It’s just straight up just the end I think. It’s just the end.
Never mind I have reunited with my baby boy, my son, my world, I have all the love in the world I could ever need and that is the parental love in my heart for my child
We’ve all been worried about you so seeing you today helped to ease some of the tensions. It’s really nice to see you happy. I can see it in your eyes, you’re different now in a good way. It’s helped me to see that maybe I’ve gotten a lot better too. We’ve both grown a lot.
Things are going to be okay. I genuinely do believe that. They’re not always going to be easy, but they’ll work out okay in the end.
Leaving a little bookmark on this page for myself because it’s good to have a reminder every once in a while I think. Love you, particles <3
You’ve grown so much since I first met you. It makes me happy to know that after all this time you’ve finally found your home. I just wish we were a little closer by so Phil and I could come visit. I would love to meet Michael someday. He sounds like such a lovely kid.
Oh dude talking to the endermen earlier was sooo bad. They were great but I am so painfully awkward it’s the most awful thing. My social skills are the worst I think actually. Like me walking up to them and them noticing when I was still like 30 ft away aghhh.
Michael’s so excited for his birthday tomorrow :D I wrapped everything before he came home from school so that’s out of the way.
We’re going to try to bake a cake now so wish us luck!
How is Michael already going to be in SECOND GRADE? That’s just absolutely wild. Because like after second grade is third grade, and then in a few years it’ll be middle school, and then high school!
But second grade?! That’s just crazy. That’s just absolutely wild honestly.
Michael came home from school today with a 300 page book on how to raise chickens. I guess me gardening inspired him because he wants to build a chicken coop with me. I think that would be awesome actually :D
Okay, new set of armor is made. God it takes a lot more work than I remember. Anvils are loud too eugh I hate loud noises.
Just gonna need to stock up on some extra food, fix up my tools, and get a compass. Maybe a few totems too.
On my way back at last! My moms are helping me to the portal. It’s a lot faster since they can teleport a good distance. Should be picking up Michael by tonight!
Until today I didn’t know why we had to leave, why I had to choose between Michael and well, here. I’m very happy to have left I am never ever returning to that place ever again but my friends— I mean I had my guesses. I assumed what happened but I didn’t think I’d be right. I…